In Search of Lost Innocence

Exams just ended, and all I have been busy with is preparing to fly off to US. Not really prepared though, there are 1001 stuffs that I haven't do. Today's mummy's birthday. Dad decided to surprise her, hence all the good food. Nothing needs to be further explained when you are having a good family dinner. Happy Birthday Mummy =)

It's a long while since I have been here, as I have shifted to wordpress . But I guess I shall keep the wordpress one more personal. I am lazy to update about my more personal stuffs, you see. So in order to update my life to my other friends who are still alive out there, this is where I shall be updating. Especially for the 5 months which I will be overseas. I know blog stalking isn't that much of a hobby anymore, but I guess there are still people who still wishes to know if I am dead or something. Haha . I guess it's tough for people to invade my personal World, since I hardly ever talk about it. If I am a Carmen, there still isn't a Natania out there for me. Haha . So yeah. Who cares if anyone reads, I will just look back at this blog and reminisce all the good stuffs that happened. Yeah. Good stuffs.

I have shifted to Wordpress. Feel free to ask me if you still want to know where it is. =) Bye peeps.

My internet browser has been screwing with me, and I can't really open any sites without distorted images and layout. It kind of pisses me off when I seriously need to use the laptop for work. Well, this is the second week of school. Nothing to update really, just that I am quite busy with the application of Instep, which is ridiculously troublesome. The amount of work required for an exchange is simply enough to put people off the thought of applying. I will persevere and hope that fate will give me a chance by luck or something. Hope things go well this semester. Traveling to school hasn't been easy, with a timetable that doesn't look pretty kind of add on to the hassle of studying. Nonetheless, I am enjoying life at home with my comfy bed, and hopefully I will get used to the traveling. Deep down inside me, I have a fear. But I will just let faith take over, and let nature takes it's course.

Well well well, school's starting next week and it's kind of hard to get the engine starting. I haven't been updating since the last camp, Fratellenza. Haha. I don't have photos to post up too, because being a programmer just doesn't stand out in the limelight. And with all the programmers in action during all the games, who on earth is going to take our pictures? Haha. But I am glad that camp went on smoothly, even though I almost died in Sentosa. Haha. TSPC (Teaching Scholars Presentation Ceremony) was today. I was at Suntec Convention Ballroom with a few others, like De Shun and Shane. Haha. It was a surprise to see Shane that, but actually, Angeline was the bigger surprise. Haha. Oh wells, so now I am officially under MOE. =) Anyway I saw Ms Chiew at the ceremony and we chatted a bit. Haha. She was really one fantastic teacher that ever existed in my life. Haha. I kind of miss her pink mahjong tiles though. Haha. In any case, I was at Wild Wild Wet yesterday wit...

It's a rare time like this for me to be 'emo-ing' in the night. It seems that I hardly find time for myself nowadays. But I shall talk about something else first. I said I will talk more about both camps when I am back right? Yeah, I will. Sociolo Royale was a camp organised by the Sociology Society. Nat invited us to the camp, and with both of us feeling extremely bored, the camp kind of chased away some of the boredom. In fact, the camp turned out to be super fun. The OG was fantastic even though it comprises of a mere 7 people or so, but let's see... We got Esther the crazy one, Glenn the clubber, Audrey the pageant girl, Eunice the Kung Fu girl, plus Wei Zheng, Carmen & Me. The company was enough to make the whole camp worth it, plus I get to see Shane, Raymond, Natania & Eric. So although we are one small group, but we definitely are a crazy one. Admist all the good things, there are bound to be guys who spoil all the fun. Maybe it's really a good thing...

It's something like a pit stop for now. I have just concluded one camp, Sociolo Royale organised by NUS and tomorrow I will be heading for Fratellenza, organised by NTU HSS. Some of you might think that I am asking for it by going for camps back to back, but I never regretted going to this NUS camp, even though the camp doesn't really serve any purpose for me. I met great friends, especially Esther. Even though I am feeling jaded, I am still smiling at the little dumb things that we did together during camp. Haha. Good and bad stuffs happened at this camp, and it made me realise several things, as well as found out some other things, which I hopefully will not harbor on. I shall talk more about both camps when I am back from the second.

