Friday, May 28, 2004
will be going to the airport soon!
yuppS. gonnA miSs everyone in singApore~ yupS.
gonna be off shores for like 16 days!
btw, will be heading to sarawak to kampong kiding( it's up in the mountains) to help to built a black smith, writting traditional stores and all
that will be longest period of time not seeing my parents, sisters, friends.. shessh..
seriously dunno what to say neh~
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just worried that i wouldnt want to board the airplane later [ haha, grab my dad's legs! ] i mean.. it's been 10 years since i've last sat on an airplane.
hiaK.
i think i'm gonna cry soon!!!!!!!! hahaha! i'm seriously on an emotion roller coaster now. and it seems that i'm not prepared at all, though we've been training hard on our phyical trainings.
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it's all in the head, i guess.
maybe it wouldnt be as bad as i'm thinking right now...
maybe the toilets at the kampong's gonna be like 5 star?! HAHAHA ( dream on, qian ru.)
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to my dad: papa! i'll miss you!! work hard in singapore and dun think too much about me cause` i'll take care of myself! thanks for talking me round on sunday-- seriously felt sooooo much better! i love you!
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to my mum: Mummy~~ thanks for all the encouragements you've given me all this while. i know you're definitely more excited than me for this "holiday" lah! hahaha! oh wellS. mum, dont get too stressed at work or at home okay?! i love you!
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tO my sisters: hey! jx, you'll gonna have a whole room to yourself for like 16 days! the television for 16 days! i know you'll gonna love it. thanks for giving me that little hug of yours this morning before you went to school, i'm gonna miss our quarrels we make for the next 16 days!! jx, i love you!
feLicia~ hey! i know you were the first one to see me cry on that sunday. hahaha! i know you've tried soooo hard for me to tell you wat on earth happened to me lah! budden, right now.. your mei mei's gonna go strong for the next 16 days. and yes, you probably wont get to bully me lah! hahaha! kidding. and thanks for volunteering yourself to be my "maid" up to the mountaion lah! hAhAh! oh wellS. big sister, i'm gonna miss you much okay?! thanks for making me happy all this while lah! take good care of the family okay?!
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I'm just gonna miss sooOOoooo many people lah! gotto rush to bathe already, everyone, please take good care of yourselves!!
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LOVE,
qiAn rU

Sunday, May 23, 2004

Today you might hear of possible opportunities that might be rather ephemeral, QIAN RU. They'll appear to be very promising, and that could be the truth. However, they could be so far in the future that they mean little right now, or they could depend on too many contingencies that haven't been confirmed yet. Make some notes and exchange phone numbers or email addresses with your contacts, then file them away. That's all you can do at this time.
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my tears couldnt stop flowing just now.. what is wrong with me, really?
have i made the best decision?
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there's so many things to decided upon sometimes.. but maybe this time, i cant turn back, i cannot regret the decision i've made.
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Leaving On a Jet Plane
All my bags are packed, I'm ready to go
I'm standing here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye

But the dawn is breaking it's early morn
The taxi's waiting he's blowin' his horn
Already I'm so lonesome I could die

CHORUS
So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
'cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe I hate to go

There's so many times I've let you down
So many times I've played around
I tell you now they don't mean a thing

Everyplace I go I'll think of you
Every song I sing I'll sing for you
When I come back I'll wear your wedding ring

CHORUS

Well the time has come to leave you
One more time let me kiss you
Then close your eyes and I'll be on my way

Dream about the days to come
When I won't have to leave you alone
About the times I won't have to say...

CHORUS
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Haha. remembered elaine was singing this particular song on friday-- for self entertainment. love this long forgotton song.. yupps.
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so many things are occuring in my life. Probably, its the same for you. but let's hope that things will turn on the right track.
it seeems that i'm holding back onto something. those tissue papers could never hold the amount of tears i had in my eyes.
i feel like a loser-- at times.. especially when i start to get teary.
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i do not like to cry.
but i cant hold back my tears..
i have to make em` flow..
probably to make me feel better.
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confused with those messed up relationship i have with my friends.. i do not know what i'm thinking about the situation right now.
everyone have their own point of views.
tired of the pressure from every corner of the house.
i cannot even cry at home.. in my room, privately.
my tears just have to flow..
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will be flying off the sarawak 5 days from now.
on the friday, may 23. i'll be off.
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i hope i have made the right decision.








i hope i have made the right decision by then.

Friday, May 21, 2004

"Today's primary concern may be to channel a great deal of energy into completing a project on which you have been working for a long time. The satisfaction resulting from this accomplishment could well be overwhelming; at some point you could find yourself collapsed in a chair, thinking of nothing but your achievement. Don't be afraid to give yourself a pat on the back, QIAN RU; you've earned it. Spend the evening celebrating!"
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full marks for today's horoscope for meh today! =D
yuppS. though it was a veryveryvery VERY tiring day for me, the outcome of the whole situation was not badd at all.
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you see, i had the sarawak briefing not long ago and my group ( Logistics/Welfare) had to make sandwiches for the parents. hahaa! had a great time cutting the sides of the bread and all. spreading butter and yes, the best part was:
To Eat The Sandwhiches-- whenever we felt like it.
HAHA.. and the best part was. i ate like 5 to 7 slices?!
I'm gonna be a sandwich soon. hahaha!
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oh yeah.
this was the joke for the day, i dunno if you are able to understand but the 9 of us (mainly, mich, wx,esther,eva,dy,alan,elaine,hy & myself) will probably remember it for life.
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you see, we had to buy souvenirs for the villagers whom we're gonna to live with. hence, one of our group members ( his name is alan, anyway) was kind enuf to buy superbly cheap and excelllent gifts i tell you.
so we were all crooning at the merlion "statue" which looked really cool and prestigious. and best of all, it seriously looked expensive.and we have intended to present this gift to the village chief.

