A letter for someone beloved...

Kor... you left us suddenly 5 years ago...
Till today, mommy still miss you alot... being a mother myself now, I can feel totally what she's going thru...

Few days ago, I felt discomfort in my chest again... for a moment I thought if I was going to leave like u... then I thought of mommy, my two girls and all my loves one... I cant leave them just like that... thanks god... nothing happen...

Kor... if you do have "power", please guide your boys growing and bless them good health, good mind. Give your wife strength too. If still have remaining "power", help mommy to move on, let go her mourn and live on happily... like me.

I used to cry whenever I think of u too... but now seldom... not that I had forgotten you but I felt you didnt leave, just that you seldom come home... as I had kept you in my heart...

love you dearly,
Ah mei

A year later...

year 2007...
one tutu Clarabelle...














A year later...
dainty little fellow.














year 2007...
Two little girls, standing below the window frame...













A year later...
same spot but standing as high as the window frame.

What more???

Chating with some stranger painter...

A year for the children can be so much changes huh?

Happy Valentine's Day!

To you all, ladies . . .

and Kow! I got a surPRISE!

Hubby sent a bouquet of red roses to my office. For 10 years, this is the 2nd time... hee... anyway thank you Hubby, you did make my day, I was really surprised.

My Late Brother...

Partita used to be the ring tone on my handphone. Since my elder brother passed away last year, I have change my ring tone to other melody. Today I heard this Partita again, though it's sound old fashion as compare to all those hippy's own ring tone, it's still a nice, classic melody to me. But somehow it's sadden me also... ripping up the grief and loss I felt for my late brother... bringing me back to the wake... the grieve deep in everyone heart... bringing me back to brother's house... the melody echoing in the emptiness...
My elder brother had left us... he was only 33 then... leaving behind the wife and two toddlers... leaving behind our love for him...
Brother, you left us so sudden... Daddy & Mummy missed you very much... we have missed you very much...