Let's take this journey together,
where ecstacy is not a word,
but a reality.
Amanda
Angeline
Aurelia
Cheryl
Cherlynn
Dayana
Diana
Eunice
Kat
Mr. Khoo
Priscilla
Priya
Rina
ShiHui
Wendy
XiaXue
Dawn Yang
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Monday,
Bed ridden for most of the day, i have been pushing my body too hard. Nonetheless, i have my Ghost whisperer to keep me company. My lump of worries, i need to address the fear soon.
Constantly I think of her,
she’s always on my mind.
To me she is the perfect girl,
who I never thought I’d find.
I didn’t know I’d fall so fast,
she swept me off my feet.
I want to hold her close to me,
feeling our hearts beat.
I wish that she could see inside of me,
inside my head and heart.
Then she’d know without a doubt,
that I will never part.
Charmaine you are the only one,
you are a dream come true.
I can’t wait to spend my life,
each day in love with you.
Tuesday,
The mood has been swinging real hard and the screw almost broke lose. I didn't have a PRE menstrual syndrome but a POST menstrual syndrome. The victim slowly died in my hands, as i tortured with excruciating verbal pain.
Heavy dinner with Rina, gorge myself because somehow food makes me happy, it stimulates the hormones in me. I was chewing gum, bit the tip of my tongue and it bled non-stop, i even saw a tiny piece of flesh dangling.
Chris showed up and it caused a mental block for us during the last few practices of new routines but i manage to get the moves right after more rounds. We've been a tad too tofu for previous classes, this time i made an effort to add more "ugh" forcefully to the moves.
Macdonald's for supper.
Saturday,
I was practically cracking the brains, pulsating those cells to work out the time difference for the flight. Meanwhile, i attended to the doorbell, to my surprise it was a delivery. My sweetest drug bought me a webcam, now that i'm gonna have so much of fun with it. With this, i could no longer hide those pimples or flaws, everything is so 1.3megapixel clear, no more noise effect.
Bugis-ed with Kalai, retail therapy, no tryings free sizes craze.
Sunday,
Happy 1st month anniversary sugar pie honey bunch!
I got a morning call from sweetest drug, drag myself out of bed. I have been dreading to get out of bed even though i have all the time in the world to sleep. Sweetest drug have his means of getting me laughing in fits, the old man pants pulled up to his chest, then recently, the retard face who tried to eat his ear repeatedly, do that and you know what i mean. I'm watching my boyfriend fall asleep under that furry leopard skin blanket now.
I pray to be lump free, healthy and nothing more.
Forgive but i can't forget, everyday i deal with this
I live with side effects, but i ain't gonna let them get the best of me
I finally built up the strength to walk away, don't regret it but i still live with my side effects
Thursday,
Before i slept in the morning, sweetest drug read me a bedtime story, Little Miss Curious. I'm just the life size version of it, aren't you all curious? And before he left for work, i was eating a bowl of Koko Crunch which he calls it dry Mimi, no spoon, no milk.
I have a ninja boyfriend who would creep up behind you and watch what you do.
I want to say I love you,
in a million ways.
I want to show my love for you,
each and every day.
You will do the same for me,
this much I know is true.
And for the rest of my life,
I will be in love with you.
Love,
Steve
Friday,
For my whole life, i've always been worried about lumps, be it big or small. It might signify something, it might be just an unnecessary illusion. The cyst like lump in my belly button, the lump in my breast, can't i just be lump free? I've been keeping the lifestyle healthy when it comes to what i put in my mouth, yes i do admit to having occasional unhealthy snacks but otherwise, i'm practically a rather fluid person, gulping those tasteless liquids which claims that 8 glasses of them is advisable.
Mom woke me up with some incessant and unreasonable reasoning, i just felt so terrible that i had to buzz my sweetest drug. I just finish babbling with sweetest drug on the phone while he's in his car. He's rushing home for me, i miss my man!
It's another couch potato day, i think i might become a bit fat potato one day.
Sunday,
Couch Potato-ed.
We met upon a mystery.
Two hearts, one fate how can it be?
My sweetest love of ecstasy;
I want her right here next to me.
In a loving locked embrace,
Our two hearts begin to race.
Then we kiss with such a fire;
The two of us wild with desire.
As our hearts begin to soar,
Loving one another more,
Nothing could compare to her,
Then suddenly a thought occurred.
I ask myself could this be real,
The way that she has made me feel?
Though not a dream I was awaken,
Suddenly like something shaken.
Her words of love to me are true!
This kind of love for me is new.
Never did I think existence,
Of a love with such persistence.
