In Search of Lost Innocence

My Immortal by Evanescence I'm so tired of being here, Suppressed by all my childish fears. And if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave. Because your presence still lingers here, And it wont leave me alone... These wounds won't seem to heal, This pain is just too real. There's just too much that time cannot erase... When you'd cried i'd, wipe away all of your tears, When you'd scream i'd, fight away all of your fears. And i've held your hand through all of these years, But you still have all of me. You used to captivate me, By your resonating light. Now i'm bound by the life you left behind. Your face it haunts, my once pleasant dreams. Your voice it chased away, all the sanity in me. These wounds wont seem to heal... This pain is just too real, There's just too much that time cannot erase. When you'd cried i'd, wipe away all of your tears, When you'd scream i'd, fight away all of your fears. And i've held your ...

I wanna smile like the turtles.

How worse can it get? I seriouslly need to tok. Haix... Pls treat mi like a normal student. juz like anyone else. I m no hero nor superman. Juz a kid hu lives in Hougang. I may haf scored good results in my exams or even got into honours. So? I m still human. Dun be jealous of tat achievement juz becoz u didnt get it... Sumtimes, things make mi believe tat i haf to failed badly before i 'qualify' as a human.. Wat on earth is this? I haf enuf of this fcuked up society. Sumtimes i feel that i m breathless, you hold mi too tight. I know this is sumtimes not by your wish. But, i feel tangled. Seriously. I am under alot of pressure to keep myself alive and dun fall dead. So as not to disappoint u and myself. By doin so, I m actualli drainin myself out faster than it should.. U understand? Ohh yeah, speakin of loved ones, how much worse can it get? Wen u haf an obstinate unruly father, plus a sensitive and over caring mother? To top it off, add in a ignorant brother hu is oblivious o...

Losin consciousness in this overly-bustling world.. Cant seem to catch up wif everything... Sianz... School is almost reopenin.. Ya... Wat a dumb thing. I m losin my determination to carry on wif my duties... Realli.. I m gettin tired of everything.. And this is drainin me out before it should.. I need a fe-fuel... Realli nid one... Wantin to play soccer at least once tis week before the start of school terms, if not we will be busy wif watever we are doin le, mainly studies ba... but the kuku VIPs-alike blockheads are so hard to make appointments wif them.. Think muz at least "book" them 2 weeks beforehand... Now rottin in my home, daydreamin at times.... I wanna fly.

Lately I haf been thinkin of a lot of stuffs... Realli alot of stuffs. Been daydreamin wif the turtles too..Hahaz.. Juz dun feel like studyin in the day or in the night... I haf heard of ppl been troubled about stuffs... And gettin real depressed and all... But why we teens juz cant be like teens huh... Sumwat to a certain extent the education system's main goal n purpose have been undermined by other side effects that the system come wif.. I find that the system realli doesnt work to educate ppl.. Well, it juz gives u mere qualifications u need to potray to ur future boss tat u know tat u can score 4As in an exam but others cant. Just wat does tis show. Basically, i believe that is nothing.. At least i think that the moral part of education is not fulfilled.. I haf seen 7 yrs old kids scoldin fuck u to their parents.. Well... You may think that this has nothing to do wif the education system. But doesnt education start from home? Sumwat i think it is a flop. FLOP. Wif students thi...

Its time to blog again... Been a long time since i blogged... Hmmm, can sae i busy ba... But definitely not in the area of studies... Too slack le.. Left 2 weeks... Dun think will ever be prepared for tat... Haix... Too much things on my mind le.... Today was a fine day... Yeah.. Played soccer and met up wif old frens... joked n crapped a little... Tok about Sec 2 days n band days.. Hahaz.. So funny.... Yeah.... Hahaz.... Hope more of this can come... I realli hope to play in that match wif Kang's frens... Long time since a serious match... keke... Yeah.. Brotherhood Day rocks.. Fridae went out to celebrate my One Year anniversary wif Minmin... Hahaz... I guess the details are all on her blog... More detailed than u think it is.. Hahaz... I realli enjoyed on Fridae... I love you always dear... yeah.... Thankz for the adorable turtles!!! I guess my class is alreadi half way through wif their studies le ba... But haha... Wat's the rush? I think tis will be my onli period of fun l...