i'm starting to pack my luggage for our overseas trip. got lots of things like contact lens! should i bring my permanent or daily ones? i'm very excited about it =)) especially the thought of travelling with my friends!!

it's so long since i posted an entry ya? coz i keep saving my entries as drafts which are a little private. been a little down lately. but now i'm so much better. actually largely because of siow yun!! =) she is so sweet i love her. just when my world devoid of love came crashing down, she found love in my heart again. maybe she doesn't know how important she is to me, but she is =) love you siow yun!!! muacks muacks muacks. you saved my life =) the 9pm show said everyone has a guardian angel, and if your guardian angel knows you're unhappy, it will turn into someone and enter your life to make you happy again. so sweet.

wrote a CCA testimonial for myself last night. we're required to do it so that it'll be put into our graduation certificate for university admission. it's the first time i'm praising myself so openly and i felt so thick-skinned hahaha. but it managed to make me feel good about myself. it's a good thing!

i'm elated that Minister Lim Swee Say commended our dance on College Day. (:

went out on friday to celebrate cheryl's birthday with kenny, pamela, zhenhui and pras. ate dinner and went to the basketball court! bought her a nice and delicious cake heehee (= hope she enjoyed our little outing. love ya (=

ok, now is really studying time!!! i love to study! yes i really do =)

my dearest friend, i've felt like what you are feeling before. i felt i wasn't good enough and i've let myself and my friends down. but you've got to stop thinking this way. for friends love one another for who they are. even if you think you're really bad, although it's not true, seek ways to improve yourself as a friend. open up your heart. but don't jeopardize your studies. i'm sure you are capable of doing it, and will eventually be the ideal friend you want to be. just want to tell you, don't be so hard on yourself. it's painful. makes me sad too.

just came back from HCI's Dance concert!!! went with my dearest jancy, josephine, cuishan, qianning and jieling!! and zeling my sec school mate =) it was an exciting night!! plus a BIT hilarious haha. the chinese dance white costume that one =P AND AND i saw ivan! i really didn't expect to see him. but i heard people from band practising so i went towards the music. then i saw someone playing the trombone and he really really looks like ivan. but i don't dare to call him in case it's not then super paiseh!!! hahaha. then he suddenly look up and said "ay?!" haha it's him! he said he almost couldn't recognise me haaa. after that went into the auditorium for the dance concert.. =) sat quite far at the back but still can see yup!! the chinese dance with the silver costume was really really great. really. the emotions... it left the deepest impression on me. saw their syf modern dance too. they were 2 dances before us on that day and i could remember their music!! coz that day we were standing backstage and listening. they have got lots of props and most of their dances are hiphop. really different from aj dance :) haha the vibrating one very cute... =PPP after the concert, went to meet alicia. didn't know she's in HCI dance! and i saw kelvin!!! my primary school mate! haha!! fancy seeing him after 8 years. he's grown tall!! hahaha still very thin. when he was dancing i didn't know it's him coz sit quite far haha. but his dance was great! really happy to see him. overall the concert was good and entertaining =)

yesterday ms in told us to give up dancing once our genting competition in the second week of june is over. she said it's time to dedicate all the time we have to our studies because ultimately, it is our A level certificate that is going to determine how far we go in life and not how well we dance. it is a pragmatic world, unless we want to earn our livelihood being a dancer. but the journey of dancers is always painful and full of practices. it's sad many people don't get to follow their passion.. but i will never give up dancing. for now i'll concentrate in my studies. after that, i'm going to dance again =)

A levels, here i come!

SO MUCH to do!!!

i really hope to get knocked down by a car one day. so that i'll die. don't worry, i'm not suicidal. coz i know i can't end my own life because of responsibility. getting knocked down by a car is different; people don't blame you for it. haha.

despite this thought, i will live my life strongly and bravely. i must be strong!!

yongyong said she dreamt of me, arlana and qianning dancing at her house downstairs. then suddenly i was standing at her window. and she added it was a NIGHTMARE. HAHA she wants to die!!! but i can't bear to kill her ;)

oh yeah went to xh's cl concert today!! it was really enjoyable. great job xh for the lighting!! haha ;))

hmmhmm going for blood test tmr morning. waking up at 7 plusplus! oh my. panda eyes.