She makes sure I always know,
That she truly loves me so,
And in return I do the same.
She is my love, she is Charmaine.
I love you!
Written with love by Steve Jones for Charmaine Lara Choo
Monday,
Pasta Mania with Priscilla at Causeway Point, so much to catch up on since it's been close to a year. I saw this surprise gift, it was so talking about my boyfriend, i got it for him. Down to King Albert Park to Macdonald with Kalai, there's quite some gossips to fill each other up but we didn't have enough time.
I'm clearing the ovaries, it's better to be late than never.
Tuesday,
The Coffee Connoisseur with Rina, because of cravings, my Macaroni Gratin was filling and i forcefully ate the grass that dresses her Beef Mozza Tofu. This topic came up, about how we'll torture our men on bed, alright, it's not exactly torture but adding some oomph to the relationship. Whips, cuffs, whipped cream, chocolate. All this Sado Masochism is only talking, but i was serious about the toppings, some exotic flavours to try would prolly be jam, because i'm allergic to peanut butter so it's a nono.
With that aside, we had a strenuous workout at Jitters after that.
I have this thing about kids wearing skin tight clothing, especially turtleneck, it's so i-want-to-hug-you adorable. Zoe oh Zoe, the teethy smile when she says Hi to me. Then sweetest drug surreal me with Strangers in the Night, should i youtube it? I just love my boyfriend.
Wednesday,
Online shopping with sweetest drug for furnitures for our new nest, this is so exciting. I want my own little vanity table, a nice comfy low platform bed and thick comforters. That is only for the bedroom.
Dinner at Causeway Point with Priscilla and Eric later.
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Back, dinner at Soup Restaurant and afterwards King Albert Park with Kalai.
Zoe's been rather jumpy today, Dada called her a monkey. And sweetest drug wants me to change the lyrics of the song on my blog, the chorus goes ... "Lately you've been thinking Steve is really cool, your boyfriend Steve is really cool, your boyfriend Steve is in love with you". I don't know why, but i love my boyfriend tonight, not sure about tomorrow night though, he'll have to work on it!
Love me, love me, love me with all your heart
Kiss me boy while i hold you tight
Make this evening a magic night, love me, love me
Wednesday,
Back to work, the streaks of red were unacceptable, too striking. So i would just have to wait for awhile to let it fade. I sucked the lozenges for the whole day, to lubricate the gears inside.
Thursday,
Couch potato-ed, threading with Kalai and Northpoint-ed.
Fellas tell your lady she is the one, put your hands up
Ladies let him know he's got your love, look him right in the eyes and tell him
Friday,
My first family, Japanese, Haru is only 14months old. I changed the diapers today, and i could see a slice of carrot in them, it was like dark brown mashed potato. I'm in the midst of preparing myself for motherhood. Playground and lingering by the pool for 1 and a half hour. Dinner was rice and fish sauce, he just couldn't sit still. He likes it very much when we say "Let's go!" because it means we're going out.
Dinner-ed with Kalai at King Albert Park.
Saturday,
Morning babysitting, Haru had the just awaken look, the eyes wide and blur. Breakfast was banana and porridge, and not forgetting breast milk. And so today we went for a 2 hour stroll with the stroller around the village. My mission was accomplished before the scheduled time because he fell asleep, so peacefully. The only struggles were before we left home because he's clingy to mummy.
My sweetest drug was pulling a stern face, the expired drug has some side effects on him. Then i just call upon my ol' man to quit that, and give me that big smile because all will be fine.
Friday,
Sweetest drug woke me up, before i left for the airport.
I haven't left my island for close to 3years, finally i embark on one. Arrived at Vietnam, Ho Chin Minh, my mode of transport for the 4days, scooter.
The traffic was so terrible, traffic lights were of no use because everyone just swerved wherever they like. First stop was obviously to pay a visit to my grandaunt, it's a little better than village living but still the 70s' feeling is there.
At night, the cousins went night riding after karaoke session, speeding on the roads like nobody's business.
Saturday,
To my cousin's girlfriend's place to do my nails, a full manicure and pedicure for the price of less than $1 after conversion.
Managed to catch some loves from my sweetest drug, the emails brought smiles.
Back to hotel to change, went for dinner and next stop to the haunted house. I could get any pictures on it, my camera battery was flat after the first day. The ghosts in there were definitely horrifying, they would run after you, try to grab you and at the last room before you leave, 2 of them were sprawled on the floor, trying to grab your legs. I dare to say i've never been so scared out of my wits before, i screamed til the lungs tore open, both my shoes almost dropped out while i was running for my life. I strongly recommend this, a must try, if you ever decided to drop by Ho Chin Minh City. Still, i love haunted houses!
