The reason

so its 3.13am in the morning
its pouring
rain pattling and thunder roaring
but yet i lay awake with swollen eyes
heaving lungs which can barely breathe
i need air
i need water
but you should know how much i need you

a happy us
seems so far
ive been giving 200%
ive overexerted myself
things will never be the same again
my shattered heart
my broken hopes
my dissipated faith

i revolve around you
for once i wish u'd revolve around me
ask me
be with me
intrigue me

i want the date now
i want it now
i wish u'll treasure me more than
i wish u'll be more mature
i wish things will be better once im out
i wish i had a heart set in stone

im going to feed myself
dress myself
be myself
ive done too much
too fast
too long
too wrong
for that i blame myself

but i shall be king