so we were all crowding round alan who held that " statue" when we all kept praising how nice it was.. suddenly we heard some seriously childish music and to our horror, it was from the "prestigious" merlion statue.

we all kept silent for a split second becus we were seriously surprised -- we were supposed to give this " Statue" that made loud music to the village chief? HAHAHA. and then we all started laughing-- very loudly.
hahahaha!
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ooh wellx. got back my results today and yea.. i dropped all the way down. so it is depressing. but i know i cant don anything about it except to work hard--especially on my math. failed 3 subjects... uugh.dont wanna talk about it anymore.
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Sunday, May 16, 2004

You need an infusion of excitement into your love life, QIAN RU. It is not that you don't care deeply for your partner, but you are beginning to feel an overwhelming sense of enthusiasim every time you are together. Surely there must be more to life. Well, guess what? You are not the only one in your relationship who is feeling this way. Why not have a heart-to-heart with your significant other? Together, the two of you can strategize ways to pull yourselves out of this rut.

yes!! this is sooooo me!
full marks for today's prediction for me!

oh man. just came back from the fruit stall!!!!!!!!!
sheesZ.this is plain madness.
never thought i'll see him again ( c'mon, it's a sunday. he's supposed to go out right?)
heck. it shows that he's a good boy. HAHAHAHA *slaps forehead* i dunno what i'm typing about.. probably delete this entry after a few days.
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my younger sister was right, she was telling me i'll see him again. if i took that extra effort to go down to the stall.
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you know.. i stepped up one step and took a peep at the stall! and see~ i saw this little boy.. and yes. i thought it was him! LITTLE BOY!
qian ru,qian ru.. you're too paranoid already.
so.. yah. my hopes were all crashing down.
and i was drinking milk tea at the stall while mom was talking to granny and aunt. my younger sister was drinking her milo...
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then i saw him..
i almost got chocked by my milk tea when he was just by my side.
oh man.. no change from him at all. still as cute as ever..he was wearing this red shirt and an orange 3/4 berms. ( the one you can buy from the night market?) hahahahahahahahhahah! sheesh. my younger sister kept grinning at me( i think she spoke a little too loudly when she turn to me and say " wah! he so tall one meh?") she also kept giving that look of " see, i told you that you'll be able to see him again." heck. and he was also looking at me.. my hair, to say the obvious. and then he smiled at me!! he smiled at me!!!!!!!! oh shees. told you i'm mad already.
actually, come to think of it, i'm afraid he thinks that i'm not a straight. hAHAHAHAHA!
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he kept walking behind me.. as in, kept pacing around. and yes. my heart was pumping that fast. you know. i almost spit out my milk tea.. and i was muttering to myself " oh shyza. what am i supposed to do?" and he was still smiling when he sat beside my mom. yes.. my mom was in the middle of the 2 of us. *croons*
yes, he greeted my granny.( he is sooo poilte) and listened attentively to them while i--- the idiot. dunno whether i should talk to him. his smile never fade away, i tell you. i love people who smile just like me! hahahaha!
i didnt in the end.. i mean. i couldnt say anything else, right? that is one thing i really reallly really regret right now. and he walked away and never came back again.
*shakes head*
it just happpened too fast and i was still in a shock? yeah.. cause i said that my hopes of him coming down to the shop on a sunday is pretty weird. ( i heard that he is attached, that's why.)
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hahahha. it's been 4 months and 2 days since i've seen him
seriously, i thought the feeling has already faded away.. and i never thought that same kind of " heart pumping of a rate of 900" " splurting out my milk tea" " glancing at him when he wasnt looking" would come back. seriously..
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whhh...atever. guess i'm almost above the moon! hahahah! thanks sis and michelle for listening to me on the phone. haha! love you guys man!
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heh.. it was 340pm when i saw him. and he went off at about 4? i think? heh.
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so it isnt a bad day for me after all! i'm soooo happy~

sheesh.
i'm kinda shagged out today...
things aint going on the right track.
last evening wasnt fantastic either, but heck.
i pray things get better inside my home man..
hmm.
cant go swimming cause i have to go take a look at my hiking bag from my cousin later at the fruit stall.
well, guess it's confirm i'm off to sarawak-- which is a good thing, and a bad thing.
dun wannna go into the details!
yuppS.
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just bought nicholas sparks " The Guardian" on friday. after my hair cut! hahaha! and also bought a CD for 990. ( it's not pirated, so cheerios)
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love all nicholas sparks books.. i'll definitely collecting all of his books neh! and yes..
my hair is short. you know.. t.h.a.t short. actually not that short but short.
ha~ what on earth am i talking about? but heck. it will grow.. actually i think i look pretty good.
but it seems that my friends aint getting use to it larh. hahha! and yes.. a cute guy help my wash my hair in the salon. my elder sis thought he was cute too. haha. he looked like Toro. seriously, ( and stop laughing your heads off) especially his upper part of face.
hahaha
and he is interested in my sister.. but too bad. my elder sister is attached already! =p
he kept asking me abt my sister.. actually he had a great technique. he asked my questions before asking about my sister.. you know like
" how old are you?"
" 15"
" oh.. how old is your sister then?"
" 20"
Wahahaha!
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anyway, he's too old for meh! ( this is soo obvious)
okay... gonna go off soon! need to go to the fruit stall already!
please dun get a shock tomorrow morn.

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