In Search of Lost Innocence

This week is a traumatic experience for me.. Haha.. Got posted to S*SPE*.. Woke up earli in the morning.. Neverous... Waitin to see what kinda of place i m goin to.. Sibeh suay... went there without printin the posting order.. I didnt know there was a need for it.. Jia lat.. But luckily nothing happened.. I got to my comapny safely.. Hey hey, who knows, I got into Charlie Company.. The commanders that are realli strict and demanding. Seriously, this was nothing i haf seen in BMTC. Subsequently, got to realise that it was a well-established fact that my company is the most GARUNG one.. Probably the onli one.. Anyway, everyday was about the same. Almost everyday got 5BX with 2 km Run. As u guys know, i m not good at running.. Well... Den comes the part that 2 weeks of rest without serious training will but ur body into a bad shape. Struggling with the training.. But i think is much ok after that.. My mum said i look more solid.. Dunno whether how true is that.. Haha.. First few days was ...

Today is the last day of the 2 week break we got le.. haha.. Well then, it will be sometime till the few of us meet up again le.. Anyway, added a few new links of my army mates.. haha... Well, got posted to SISPEC. Dunno is good or bad, but nevertheless, its gonna be something new from here.. Hope the future road will not be too bleak.. Fell sick le, due to the Suntec Foodfare, Thai Express Prawn omellette, Mac at 3 a.m, n the lac of rest.. haha.. Hope can get back to shape to handle the training at SISPEC. Was quite glad to be able to meet up with my class after such a long time.. Woo.. The same old feeling is juz too good.. Lim house to ton and the free food we nv fail to finish.. Hope next time can get to visit the new house he is living in.. haha.. Missed my friends sia.. N to my platoon mates whom are gonna be posted to lots of places... Good luck in ur unit, hope u meet good ppl n commanders.. If not, suck thumb go bang wall.. Haha.. Well, All the best to myself and the rest of t...

Yeah.. I wun be stepping into Tekong ground again.. At least for now.. Haha.. Juz had my guard duty experience, as Sentry at TFT. Wah... Sianz.. Do nothing but stand there.. With a stupid experience of someone.. ARGH. Haha.. But all in all, was quite fun la.. enjoy the sea breeze talk-cock sessions with Jeremy.. Lol.. Tok till i tired sia.. I wanted to be prowler though.. But then too bad la.. Haha.. Now that I got the 'FULL' BMT experience, i hope all ends well, and nothing more lingers behind. Hey hey, due to lack of time in the Army.. Would like to say a sorry to you. haha.. Dunno la.. haf not been doin my part when i was in army.. Haix.. Nothing i say will make much of a difference now.. Well.. Take carez.. Yeah.

Have you tried so hard for someone but in the end, that person just doesn't really know how to appreciate your efforts? Well. I have. Stop asking me questions that I cannot explained to you that easily. You all will never know the stress that is present. All you wanted is answers, yet, I am in no position to give you right now. Can you just put your feets in my shoes for a while? Enough of such shit. I am starting to convince myself that there is no such thing like being good pays. No way. Things just aren't going the way I want them to, & I need time to adjust to that. I am a human being too. Even people with 8 distinctions need time to think before they do anything. Can't I just ask for a little bit more of my share? Unreasonable. Illogical. Sucks.

Yeah.. At last, a good news to share.. I passed my IPPT.. Haha.. May not find it very awesome, but to someone who hasn't been passin it for 9 years.. Its something incredible... haha.. thumbs up for myself.. Now that BMT has ended... We are awaitin for our postin to come out.. haha.. Might end up in command school.. Since I passed IPPT.. but watever la.. Anything comes i juz take.. Made new friends over the past 3 months.. Some realli good ones.. haha.. some which i nv want to see again... haha.. overall i think it is a good experience la.. Some of my friends enlistin soon.. this week will be a tough week for them.. haha.. shall contact them soon.. Now the thing on my mind is bout university application.. haix.. dunno wat to apply.. with all the essays n stuffs.. hope i can get a little help.. lolx.. I think friends play a very pivotal role in our lives now. Most of our decisions and mindset will be influenced greatly by their attitudes and interactions with you. And as usual, amon...

Wooo.. Time flies, now is almost time for the few of us to POP le.. 3 months juz passed n went like tat.. haha... but i m glad i didnt realli waste the whole of the 3 months.. yeah.. learnt lots of new stuffs n made new friends.. As well as enemies.. but watever ah.. haha.. The past week wasnt very heartening. Release of A Level results and the Drill Competition Results: Disappointment. Haha.. Shouldn't grumble much bout my results la.. It is good enough.. But juz disappointed didnt get wat i wanted.. Nevertheless...... That stupid drill com.. Could haf won sumthing though.. but then, due to some fcuked up ppl.. haix.. bo bian.. suck thumb.. Yesterday had the 24 km route march.. Wasnt realli very tough.. juz very tiring.. haha.. At least I completed it.. Yeah.. N to those who did.. Well done.. Coz we actualli walked 27++ km... Haha.. NO wonder it was the toughest so far.. lolx.. POP is all that we need to overcome now.. haha.. The S3A get together session on results Day was quite g...