This week has been emotional, probably due to the FYP bomb that has suddenly landed on us 2 weeks ago that has forced me to question myself where do I want to go in the future, what do I want to do with this FYP. I'm seeing it as an opportunity to create whatever I want.
I've never felt so strongly for things in a long time that I would go all out and talk to people for advice. It has made me come to a realisation that I have reached the end of Year 3 in my 4 years here in ADM and I really don't want my learning to end so soon. I'm usually a quiet person, who's shy to speak, or tends to get nervous when I'm speaking perhaps to a stranger or in a public space. But these days I've been hopping around my profs' offices to talk, or to my dear peers who are always there to listen me out. I'm truly grateful for that.
There is something about ADM that has changed my life, especially in terms of thinking. I can feel the capacity of my brain growing, how I keep posing questions to myself or find things interesting that I want to investigate further. I love all my classes this sem and I am sad that it is coming to an end.
I found a special liking to my symbolism in film prof, who is about 80 years old with a huge tummy of knowledge and life experience. Imagine a person having lived through the 2 world wars, I think it is really incredible that he stands here in my class and shares with us his insight about a new film every week. I never thought we could look at a film this way even though I tend to fall asleep through these extremely difficult and abstract films. But I do enjoy playing "detective" to catch all these "symbols" planted, it's like mystery solving. A process frustrating but rewarding when you do find something worth investigating. He said he's involved in an exhibition with a media artist who's celebrating his 100th birthday this year, and again I thought these old people are so amazing to be alive and sharing their experiences to the world. I can't wait to be old!
Then there's Graphic Design, what I appreciate most about J is that she brings in guests to crit our work or give us lectures. Today again, I felt very small and that I'm young and naive, underexposed to the large world out there. And I really appreciate her for lending me a listening ear, sharing her life experiences and answering my questions all the time.
Tomorrow's gona my last lecture for history of animation, last class with Capuzzo. He has so much energy and life when he talks about all the works of the entire course the whole time that it is hard not to like him. It is so fun to listen to him talk about his awe for Cinderella, sharing this elaborate candle light holder thing with a landscape of Paris so intricately carved that he says represents our society. This society is already so well made that we're not lacking anything so how can we contribute, where do we stand? After that he switched off the lights and lighted a candle in. The Paris landscape changed, now with the light, the shadow casted upon takes an even more beautiful shape of the city. Wow, we exclaimed. Then he said, this is how you can contribute, we are living in it, we are the light to this society, making it more beautiful.
There's also Joe in Prod class who's been very nice, like a Dad with many kids taking us to field trips to print and paper houses, 睁一只眼，闭一只眼 on our tardiness and slack.
Just want to say I've absorbed a lot, just like a sponge and it's overflowing. I've taken a lot from my teachers and now that I'm coming to my final year, I want to be able to give out, all the things that I've taken and fuse something that I can contribute back in return. Perhaps that could be a direction I can look into for my FYP, applying this to a subject I feel very strongly about.
That's what's been going on my mind this whole day, so being the open book that I am, showing it all on my face unknowingly, people start to ask me what's wrong, am I okay. I feel so loved. haha. Thank you all, I'm really okay, just a little emotional today. : )))
On the last Friday of 2011, I made an egg stand after much effort. :')
My veggies are doing well.
My friend wrote me a new "egg"mon theme song.
As for my resolution for the new year 2012:
I was very lucky to have attended a 3 day workshop with Helmut Schmid, a typography designer currently residing in Osaka, Japan. He is 69 this year, and attended the Basel School of Design in Switzerland during the 1960s under the great masters of design and typography, one of them Emil Ruder, people we read about in graphic history books. To be able to meet a man coming from such a long history like this is really amazing, what more learn from the master himself.
The bottom one's my final outcome for the workshop and I feel honoured that he liked it. It's not very often that we concentrate working on one single thing for so long, particularly a string of sentences that could possibly be easily done within perhaps an hour at most usually. Spending one hour to work on a quote may even be too long. In this fast paced society we've long forgotten to slow down to read and feel truly for what words mean and should stand for, adequately on its own without the need to "make it nice".
I realise all my interests seem to be things that are distant from my own life, be it my interest in Japanese, watching films or even SMAP. Yes they are close to heart but at the same time they're also all not close to me at all, or are they even issues. They're just alternate realities/stories/universe that I'd like to watch and listen to. 
记得有一次跟某友人说过，东部的天空好像比较大。住在西部的我不曾记得这里的天空有怎样，都被组屋遮挡住了感觉好像比较小。今天骑着脚车走新的路线，第一次看见一片好辽阔的天空，而且还离我家不远。许多美好的东西似乎好像一直都在，只是没发现。
I wonder how the residents feel staring out their windows and see this towering structure in their midst.
So I stared outside the window with my camera in hand hoping to catch a shot when we drove past these structures. If I had to find a word to describe these structures, it would be they are so symmetrical perfect, its wires slice the skies in equal parts. That's its beauty I guess.
This's my proudest shot.
The lake frozens and look at the brownish grass, gosh, just breathtaking. I was looking forward to scenes shot in the house every episode. Not to mention the interior of the house, every piece of furniture was modern and classy, matching Joo Won, the character who owns the house. He can sit at the bridge with legs dangling when he's feeling down, he can pick up a book and sit on a pure white sofa looking out the window. The possibilities of doing emotional scenes with this beautiful house and looking good are infinite! The koreans are really good at scouting good locations to shoot their films, not to mention, fashion too. + 10 for korean dramas. 
现在只想在家里睡觉看戏来充充电。