Holidays are getting boring, and I was contemplating deleting/shifting/closing/locking this blog. Haha. I am not done contemplating though, even though I have random people telling me that I should update at times. I caught up with S6B on Saturday night, even though the initial plan was to change it to the 4th of July for a dinner. Anyway, we met at Kim Gary Restaurant, had our cheesy dinner before heading down to Bens & Jerrys for our regular catch up chat. It was nice of Sharon and Hui Juan to organise this. And as what Nevin said, we are the longest standing first-3-months class, and I am absolutely proud of that. Haha. Then again, I will say we are too ' siao on ', not that I dislikes that. We are meeting up again soon for some outdoor activity. Haha. Incidentally, Leslie asked me the day after whether to join them for dinner at Kim Gary's and ice cream after that. Haha. I watched Transformer 2 the night after meeting S6B. It wasn't as good as I expected, but I ...

Hey people, I am finally back from ICT. How are you guys doing? It's my first reservist training and I felt emotionally overwhelmed by it. Haha. Well, not that it matters anymore. Anyway, the training wasn't as tough as I expected, and the friends I managed to caught up with was much worth the time and effort spent. Unfortunately, as the saying goes, all good things come to an end. Starting from the next ICT, I will no longer possess the pride and honour of calling myself a Tank Commander. I will be obliviously living in denial if I tell you I am not sad and disappointed. The 19 weeks that I spent as a trainee, the pride I take in being a Tank Commander, the honor of being a Tank Instructor, these are the glory I will not have a chance to bask in anymore. Losing a proud part of my proficiency is not something I appreciate. SM1 may not be a good tank, but it was one that I took satisfaction in learning, and differentiated me from anyone else. I wished that I had a chance to adva...

I will be gone for one week due to In Camp Training. Don't miss me too much people. I shall update about S3A gathering after I am back.

Due to Adelene's request to update my blog, I shall. Then again, I have nothing much to blog about. Sunday was my Uncle's wedding. I don't have pictures to post up here, as I was the camera guy. As you can tell from my ever-lasting procrastination skills, the photos are still sitting in my memory card. Next week will be more hectic for me. ICT is coming in 2 weeks time, and I have no idea what to prepare or expect. Anyone want to offer any help here? I will be taking IPPT next Tuesday too, even though I haven't really trained for it, but I guess I will be fine. I hope, I pray, oh wells. Thursday is S3A Sentosa Outing. I am dying to get into the sun and hang out with them, as I have missed millions of outings already. But, I have FTT in the morning at 1030. To make things worse, I seemed to have lost the receipt for FTT. Haha. If I turn up at SSDC not being able to take the test, it would be a double blow for me. Oh wells. I will see if I can work things out. Soccer has ...

The holidays have been a bore so far. To date, I haven't meet up with any groups other than my Secondary School friends for soccer. They seemed to be pretty occupied too, with school stuffs and work. As the days near towards the FOC, the more 'sianz' I feel about it. I don't want to complain but. Results were released last Friday. It wasn't what I expected, but I can't say that it's very bad. Wei Yen asked me, since our results are more or less determined in the first 2 semesters, what do we still have to take exams for the rest of the few years. I agree with the question, but I have no answer to it. I went to watch Night at the Museum 2 with Carmen on Monday. It's still rather hilarious but it was more plotless than the previous sequel, according to some. I love the boogling Einsteins though. They are so cute. Anyway, here's a MrBrown video for you to enjoy. The topic's on swine flu. Haha.

Sometimes I wonder, when is everything going to be fine. The tears keep rolling and the fears keep growing. I wonder, yet again.

Things are starting to get busier. I am off to HSS Seniors' Camp on Friday at NTU. Although it was supposedly much anticipated, now I just feel like skipping it. Due to the relocation of the actual camp itself, we have to scrape the field games. So what am I left with? New proposal with 1 week to go. I know it's not entirely their fault, due to the uprising H1N1 flu in the South-East Asia region, and the government confiscating all the chalets at Changi. But still, I feel that all the work is not really worth it. On top of the staggering amount I have to contribute financially, I have to cropped up additional funds to purchase the materials itself. Moreover, other than the experience and fun gained, there isn't anything much this event can add to my portfolio, if I was to be standing from a pragmatic point of view. Oh wells, my partner is away at Hong Kong, and I will be left alone for the coming camp. Nice. Epidemic, disasters and World wide virus. What's next? Really,...