Went for clubbing at midnight, the music wasn't my cup of tea, never heard before techno.
Sunday,
After brunch, went to the salon to do my hair, a time consuming 3hours or so. While washing my hair, i fell asleep on the massage chair.
The day started late, went for night shopping but to no avail. Had an early night sleep to prepare for the next day.
In absence of my love Charmaine,
My heart truly is more fond.
Our two hearts unceasingly beat as one.
Each beat in time with the seconds;
Counting the hours and minutes.
I await the return of my one and only,
In a state of constant anticipation.
Even a glimpse of her beauty now,
Would surly be most treasured.
Breakfast in the morning with relatives, Dim Sum. After which i went for last minute shopping, before rushing back to the hotel. I only got accessories and a helmet. Grabbed a bag for 17USD at the airport, what a deal.
Arrival at Singapore, 5.10pm. Dad came to drive us home.
Tuesday,
Sweetest drug woke me up, we talked for at least 50minutes and i was still lazing on the bed. I felt jet lag, even though it was a mere difference of an hour. After lunch, date with my sweetest drug, he's having fun with our new friend, Mimi. Down with cold and sore throat.
Jitters with Rina, i'm feeling worst now, the red pock marks on me, i'm itching all over. Goodnight, Zoe just poo-ed, and i love my boyfriend.
Morning call from my sweetest drug, right on the dot.
I had no classes today, a lot of work in front of the computer. A call from FedEx, i wasn't home then, rescheduling done. Yvonne drove me back for the last day before she returned the blue Fiat. A rather solemn day, with so many issues since then, sweetest drug was there for me, in a unique way anyone would have never imagined. My face was so grouchy and gloomy, worst than eyeore's, then the doorbell rang. I was having trouble opening the parcel, figuring out the opening. Pulled out some trash paper, and 2 boxes. Sweetest drug was watching as i opened them, the instructions was the white box first, then the black and last the photos. I had some teary face before, it disappeared instantly.
Saturday,
Woke up in the early afternoon, just to see my sweetest drug. A lovely Saturday for it's Independence day for that time, and it never fails to end the day with a smile on our faces.
Sunday,
A stay home sunday, while sweetest drug went for work.
Monday,
Thursday,
A rainy morning, feet soaked in dirty water and water droplets on me. A busy day running in and out of classes and worst of all i was assigned to Chinese classes, i can't speak Chinese well for goodness sake. I was instead conversing and giving instructions in English, my forte language.
Sweetest drug had a rough day, instead i played a prank, but i know he still loves me, because i'm cranky. Okay, now time for some hugs, teddy hugs for you sugar pie honey bunch. Sweetest drug gave me an A+ for my pile of shit because i added the details of flies and trails of shit. He has green shit, malnutrition.
I'm gonna pack soon, till then, i do feel i will miss my sugar pie honey bunch much for some days while i'm away.
Sweetest drug woke up, just next to me like so real, as he uncovers the leopard prints blanket. I love his squinty eyes and i think it would be a good idea to set the alarm an hour before because he would always laze on the bed, with me.
Tuesday,
Happy Birthday Dad!
Jitterbugs with Rina to get our Grrl Power plan executed. Then to Clarke Quay with her boy to fight gym, never did i know i would go back there again. Dinner-ed at Pepper Lunch, men are always competitive amongst each other.
Wednesday,
Morning call, sweetest drug woke me up.
Parcel sent, i just have to track the status and whereabouts. Hancock with relief team, it wasn't Hancock's fault, but i didn't have enough sleep. I nod my day away. I won't give a rating because i didn't give my full attention.
I will pick up the pieces that others have broken from you.
I will put each piece back, one by one, with love.
I will care for and bandage each wound,
Until they have all disappeared.
I will hold you tight and never let you go.
I will give myself to you, heart and soul.
I will show you the love you never thought possible,
And I know you will do the same for me.
Love,
Steve
Thursday,Morning call, sweetest drug dosages.
I believed i did my best, i gave them the respect and saw the need to inform them. It's just that the discouraging and blunt response came as blades through my flesh. All i can say is i've done what i could, i'm just gonna have to go with the intention of making them regret for what they have said and one day realize that i wasn't wrong this time round.
For now, as planned would be departure in late August. To not have blessings or support is the worst kind of send off i would least expect to receive, i guess i would just have to be independent no matter what is install for me, for us. Like you say, with each day that goes, it's a day closer to being together. Are you ready for the roller coaster ride of life that is full of ups and downs?
To sum it up, i'm headstrong with it.
