The last time i cried throughout a bus journey duration was when I was in secondary school.
Back then, my seniors were graduating.
They are people whom I repected and held dearly. Among them is also my first crush.
Yesterday was the day Elysia flew off.
The feeling of farewell is still the same. But the amount of tears is lesser.
I've definitely matured, nevertheless, I could still work on concealing my emotions.
Even though I was reluctant, I knew that this trip would be beneficial to ely.
Not only would she further her studies and gain new insights in life, but also experience independence and mental development. This trip would definitely be significant and memorable to her.

Zhen de hen bu se de. It feels like I've lost a friend.
Its definitely hard to find a true friend and harder to maintain a genuine friendship.
Let hope for the best in everything! For ely and her new life, as well as for myself.

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I dont feel complete.
I have been waiting and anticipating for the right person to appear.
The one to ignite affection, anxiety, fidelity and jealousy in me.

But it has been such a long time that I could no longer feel my heart beat.
Though I know that I dont lack warmth in my life, being an emotionally driven girl, I no longer feel as enthusiastic and passionate about my daily life as I used to.

Have i been wasting my youth, fascinating for an impossible dream all along?
Yes, this is a sign of desperation.
If you do exist, please hurry and appear in my vision.

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Mummy has decided to spend her birthday on cruise this year.
This means that ive to get her present ready before going onboard. Not forgetting the pretending and concealing part. As so, I began my search this week.
This year, I bought a SK jewellery pendent for mummy for her coming birthday.
I didnt know what other gifts to get. Since im getting her a gift, it might as well be something useful or valuable. I spent the whole day today window shopping before deciding on this gift.
However, i must admit that it is an expensive gift. Im broke now. Seriously broke, like to less than 5 bucks on me now.

I hope i got the correct material and design.
I hope she likes it.
=)

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Couples in the ancient times are willing to give up their lives for their other half.
Me, living in today's world, what am I willing to forsake for love?
It makes me think a lot.

Am I too selfish, self-centred or I just havnt found that one person?
Just to what extend will I go to in search for true love.

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I used to keep convincing myself that you are not right for me, not healthy to my life, that I've to stop myself from getting too involved with you but when your news updated on my feeds today, I cant stop myself from taking a peep at it. Seeing all your updates only made me realized that for a period of time, you were actually really out of my life. Still, why do your pictures made me fluster? Why do i still find you so adorable, so rare? yet when I think back, I still believe that our personnality, life-style dont fit each other... Seeing your pictures together with her actually made me feel happy and relieve for you. Is she the girl who has changed you? Maybe she is the one for you. I cant help but feel so. I'm a coward and do really sux in this field. So forth, I wish that the two of you will remain blissful for a long period of time. Please continue, no, always be happy.

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People who are destined to be in my life, regardless of how long it might take, he/she will still return by my side.
Those who aren't destined to be in my life, regardless of how much I'd want to, he/she will still walk out of my sight.

When things change, the bond between people changes too.

Recently, someone I really like has returned into my life.
I dont know how long will the frickled-minded me treasure her, but I know right now, I'm very grateful.

I really really wish that every single one of those who are involved in my life would never leave because I am really happy with my current circle of friends.
However, I know that this is impossible.
The most I can do for them is to learn to appreciate and trust that our paths will meet again one day and never part from then.


signing off.

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After such a long time,why does it come back to hunt me again?
I thought that everything would have ended.
Why is it that I am feeling so afraid, at the same time, being so hopeful now?
If I am hoping for something to happen, aren't I being too pathetic?

The little mermaid,
wanting nothing in return yet continued to watch over by his side as an invisible being. Then turned into bubbles and disappear at the end.

The least I can do is not letting this story play itself twice.

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I started to wonder, how many times have I placed others before me?
When have I thought for others?
I must be really bad.

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