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Monday, June 30, 2008
Next stop, ______?
Sunday,
It was on my tab, for dad's birthday dinner, i saw the smile across his face but he was trying to hide it. I guess dadd'y's lil girl finally shown him that she has grown. I would miss them when i move.
Last night's was a hell of an experience, the Chillies was about the size of my living room, unbearable heat with no ventilation. Needless to say, i finally have Kalai for myself way past midnight and into the dawn. I was practically the centre of attraction for being the minority.
I gave the Science Centre a miss, for sweetest drug, to compensate the night's lost when i was out. I had cookies & cream ice cream, fed him and it simply just melts.
After 15minutes, here's what they say of sweetest drug, my boyfriend Steven Jones is Super Hot Sexy, he has both great looks and great moves, no girl can keep her eyes off him, moreover he is very devoted to you. It's cliche and cheesy but i like the way it sounds.
Dinner-ed with family, north indian cuisine.
Monday,
I guess somehow, i don't have blues for this day but definitely some issues decided to come up today, i actually wouldn't call it issues, maybe it was the day that all the characters of the past decided to show up. I literally had 4 in a row. First it was some disagreements with my secretary, then came you asking when did we last met and i don't know what was your purpose of that sudden question which you never gave an answer to, next was Germs i had, checking if i was doing well. Here comes the climax, my expired drug actually revived, like finally, but i do admit, there were certainly some inevitable doubts that were hanging around. Nevertheless, it's the responsibility i have to take for the path i have chosen, there's no turning back. I would just say, life is like trains, one goes and another one comes, don't wait at the station. We both missed the train, hate the fact but life still goes on. One thing for sure, we didn't get off the train because we bought the wrong tickets, but it was just that the stopovers before the destination got in our way.
Honey bunch sugar pie, this is just one phase of life we go through, i should be glad, i've jumped over this hurdle to the next step of my life.
Yvonne drove us home, bumpy yet exhilarating ride.
I love my ol' man in black, a glimpse before work and it's time i should turn in.
Sunday,
It was on my tab, for dad's birthday dinner, i saw the smile across his face but he was trying to hide it. I guess dadd'y's lil girl finally shown him that she has grown. I would miss them when i move.
Last night's was a hell of an experience, the Chillies was about the size of my living room, unbearable heat with no ventilation. Needless to say, i finally have Kalai for myself way past midnight and into the dawn. I was practically the centre of attraction for being the minority.
I gave the Science Centre a miss, for sweetest drug, to compensate the night's lost when i was out. I had cookies & cream ice cream, fed him and it simply just melts.
After 15minutes, here's what they say of sweetest drug, my boyfriend Steven Jones is Super Hot Sexy, he has both great looks and great moves, no girl can keep her eyes off him, moreover he is very devoted to you. It's cliche and cheesy but i like the way it sounds.
Dinner-ed with family, north indian cuisine.
Monday,
I guess somehow, i don't have blues for this day but definitely some issues decided to come up today, i actually wouldn't call it issues, maybe it was the day that all the characters of the past decided to show up. I literally had 4 in a row. First it was some disagreements with my secretary, then came you asking when did we last met and i don't know what was your purpose of that sudden question which you never gave an answer to, next was Germs i had, checking if i was doing well. Here comes the climax, my expired drug actually revived, like finally, but i do admit, there were certainly some inevitable doubts that were hanging around. Nevertheless, it's the responsibility i have to take for the path i have chosen, there's no turning back. I would just say, life is like trains, one goes and another one comes, don't wait at the station. We both missed the train, hate the fact but life still goes on. One thing for sure, we didn't get off the train because we bought the wrong tickets, but it was just that the stopovers before the destination got in our way.
Honey bunch sugar pie, this is just one phase of life we go through, i should be glad, i've jumped over this hurdle to the next step of my life.
Yvonne drove us home, bumpy yet exhilarating ride.
I love my ol' man in black, a glimpse before work and it's time i should turn in.
Saturday, June 28, 2008
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved.
Friday,
Bugis-ed with Yvonne after work. I gotten myself a D&G, the most extravagant spending i ever made for a bag. Apparently, my heart ached for quite some time but i've gotten over it.
I had a unnamed call on my cell which caught me dumbfounded for 2 reasons, unexpected and misunderstanding. Steve made a declaration but forgotten about the proposal part. For a moment, i was really speechless, surprised, dumbfounded, you can continue the vocabulary for me, it was a mixed of feelings inside me.
A pact was made, i got diagnosed by Dr. Jones and the adrenaline rush was so strong, i'm fatfully yours. I found a new invention of drugs to get me high on dosage. Don't worry about the people in the past, there's a reason why they didn't make it to your future.
Saturday,
I'm going for a dinner with family, advance celebration of dad's birthday. And later on at night, the ladies are gonna scratch some records and let the hair loose. It's really a rare and once in a blue moon thing that i can have Kalai with me past 12midnight.
There are just too many similarities, we'll just have to dig for some opposites and differences, make some squabbles and make peace after.
