In Search of Lost Innocence

Well, recess week is officially over and life's going back on track in University. Then again, most people don't regard recess as a break, but an opportunity to catch up. Still, I spent the whole of Saturday out with my Secondary School brothers. Despite us living so near each other and meeting up regularly, we rarely go out for dinner together. And it's special occasion that we tend to see rare faces. We were happily scorching ourselves in the morning sun chasing a soccer ball beside Montfort Secondary School, before realising our limits in fitness. Haha. I think all of us are getting old. Celebrating Khong Chin's and my belated birthday, we headed down to Madestos near Forum for dinner. It's an Italian restaurant with lots of cheese, obviously, and cheese, for those who know, are my favorite. However, the pasta I ordered wasn't really appealing to me, but I guess it was a rare experience for us also, to be eating in such high-class restaurant. After which, we ...

Friday is here, and yes, it means recess week is coming to an end. I booked out from hostel earlier than usual today, accompany Wei Yen to National Library Board at Bugis to complete his Observational Behavior project essay. To my surprise, or rather I didn't know, that we can't bring materials into the library. Hence, I happily Viwawa-ed on my laptop in the library while he did is project. The security there is rather tight, comparative to the one in army. Since we rather had some time together, we decided to do some window shopping. And we travelled to Raffles City in the end, and saw the F1 crowd. Being Singaporean, we enjoy having cheap trills. So we combed parts of the track in search for a good spot to view the racing event. We took some pictures of F1 cars that zoomed by, but apparently, they were to fast to be captured by my camera phone. Thus, to prove our little participation in this extravagant event, we took this. Hahaha. There is a good spot at Marina Square, whe...

It's like a while since I wrote something here, considering the fact that I used to write here every other day. It's been a rather hectic week despite it being a recess week. Have been trying to catch up with work but rather unsuccessful. Haha. But I am glad recess week came, at least it gave me a little break, even though I might not deserve one. Haha. On Wednesday, we went to ADM for a Japanese Opera about NOH. It was on Japanese Culture and it's quite interesting. After which, Hwee Min joined us for dinner at Ichiban Sushi and we went KBox and Wei Yen turned up subsequently. I will see if there are pictures I can upload here. Don't ask me what John is doing with Mr Smiley. The rest of the week was mostly spent with Carmen, I guess it's a good way to catch up on lost time during the previous weeks spent in school. Oh, by the way, her pink laptop is really pretty and I am glad I made a new friend Charlie, who happens to be her very good friend also. And I am a main...

All along after being through JC , I developed certain traits and done certain things in my life that I am really proud of. Despite that pride, I have learnt to stay humble and continue my way of life in my own World. Hence, I have gained a vast amount of inner confidence to keep doing the things I deemed right. Ying was telling me I had a hell of a 2 months since the start of University, and really, I don't have any evidence to deny that claim. And now, it's the recess week and all. I don't like showing myself as weak to a lot of people, because I want people to feel comfortable with me, and making them feel comfortable is already half of the job done. I am rather exhausted, although I hate to admit it, but that isn't stopping me from doing what I like to do. And really, what I really want in life, is my loved ones feeling happy and everything. I know happy is an ambiguous emotion and a vague state of life, but you people know what I mean. It doesn't really matter ...

Ok, here's to pay tribute to some of my beloved friends who have made extreme efforts to celebrate my 21st Birthday to me. On a serious note, I wasn't expecting any celebrations, as quizzes were around the corner and people busy with school work. Yet, these people came over to my hall specially to put a smile on my face. Firstly, my first 3 months class, 04S6B. Well, they are a bunch of crazy fellows, and indeed they have proven themselves yet again but travelling to Pulau NTU. I got a surprise when I saw many faces I didn't expect to appear. Well, I won't say much, since they are always an integral part of my life. Haha. I am thankful for the efforts made by Hui Juan, Sharon, Geok Leng, Wen Fang, Peng Keong, Yang Jie, Kai Siang, Qing Jing and last but not least, Nevin. I probably didn't look real happy, but I am elated deep inside. Thanks. Up next, but not in anyway inferior to the previous group, Eldar popped by to give me a belated surprise. Although it wasn'...

