In Search of Lost Innocence

Heez... Tis few daes... Passed quite peacefully lahz... Except a few ghostly encounters.... Hahaz... Scared the wits out of mi.... Hahaz... Lolz... Saw lotss of eerie thingies.... Haiz... Muz go bai bai.... Hahaz... Todae went to celebrate Angeline's birthdae... Although I didnt wanna go at first, but ying ying asked mi to go.... So i dragged min min along... Lolz... Went to J8 and ate Long John Silver.... Hahaz... Den found out tat i coped ying ying's order... Didnt mean it lahz... Hahaz... But it ended up in my stomach anyway... Hahaz.. Den after tat... Went to take neoprints... Hope is the correct spelling... Hahaz.. Almost tore down the machine... Hahaz... Lolz... Shouting and makin a whole lot of noise.. But I like.... So fun... Lolz... While Angeline and Tessa were busy "editin" the photos, and the others all watchin them while producing lots of noise, Jing Chong and I were busily playing wif the curtains behind... We were like shocked, as we cant pull it back u...

Hmm... Got lots of things to sae... Always seems to pop up in my head wen i started to blog.... But after a few points den i forget the rest le... Hahaz... Think tis few daes... Troubled by lotss of things... Sorrie to all the ppl especially Shimin hu were there for mi... And also a big thank you for being there for mi... Heez.... Think i m better now... Dunno y also... Juz now was improvising on my solo piece 'Over the Rainbow'... Added and tried out a few notez... But it still didnt sounded rite... Didnt noe wat was lackin... Hmm.. .Strange yeah...? Hahaz... Den felt sianz... And stopped and went to chat... Heez.... Juz now after sendin min home, I saw a father and his son.... On the bus... The son began like to play... Wif his father of coz... And so a bored mi decided to observe them.... The son was like about 5~6 years old ba... Dunno... But he was cute and innocent anyway.... Asking things around juz like a normal kid.... He played wif his father... Punched him (playfu...

(Dun read tis if u r feeling moody) Haiz... Tiring dae... Dunno y... Be it mentally or physically... Went to play badminton wif my class juz now... Three hours lolz.... Haiz... SO tiring... Hahaz... It was fun lahz.... Todae got back my chem test... Got 12 marks out of 30.... Sumthing awesome nor anything hopeless.... However, it affected mi much more than anyone of the things mentioned... Be it a good or bad grade.... I feel very awkward wen i m like ranked the last few in the test... Haiz... Dunno y... Maybe tat result was wat i realli wanted... But i m not happy... Realli not.... *dilemna* (watever u spell that...)A lot of ppl sae tat i onli tok bout studies and nothing else... But seriously, i think i haf nothing to tok about.... Realli... I cant find anything... Juz noe that i m tired... Maybe i haf alreadi broken down, yet i dunno that... Drifting aimlessly amongst ppl in the midst of the crowd... Awww.... Sianz.... Hmmm... Forget bout tat first... Hmm... Tryin to recall fo...

Todaez was ok... Compared to yesterdae... Haiz.. But the sianz factor is still there... Haiz.. The maths test todae was a complete disppointment..... Minus eleven marks le... Hauz... Due to my studity n wonderful carelessness... Didnt study much lahz... Dun feel like too..... Haiz... Juz feel like hidin beneath my pillow.... Haiz.... Sianz... Todae had an interestin GP lecture.. One of the best too.... On liberalisation.... Sounds cool.... Gif some thought to it yeah...? "Can you handle any freedom that is handed to you.....?" "Whether you cross the line or not, depends on where you draw the line....." "Too much freedom may mean out of control, and even you yourself may not be able to grasp the whole understanding of it.... Its impact and implications....." Disturbing thoughts came to my mind.... Hmm.... Dunno y.. Made mi think of lotsss of things.... Maybe.... Haiz... Forget it lahz... I haf been havin strange dreamz nowadaes..... Dunno y.. ...

Haiz... Another boring dae passed... Everydae seems to be the same lehz... Todae juz got a physics test... Came n went... And i noe the results arent comin out good... Dunno y... Juz cant seem to find the motivation to study.. So sianz.... Haiz.... Think everyone's also feeling the same thing... Hope everything will be alright... Todae is the start of the lunar month.... Shld go pray pray.... Haiz... Fear.... Fear of not able to pass... Fear of not able to continue ur present state of comfort... It is preventin us from concentrating in watever we do... Haiz... Believe in urself... But seems to be losin confidence every moment... Hmm... Realli need time to sit down n think through everything.. need to reflect... But like no time for mi even to study... Dun even sae reflect... Haiz... Hope everyone is feelin alrite... Haiz... Although i noe they r not... Try to hang on k...? Go on guys!!! Heez.... Sianz... Nowadaes... I feel so out of place in my class... So cold.... It has definite...