Friday,
Bugis-ed with Yvonne after work. I gotten myself a D&G, the most extravagant spending i ever made for a bag. Apparently, my heart ached for quite some time but i've gotten over it.
I had a unnamed call on my cell which caught me dumbfounded for 2 reasons, unexpected and misunderstanding. Steve made a declaration but forgotten about the proposal part. For a moment, i was really speechless, surprised, dumbfounded, you can continue the vocabulary for me, it was a mixed of feelings inside me.
A pact was made, i got diagnosed by Dr. Jones and the adrenaline rush was so strong, i'm fatfully yours. I found a new invention of drugs to get me high on dosage. Don't worry about the people in the past, there's a reason why they didn't make it to your future.
Saturday,
I'm going for a dinner with family, advance celebration of dad's birthday. And later on at night, the ladies are gonna scratch some records and let the hair loose. It's really a rare and once in a blue moon thing that i can have Kalai with me past 12midnight.
There are just too many similarities, we'll just have to dig for some opposites and differences, make some squabbles and make peace after.
I think of you when we are apart,
Each other we cannot see.
Always pure and from the heart,
Are your true words to me.
My words to you are just as true.
With that please have no doubt.
Like a tree I will stand by your side
Always strong and ever stout.
A tree grows roots so it cannot leave,
Like me if I could have you.
Always faithful with you I’d stay,
Maybe one day saying I do.
You said you did not want to fall,
So I will hold you tight.
Always to protect you,
Throughout the day and night.
I know you have been hurt before.
Those wounds I wish to heal.
I only hope I get the chance
To show you how I feel.
Written with love by: Steven Jones
Thursday, June 26, 2008
Be every colour that you are.
Saturday,
Eventually after i awoke, i decided to change my sheets and it led to sweeping the floor and soon after some cleaning up, last but not least i did some seamstress' job. Productive Saturday afternoon, on my own accord which brought along the self satisfaction, i foresee potential to be a housewife.
Whipped up maggi goreng fried rice for me and kalai before we made a move for MSQ. I had 3 colours, Black, Blue and Grey to decide while i took more rounds around the mall but when i was back, it only left me with Grey, i got the dress still regardlessly.
Sunday,
Couch potato-ed for the last day before i start slogging the next day, i don't really slog actually so it's kinda contradicting though.
Monday,
Surprisingly, i was early for work. 2 new addition to the relief team, one was some weirdo and another whom i simply crushed on before but it was all in the high school days, the puppy love and childish acts. I miss my 2 rowdy technical class, i won't be going on learning journey anymore with them.
Tuesday,
I barely caught 3 hours of wink with the help of GBM, to put me to sleep. I confiscated this rubbery sliding thing from one boy, brought it to pantry to play with the rest. It was some sort of a toy, and we presumed it to be an aid to help masturbations.
Close to 6.30pm, i received a parcel from surfers paradise, it was actually my belated Valentines' Day present from sweetest drug, it finally arrived after i hurried my secretary to improve his efficiency. A crystal ball and pearly shelly necklace, simple yet sweet.
Merci mon chéri, tu es mon rayon de soleil, tendres baisers.
Wednesday,
This issue comes in the morning, it just so happen that when productive work is done, no one is ever there to witness is. If over budget is the case, why do you even hire more? Whatever it is, our wages doesn't come from you, so why bother the budget? Political issues aside, 2 short essays made my day. It might be lengthy..
Among all the teachers inXXXX Orchard Road
What I like about her is that she gives us free time to do our own work. She do her own work by marking the papers. After that, she play games with us. It was so much fun than studying. Sometimes, she tell us some jokes and stories. I liked listening to stories. Especially, ghost stories. She is very hard working as she marks many of our English paper. She is very supportive in everything we do. We get to go outing together with her. It was the first time that we get to go outing together with her. It was very fun. I really like her. But sometimes, when we talk to her, she did not answer.
Another..
I think Miss Lara deserves the caring teacher award because I think she is the most caring and friendly teacher I ever know. She teach well in class and sometimes help me in my work. She sometimes had fun with our class. To me, I think I like her way of teaching. She’s a new teacher, but she’s really a good teacher.
Notice, i did not do any grammar and spelling marking yet, it's word for word.
Lunch with Jannik after work, his eyes were so blue. Then relief team came, Get Smart at town. I never laughed so much for a movie, as least not consecutively.
4.5 popcorns outta 5.
Thursday,
Absent from work, couch potato-ed. Catching colds.
I can feel you all around me, thickening the air that i'm breathing, holding on to what i'm feeling, savouring this heart that's healing.
I'm alive.
Saturday,
Eventually after i awoke, i decided to change my sheets and it led to sweeping the floor and soon after some cleaning up, last but not least i did some seamstress' job. Productive Saturday afternoon, on my own accord which brought along the self satisfaction, i foresee potential to be a housewife.
