In Search of Lost Innocence

Todae went out wif Brotherhood gang... Lolx.. Long time never go out wif them le... Realli enjoyed.. Haha.. Went to eat Sakae Sushi... Wanted to hit 100 plates... In the end, so disappointing.. Onli hit 50 plus... Lolx... Haha... EAt liao is around 6.10 pm.. den suggest.. Go see movie... Den saw the timin.. Corspe Bride at 6.15 pm.. Wah Chong go see liao.. Haha.. Juz got home not long ago... Ki siao today.. Wah.. Muggin plans gone.. Lolx.. Tot can do some work today.. In the end, haf fun all the way... Siao liao.. Maybe time to pick up pace... I will catch up... Yeah..

Wah.. Its been 3 consecutive days that i blogged... Got a headache now... Severely exhuasted.. Dunno why... Now cant even go online... Today, GP tutor went through the bloggin question.. Haha.. Sumwat.. I feel like i know more after today.. haha... Zzz... Seriously tired.. My overall results were not bad.. Not what I aimed but at least near there.. Hahaz... Think end le.. Nothing to sae liao.. The headache is too much..

Well, today got back Chemistry and Maths results.. To many this might be a well dreaded issue... But i muz sae i m satisfied wif my results so far.. Wun elaborate much... Juz to share the joy... And people out there who didnt achieve their targets: This is only the prelims. The prelude to the bigger battle which lies much ahead. Minor setbacks are bound to come by, but let them pass, and get on with life. Get ready for the big battle, prelims are nothing. Well, a few cried upon receiving results, some appeared gloomly, while others with smiles. Cant realli expressed my satisfaction earli.. But juz haf this in mind. Do your best ba. Take care people. Yeah. You all can do it, Will Do it, and definitely must do it. My helpline is always available. Yeah.. So long then...

Got a new skin.. Suddenly got the urge to get one.. Haha.. hope it doesnt seemed to gloomly... Well, I guess that symbolises sumthing... Take care people..

Hmmm... School starts... And the whole vicious cycle starts to run again.. I still hafen recovered from wat happened... I will try to be leave that behind n go on... I shall mind my own business, I will, I must. I will stay in the backstage from now. Watching. *Exhuasted*

This is just another forgotten place. These 2 days, I m not realli feeling good.. Not realli knowin the cause of it.. But.. That is juz how it is... Went to visit a few ppl yesterday... Saw lots of things, somethings that i dun wanna see and get involved now... Now is realli not the time... Just leave me. Let me be.

Praying I don't fall sick.. I will try not to.. Sleep earlier. Drink more water. Well.... People are busy studying. Forget it. Even the closest seemed so far away. Is this a challenge? Or merely a means to push me to the edge?

I dunno. I didn't recover from the fall back then. The wound didn't heal either. What I lost, Was never recovered. Should I be more self-centered? I am sick of you. Please go. If not, or else...

Have I changed? I don't know. I really don't. How worse can this get?

Listening to S Club 7's Never Had a Dream Come True Resting from studies... Hahaz... come here to blog... lolx... Heard of the disaster that struck dunno where? lolx.. Haha... World in chaos, think the world is sumwat coming to an end la.. haha... Soon i guess... Thinkin of wat PW said, "what is the world comin to?" Sumwat juz cant help thinkin and askin the same question. Has the World changed for the better or worse? Sumwat there are no clear cut answers. N obviously all know that, but the point is, whether is there anything else you can do? Actualli, to see whether the World in a mess, there is no need to realli bother about global news. Actualli, it might juz be happenin around you. In classrooms, at homes even in the market. I think is these little disputes and disorders that actualli accumulate up to become big chaos. Think about it, I think we haf more problems back here wif ourselves. Even though it might not be that serious in comparison. People here should think...

Yeah. Meaningful day today. Went for Metro Philharmonic Youth Choir's concert at Chijmes Hall.. Haha.. My first time going for a choir concert, ok la, not realli the first, but hey, it was not bad, the general impression was that it was better than band ones. Haha.. Conductor Was Mr Ng Eng Kee, ex-MSSB's God.. Haha.. Good to see him back in the music business, although he is always in it... haha.... These few days I haf been thinkin about lots of stuffs about myself, comparing n so on.. Cant find answers to queries... Super tired, and mentally exhausted... Moreoever, a few of my frens are sumwat down with depression, cant help them much since i cant even help myself. Jialat... Will try to get back to them as soon as possible.. Hope by then I will be fine too.. Hahaz... Today concert was quite a thought provoking one for me... The music, the ambience, that place which was a chapel, all invoke reflections on me... Hahaz.. Began thinking about myself during the concert.. Think the...

Never Had a Dream Come True by S Club 7 Everybody's got something they had to leave behind One regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time There's no use looking back or wondering (or wondering) How it could be now or might have been (or might have been) All this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go I never had a dream come true Till the day that I found you Even though I pretend that I've moved on You'll always be my baby I never found the words to say You're the one I think about each day And I know no matter where life takes me to A part of me will always be with you Somewhere in my memory I've lost all sense of time And tomorrow can never be cos yesterday is all that fills my mind There's no use looking back or wondering (or wondering) How it should be now or might have been (or might have been) Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go I never had a dream come true Till the day that I found you Even though...

Mocking Bird by Eminem Yeah I know sometimes things may not always make sense to you right now But hey, what daddy always tell you? Straighten up little soldier Stiffen up that other limb What you crying about? You got me Hailie I know you miss your mom and I know you miss your dad Well I'm gone but I'm trying to give you the life that I never had I can see you're sad, even when you smile, even when you laugh I can see it in your eyes, deep inside you want to cry Cuz you're scared, I ain't there? Daddy's with you in your prayers No more crying, wipe them tears Daddy's here, no more nightmares We gon' pull together through it, we gon' do it Laney uncles crazy, aint he? Yeah but he loves you girl and you better know it We're all we got in this world When it spins, when it swirls When it whirls, when it twirls Two little beautiful girls Lookin' puzzled, in a daze I know it's confusing you Daddy's always on the move, mamma's always o...