Burning out

im waking up everyday in shambles. Life is a fucken hell for me. i feel so overloaded with things to do i just wanna explode to stop myself from worrying

I havent gotten the TV set done up yet
everyone seems to want smth(contribution) from me
and i now need to do the intro
and that im suddenly part of the video all of you were supposed to do up *thus the tv*
no you all did not discuss with each other. you just want everything to look nice
i feel so much hostility
i feel so lost without direction
it isnt helping that your tutorial everytime exceeds by an hour. on a friday
we have to stop thinking abt the limitations and just use some bloody solution
and now i have to redo the template?
and now i have to redo the questionaire?
and now i still dont have any ideas on wtf im bloody supposed to do?
and now i dont have time to rest
and now i hope that the world can just gobble me up and leave me alone
and now i just want to be with you
and tmr i have the PPP to attend to
and it's not helping that the deadline has been extended from monday to wed. it just means we're gonna keep staying in sch EVERY SINGLE DAY
and it's not helping that you all dont realise i have alot to do
and it's not helping that you're still adding more for me
and i'm not making noise because i dont want to be thought of as a freeloader

which is why im damn bloody draining myself out

• i hate marketing

• i hate year 3

1. last year at this time i was still skipping lectures and going home latest 5pm.
2. last year at this time i was slping 8 hours a day, watching my videos and playing my games
3. last year, i wasn't happy. but at least i dont feel like energy has been sucked out of me every single day
   

im just fatigued with all this shit.

i want out

but im not a quitter