I woke up early in the morning and headed down to Tampines, before taking a bus to Changi Village. It's been a while since I last visited Tampines, with the last time being there to play soccer. Tampines 1 looks rather grand, and they have 2 storey-ed Esprit and Topshop. Haha. I browse through most of the shops as it was still too early for them to have started business. Ubin was fun, but tiring. I can't imagine the freshman hiking more than 10km in the mosquito infested trails on that island. Then again, I am not the one hiking. Haha. Somehow, it reminds me of the environment back in Tekong. Haha. I almost got bitten by a green snake, thank god my yell frightened it more than it frightened me. Haha. Planning games at Ubin is quite a tough chore, and I think we are the only 2 programmers who actually visited their games site. Hope they don't change the plan back to field games. This FOC is creating a big hole in my wallet. I have to pay $85 dollars for both senior and actua...

Today was a much better day. I will be literally overseas tomorrow. Actually I am heading down to Pulau Ubin with Yue Kai to recce for our Ubin games. Lots of issues haven't been settled, but then again, they are not within my area of concern. I just hope the weather will be kind to us on the actual day itself. I am expecting a tiring day tomorrow, but at least I have a chance to eat the famous Nasi Lemak at Changi Village. Ironically, some of the S3A people are going down to Ubin tomorrow too. Hope I bump into them. Let's pray that I don't have to fight any wild boars tomorrow. Ming Min's 21st Birthday is this friday while Eldar's cycling rendevouz on Sunday. I guess I have to start asking around for the S6B gathering, if not, I highly doubt I will see anyone of them this semester break. I do hope I get to meet up with some of them though. I am just procastinating my time away. In a weird way, I am kind of looking forward to my ICT.

I really wonder what is it for. I really can't figure it out anymore. I just got pointed middle finger, scolded FUCK and TMD today. Really, what's the catch? Yeah I am sorry, for whatever that has happened today that has made you so upset. I am sorry for bringing you oily breakfast causing you to have a stomach upset, I am sorry that I didn't sit at the mahjong table and instead went to accompany you cause I was worried, I am sorry that I even agreed to turn up today because I felt obliged to, I am sorry for asking you to leave in fear of you getting overly bored, I am sorry for not noticing that extra ten bucks that you snuck into my wallet, I am so sorry that I am willing to spend every single cent in my wallet for you without keeping track. So what's the catch? Sometimes I really wonder. What's the difference between now and then? I won't whine on the past, and I want to hold onto the present. You need to stop whining and voice out your co...

It's the 2nd week into the holidays. Today's Mother's Day! Pace of fun and joy is beginning to pick up as the NUS people are released from their exams. Didn't really do much yet in this holidays except playing soccer and spending time with her. There's supposedly a 21st birthday that I should be attending but I really got no mood for it. Maybe maybe, I will. I have applied and received the licence for relief teaching. But I have yet to start sending emails to enquire for vacancies in schools. Some asked me to relief teach Junior Colleges, while some suggested Secondary Schools. However, right now, I am just too freaking lazy to move my muscles thanks to a whole body ache. Haha. The dates of both ICT and IPPT are nearing, and I seemed so unprepared and unwilling to dress myself in green again, despite almost signing an extended contract a day before I ORD. Nonetheless, I am just satisfied being a civilian. Haha. And I am broke. Really. And I should start to relief te...

It's roughly one week into the holidays and I am pretty sure all the NTU people are enjoying their long vacation and slogging hard on their holiday timetable. Despite that, the distant smell from the burning of midnight oil due to some of my NUS friends is still distinct. Good luck people. The Taiwan trip was cancelled due to complications and I am rooted here for this holidays. Boredom fills my house nowadays. Apart from the mass shifting out from hostel last week, I barely had other chances to exercise my muscles. Soccer has halted for at least a month or so due to examinations and despite that desperate itch to kick some balls, we can't find enough players to even play Monopoly. I thought I might take a break this time round, but it seems like, some things don't change. I guess I have to start organising events soon. Haha. I am really looking forward to the Eldar one though, although responses aren't looking very optimistic. Haha. Oh wells. Good night people, I shall...

Exams finally ended, after a long wait. I shan't complain much as my NUS counterparts are still slogging for theirs. The papers were generally fine, but I can't say that for the last paper. I am just crossing my fingers hoping for the best. Fatigue has caught up with me and I am really exhausted for the week. I just want to procastinate till next Monday before I do anything serious again. That being said, I still have a checkup to go on Sunday. Life's been hectic, and I have been pushed to make decisions within a short period of time. On top of that, issues within the family aren't showing any signs of improvements. On a side note, I bought new underwear! Haha. I think it looks damn nice. It's time to throw away my fake Lacoste (Crocodile). Haha. Ok, I shall update when I have better things to say.