Whipped up maggi goreng fried rice for me and kalai before we made a move for MSQ. I had 3 colours, Black, Blue and Grey to decide while i took more rounds around the mall but when i was back, it only left me with Grey, i got the dress still regardlessly.
Sunday,
Couch potato-ed for the last day before i start slogging the next day, i don't really slog actually so it's kinda contradicting though.
Monday,
Surprisingly, i was early for work. 2 new addition to the relief team, one was some weirdo and another whom i simply crushed on before but it was all in the high school days, the puppy love and childish acts. I miss my 2 rowdy technical class, i won't be going on learning journey anymore with them.
Tuesday,
I barely caught 3 hours of wink with the help of GBM, to put me to sleep. I confiscated this rubbery sliding thing from one boy, brought it to pantry to play with the rest. It was some sort of a toy, and we presumed it to be an aid to help masturbations.
Close to 6.30pm, i received a parcel from surfers paradise, it was actually my belated Valentines' Day present from sweetest drug, it finally arrived after i hurried my secretary to improve his efficiency. A crystal ball and pearly shelly necklace, simple yet sweet.
Merci mon chéri, tu es mon rayon de soleil, tendres baisers.
Wednesday,
This issue comes in the morning, it just so happen that when productive work is done, no one is ever there to witness is. If over budget is the case, why do you even hire more? Whatever it is, our wages doesn't come from you, so why bother the budget? Political issues aside, 2 short essays made my day. It might be lengthy..
Among all the teachers in
What I like about her is that she gives us free time to do our own work. She do her own work by marking the papers. After that, she play games with us. It was so much fun than studying. Sometimes, she tell us some jokes and stories. I liked listening to stories. Especially, ghost stories. She is very hard working as she marks many of our English paper. She is very supportive in everything we do. We get to go outing together with her. It was the first time that we get to go outing together with her. It was very fun. I really like her. But sometimes, when we talk to her, she did not answer.
Another..
I think Miss Lara deserves the caring teacher award because I think she is the most caring and friendly teacher I ever know. She teach well in class and sometimes help me in my work. She sometimes had fun with our class. To me, I think I like her way of teaching. She’s a new teacher, but she’s really a good teacher.
Notice, i did not do any grammar and spelling marking yet, it's word for word.
Lunch with Jannik after work, his eyes were so blue. Then relief team came, Get Smart at town. I never laughed so much for a movie, as least not consecutively.
4.5 popcorns outta 5.
Thursday,
Absent from work, couch potato-ed. Catching colds.
I can feel you all around me, thickening the air that i'm breathing, holding on to what i'm feeling, savouring this heart that's healing.
I'm alive.
Friday, June 20, 2008
Hello to high and dry.
Wednesday,
Ladies night cancelled, but i had Jandro coming to pick me up for supper. My virgin ride, but rather thrilling. I'll get a Vespa as soon as i have the motivation to get a bike license. Al ameen and back to watch Just Follow Law, wine and whisky. The 10minutes ride back was so freezing, brrr!!
Thursday,
Basically, a couch potato.
I had the guilt and fear overwhelming all of a sudden, but after some confirmations, it eases me a lil. I promise to be a good, to be safe.
Friday,
Just as the instance she passed, Yvonne called to spread the happiness, i'm gonna have a ride home soon, everyday after work! Dinner-ed at Thai Express and Erdinger Weissbier later. After the booze, my stomach craves for more so i whipped up my specialty fried rice to satisfy it. Something random, I killed 2 cockroaches in the kitchen!
Head under water, they tell me to breathe easy for awhile
Breathing gets harder, even i know that
Made room for me, it's too soon to see
Blank stares at blank pages, no easy way to say this
You mean well, but you make this hard on me.
Wednesday,
Ladies night cancelled, but i had Jandro coming to pick me up for supper. My virgin ride, but rather thrilling. I'll get a Vespa as soon as i have the motivation to get a bike license. Al ameen and back to watch Just Follow Law, wine and whisky. The 10minutes ride back was so freezing, brrr!!
Thursday,
Basically, a couch potato.
I had the guilt and fear overwhelming all of a sudden, but after some confirmations, it eases me a lil. I promise to be a good, to be safe.
Friday,
Just as the instance she passed, Yvonne called to spread the happiness, i'm gonna have a ride home soon, everyday after work! Dinner-ed at Thai Express and Erdinger Weissbier later. After the booze, my stomach craves for more so i whipped up my specialty fried rice to satisfy it. Something random, I killed 2 cockroaches in the kitchen!
Head under water, they tell me to breathe easy for awhile
Breathing gets harder, even i know that
Made room for me, it's too soon to see
Blank stares at blank pages, no easy way to say this
You mean well, but you make this hard on me.
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
Labels or Love?
Sunday,
Happy Fathers' Day!
Hair done at Ash, i had the urge to get that retarded bangs again, but maybe the hairdresser ain't that skillful after all. Now i look like a freaking Vietnamese.
Jurong East-ed, a seriously boring day out because the person was a bore, something was bothering.
