I'll be your Paparazzi

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

Orchid printed shirt.
Tuesday,
Coffee with Spain, The Loft with France. I'm a multi national human being with great personality.

Wednesday,
Paella dinner, home cooked, it was a heartfelt warmth but i suppose with hidden motives. Anyhow, i couldn't gorge much but paella's a really mouth watering dish. Candles could be a good idea for my room the next time, the romantic touch and dark sheets. Sometimes, an erotic massage can really make a difference, to stay aroused, to create the tension. Stayed over, batteries included, motives understood.

Thursday,
It was prolly the hard spring bed, i just couldn't get use to it, but i did catch a few winks and some cuddles. Beats me to why i felt lethargic and restless, i had to take a half day.

Friday,
I thought dad was able to speed like an F1 racer, so i took it for granted and woke up only 35minutes before the scheduled time. Everything was in a hurry, but fortunately it didn't start without me. The whole graduation ceremony wasn't much of a big fuss nor anxiety, not until i was just a step away from the stairs to the stage. That piece of paper cost me so much, at last i got it without much strain because i practically smoked through every semester. Ceremony over, reception lunch and the must have, digital camera shots in that big blue robe.

Amk Hub-ed and J8-ed with Kalai. Changi Airport with family to pick the Vietnam cousins up from tiger airways. Dinner-ed at East Coast, it was an awkward moment when left alone, but never did i know they were all my juniors, looks were deceiving. Somehow, the karaoke idea was shifted to this laid back pub, where most of the time it was senior citizens showtime.

Saturday,
Last night's activity got me a little hangover, so i initially wanted to strike Sentosa off my list. The sun, surf and wind weren't that strong in the late evening, made an appearance at Sentosa with the cousins, i had to play tour guide. I even got dressed according to the genre but it didn't came to good use. Cafe Del Mar got me so tempted, tram ride, underwater world and Songs of the Sea (which was formally musical fountain). Japanese cuisine for dinner and cousins stayed over at my lodge. We only decided to turn in at 4am, a long day awake indeed.

Sunday,
Brunch with family and to town. B-box at night, sang to our hearts content.

Monday,
This bothering pain kept me up in the morning, the pain that was somewhat between a cramp and upset stomach, i couldn't differentiate. Popped 3 pills, to kill the pain. I regurgitated out yesterday's meal, and i don't recall having any seaweed from the day before, and it appeared in the mess. I feel empty but still nauseous, while trying to curb it with sour power and drinks.
Back to campus to return the robe, MSQ-ed with my girls. Bowling alley shots, and my beautifully self manicured thumb nail broke and tore deep into flesh, only after the first throw.
Junction 8-ed with Viet cousins, got this voodoo charm, i would have to start casting spells any sooner.

Well, i m pretty much quite packed with programmes but im freed now since cousins are returning to Vietnam. I must spend some good time caressing my dearest monitor whom i haven't been fondling very much these few days.

Tuesday,
The continuous pain prolonged til today, popped pills to ease because it was to the extent that vision went black. Bed ridden till night, went for a walk at Esplanade and Gloria Jeans later. I smell like a granny now, with the old man medicated oil, red ugly pocks. Whatever goes in, comes out, i might as well just survive on fluids.

Wednesday,
Bed ridden until now, resulted from The Arena's half jug. The mcnuggets and fries came out right after i hit home.

Monday, May 19, 2008

See you again.
Thursday,
Some fetish with this psychedelic negative film, but i thought i looked more like the women with white hair in X-Men. Anyway, had some disagreements but made peace with love shortly after. I had the agreed punishment, to just sit and watch with embarrassment and a tinge of curiosity.

Friday,
It was supposedly the last day for Yvonne and Dawina, i swear i'm gonna start missing them for the pantry days, the pool games, the gossips and laughters. Town-ed with Kalai, i had to get black heels for my graduation but to no avail. Head down to Holland Village, Dirty Harry to get the blood gushing to my cheeks. I had no idea how we could get lost, despite the street smart genes in me, resorted to cabbing to there.