The weekend passes quickly and it will be Sunday tomorrow. Exams are arriving in less than a week and I should really start panicking. Haha. Nonetheless, I am going to spend the day with Carmen at her house tomorrow. Some things just can't be compromised. Anyway, apart from the disappointing soccer session I had in the morning, I had a rather fruitful studying session at the airport today. Haha. I managed to clear what I intended to study this weekend. Also, I got to eat Popeye's for 2 meals, and to return home and realised that there is another serving of chicken wings waiting for me. Haha. The airport is really quite a condusive place to study, despite all the noise from visitors and kids wailing, but it's relatively far for people to head there. So, on our way back on a crowded bus, I managed to 'psycho-ed' our seats for 2 old ladies carrying quite a bit of stuffs. Haha. So much for a psychologist eh? Applying whatever we learn is more important than regurgitate ...

It's been a while since I scribbled something here. Exams are nearing and I am sure everyone will be pushing their limits to ensure their success. Before I disappear for another few weeks, I shall wish everyone all the best for their exams, whether if you are in NTU or not. Good luck. =) I will try not to let myself down this semester too, having mediocre results last semester wasn't the least pleasing. Things haven't been going too well this few weeks, but nonetheless, life moves on and I shall see what I can do. I am displeased. Haix. Anyway here's a video for laughs. Rihanna's Umbrella in Hokkien. Enjoy.

The weekend is here, although there seems to be never ending work to be done and revised. Still, I can't help but promote 2 events here. First of all, there's this event called 'Dining in the Dark' at NUS. Not that I am a big fan of NUS since I am in NTU, but this event is organised by Singapore Association of the Visually Handicapped. I shall give you people a brief description of what it is about. It literally means dining in the dark. There is a place where visually handicapped waiters/waitresses serve you food while you eat in complete darkness in a room. They will also give you tips on how to survive in the dark. I guess this will really be a meaningful experience for many. We may learn to cherish our eyes more and stop tiring them out in front of the computer daily. It's really not easy for the blind to serve the workforce but yet I have seen strong-willed and determined individuals working back when I was part-timing at Tanjong Pagar. Up next, is the Earth Ho...

It's nearing the end of the 2nd semester in my first year, and certain things have changed. For one thing, I am certainly not the one you have seen back in JC. I really don't have much idea what happened or rather I just choose to ignore it, but the point is, I don't see the same person 3 years ago when I looked into the mirror. Being in Psychology is one thing, but I have walked through a different path this time, one that is no longer confined to social norms. That being said, studying social psychology is rather applicable, in a sense that it allows you to break through social constraints without succumbing to pressure from others' view. Maybe the others don't even care. Haha. Anyway, it's alarming that there is an increasing number of inconsiderate people out there. Talk about sparing a thought for others and putting yourselves in other's shoes, I seldom see people applying it. So much so for showing understanding that, there are some parts of other peop...

Today was a amazingly tiring day. The few of us signed up for Food Hunt 2009 organised by NUS Arts Club and went around eating around Singapore. Haha. I didn't know they will be so enthusiastic and competitive about this game. Apparently we have to go around Singapore looking for food specified by the organisers, and along the way we supposed to play some games and do some tasks. Speaking of which, we were stuck at Sudoku for at least 8 hours. Haha. Who says guys are good with numbers? Anyway, we started off at Clementi for some Thaksin Beef Noodles, and I thought there was supposed to have some political meaning behind it. It turned out, it's just like any other beef noodles, like noodles with beef. Having an 'enthusiastic' facilitator like Alvyn, it was inevitable that we ending up feeling quite 'sianz' in the beginning. Then again, who knows, all of us came to life in the second half of the day. And so off we go to the many food stalls in Singapore, I was sur...

I just realised that it's only three weeks left to my first paper. Haha. Actually, I should have realised that long ago. Haha. Anyway, I got back all my mid-term quizzes' results. It's satisfactory I guess, but I need to work harder if I were to attain more As this semester, or rather attain any As at all. That being said, things aren't going too well at home. Some useless crap is acting useless. If you want to start your own business and try out something called 'entrepreneurship' then go ahead and start on your own. Don't drag your family members and ask them to work for you like they owe you. Sure, you pay them and treat them as normal workers, so? They are still your family, and they aren't obliged to work for your bloody pride. I hope you fail terribly. On a side note, I am super glad that my dad escaped unharmed from a fall during work. Thank God. And, Singaporeans should start being more considerate. I have met increasingly number of people who ar...

