Only in my dreams...

This is a picture of my cute Nana and my niece Eve. They look so cute, all ready for bed! I really miss her. My Nana died last December and like I said, I miss her. A lot.

Last night I had a dream and she was in it. In my dream I had forgotten she passed away, and we were talking and laughing with my mom and my aunt. At one point, she started to cry and when I asked her why she was crying she said, "I am sad because I am going to miss you! But I'm not afraid to die, because I know. I know today just like I knew yesterday. I know!"

I wouldn't say the dream was disturbing, but it has been on my mind since I woke up. One of my cousins was in my dream too, and in my dream she told me she was struggling.
I told her that I had been having a hard time too and she said, "I don't think I'm here by coincidence."

So...what does it all mean?

That I don't know, but I feel strongly that my Nana was trying to tell me something. I really felt her talking to me, through a dream, but I don't know what I'm supposed to know. Is she telling me to have more faith? Is she reassuring me she is with our Heavenly Father? Is she directing me to my cousin so we can help each other? Honestly, I don't know...

I do miss my Nana terribly. She used to write me letters all the time with words of encouragement and her testimony. She just seemed to know when I needed something to lift my spirits. She'd include notes that would say, "This is a hug from me to you" and signed every letter with hugs and kisses. Maybe she was sending me some encouragement from beyond the veil? Letting me know she's still there? I'm not sure.

But I hope she visits my dreams again! I love you Nana!