In Search of Lost Innocence

Seriously rotting at home. I even feel 'sianz' going back to sleep.. Confined within the 4 walls and staring into a Windows Live Messenger main screen with less than 5% of your contacts online.. Haha.. Luckily, normally I am in camp.. At least I will be kept occupied.. Even cartoons shown on Kids Central aren't that attractive anymore. How I wish university life starts soon. Bye people, see you back at April.

Yesterday had a good long talk with Sharon.. Its been some time since we talked like that.. Haha.. I guess things have never changed.. And I strongly believe what you said was true, about the reason why we still remained close till now. Still must thank Christopher for taking down all those precious moments and many stupid but hilarious videos.. Hope our friendship lasts for eternities. Just can't take care of all the things here.. Sometimes I don't understand why people do things to hurt themselves. Is it to broadcast your anger and suppression to others? Or to kill your nerves such that you probably won't feel anything the next time you are supposed to feel hurt? Or maybe, you are just trying to get attention and sympathy out of others...? I seriously doubt so. In retrospect of my ambition, sometimes people around me do things that makes me ponder whether the path I wanted to take exists. Kang is still in Navy BMT, hope he will be doing fine, as well as Alvyn and gang, ta...

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I went to Bugis today and returned Guanda his Certificate of Service.. Well, its a piece of paper stating that you have completed your National Service.. Haha .. He is really lazy, didn't even bother to take it from me till I am flying off to Taiwan.. Met one of my trainee there too. Somehow it feels weird seeing your army subordinates outside camp. Anyway, I happen to meet Teddy by surprise this morning (NY Band people... Do you remember her....?). Haha .. She took up Dragon boat as a Co-curriculum Activity.. Unimaginable? But she did. Hasn't changed much and she is in NTU now.. Hmmm , maybe we can get together someday.. I also saw Adelene , with Amos that is. She looks weird in that half working, half casual outfit.. Haha .. Fang said she got style and enough guts to wear black stockings out, which just sets me thinking whether is it her normal outlook.. Whatever, so lucky to have meet quite a few person in one day. Fang and Leng were kind enough and offered to meet up w...

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I am back from a relative relaxed week... Its 3 more days to departure.. Times really flies.. I am considering whether to postpone, cancel or carry on with tomorrow's band dinner.. Apparently, a few of them pulled out and this seriously puts me off.. But I guess you people have your own things to do, so I won't blame you or anything.. But its just infuriating that an outing that was planned a month ago can be pushed away by something that crops up last minute.. This proves something eh? I haven't really prepare the stuff required for the trip, maybe I should just forgo the dinner and do my own stuff. Seriously dampening. Arrowed to do a lot of extra work by one of my boss.. A bit upset over the fact that I am the one who was tasked to complete all those stupid tasks.. But I guess that's life in the workplace. Apparently, some people in Singapore felt tremors due to the earthquake that happened recently in Indonesia. But somehow, I slept through it. Haha. Sometimes, whe...

Just got back from the temple.. Went to pray as I am departing for Taiwan soon.. Was burning incense paper, and suddenly, the scorching heat somehow struck me. Nevertheless, I got back home.. Thinking of changing currency later.. Hope the exchange rate is good. Somehow, you have left me on my own for a long time. I hate your incapability and useless-ness. But when I see your aged face and the exhausted look, I feel the sense of dedication from you. The Hatred harbored hence gone. Contradiction, Bewilderment, Delusion. Must be strong, like before. Yet I walk alone, again.

Its one more week to Taiwan. Just heard that Kang will be enlisting on the 7th March.. That's so fast.. I don't think I will be able to meet him till he comes out from BMT. All the best to you buddy. Just ended one whole day playing.. Haha.. Met up with a few from Section 2 to sing Kbox at Toa Payoh Central.. Haha.. Its been some time since I last met them.. Haven't seen Ian Ho for a while, its a good thing I met him today. After that I headed straight to Cineleisure to meet up with some of the S3A people.. A few of them didn't turn up, but nevertheless, everything proceeded on.. Just that we didn't end up eating steamboat dinner at Marina.. We settled our dinner at a Hong Kong cafe.. Adelene still looks the same like before.. Caught up with one another, the girls busy with their studies while the guys still stuck in army.. Haha.. Decided to walk to Esplanade to chill and talk cock there for the night, but in the end, it seems that it will be too late to go home if ...

So far in my life, I have made 2 controversial decisions.. But I still don't know whether its right or wrong.. Sometimes in life, I hate myself for being myself. I have hurt many, and helped many. At times, I just hope that, somebody please take away my thoughts. No promises