It's been a hectic weekend so far. I got a project to hand up on today but I had to skip the class because of an interview. There are still 4 projects to go! NTU Open House 2009 came and went on Saturday. I guess everything went smoothly. It's quite an experience, even though most of the time I am just giving directions to visiters. Despite the long hours of mundane direction-answering, 2 incidents popped up along the way. Incident 1: I saw a ' ah peh' standing at in front of the notice board which states the schedules of the talks and events. Being helpful and kind-hearted, I offered my assistance to him. Me: Hi! May I offer you any assistance? Mysterious Old-Man: No, it's okay. Me: Ok, sure. Mysterious Old-Man: Which faculty are you from by the way? Me: The Faculty of Humanities and Social Sciences. Mysterious Old-Man: So what course are you taking? So he went on to ask me about my course and life in NTU. He also asked if I liked the life and environment here. Aft...

This week will be a super hectic week. Excluding the projects and presentations, I have HSS Week and Open House. Sometimes, it really makes me wonder why I joined so many activities. I am going to quit soon, from everything. I got back one of my quiz results today. It wasn't, let's put it this way, up to standard. It's not really surprising, considering the amount of effort I put in plus the amount of information I have to squeeze into my brain. It just feels, so weird, not to be ahead of everyone anymore. To think back two years ago where I was riding the winds, looking at others chasing behind, now I am the one doing the latter. It just devoids one of his/her confidence, and.. everything. Sometimes, I wonder where and what went wrong. Or maybe it is just me. I have a presentation tomorrow and I don't really feel up for it. I am running severly low on self-esteem and.. Maybe I am just not strong at all. Corroding bit by bit on the inside. It just feel like the way back...

I changed my skin again, in order to stop looking like a twit. Haha. I went around Singapore again, not on Hippo Tour though. Visiting NJC was quite enriching, seeing all the private houses and well-established schools nearby. NJC seems like a very strict place, but then again, I have never studied there. Quizzes have ended for the week, with presentations and projects looming upon me. Hahaha. Open House and HSS Week are 2 additional big events too. I had a rehearsal today at Hui Qi's house for HW111 presentation next week. Work is piling up as the days go by. Today, I realised how old I actually am, when a lady offered a seat on the bus to me. This is extremely detrimental to my personal development and dealt a major blow to my self-esteem. I always thought I look old, but not that old. Oh wells. That being said, you should never ever hurt a guy's pride. Trust me, I know how this works. NTU had a second successive suicide case again. What on earth is happening? On a side note,...

I changed to a new skin upon seeing that the pretty pictures of Paris are gone. I quickly settled for one, and this is what I found. I know it's a little gay for a guy like me to possess a blogskin like this, but then again, I don't really care. Haha. Today was the second session of Open House training. There isn't anything spectacular to update, just that I want to inform all of the goodie bags we are giving out. I received news that it was a laptop bag with quite a few sponsored items, so for those who are interested, you can head down to grab a bag. The Open House is on 14th March, in NTU obviously. Apart from that, I will probably describe a conversation I had today with a foreigner. She said that Singaporeans are taking the peace and stability as well as the good infrastructure and environment for granted. I will assumed that if you group them collectively together, she will be referring to the Government. Well, I can't disagree with her for sure. On one part, I ge...

The recess week is here. It's a time for me and a few others to catch our breath in our study races and probably to recoup on the times wasted elsewhere. It was nice meeting up with the Brotherhood after so long. It relieves me that despite our individual differences, we are still bonded by the good old memories. Then again, having different viewpoints and opinions just provides more colour to our lives. And it's never more relieving to know that, at least when the sky falls, you know that these bunch of idiots will be there to stick it through with you. Tomorrow's basketball session with S3A is cancelled, sadly. I wouldn't deny that I have changed. Back in one of my Social Psychology lecture, we did a survey and I came out being rated as unrealistically optimistic. I think the result describes me aptly. However, as some might know, recent turn of events are not very positive and I believe skepticism is proliferating within me. Not that being skeptical is bad, cause it ...