Monday,
The construction going on at neighbour's is seriously getting on my nerves, the drilling and hammering. At about late morning, i would normally be awoken and be in the half asleep state then on.
Hip hop flava, exotic, pole dance, which one? Maybe all of em'.
Tuesday,
I wonder how long the construction works is gonna take, but it has definitely affected my sleep. From the normal level of 20, i had to turn it up to 30 to watch my television. As usual, glutton possessed me, thankfully i'm getting out of the couch potato state in no time.
I'm on a coaster collision, am not about to give in
Can't explain my position or the condition that i'm in
Where i am there is no limit, no walls, no ceilings, no intermission so let the party begin.
Sunday,
Happy Fathers' Day!
Hair done at Ash, i had the urge to get that retarded bangs again, but maybe the hairdresser ain't that skillful after all. Now i look like a freaking Vietnamese.
Jurong East-ed, a seriously boring day out because the person was a bore, something was bothering.
Monday,
The construction going on at neighbour's is seriously getting on my nerves, the drilling and hammering. At about late morning, i would normally be awoken and be in the half asleep state then on.
Hip hop flava, exotic, pole dance, which one? Maybe all of em'.
Tuesday,
I wonder how long the construction works is gonna take, but it has definitely affected my sleep. From the normal level of 20, i had to turn it up to 30 to watch my television. As usual, glutton possessed me, thankfully i'm getting out of the couch potato state in no time.
I'm on a coaster collision, am not about to give in
Can't explain my position or the condition that i'm in
Where i am there is no limit, no walls, no ceilings, no intermission so let the party begin.
Saturday, June 14, 2008
Chasing yellow balls.
Thursday,
Northpoint-ed a lil, Kalai had her fried rice and 3 side dishes from food court for $7! They must have used some gold in them and maybe utensils by Louis Vuitton. To Marsling to get my pants done.
I had some spare time, maybe a lot of spare time, bought some deserts and biscuits to gramp's place, to give a kiss to my old gramps with white hair. My dress was a tad too long, i took it out to do some manual sewing to adjust it to my height. Gramps was so sweet to do 90% of it for me, while i did some crunches and lunges. Liebling had to work OT, he came to pick me up afterwards, Mac-ed. I suggested to take a bus back since we haven't taken one together before, he didn't want to leave till the last bus, alighted at King Albert Park and walked a few rounds before we left.
Friday,
SIM orientation with Yvonne and Kalai. Back to my house to change my gear.
Botak Jones with Yvonne, John and Liebling for dinner, a worthy and sumptuous meal. Liebling wanted the army style which makes him so American Navy boy, barber at clementi. The cinemas were filled with only the front row left when we checked it out for the first time. Wandered around Vivo even though all the shops were already closed, and then we passed by the cinema for the second time i spotted that Never Back Down was already out and there's one after midnight.
Liebling was getting all so excited for that movie, it's all about sparring, the thing he does. On the deck for half an hour or so, gazing stars, the hypnotizing crescent and full view of Sentosa.
As usual, i squeezed his thighs with every of those punches and kicks thrown, because i see Liebling in the flick.
Anyhow, 3 outta 5 popcorns.
Oh it was Friday the 13th, nothing much except that his roommate had to return so darn early, but once it strike 12, it was all gleeful. Nah, it's just a superstition.
Saturday,
Tennis with Kalai and Bal, i'm so shagged. I could've also gotten a tone tanner than usual, we picked a time when the sun was shining brightly, with the rays directly angled at us. Showered at my place and headed to Causeway point for dinner. Somehow, i reckon that monthly clearance of ovaries is very much ahead of scheduled time, i should be glad.
Thursday,
Northpoint-ed a lil, Kalai had her fried rice and 3 side dishes from food court for $7! They must have used some gold in them and maybe utensils by Louis Vuitton. To Marsling to get my pants done.
I had some spare time, maybe a lot of spare time, bought some deserts and biscuits to gramp's place, to give a kiss to my old gramps with white hair. My dress was a tad too long, i took it out to do some manual sewing to adjust it to my height. Gramps was so sweet to do 90% of it for me, while i did some crunches and lunges. Liebling had to work OT, he came to pick me up afterwards, Mac-ed. I suggested to take a bus back since we haven't taken one together before, he didn't want to leave till the last bus, alighted at King Albert Park and walked a few rounds before we left.
Friday,
SIM orientation with Yvonne and Kalai. Back to my house to change my gear.
Botak Jones with Yvonne, John and Liebling for dinner, a worthy and sumptuous meal. Liebling wanted the army style which makes him so American Navy boy, barber at clementi. The cinemas were filled with only the front row left when we checked it out for the first time. Wandered around Vivo even though all the shops were already closed, and then we passed by the cinema for the second time i spotted that Never Back Down was already out and there's one after midnight.
Liebling was getting all so excited for that movie, it's all about sparring, the thing he does. On the deck for half an hour or so, gazing stars, the hypnotizing crescent and full view of Sentosa.
