2nd! Not exactly the day I had anticipated

It's our 2nd month everybody! it was a happy yet disappointing day today. definitely not how i had expected an anniversary to be but it happened to turn out this way. not that im pissed, but im still saddened that things turned out the way it did. all thanks to the meddling of satan once again






The Happiness:
we went to the cafe on the 2nd floor of bugis street to have a late lunch


Familiar pose of hers


The table


The food


Her feasting on her soup


The exhausted girl after a meal

Definitely enjoyed the ambience. The food portions are slightly small, so just go there to chill out for a little while. A full meal there isn't recommended.

I think i shall just leave it as that. Keeping only the fond memories. I dont wanna bore anyone with the disappointments. Keeping them to myself shall suffice.

Additional note: Marketing Research Common Test is on next monday. yahoo?

Roadshow -> It's finally over

dang it. been a fairly busy week considering it's e-learning week. had to go back to sch to prepare for our roadshow on the 22 and 23, which means that it just ended today. damn tiring? 10am-6pm and on the first day, we got profits of $2 per person. ok if i were to do math.............






ok maybe i shouldnt.... >.<





these few days has been happy and sad, on and off. i wish it were happy everyday, but no matter what, i still need you.

ive been using adobe photoshop elements so much and so fast that im sick of it. but seriously? i like photoshop cs better. it's so much better la.. and sometimes i dont know what to say abt my class. after the roadshow and working with the lot of them, i realise i dont really like how a number of them do things. it's just chaos everywhere

Pirates opens today!

Happy happy post =) 16may

Happy 19th birthday to me!

i'd like to give a quick shoutout to all the 19 friends who msged me wishing me happy birthday. kinda happy they still remembered. and funniest thing is, jackson was the 1st person to wish me! im so touched! and not to forget the one person who spent the day with me and made me melt

she gave me a surprise at my hse lift holding a cake and a lit candle, but i sort of anticipated something :P gee hee. which was why i didnt take the stairs. after which, we chilled awhile and headed to vivo for dinner at Earle Swensen's. Very good ambience there, but we went in the evening, so it turned dark before we started on our food =/ but nonetheless, it was great. the food wasnt that bad, just a little pricey thats all. thanks for the dinner!


the fine ambience at Earle


the view outside, though there's a mirror reflection and if you look close enough, you'll get to see me with my phone


Tuna quesadillas, citric spritzer and sticky chewy chocolate milk shake


Cheese baked rice. if you havent noticed, the spoon is enormous. it's a portion for 2 =)

and so after our dinner, i had wanted to bring her for dessert, but we were kinda full. so we walked around and into Toys R Us where i got extremely annoyed with the music they were playing!! but i still had a lovely time =)

so we went out to take a breather and walked around, till we sat down on a flight of stairs and started taking pictures which i shall not post


im posting this though x) an arty pic she took of me and she kept laughing about it.. funny meh? =P

i had an extremely fun and fulfilling 19th birthday and it's all thanks to you who made it so memorable. hope we can have many birthdays and annis to come <3

Pre Birthday Celebration

If you think this is a happy post, please change url now, or better yet close it before u get to read anymore of this crap

i have got alot of things to say. sometimes its not very convenient and sometimes i cant portray whatever feeling and thoughts i have to say. but nonetheless

I'm Sorry

it's been me recently. always me me me. no one else. dont know whats happening but i hate it. fucking hate it. chuanwei tells me its normal.. well everybody tells me its normal. but how normal isit for us?

we only managed 1 day

1 day! how pathetic is that? this is a rheotorical question which does not need replying to.

i just dont know anymore. there are so many thoughts going in my head but im afraid to say it, because im afraid that i would regret it eventually. and here i am, stuck, living in this god damned pithole satan dug for me

fuck this. i always fuck it up dont i?

always the bad luck bringer to the innocent

i went to suntec to meet my family and my eyes started to feel wet. i missed the time we were there. i kept forcing myself to smile before i met my family because i din wanna let them down. i smiled so much, so hard that my cheeks went numb. but that's all good, for i could still feel numbness

we went to eat at ichiban boshi and i took the salmon sashimi straight away. i feel so miserable each time we have these mini whatever-you-call-it issues we have. better yet, tristan has diahorrea and my dad, for some reason, wanted to call a cab when we havent even foot the bill yet, which resulted in a father-daughter squabble

i just dont know what to do anymore. and not doing anything could only lead to one fate

and i dont want that to happen

but i really dont know. although it's not my birthday yet, i made a wish just now

i wish that my luck can just come back to me. PLEASE! im begging you. give me my luck back!

give me back my life... whatever is left of it





what an emo post. being 19 soon doesnt change a thing at all

like what i said. fuck it. fuck it all

Burning out

im waking up everyday in shambles. Life is a fucken hell for me. i feel so overloaded with things to do i just wanna explode to stop myself from worrying

I havent gotten the TV set done up yet
everyone seems to want smth(contribution) from me
and i now need to do the intro
and that im suddenly part of the video all of you were supposed to do up *thus the tv*
no you all did not discuss with each other. you just want everything to look nice
i feel so much hostility
i feel so lost without direction
it isnt helping that your tutorial everytime exceeds by an hour. on a friday
we have to stop thinking abt the limitations and just use some bloody solution
and now i have to redo the template?
and now i have to redo the questionaire?
and now i still dont have any ideas on wtf im bloody supposed to do?
and now i dont have time to rest
and now i hope that the world can just gobble me up and leave me alone
and now i just want to be with you
and tmr i have the PPP to attend to
and it's not helping that the deadline has been extended from monday to wed. it just means we're gonna keep staying in sch EVERY SINGLE DAY
and it's not helping that you all dont realise i have alot to do
and it's not helping that you're still adding more for me
and i'm not making noise because i dont want to be thought of as a freeloader

which is why im damn bloody draining myself out

• i hate marketing

• i hate year 3

1. last year at this time i was still skipping lectures and going home latest 5pm.
2. last year at this time i was slping 8 hours a day, watching my videos and playing my games
3. last year, i wasn't happy. but at least i dont feel like energy has been sucked out of me every single day
   

im just fatigued with all this shit.

i want out

but im not a quitter