Valentine's day fell in a terrible week filled with assignments and projects. Nonetheless, I managed to fork time out and enjoyed a day with Carmen. We went for the HIPPOBus Tour! Haha. It's a tourist activity and we just thought that it might be fun riding the bus around places of attractions. Indeed, it was a pleasant surprise that passing breeze and receptive Tour guides greeted us warmly. It's really relaxing the sit on the bus and just view scenery and sculptures that will erected here eons ago. Haha. I don't even know the Esplanade is supposed to be 2 microphones instead of durians. Acting like tourists was kind of difficult and the tour guide asked if we are locals. Haha. We made stops at Bras Basah, Mustafa and toured places like the Botanic Gardens and the Singapore Flyer. Dinner was at LerkThai though, the service wasn't good however. All in all, it ended up as a good trip with all our demands satisfied. Hope you had a wonderful day and liked the gifts. Th...

I have fallen sick again. As usual, I can’t seem to shake off the recurring effect of the throat inflammation saga. However, this time I am refusing a visit to the doctor. I will see if my self-medication will work. This week has been rather stressful and demoralizing. Lots of deadlines to meet with many things to juggle. It’s only half the week passed, and I am sick of it already. For one thing, I will tell you I hate Psychology. As much as I love this subject, like most of you know, there is some hidden clause that comes with it that irks me out. I have to restrain myself from all those common mistakes that people make in life. Like making wrong attributions and creating stereotypes, I keep reminding myself not to commit these mistakes since I am studying them. This means that I can't whine like a immature brat to try to get things done. I have come so far, convincing myself that I am a grown-ass man and is capable and supposed to be taking care of people now. Sometimes, it just ...

Life is more hectic this Semester compared to the previous. I am tied down with several projects and assignments, and they all seemed to share the same deadline. Haha. There's a presentation tomorrow and I am freaking out. Haha. Nothing noticeably happened over the week, as it was the week after the Chinese New Year break. It has been rather tough to turn on the gear to return to work. Junelle came over and asked me for a job. At this point of economic recession, I guess it is really difficult to find a job. I went for a haircut today, after they lowered the price from the Chinese New Year hike. It is always an interesting trip down to the barber. The conversations they have are in general quite similar to those present at coffee shops but what is funny is the way they mock at each other. That's one of the main reason why I patronise there. Plus, the fee they charge is quite cheap. On a side note, I managed to escape the clutches of the Chinese National this time. He was the on...

I woke up today filled with guilt towards my parents, especially my father. =( I should stay at home more often and study harder. Chinese New Year has come and go in a flash, and I would conclude that it has been a disappointing one so far. On Saturday, Eldar paid visits to Chee Seng's and Joyce's house for Chinese New Year. We got to thank them for opening up their houses for visits and preparing stuffs for us to eat. I am sure those who went had lots of laughter and fun, especially over the Guitar Hero game. That being said, I felt that the Chinese New Year's feel and customs are no longer present. Haha. Oh wells. I was rather disappointed with the turnout though, but I guess it's kind of expected. I probably might not organise something like this again. Haha. Still, we managed a group picture. Maz, Jane, Carmen and I went for dinner at Suntec after Joyce's house visit. Haha. We went for a little shopping after which. While Carmen and I were looking at chocolates,...

Happy Chinese New Year everyone! Hope you guys/girls are enjoying your long break. Haha. This year has been nothing short compared to any previous years. Just that recent years, someone has been creating a rather bad atmosphere for all of us. We didn't even eat reunion dinner together. Oh wells, on a happier note, I get to see my cute cousins. Haha. And who said mahjong wasn't for kids. It is, just that you have to play it the Uno-Stacko way. On a side note, I made a new friend. He is called Ah-wu.

Dreams. They are the targets that people live for. They are the motivation behind people's mind when they do something. They are probably the main drive behind all human motives. Everyone has dreams, but at the end of it, what's going to happen? Upon reaching the end of that tunnel, will life end? And in the process, if you were to sacrifice an important possession, will you still continue with it? Sometimes, I wonder who will be standing with me at the end of my tunnel. I want to share my success with family and friends. Sometimes, I wonder if I will even reach there. Sometimes, life seems like chapters of Bleak House, boring and repetitive. Sometimes, life has too much colours, such that it taints the purity and innocence that it is supposed to come with. Sometimes, I wonder. Understanding. This is the aspect of human character that I admired and aspired to attain the most. Apparently, I haven't got the gist of it, I presume. I believe if everyone were to have an increase...