As usual, i squeezed his thighs with every of those punches and kicks thrown, because i see Liebling in the flick.
Anyhow, 3 outta 5 popcorns.
Oh it was Friday the 13th, nothing much except that his roommate had to return so darn early, but once it strike 12, it was all gleeful. Nah, it's just a superstition.
Saturday,
Tennis with Kalai and Bal, i'm so shagged. I could've also gotten a tone tanner than usual, we picked a time when the sun was shining brightly, with the rays directly angled at us. Showered at my place and headed to Causeway point for dinner. Somehow, i reckon that monthly clearance of ovaries is very much ahead of scheduled time, i should be glad.
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
Please, just cut it out.
Wednesday,
How bout a round of applause
Don't tell me you're sorry when you're not, when i know you're only sorry you got caught.
But you put on quite a show, you really had me going.
But now it's time to go, curtain's finally closing, that was quite a show, very entertaining.
But it's over now, go on and take a bow.
And the award for the best liar goes to you, for making me believe that you could be faithful to me.
Let's hear your speech, how about a round of applause.
You know i hate it when you ask what i mean when you know what i mean. This just looks like a re-run, please, what else is on?
I had the last glance of our memories, i should prolly just go for the delete option. I'm thankful though, that you didn't forget me.
Liebling must have taken some honey today, since the morning. Had pasta for breakfast and Hollow Man 2 playing, fell asleep for an hour before i prepare myself to meet Yvonne.
Starbucks and Bugis-ed. I haven't retailed for quite sometime, a pair of white sneakers and a tee shirt.
Chinatown-ed with Liebling for dinner and he gave me that evil smirk when he saw the words printed on my tee, " I'm a flirt, but your boyfriend likes it", at least it was better than "I'm single, but don't tell my boyfriend about it". I had a tough decision to make. He had this fetish for me to have satin material like clothes, really sexy and turns him on. The workouts on my calves were aching.
Wednesday,
How bout a round of applause
Don't tell me you're sorry when you're not, when i know you're only sorry you got caught.
But you put on quite a show, you really had me going.
But now it's time to go, curtain's finally closing, that was quite a show, very entertaining.
But it's over now, go on and take a bow.
And the award for the best liar goes to you, for making me believe that you could be faithful to me.
Let's hear your speech, how about a round of applause.
You know i hate it when you ask what i mean when you know what i mean. This just looks like a re-run, please, what else is on?
I had the last glance of our memories, i should prolly just go for the delete option. I'm thankful though, that you didn't forget me.
Liebling must have taken some honey today, since the morning. Had pasta for breakfast and Hollow Man 2 playing, fell asleep for an hour before i prepare myself to meet Yvonne.
Starbucks and Bugis-ed. I haven't retailed for quite sometime, a pair of white sneakers and a tee shirt.
Chinatown-ed with Liebling for dinner and he gave me that evil smirk when he saw the words printed on my tee, " I'm a flirt, but your boyfriend likes it", at least it was better than "I'm single, but don't tell my boyfriend about it". I had a tough decision to make. He had this fetish for me to have satin material like clothes, really sexy and turns him on. The workouts on my calves were aching.
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
Digressing, there can be miracles.
Tuesday,
Went to pick Liebling up at gym, i thought it would be only just waiting for him downstairs. He wanted 2 more rounds with his gay partner Bruce, so i had to climb up those stairs barefooted and a pungent sweat stench starts to overwhelm me, it was a fight gym with mostly men. With every punch thrown, my heart skipped a beat. I manage to take a shot with my ever so lousy 1.3 megapixels. It's actually the man in grey, hidden identity.
We were starving, walked down to circular road for dinner. I had a stressed day at home, couldn't wait to get out. I just simply don't understand what's on the mind of fucking Asians parents, it's far over the 21st century and there still isn't any improvements to the mindset. Whatever it is, the mind is already made up, to work like a slave and to live life just the way i have always wanted it to be. Besides, i'm already on my own since 2 months ago, the only thing i utilize is the bed, air conditioner, water and the computer. I'm definitely not staying any longer, not in this home, not in this tiny lil red dot.
It was a packed day for Liebling, exchange massages and fell asleep after some exercise.
I didn't sleep well after the lizard appeared on the table, i fear that it would fall on my face after i fall asleep. 7am, Liebling leaves for work, got back home to hit the bed for more.
I happened to be a glutton today, non stop eating.
Tuesday,
Went to pick Liebling up at gym, i thought it would be only just waiting for him downstairs. He wanted 2 more rounds with his gay partner Bruce, so i had to climb up those stairs barefooted and a pungent sweat stench starts to overwhelm me, it was a fight gym with mostly men. With every punch thrown, my heart skipped a beat. I manage to take a shot with my ever so lousy 1.3 megapixels. It's actually the man in grey, hidden identity.