Sianz... Whole dae at home... Juz flippin through notez.... Haiz... Slept twice during study time... No motivation.. Juz felt like slpin... Muz hang on... Muz learn from Ruth... Life's Good... Haiz... Miss Shimin lotssss.. *hugz* *rub eyes* Back to studies after think of her for a while.. Think I got study lahz... Hope can scrap past tml Physics test... Haiz... *praying hards* OMG.. There is still Maths n Physics SPA... While Ying Ying got free SPA... Wah lao... Maybe goin for a swim next week... Sianz... Now waitin for the time to hit 10 o'clock.. So tat i can tell myself to go slp... Dun wanna think of anything... Maybe tml... ARGH... I think I m like cheatin on myself everyday... Nothing producitve done.... So sianz.... Haiz... Hmm... Juz wat is the thing tat is missing....? *hopin* I CAN DO IT... YOU CAN DO IT... WE CAN DO IT!!! Heez... Hmm... Wat a dae todae... Tryin hard to fly without wings... yeah... Nothing is impossible... At least at tis stage of my life... Hmm... ...

Haiz... Examz nearin... Everyone feelin n actin weird... Maybe stressed up lahz... Next week n it will be a small period of rest.... Haiz... I quite sad... Everyone is so stressed up... Haiz... Why.....? Please be alright k....? *praying hards* Dun think i can do anything.... Take carez k...? Think watever i can provide is moral support... Hang in there guys... Juz a little longer... Juz a little.... Hmm... Some relaxin stuffs ba... I was on the bus wif min... Den i was thirsty.... So she offered mi drinks.... K fine... I opened the cap n tried to drink from it without touchin the tip of the bottle.... Den the bus shoke!!!! Heeez... The water didnt came out... Hahaz... Skilled rite.... den the bus reached a bus~stop n slowed down... Den i started to pour water... N the bus braked.... Well done... Water gushed down my nose.... Nothing to sae... Hahaz... Den everywhere was wet.... But the most impt part tat shldnt be wet is wet... My pants... OMG... So obscene... Haiz... Nevertheless... ...

Unicorns... Creatures of Willpower and Strength.... Everlasting purity rides on them while they skim through endless treads of miseries and hardships... When the night befalls, is the time where they roam the Earth with spirited footsteps, as if they have no worries... They are creatures that brainwash human to protect their identity...

STRESSED... Haiz... Die liaoz... So many many test n examz comin up... Like movies... Wat the.......? Sure die one... 5 tests to go... GP on Saturday, Physics on Monday, Maths on Tuesday, Physics SPA on Wednesday and Chinese AO on Saturday..... Wah.. Still got endless tutorial to do... Jin jie keeps on tellin mi tat there will always be tutorials tat require you to do, so dun ask which one need to do..... Realli speechless... Nothing to coment on... Juz... Die liaoz... Noe everyone also havin the same thing.. Hmm hope u guys are fine.... I hafen even studied yet... And there r so many things to do.. Like cant be finished one... Shld start to revise today or tomorrow.. Later die... No time... Realli no time lolz... Haiz..... STRESSED!!!! The life of a JC student.... Wat the...? Hmm..... Hope everyone is alright.... Heez... Good luckz to everyone for oncomin examz..!!! Best Wishes!!! Wahahaz... =p

Todae was a shitty dae... Wah lao... Wasted my precious time on useless stuffs.... Shld haf kepy quiet all along.... Haiz... Sorrie guys.. To waste ur time... Sianz, now made mi look like the scapegoat... A goondu hu makes a fool of himself... ARGH....... They are so selfish lolz... Never think of others one... Cant they see? The onli obstacle tat is in front of us is the fact tat we cant work together.... No motivation at all... But wat can we do....? Wat the........? Everyone was like so sianz... Thankz guys for backin mi up on the 2 on 1 squabble juz now... It was a battle long lost b4 it was even fought... Haiz... Onli can tok to Ms Yue... Heez... Hahaz... She beli nice lolz... Haiz... Too bad she not around... I dun care wat is happenin now... I will bite at those hu are snobbish.... ARGH!! Hahaz... How to make the band together....? Not beli possible... Haiz... Got so many tests comin up... Dun even haf much time to study... But i hate to tell ppl tat... Coz there will always be ...

Yoyoz... Tml goin for camp le... Not goin to be aroung for 2 n 1/2 daes... Miss mi k...? Hahaz... Looks like everyone has lots of problemz... Hmm... Dunno how will they be wen I m not around....? Haiz... Nvmz lahz.. Juz take carez... Juz need to die over tis period of time.... Den it will be rain after sunshine.... Or izzit the other way round??? It maybe rainin season for ur life now... Soon, the sunshine will come out... Hopez... Heez.. Kkz take carez... Best Wishes!!! Byeez...

Wah... Todae realli a stupid dae.... Feel like dying... Haiz... Maybe will be the end of my reign soon... Haiz... Somehow, realli feel like being the best of the best is nothing great.. Instead, it is havin a negative effect on mi... Haiz... I haf lost all motivation to work... Dunno y.. Maybe coz of the fact tat i haf to go through tis shit again if i get tat stinkin results... Hahz.. Wat a joke.... It s the opposite... Wah lao... I haf realli lost all motivation... Feel so siaz nowadaes... Haiz... Need to get rid of tis thinkin... Haiz... Den... Comes the band... It's like hell nowadaes... Wif sum yr2s back wif us... I dun like them... Coz of their tupid mentality durin first three months... Sianz... Now wif that Angeline, wah... Life is much moer worse.. I would haf quitted band long ago... If not for my responsibilities... Anyway i haf no where to go also... Actually no realli lahz... Haiz... Will realli kill her... In addition, got tat tupid seductive bulldog... Wear the skirt...