In Search of Lost Innocence

Haiz... Yesterdae wrote so much thingy, dun even noe wat is tat myself.... Hahaz.. Todae another sianz dae... Physics SPA... Dumb shit... My whole class was cpmplainin, n the tutor onli said "we understand ur situation"... Haiz... Real tough.. Not to scare those hu hafen taken the practical yet, but realli... My class was stunned.... Hahaz... Gonna burn down the school.... Wahahaz... Jokin lahz... Den straight away after tat went to photocopy sum things.... Den go band le.. No lunch.. Wat the....? Tat Angeline still ask " Have you eaten? You have like.. Umm.. Three and a half minutes!?" Wat on Earth was that for? Haiz... Dumb ppl dunno how to spell dumb... Wanton onli got flour no meat... Got head no brain... Haiz.. Den rehearsal started... And ended... Not much to tok bout also... Hmm.. Think got too much on hands liaoz.... But i finished sum.. So now a bit free... Heez... *phew* Realli needed a breather.... Hahaz... I m fine lahz... Thankz everyone... Take carez ...

Sometimes, many of us feel lost n confused.... Many will think tat life is always hard on them... Haiz... Life's always like tat.... "How to end when there is no beginnin???" Livin in darkness... Followin where others' opinions lead u to.. No mind of our own.... All of us have our problemz... N it nv seems to end... Never...  Y do i haf so many responsibilities to handle......??? Maybe I m born to do tis... Hahaz... Sometimes it leaves us wif no choice but to make a tough decision under dire circumstances... But seldom in tis case, ppl understand... They dun seem to anyway... Coz ppl onli see things from their point of view... It is hard for a person to realli understand sumone, coz man are born to be selfish... However, we juz need tat special little effort to be a little more sensitive to others... Juz a little more.... You r not obliged to do it.... But y not...? No harm also... Neverthelessm, helpin sumone is not sumthing heavenly or noble..... Nor is it rewarding...

10 Things That I Haf in Mind Now:   1) Do finish all my homework which seems impossble to be cleared... 2) Haf Shimin By my Side Always... Heez... 3) Get my form back in soccer... 4) Get my instrumental form back... 5) Get evrything back on track... Other ppl's also.. 6) Go back n visit Montfort Band sumdae... 7) Prove my worth to my dumb relatives... 8) Sleep. 9) Sleep.. 10) Sleep...

ARGH!!!! Hahaz... I juz found out tat i accidentally deleted my whole playlist... Wat the...? Tryin hard to find it back.. Haiz... More truobles for mi... Yesterday went to watch HIHS (Holy Innocents' High School) concert... Obviously u noe i went wif hu.... It was not a bad one.... Except tat the beginnin was kinda boring... Almost fell asleep... Hahaz... Den came the excitin part... Wahahaz... Awake liaoz..... Got Wushu, Dance N quite a lot... Lazy to name... Hahaz... But there was one beli cute part... Got little childrens dressed like angels dancin ballet.... Hahaz... So cute... Heez... Den saw Daneil wif another "Shimin".... Wahahaz... Same name... I tot i no company, eh... He was there tooo... Den we talked a lot... Both Shimin from HIHS band one... Hahaz.. Den both of them go back visit band... Then we boys haf to guai guai follow lolz... Wahahahz... Heez.... Den after tat walked a long distance to a bus stop... Eeeeeeeee.... Beli eerie... Hahaz... Coz beli ulu... ...

Haiz... Todae is a beli disastrous dae.... Even though sumthing good happened... Dumb... Got into Honours roll for gettin good results... Some board where the names of topscorers are placed... But in the end juz got suan... Although they were like jokin, i feel beli beli upset... Wat kind of response is tat....? Not even a word of congrats..... Onli from my few sis... Wat a tupid thing... I rather not want tis kind of "fame"... I jus wanna live an ordinary life.... why...? Feelin so depressed... Sianz... Had to rush through PW... Coz have to hand up file on Fridae... But juz cant seem to finish... Shit.. Haf to go rush through after tis... Den still got so many work to do.... Realli feel like dying... ARGH!!!! Cant breathe... Sianz... Den I juz found out i kept a lot of things from min... Didnt mean it... But i did... I didnt wan her to worry bout mi... Not tat i wan the others to worry bout mi lahz... But... Haiz.... Decided to tell her later... Maybe Tessa n Chong Ying were...

  Haiz... Todae was such a tiring day.... Wif afternoon P.E... Tupid... But i found out tat i can do  4 pull ups le... yeah... Think tat is my onli condolesence for the dae.... Watever u spell tat... Haiz... Got a serious headache todae.... Probably coz tat i turned in quite late last night... On top of tat, i didnt sleep the previous night... Hahaz.. Chatted wif sumone.... Its not her fault though.... Hahaz... Nevertheless it was ok... Hahaz... Den tupid PW comes in... Wah... Juz found out tat i m lost in my PW... Die.. Friday muz hand up GPF... Wat the...? Den todae came back n quarrelled wif my father... Haiz.. Same old problem.... Dumb shit... I realli hope i wun become like him in the future... I muz not be..... Hahaz... K lahz... Juz feelin super tired.... Den wif tat persistin headache which wun go away, i still haf to tabulate the survey results.... Haiz... Wat if i die tml huh?  Wun lahz hor... Hahaz... I cant also.... Heez... K lahz i will be fine...

Woo~~~ long time no see le.... Nv blogged for like....? one month? maybe less... Hu carez.... Anyway i'm back... life's been a little upset for mi.. Wif unexpected happenings.... Wah... Stressed... Heez.... Lately upset coz of the breakup of my sis n bro... very saddenin, n i cant stop thinkin bout it.... sianz... Didnt meant to kept it from my other sis, but like no choice.... I haf to take tis alone... Haiz... Life is juz not turnin out the way for mi.... Den still got so any things in band.... Dumb... Juz as wat Tessa said... Too bad i took up many responsibilites... Now i haf to face it... Haiz... Dunno wat will happen to mi n min also... Heez... I wun let go lahz.... Heez... Hmm.... Juz tat these few daes troubled by problemz..... Sumtimes... Juz wished tat life will be simple... But it isn't... Hahaz... Too bad lolz... I m not a goldfish... So cant idle around in the water waitin to be fed... Heez... Tml got band again.... Gotta see that tupid face.... Wth.... realli ...

Wahh........... Cant believe it.... Tis 2 daes r a test of my patience.... Yesterdae performed to a bunch of monkeys.. Haiz... If u went, maybe u will understand.... hor shimin...? Hahaz... Dun wish to further comment bout it.... Den todae... Gave back test papers... Still alrite lahz... My results... Hahaz.. i also dun worry tat much lahz.... Den our good old angeline asked mi to go prepare for the ensemble n the T-shirt design... I hafen done anything... Think i was too lazy... Furthermore i see no point... No motivation also... Its dead now... We need to liven it up... If not, think ppl will go mad... Jun Long has alreadi gone bonkers.... Haiz... Need to save more ppl... She is so insensitive bout things... I think she is too free lahz.... As if i m like her... Too free.... I m not... Busy dao xiao.... Juz dun understand y ppl juz cant put in a few more effort, n try to be a little understandin n sensitive to others....? Ppl are dumb lahz.... Watever.... My limits are almost up... W...