i had a haircut last sat =) finally after 12 months. i didn't cut my hair ever since the very first time ms in ordered us not to because of syf. which is.. last year around may. and my hair has grown horribly long like those ancient women from china. whooph!! haha now my head is much much lighter and i can swing my hair like those girls on shampoo ads. whee ;)

today's track and field meet. to think there's still lessons in the morning!!! hardworking aj. anw, PANTHER got first!!! yeyeye! happy =D

yawwwwwwwwwwwwnsss. i'm tired. there's maths common test on thursday. don't need to wish me luck coz i sure fail. ya. hahaha. better go study now.

and to you, good luck for your online test tmr! poor thing. labour day still have online test. really really really must take care. haha :)

we got Gold with Honours!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! can you believe it??? i can't believe it!! all of us truly thought we're going to get silver. coz our teacher in charge talked to us yesterday about the lighting was so bad until cannot see what we are dancing. we felt so sad and hopeless at that point of time! we practised so hard yet the judges can't see???? so we cried and cried and cried and cried and cried. and we didn't danced as well as we did during practices. it is really true that you have to put in 120 percent of effort so that during the real thing there's 100 percent or 90plus percent on stage. coz it's always lesser due to anxiety, nervousness, fear, and other factors. we really thought we're going to get silver man. really ok. that's why i tell my friends it's super bad. and i don't dare to tell them now what we got except those who heard. hahah. we're so scared other people will think we're hypocrites coz this moment we're saying it's damn bad and the next we got this. we mean what we say =( just that this news is really a bonus to our feelings! i was so shocked when mdm khoo told me. then i just burst into tears in front of my classmates. i really really want to thank julianah, xiaohui, shalini, rina, eileen, shi qian, constance, clara, yen yen, deborah, hauyin, gekchoo, kaling, hida, farah and the whole class lah!! haha! they are really supportive and i am very touched. =) love you all =)

i can still rem when we were at back stage, the MC said, "serial number 1120(i think): Anderson Junior College." whoaa it was so formal to me! the stage was pitch dark. a once in a lifetime experience. ;) then when i ran out to the stage with jieling, weivien, xinyi, siping, and qianning i saw the eight judges with super bright yellow lights at each of their place. hahaha before that i had to psycho myself so many times not to be scared ! luckily it worked ;) wheehee! it seems like a dream, yet when we think of the rough patch we went through the past ten months we are so overwhelmed by the good news until we just cry.

although ms yong has long flown to spain, i must say

Thank You Ms Yong!!!
our choreographer. :)

Thank You Renxin!!!
for standing in as our instructor and taking up the stress and challenge. you're a wonderful teacher to us.

and

Thank You Dancers!!!!
thank you arlana, jieling, weivien, jancy, cuishan, josephine, siping, xinyi, qianning, yee shin, daphne for going through thick and thin together, for laughing together and for crying together in times of sadness and happiness. all of us put in our best to make it happen. =) and the j1s jiamin chunmeng eugenia for your perseverance and for doing SO well even though it was only 4 months of practice for you all. =)

thank you pamela! thank you bertram! thank you kenny! =)
for being there. =) don't kill me, coz i really really thought it was bad. haha =(

cj uploaded their dance on to youtube le. they were the dance before us. so when they're dancing we're just backstage. :)

hope i can see our dance on youtube soon. haha =)

thanks everyone again for being here for us!!!

pain.

a pain that only us could understand.

we cried till our tears dried up, so deep inside, our heart continues to bleed.

15 minds, one heart.

we practised almost everyday for these ten months for 7 minutes. tmr is the day.
i'm feeling sad. yeah.

i'm sleeping at 10.30pm tonight. =) the earliest for a long long time ;)

thanks to all those who wished me all the best!

i love our dance and all of you. i really really do.

it's such a torment to my heart...

saturday, sunday, monday, tuesday, SYF
so scary!! we only have sat's practice coz mon and tues are used up for college day rehearsal. that's why today we had self-practice even without our instructor. hai..so nervous.

i think being in aj dance society has really made me grow up a lot in these few months. i think differently, and have learnt to see things in a more positive way even when everything seems in the worst shape. it's very important to have a positive outlook in life, because it makes you happier and the people around you happy too =) and i should thank ms in for scolding us real badly everytime she sees us coz her lashing remarks made me ever stronger. it's up to us whether we find her scoldings demoralising, or motivating. and we chose to turn her negative views of us into strength for us to do better.

yesterday's practice is SO physically and mentally exhausting. i think all of us pushed ourselves over our limits coz we couldn't breathe towards the end. too stressed perhaps. we'll dance even better tmr =) JIA YOU everybody!! one more serious dance practice to our big day.

my dearest siow yun, i'll always be here with you. i know you are very very sad, and i don't know what i can say to make you feel better. just know, i'll always be your friend and always loving you. *HUG*

You are my hiding place...