With Chinese New Year just around the corner, S3A had her reunion dinner last Saturday. It was a rather high turnout, as noted surprisingly by Pei Wen. Haha. I think we got to thank Kelvin Lim's parents for being such nice hosts. In addition, Zhen Cong's YuSheng was well prepared too, even though it's his maiden try. I guess we are still a crappy class, not in the sense that we are lousy, but we are full of nonsense. Haha. Oh wells, at least Sok Fong's back, although now it is Xiao Hui's turn to disappear . Haha. I am work harder for this semester, if not I can hardly compare myself with them. Haha. I went for FOC recce at Pulau Ubin the day after the dinner. Haha. Resources and land are so scarce that we have no choice but to relocate the camp at Changi. I got to eat the famous Nasi Lemak that I queued for nearly half an hour. Haha. At Ubin, we saw a couple happily trekking in the wild, embracing Mother Nature. And we began discussing about the prospects of being o...

A void is something that I shouldn't really be feeling now. Really. I have nothing to grumble and whine about. Even if I do, I will just take it and leave it. But right now there's this inevitable sense of failure dawning upon me, or maybe for the past week. It's like working in the business of misery. Digging more and more into. It's time to forget December, it won't be better anyway. It has been a really cold week. Chilling to the bone, to be exact.

The moon rises and the tides turn. And now is my turn to write something here. It's been nearly 2 weeks into school. The pace of life quickens and days fly like the wind. More or less, I have settled down into a nice pattern, or a routine, if that sounds more professional. Huiqi's 21st Birthday came and went. She was looking restless as usual, but I hope at least she will have a good start to the year. It was quite fun and we even played a FOC game there. Oh wells, I ended up doing "Joyce's Dance" in Coasta Sands. There are some people and things I hold so dear to myself that I am willing to give up all other privileges just to keep them by my side, even if it's just for a while. Trust me, life's all about them. My personal goal is to live happily ever after, it still is. Reassurance helps, really. But one thing's for sure, I have a lot of faith, in faith itself.

Tomorrow will be the start of a new semester. Looking back at how the last semester started, I couldn't have wish for a better beginning. Entry to last semester was plagued with sickness. I fell sick right after HSS FOC and missed the Hall's FOC in the end. On top of that, I had to juggle between MCi and studies, which wasn't very successful. Thereafter, I gave MCi up. Then somewhere along the way, turbulence rocked by and disrupted much of the rhythm at the second half of last semester, which I hardly made it out alive. I really should be contented with my grades, even though it's far from satisfactory. So here I am, standing at the starting point of yet another race. This time, free from injuries and pre-emptive setbacks, I shall step out once again. And now, I pray only for a peaceful semester. On a side note, I am going back to clean my room today. I got many things to bring back though. I better blog more now. If not, I may not get a chance to when life gets busier...

It's the third day of the New Year already, but apparently nothing much has changed. I keep preaching to people in an annoying way, asking them to listen to their hearts and do what they want to do. Instead of being binded to moral obligations, we should stand free and choose for ourselves, at least once in this lifetime. In spite of these wise words and encouraging pats I always give others, I hardly see myself doing the same. I was born in a group think society, or rather, community to make it sound smaller. I am not that significant anyway. That's beside the point. The point is that ensuring social harmony and balance seemed more pivotal than expressing new and inquisitive ideas that might help improve situations. More importantly, we are restrained from being someone who bears the name that we were bestowed with by our parents. Everyone behaves and thinks similarly. Not because we were made the same, but because, if you attempt to ruin that staged cohesiveness, you will be ...

Happy New Year Everyone! It's the start of the new year! I hereby wish everyone a peaceful and smooth-sailing year. For those who have entered University not long ago, I wish you people good luck for your upcoming studies! For those who are going for exchange or is already there, take care of yourself over there, and enjoy the experience! 2008 has been a hectic year. I came out of army, raging to enter University. I went in, to find out that it is a whole new playground for us. The style of studying is slightly different 2 years back, and isolation from books during the times in army hasn't helped much in adapting back to student life. I started work in Compact with Aloysius in January, and made a new bunch of friends, the CASTaway gang. Even though we don't meet up often now, I believe we still remain as a gang. They were the ones who tide me through the 6 months before University. And again, thanks to Aloysius, my forever nemesis, I had much fun, joy and laughter. I enter...