Saturday,
Karaoke afternoon with family, i barely sang 4 songs and Cedie messaged me, for we're both in town. Grab a cuppa mocha frappachino, for an hour and i went back to a game of pool with daddy. I leaded for the first 2 games, but other than that, i shall not say much, save the pride for myself. Parents had plans for the night, a ferry across the island for this casino, overnight, so i made plans for myself too.
Mos-ed with Yvonne and John. Gulped down a jug of red ice, there was a one for one promo, we heard $60 for $16. It was on John's tab though. Before that, i gave a brief tour around Mos for these 2 newbies, i can be a good tour guide at times. The young night just barely started, got myself wasted, prolly after i downed a glass of god knows what, with compliments of my cousin. Here goes my Saturday, with a weak stomach and a few moments by the toilet bowl, grabbed some sleep there.

Sunday,
The hangover lasted till 7pm, a total of 11hours of unconsciousness when i got up, changed and dinner-ed with family. Had some diarrhea runs again, and that's when i didn't gain an ounce. Let's say i continue this routine, i'll definitely shed some weight in a harmful way though. The last time i had this routine was a year ago, the results were visible, the cheeks were lost and some thighs too.

Monday,
A long weekend, with today's Vesak's Day, and so it came with a vegetarian brunch for me. Another free day tomorrow, for some e-learning day which there's no need for me to be present.

I've got my sight set on you and i'm ready to aim
I have a heart that will never be tamed
I knew you were something special when you spoke my name
Now, i can't wait to see you again.
Rock and roll amore, don't you know that we're all alone now.

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

My soul tattoo.
Monday,
Fortunately, i didn't have to face that bushy face, that bad body odour he emits, that arrogant thinks-he-knows-it-all attitude. Botanical Gardens, nature walk with 37 monkeys. I caught a lovely sight, of 2 swans at the swan lake.

I have to admit, i waited for the arrival back from Spezia. Sacrificed the sleep, down some coffee to keep the eyes wide open while i can. Still i managed to catch a wink, for at least an hour.

Tuesday,
Botanical Gardens replica field trip 2, with company of dawina. Yesterday was a humid trip, a scorching one for that day. Is there such thing as allergic to grass? I didn't chance upon the swans, what a pity. A small trip to town after, to target for the potential attention seeking tops and bottoms.
Made our way back to campus with kalai, the dolly girl with the same strike of pose whenever we take photo, waited under the glazing hot sun for dayana, under the tiny hearts brolly. Collected the graduation robe, and we started walking with arms swinging around, like big burly men, just imagine three of us.
And when was the last time we did our brows? Needless to say, we got it done afterwards, nicely arched and northpoint-ed.

Wednesday,
I never wanted to wake up, just lie there and for the rest of the day. Rainy day throughout, retro band sitting on my head. The last lesson, i was busy swatting flying ants, that came with the pouring rain.
It's some kind of adrenaline rush when i see Safer Project (Corrosion) pops up from the corner and every time, i feel the anticipation. Initiation to make me laugh, after accepting the invitation, i saw a taliban. Of course, my preference is without that towel, my favourite gay hair. I would blow dry the hair, to my liking. Watching you undressed, pulling that baggy jeans, tucked in green tee, buckled with a blue belt and finished it with an orange pullover to keep you warm. Let's not forget the tendres baisers before you set off. I'm sure kissing for 5minutes like that makes your lips sore.

Cause you're the answer to my questions, the reason to the rhyme
You're the rhythm to my heart when it beats out of time
So now i hand you this cracked piece of bloody red flesh, mend it and make it beat for you.
S'il suffisait qu'on s'aime, s'il suffisait d'aimer. Mi mancherai.

Sunday, May 11, 2008

Empty hourglass.
Friday,
Thank god it's Friday, but dreadful weekend's on the way. Starbucks with relief team, long time craving for mocha frappachino.
Some last conversations before leaving for Spezia, i don't know why, but i do miss. For some reason, or maybe it could be due to mood swings, i was enraged and irritated by those around me at home. Like he say, they break my balls, though i don't really have them hanging down. The aviator shades made my day.