We were starving, walked down to circular road for dinner. I had a stressed day at home, couldn't wait to get out. I just simply don't understand what's on the mind of fucking Asians parents, it's far over the 21st century and there still isn't any improvements to the mindset. Whatever it is, the mind is already made up, to work like a slave and to live life just the way i have always wanted it to be. Besides, i'm already on my own since 2 months ago, the only thing i utilize is the bed, air conditioner, water and the computer. I'm definitely not staying any longer, not in this home, not in this tiny lil red dot.
It was a packed day for Liebling, exchange massages and fell asleep after some exercise.
I didn't sleep well after the lizard appeared on the table, i fear that it would fall on my face after i fall asleep. 7am, Liebling leaves for work, got back home to hit the bed for more.
I happened to be a glutton today, non stop eating.
Monday, June 09, 2008
Amor, no es amor.
Friday,
Met with Leonard for pasta mania and pool, back to Liebling's apartment after that for Transformers. I had to get my ass up at 7am, Liebling left for work.
Since i had time, gym in the evening for half an hour. MOS-ed, 4 cans of Breda to get the spirits high, on tight budget.
Saturday,
Lazing til about noon on bed from last night's hangover and Liebling sliced some mangoes for our appetizer. Soon after, washed up to have some serious brunch with just 15minutes walk under the brolly.
Liebling leaves for his gym while i left for some catchup, Mr. Bean's Holidays and Night at the Museum.
Sunday,
An urgent trip to Silver Cross, to prevent any future mishap, 2 pills for 10 bucks. Made my way to Liebling's apartment, i didn't give any notice but just crash in. Some exercise before we Vivocity-ed, shopping and arcade. For the fact the it's our first shopping, i would say there's still room for improvement. Liebling got an Everlast tee and we didn't know Lonsdale was just next to it so it got him the fits. I'm eyeing on this Zara's men's army style cap, i hinted Liebling.
Worn out for the day that made us take the wrong direction of train.
Monday,
I took pills 12 hours apart, i have 95% chances of success, let's be optimistic. My intestines have been giving me problems, good and bad. It might have shrank because of the last diet i had, fortunately, so i can't really finish one meal by myself and i have since been having only a meal a day, that's good yeah? Unfortunately, it growls at times like a fierce dog even though i ain't hungry, maybe some somersaults inside amongst the intestines.
Liebling's having his ritual fight now in gym, i'll go down in a while, but i have to get up at 7am again tomorrow! Never mind, i'll catch the rest back home.
Friday,
Met with Leonard for pasta mania and pool, back to Liebling's apartment after that for Transformers. I had to get my ass up at 7am, Liebling left for work.
Since i had time, gym in the evening for half an hour. MOS-ed, 4 cans of Breda to get the spirits high, on tight budget.
Saturday,
Lazing til about noon on bed from last night's hangover and Liebling sliced some mangoes for our appetizer. Soon after, washed up to have some serious brunch with just 15minutes walk under the brolly.
Liebling leaves for his gym while i left for some catchup, Mr. Bean's Holidays and Night at the Museum.
Sunday,
An urgent trip to Silver Cross, to prevent any future mishap, 2 pills for 10 bucks. Made my way to Liebling's apartment, i didn't give any notice but just crash in. Some exercise before we Vivocity-ed, shopping and arcade. For the fact the it's our first shopping, i would say there's still room for improvement. Liebling got an Everlast tee and we didn't know Lonsdale was just next to it so it got him the fits. I'm eyeing on this Zara's men's army style cap, i hinted Liebling.
Worn out for the day that made us take the wrong direction of train.
Monday,
I took pills 12 hours apart, i have 95% chances of success, let's be optimistic. My intestines have been giving me problems, good and bad. It might have shrank because of the last diet i had, fortunately, so i can't really finish one meal by myself and i have since been having only a meal a day, that's good yeah? Unfortunately, it growls at times like a fierce dog even though i ain't hungry, maybe some somersaults inside amongst the intestines.
Liebling's having his ritual fight now in gym, i'll go down in a while, but i have to get up at 7am again tomorrow! Never mind, i'll catch the rest back home.
Thursday, June 05, 2008
Is it me or didn't we agree to love?
Monday,
Music & Lyrics, yes indeed i'm finding my way back because i'm lost and i can't make it through without a way back.
1.13pm's text got me up, the plain water date is on, just by the river watching the merlion. I sense something different, something i've yet to sense in others, but i dare say i was being myself. Then we stared at Sir Stamford Raffles statue for 5minutes. I seriously am starting to suspect myself, if i was ever a Singaporean. Germany passport needs a visa to enter Indonesia, 10USD for it.
Tuesday,
12.54pm's text, thought of me even after chicken rice. Youtube took my afternoon all through to night. Soon, i'm also gonna mother Rina's children's child, they are pretty much incest because of the complicated relations and family tree.
As the french always say, rather twice than once, never twice without thrice. So it was after that once, i must say i have an urge to have a twice. While he showered, i was keeping myself occupied to divert from the haunted apartment. Brisk walk from dover to clementi for supper at Mac, an owed meal. Still i sense something really different, maybe dorks are really the catch, especially soft spoken and introverted ones. He lifted me up on his shoulders, just like how you would lift someone when you try to kidnap them and i felt so carried away by it.
