yesterday! i went VIVOCITY with eileen xiaohui rina shalini and julianah (= it's such a nice place! and of course i went with the right people to the right place at the right time haha that's why it's so enjoyable. a lot of couples there~~ haha i saw one kissing so i pointed at them to tell my friends to look =P the girl saw me and told her bf and her bf looked back at me hahaha. aha anyway the exterior of vivocity looks like the decks of the ship so i can fantasize hahaha since i'm deprived of a cruise. the scenery of the sea and sentosa is so nice! =) haha and we dipped our feet in the water at the sky garden. finally living a LIFE! xD we watched world trade centre there. quite a nice movie yup. after that we went toy 's' rus to play with dolls halloween hats and ELMO (haha i think we played everything there)and we tried out the little DRESSES hahaha! i'm cinderella eileen's snow white xiaohui's sleeping beauty julianah's belle and hahah shalini's barbie doll. the cutest =P the pics are very funny la~ i'm still waiting for julianah's cam pics to load so i can upload everything haha. but she's busy with council and pw so no hurry =)) after playing like little girls we went banquet to eat. it's very funny eileen and i wanted to eat good food but in the end we ended up in the food court haha! but the banquet there is nice. then we went out to the "ship deck" to look at the night view. so nice! we took some photos again and saw quite a few ajcians there eh. especially elvin ng hahaha. xiaohui is so siao!! she wanted to follow him leh. haha alamak. oh yeah we ate ben and jerry's ice cream yup. very nice. after that i think we went candy empire to buy nice chocolates. then home sweet home~~ haha i reached home at around 11.
vivocity is a sweet place~ (:

It upsets me the way people are being so "happy" when the circumstances don't allow them to be. they can be so natural.. so normal like who they were in the past, but somehow i could feel it, that it was all unreal. it's such a terrible feeling, and it makes me want to cry, but i feel i don't have the right to. who am i to cry when everything's going so well for me compared to theirs? my sadness.. i think it's written all over my face because i don't smile as often as i could. but all these are so superficial, i mean i feel truly sad, and they are "happy", but it's all on the surface.. deep down they're feeling so terrible, so lousy, that they decided to cover their pain and tears with the smiles and laughter. it hurts me, but i know it hurts themselves the most. why... when no one else was around they would show their real feelings of fear and helplessness, and hope. i wanted to hug my dance friend, to tell her everything's not ok but they're going to be okay. but i didn't. perhaps i feel that the time's not right. i don't say "i love you" to the people i love, but actually i do. and very very much. My good friend, she's going to retain, i saw her in the canteen today. i wasn't sure if she wanted to see me because i was afraid i would upset her. but she called me where she was and told me to go over. she talked to me about some stuff and we hugged each other. i didn't dare smile too much, after all it's not a happy thing. it's sad.

what can i do for you? )=

nothing...

i'm very happy today. =) coz i can PROMOTE!! wahh happy like siao. although my results aren't that good, i made quite a huge improvement i think. (: i'm really glad i finally made it and my hard work paid off (:

i'm sure my other friends can promote too. there will always be a way out.

oh yeah, haha pak sorry ah. i put my status as busy but i was away that's why never reply you. haha thanks k. ya =)

happy!!

today got back maths paper and gp. actually supposed to get back only maths but there was a sudden change of events haha. when i got back my maths the red colour thing at the bottom of the paper was super low. but i told myself at that very moment, that i've tried my best. what more can i do? perhaps it's beyond my capability... but i've never lost faith in myself. i fought from the beginning of the exams till the last, there were many times i wanted to give up but i didn't because i can't afford to. i didn't cry, but when after the teacher told us to leave when there are no mistakes in the marking, tears suddenly welled up in my eyes. i dunno why, but i managed to control myself. there's no need to cry because it doesn't help things, unless it helps us vent our emotions. but still, i didn't. perhaps i just felt upset that after all the hard work and i mean really hard work, i wasn't able to get a decent grade. maybe i didn't work hard enough, hard enough for this demanding jc life.

but gp made my day. at least it made me a little happier. (:
tmr will be a better day, i believe. and yongyong will always be the happy girl i know.

i'm tired.

PWPWPWPWPWPWPWPWPW AHHHHHHH
i want to kong people's heads. don't worry not yours. =)

ohh i saw yongyong today in school. she told me she still had geography paper on monday and told me to wish her luck. haha. hope my luck can help her have more confidence in herself. poor girl.. she looks maybe a bit more stressed than us.

i really do hope the both of us can pull through. yess.

chocolate buffet tmr!

Simple Strawberry Treaties

go to the above link! it's my friend's blog shop. selling from belts, earrings, charms all the way to necklaces ah! haha best in singapore and jb and all over the world ah! haha really lah. =) she made all those with love and at a reasonable price yup. guys can go see also. buy for girlfriends haha. yaya.

it's the coolest blogshop i've ever seen (=

promos over! over. i'm scared i... oh well. shan't think about such stuff yet. jc life is really very difficult. it just dawned on me the price i have to pay if i don't study hard enough. how do you define enough? study until your brains burst? or study until you go cranky. it's quite depressing yeah. that jc people don't have a life. i mean it all depends on ourselves whether we can have fun. but sometimes the circumstances don't allow us to. whywhywhywhy? it's kind of the first time i'm feeling so stressed. erhhh.

anyway, we went out after promos today. went airport haha. AND kena stalked by some crazy guy. he's quite young but a little older than us. SIAO. it's really obvious that he's stalking us coz he kept looking at us and follow us for around one hour plus??? haha kenny he's not trying to look for honey. we almost wanted to alert the police at the airport but we managed to shake him off. yeah. typical terrorist. sigh.

there's so much to do, so much to think of. when can i ever be happy? truly happy...





















btw, the keynesian view = kns view = kanasai view.
to all those who hate economics.
=)