While I was in the midst of doing last minute catching up for HP101 quiz tomorrow, someone came and gave me an intriguing thought. He asked me when are we going to stop this paper chase and be rich and forget about working. Seriously speaking. I don't want that to happen. I see no point in being rich anymore. I see no point in having priceless antiques or material possessions that I can use to exchange what I really want in life. Money can't give me anything, and I proved it recently. All these wild goose chase, and in the end, I don't really get what I want in life. It's ok, if you aim to make it big out there in life, then go for your dreams. And I wish you godspeed. I am seriously quite contented with my life already, not because I believe I don't have a future, but the fact that I am counting my blessings now and then. I have a place to live, a place to love, a place to improve my knowledge, a place where I have fun. Family, love, school, friends. With all these...

There isn't anything else I can ask for already. Cherish what I have, I must. I will do anything to put back that smile on your face. Hopez.

Admist all those depressing stuff, let me try to squeeze some positive aspects of this week out. Well, it has been a relatively good start to the week, knowing that I should have a happy day around the corner. Last Monday, CASTaway headed down to Downtown East Coasta Sands to celebrate Michelle's birthday, which coincidentally, falls on my Birthday too. Haha. It feels weird when you are celebrating someone else's birthday on your birthday. But really, it still feels the same I would say. Aloysius wasn't present, due to his rally, and I am glad that he got nominated for Hall 12 Sports Director. Still, I am sure Michelle won't mind having the rest of us present. Happy 21st Birthday, Mich! I wish her good grades & good fortune in finding her partner soon! I never regretted spending that 6 months in Compact. I had Human Resource quiz on yesterday, which was kind of tough in a sense. Haha. I fell asleep 7 minutes into the paper and Linna woke me up. Haha. I don't thi...

As most might know, I am quite a carefree person by nature. I let fate decide a lot of things. I don't go for things that I know I can't attain, like getting an IPPT goal or some scholarly shit. But this time, all I am asking for, is just the goodwill of my loved ones. I guess fate doesn't consist of logic and reason, or probably, I have done too many bad stuff that caused bad karma. But I realised something, fate isn't reliable anymore. From now on, I shall be skeptical in my life, put on my coloured glasses and scheme around like some evil mastermind. If that's the way I have to ensure my survivability, hence in return that of my loved ones, I will do it. Trust me, I will. Of all those noble things I said I will do to my loved ones, I discovered I am rather powerless to complete most of them. Despite being the Yong Xiang whom some of you respected so much, I think I will probably fail a lot of people now. I seriously feel powerless, and useless, all of a sudden. A...

The first week of September has passed. A few weeks back, I told myself September will be the start of everything nice. And I hope I haven't made a wrong prediction. There has been a reshuffle of priorities so far. I can't tell for sure if I am right. But I am keeping my fingers crossed. See how it goes, for the remaining weeks to come.

In an attempt to make this place livelier, I have decided to blog again. It was good playing soccer with the gang again, although there's a mere turnout of only 6. All the talk-cock sessions, and funny bullshits from the past keeps haunting us. Tomorrow's Khong Chin birthday, hope you enjoy his 21st in a memorable fashion. Haha. And I can announce officially that I am jobless. I quitted the recruitment job, as I realised what my priorities were. And I wasn't really happy working. Hence, despite the appalling incentives that the job can offer, I gave it up, to put more smiles on my face. Now I have to work harder to sustain my expenses. Haha. I should start saving and spend less. I went to watch Wall.e with Carmen earlier on. It's really a cute animated comedy, with a bit of cliche love story in it. Haha. Still, everything was pieced up for a happy ending, like how a PG-rated movie should be. Looking back, I really didn't have an easy day today. But it's worth th...

When I blog barely once a week, similar to the case like now, you can really start convincing yourself that I am very busy. Actually, I ain't busy with lot of activites or whatsoever. Instead, I am literally not active in Hall activities or anywhere considerably lively. School work has been going at a relatively fast speed, and I haven't been able to catch up with my target. Next 2 weeks will be the time where all the quizzes and Continual Assessments come in. I better buck up. I am juggling between different priorities, and probably, I will have to give up some and find alternatives that are easier to sustain. I don't want to give away my first semester. Besides all these serious stuff, I really need to review the amount of sins I have not atoned so far. I almost got into 2 car accidents within the short span of 2 days. Words can't seem to be generated in my brain. I shall stop here then.