In Search of Lost Innocence

A few more hours & I will be at Tekong. I hafen clear up my feelings since then. Now i m feelin frustrated and down, empty down right to the core.. Sianz. I cant think positively at all. This is not good.

1 more day to Ns. Today went to Manhattan Fish Market to eat dinner. Not a bad place, the food and the service were equally nice, just that the girl who served us 'act cute' alot -.- Before that, met john at AMK then went to town... Dunno why, dumb till agreed to walk to Bugis, Wah lao.. Crazy la.. On the way, he told him quite a bit on Chr*st*an*ty, but that is not the part that impacted me. Whereas it was the belief in the strength of oneself and God that amaze me. Hmm.. its a long story, ask him explain to you ba =x Up till now, i finally know how to let go le. The past venegence, hatred and disgust. I feel enlightened today. No more worries, no pain, no sorrow. Put all things behind me. I am 18 years old. No longer the kid that I used to be. No longer. Believe in myself.

Yesterday night was Dinner and Dance 2005 for NYJC. The dinner was in overall quite a good one, with a lame MC that tried so hard to entertain us. The food was not bad, even though some wasn't really nice, but hungry, so no choice. The prom king & queen event was a bit cocked up. Jeff won it. Haha. Shall not say much. I think the most important thing at that night is to take lots of pictures. Haha.. Took lots. Yeah. Memorable night.... After DnD, went to Cocolatte, with most of the NY cohort. My first experience at clubbing. Haha. Abit high. Went up to see most of the people 'high-ing' was the first thing i saw. Saw a lot of people with their other sides yesterday, which was quite scary though, but it is expected. Haha. I realised I drank too much last night, with the free drinks and all. lolx.. A bit tipsy, making my desires run wild.. Lol.. Don't think so much.. I am still quite sober at that time. So telling you guys, don't drink so much. By the way, Alvyn wa...

Yesterday went to Ms Chiew's house with 3A. Played n joked there. Haha.. Probably one of our last few gatherings. (with me in it) They got a dinner treat from her, while i missed it, coz i haf to go eat with my parents. Couldnt make it for the BBQ also, haha.. Kang ah, paisei ah. So long since we last ate together,haha. Sumwat it feels different when it is at home. Dunno how to describe, juz different. Haha. That feeling is good. I guess that it wat you will call it: warmth. I will stick to my stand on certain things. Wun change de. So dun bother. =)

Hmmm.. Today I am in a deep mood. Went out with her to shop and all............... Haha.. Hope tml, I wun be stoning at Ms chiew's house. Got ppl complain, I seldom update my blog. but then, there isnt realli much to update anyway, since there are few other who published wat i wanna say with much greater details. Anyway, I wun be able to update much after I go into NS. So i m not sure of alot of things. Seriously, I doubt i can slp tonite.