Kalai's dog couldn't make it for this Saturday, but i guess i shall proceed on with the planned trip with him.
Wednesday,
American funniest videos are seriously funny, just simply watching people fall.
Indiana Jones, i think i'm gonna relive back the times i go for movies in cinemas. I had a taste of something sweet but it wasn't expected. To Indochine for Hoegarden, retro fever night and am so loving it.
German broken English poem..
I met her in the internet, deep in the night when the stars are shining, the moon shown me her face, wonderful dark eyes and black hairs. First it was a dream but tonight i met her. Good night.
Word for word i followed exactly, a good attempt, even though i would ask for a more creative proposal.
Yours fatfully.
Thursday,
Simo's been pretty busy lately with thesis, but it's just today he decided to be so sweet. If he was a few days ago, i wouldn't have prolly moved ahead. Let's just say, i never knew how much i meant, how badly this could affect the both of us. I could've been in Italy right now, but i had to spare some thoughts for the upcoming exams.
Simo, mi mancherai.
In the meantime, i decided to just take the risk. Life is all about risks and i'm presumed to be born to take risks, just venturing out without even considering the consequences. I will never take into consideration the warnings given until i see it for myself, i have to experience it personally to prove myself wrong, not through experiences of others. Despite my mum telling me the dangers, hurt and heartbreaks i'm gonna face, i always tell her the same thing, "You gotta let me fall down, then i'll learn how to get up on my own." My first venture was prolly when i was in Primary 3, the popular incident with Rina, which had gotten on our mums' nerves. Anyhow, we shall see what falls and breaks i will suffer from this. Somehow, it's not a total con because it's from these obstacles and risks i took, the downs and mistakes made me who i am now, not a typical 20 year old. Perhaps, i have lived 24years of life instead.
Meanwhile, i will make full use of this phase of life i'm going through.
I smell pungent vinegar, because i'm heading to town for a movie. I'll be back.
Monday,
Music & Lyrics, yes indeed i'm finding my way back because i'm lost and i can't make it through without a way back.
1.13pm's text got me up, the plain water date is on, just by the river watching the merlion. I sense something different, something i've yet to sense in others, but i dare say i was being myself. Then we stared at Sir Stamford Raffles statue for 5minutes. I seriously am starting to suspect myself, if i was ever a Singaporean. Germany passport needs a visa to enter Indonesia, 10USD for it.
Tuesday,
12.54pm's text, thought of me even after chicken rice. Youtube took my afternoon all through to night. Soon, i'm also gonna mother Rina's children's child, they are pretty much incest because of the complicated relations and family tree.
As the french always say, rather twice than once, never twice without thrice. So it was after that once, i must say i have an urge to have a twice. While he showered, i was keeping myself occupied to divert from the haunted apartment. Brisk walk from dover to clementi for supper at Mac, an owed meal. Still i sense something really different, maybe dorks are really the catch, especially soft spoken and introverted ones. He lifted me up on his shoulders, just like how you would lift someone when you try to kidnap them and i felt so carried away by it.
Kalai's dog couldn't make it for this Saturday, but i guess i shall proceed on with the planned trip with him.
Wednesday,
American funniest videos are seriously funny, just simply watching people fall.
Indiana Jones, i think i'm gonna relive back the times i go for movies in cinemas. I had a taste of something sweet but it wasn't expected. To Indochine for Hoegarden, retro fever night and am so loving it.
German broken English poem..
I met her in the internet, deep in the night when the stars are shining, the moon shown me her face, wonderful dark eyes and black hairs. First it was a dream but tonight i met her. Good night.
Word for word i followed exactly, a good attempt, even though i would ask for a more creative proposal.
Yours fatfully.
Thursday,
Simo's been pretty busy lately with thesis, but it's just today he decided to be so sweet. If he was a few days ago, i wouldn't have prolly moved ahead. Let's just say, i never knew how much i meant, how badly this could affect the both of us. I could've been in Italy right now, but i had to spare some thoughts for the upcoming exams.
Simo, mi mancherai.
In the meantime, i decided to just take the risk. Life is all about risks and i'm presumed to be born to take risks, just venturing out without even considering the consequences. I will never take into consideration the warnings given until i see it for myself, i have to experience it personally to prove myself wrong, not through experiences of others. Despite my mum telling me the dangers, hurt and heartbreaks i'm gonna face, i always tell her the same thing, "You gotta let me fall down, then i'll learn how to get up on my own." My first venture was prolly when i was in Primary 3, the popular incident with Rina, which had gotten on our mums' nerves. Anyhow, we shall see what falls and breaks i will suffer from this. Somehow, it's not a total con because it's from these obstacles and risks i took, the downs and mistakes made me who i am now, not a typical 20 year old. Perhaps, i have lived 24years of life instead.