I could feel God's love.

YE man!!!! i'm so so so so so so soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo happy!!!! my heart has flown to the skies. =)

haha you know why? coz i'm sharing a room with cui shan!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY! i'm so excited. for our genting trip! wahahaha. 2 persons to one room. and this year's J1 batch has got a guy. so he can sleep at the corridor then. =P

today is another crazy day spent with my fellow dancers! haha =)))

[c=19]d.B captain of my life's voyage[/c] * 缘 . 舞jiayou! * darlings =) says:
i'm a little addicted to taking photos

[c=19]d.B captain of my life's voyage[/c] * 缘 . 舞jiayou! * darlings =) says:
hahaha

::.:wanqi:.:: feelings. says:
HAHA !

[c=19]d.B captain of my life's voyage[/c] * 缘 . 舞jiayou! * darlings =) says:
at least we'll have many photos to look back on after a few years

[c=19]d.B captain of my life's voyage[/c] * 缘 . 舞jiayou! * darlings =) says:
hahha

::.:wanqi:.:: feelings. says:
haha yup!

::.:wanqi:.:: feelings. says:
=)

::.:wanqi:.:: feelings. says:
i'll miss you all so much

::.:wanqi:.:: feelings. says:
so everytime i see you all, i treasure these times like mad

[c=19]d.B captain of my life's voyage[/c] * 缘 . 舞jiayou! * darlings =) says:
me too =)

[c=19]d.B captain of my life's voyage[/c] * 缘 . 舞jiayou! * darlings =) says:
i think i'll cry after we finish our last dance prac

[c=19]d.B captain of my life's voyage[/c] * 缘 . 舞jiayou! * darlings =) says:
hahaha

[c=19]d.B captain of my life's voyage[/c] * 缘 . 舞jiayou! * darlings =) says:
which is like.. 25th apr

::.:wanqi:.:: feelings. says:
yeah=(

::.:wanqi:.:: feelings. says:
oh man.. *cry!*

[c=19]d.B captain of my life's voyage[/c] * 缘 . 舞jiayou! * darlings =) says:
=(

[c=19]d.B captain of my life's voyage[/c] * 缘 . 舞jiayou! * darlings =) says:
i'll bring a dozen tissue boxes on that day

[c=19]d.B captain of my life's voyage[/c] * 缘 . 舞jiayou! * darlings =) says:
half for us to wipe our make up and the other for us to dry our tears x_x

haha me and jieling's conversation.. so sad. i can't stress enough how much i love them. i want 25th april to come!!! yet i don't want it to..

i think i'll just flood the whole dance room with tears. i think i'm being very emo. hahah

today's econ lesson is ................ i can't find any right adjective for it.

miss cai was so fierce to me today. i didn't do anything wrong. i just found difficulty answering her question. in every econs lesson, she never failed to call my name to answer her questions. today, she scolded me so indirectly. her remarks were so cutting and her words were so unpleasant. i will never forget that hostile glance she casted at me. i would have felt less insulted if she had done it directly and not beat around the bush just to shoot unkind comments towards me. she made it sound as if she was addressing the problem to the whole class, i don't know if the whole class got her underlying message, but the people around me all knew she was aiming at me. they said she was too much, and i felt very upset about it. so upset until i didn't feel like looking at her face while she's teaching and i just stared at my own paper throughout the whole lesson like some autistic kid. when a student is weak in the subject, i thought a teacher would be understanding enough to talk to the student nicely and find out what she does not know. but my teacher didn't. she just flared up. i'm not those rebellious students who can't be bothered. i did my homework and tried my best to understand. yet she thinks i did not. it's very hurting on the receiving end. i'm not one of those bright students for her to be favoured on, but there's no reason for her to be so mean towards me.

amerlyn's so sweet. i was so touched when i saw her msg asking me not to be discouraged. i love her man.

anyway, i don't have to go school from friday to tuesday. aj wants us to stay at home for e-learning. oh better than nothing. at least we can get to sleep in. =)

it's time to update.
very tired..........................................................................................................................

how do i ever cope with my jc life???
=(((((((((((((((((((((((((((

help me.

WAKE UP. stop playing. do your homework. jiayou wanqi =(