Meanwhile, i will make full use of this phase of life i'm going through.
I smell pungent vinegar, because i'm heading to town for a movie. I'll be back.
Sunday, June 01, 2008
Teach me again.
Thursday,
Cabbed down to McNair's colonial building in the midnight. No. 35, settled down, and 15minutes of The Legend, turned in for the night. A rather warm night even with the air conditioner, because i don't have the habit to wear that much to sleep.
15minutes to 11am, it was better to get up and do something instead of wasting a Thursday afternoon. Piping hot coffee made, sipping it bit by bit, early puff and channel news Asia on the screen playing. Sometimes, you don't really have to hit the streets, not with a scorching hot weather. So the ideal day was to just wake up and have some coffee, talk about anything under the sun and just laze on the couch, cuddle up and watch television together. When the stomach growls, we'll just put on those flip flops for a walk to nearby and bring some takeaway home.
And when you're back, the beads of sweat is rather bothering, a shower will do.
I don't need no extravagant lifestyle, some countryside living is simply preferred, that's why Europe is really on the list.
I don't know why, but those red pock marks are not leaving me alone, i will kill them with the old man oil.
Friday,
Awoken by lollipop on my cell, to have some coffee in the city. Strong Jude Law accent charm, mocha frappachino by the river.
Town-ed with kalai, major shopping spree.
It was a long day out from the afternoon, so the rouge's mostly blown away by the wind and my dove smell is practically gone.
MOS-ed, seriously is boring, maybe it's not the right kinda people, without the wild perception.
Saturday,
Starbucks at town and it's a shame of me being a Singaporean and i've not been to Orchard Towers. So i was brought along to have an eye opener, and i think i like that place for the atmosphere. The lady boys were so gorgeous and pinoys so slutty, which somehow made me a tad jealous for the devil figure they had. Only the figure, not the constructed balls on the chest, because i love mine, all natural but there's still room for improvement. Then i started to feel a slight sympathy for the women there, where did the self esteem go to? But it's clear that men abuse them for their bodies and likewise, women abuse men for their money. A rare sight i spotted just outside the lift, i really sympathized with them.
However, with that aside, i think it would be fun to have a tranny as a friend, come on they are humans after all. A night there would be wild, but without the aftermath, not lust without love.
The mini tour in Orchard Towers was enriching.
Sunday,
A lazy Sunday, Made of Honour and food in front of the screen. I always have boring weekends, maybe i should oomph it a lil bit. Am working on it.
I'm dancing in the room as if i'm in the woods with you
No need for anything but music
Music's the reason why i know time still exists
So i just put my arms around you
Thursday,
Cabbed down to McNair's colonial building in the midnight. No. 35, settled down, and 15minutes of The Legend, turned in for the night. A rather warm night even with the air conditioner, because i don't have the habit to wear that much to sleep.
15minutes to 11am, it was better to get up and do something instead of wasting a Thursday afternoon. Piping hot coffee made, sipping it bit by bit, early puff and channel news Asia on the screen playing. Sometimes, you don't really have to hit the streets, not with a scorching hot weather. So the ideal day was to just wake up and have some coffee, talk about anything under the sun and just laze on the couch, cuddle up and watch television together. When the stomach growls, we'll just put on those flip flops for a walk to nearby and bring some takeaway home.
And when you're back, the beads of sweat is rather bothering, a shower will do.
I don't need no extravagant lifestyle, some countryside living is simply preferred, that's why Europe is really on the list.
I don't know why, but those red pock marks are not leaving me alone, i will kill them with the old man oil.
Friday,
Awoken by lollipop on my cell, to have some coffee in the city. Strong Jude Law accent charm, mocha frappachino by the river.
Town-ed with kalai, major shopping spree.
It was a long day out from the afternoon, so the rouge's mostly blown away by the wind and my dove smell is practically gone.
MOS-ed, seriously is boring, maybe it's not the right kinda people, without the wild perception.
Saturday,
Starbucks at town and it's a shame of me being a Singaporean and i've not been to Orchard Towers. So i was brought along to have an eye opener, and i think i like that place for the atmosphere. The lady boys were so gorgeous and pinoys so slutty, which somehow made me a tad jealous for the devil figure they had. Only the figure, not the constructed balls on the chest, because i love mine, all natural but there's still room for improvement. Then i started to feel a slight sympathy for the women there, where did the self esteem go to? But it's clear that men abuse them for their bodies and likewise, women abuse men for their money. A rare sight i spotted just outside the lift, i really sympathized with them.
However, with that aside, i think it would be fun to have a tranny as a friend, come on they are humans after all. A night there would be wild, but without the aftermath, not lust without love.
The mini tour in Orchard Towers was enriching.
Sunday,
A lazy Sunday, Made of Honour and food in front of the screen. I always have boring weekends, maybe i should oomph it a lil bit. Am working on it.
I'm dancing in the room as if i'm in the woods with you
No need for anything but music
Music's the reason why i know time still exists
So i just put my arms around you