Saturday,
What's with the influenza lately that has been attacking my immune system, i wonder has it got something to do with the 360 degrees change in diet. Popped the yellow pills and the drowsy state had its immediate effect.

Sunday,
Gone the cold, comes the diarrhea. It lasted for practically the whole day, till evening. I made many trips to the toilet that i can actually just sit myself there for the whole time, create a frame on my butt. The excruciating pain caused some black vision for the last futile trip i made, literally got me knocked out or simply said, fainted. It's good in a way, i lost fluids and hopefully some stubborn fats. But certainly, my legs were wobbly and the weakness sets in, bed ridden for the day.
Anyhow, Happy Mother's Day!

We never had it easy, we had to work so hard
And everytime when it feels like we're gonna make it, that's when it falls apart
But, i'll take my chances with you

Thursday, May 08, 2008

Apple of my eyes.
Early bird catches the worm, i caught Simo. How great is it, when you have your man to serenade you with the strummings and husky voice when he makes you upset or when the mood is just not up. Then when the mood is good, i would prolly sing a tune or so while you jam the guitar. I suddenly recalled that Yvonne brought strawberry cheesecake for us, i was fantasizing about food. A small piece of heaven, so sinful.
The monkeys sometimes drive me to near tears, so much for the English games i tried to exercise. They ought to sense the atmosphere of displease, at least i had the last 15minutes of total silence, so it should drilled some sense into their heads.
That Real Madrid jersey is bringing some hots, for some reasons women always look nice with their boyfriend's shirt, and in this case, it's sizzling with the men's size jersey. I always had this fetish about coming home, changing into that long shirt of yours, it's practically better to have your man to have a long body because you need the length to cover and yet at the same time create some sexy silhouette that cuts at the side of those thighs. I had a glimpse of Simo's beautiful blonde hair mum, right now i'll just give a 10minutes timeout for you to do your thesis, but nonetheless i caught you peeking at me with the tongue out. I simply enjoy this moment of watching you, yawning and ever so serious pen holding look. The fantasies coninues, you're actually just next to me, let's cuddle and fall asleep. And tomorrow i'll mess that hair up because today i don't get to see it.
Tell me you're in love with me, bonne nuit.

Wednesday, May 07, 2008

Midwest, i see you swinging right.
Name it the women's black skinnies day. Then i had my 2 favourite class, because all the boys will just crowd around the table and somehow after every minute, they might just climb on top of it. Fiddling around with my pencil case, flooding me with so many questions. I gave ghost stories and points to be wary of, like when you travel to another country for instance, you really do have to knock on the door but its often neglected. I have to repeat countless times that i'm neither Chinese nor Malay, i'm Alien, from the planet Venus.
Every wednesday shall be pool's day and i have the lucky plastic pool gloves. It's not a strange thing i get lethargic so easily, the stomach contraction better work with the lesser intake.
The drowsiness sets in and i just fell asleep, awoken by the many nudges and alerts from Simo. The mind wasn't right for a moment, some modeling and i caught the fist biting expression. Simply adorable but at the same time with a tad of lust, which is inevitable among the male species. How is it possible i get more radiant than the day before, prolly the contrast and brightness doing the tricks. Similarly, i had the mouth agape and oblivious look, i could never agree more that women look so endearing when they just got out of bed.
I love the way the way you slipped that puma tee on that long body, the way you pull that orange pullover and the deep set eyes which apparently resulted from sleepless nights. Still, you look Arabic-ly gay to me, the attraction sets in me. For the many days of distraction, i was thankful. I'm the one that you want, he wants too, the one that has the power to make you do impossible things for me.
Nonetheless, i'm not so ungrateful because i still insist on my sweetest drug, quatrième month, tu seras a jamais dans mon coeur.

No matter what i do, all i think about is you
Even when i'm with my boo, boy you know i'm crazy over you
Simply said, kelly and nelly situation.

Tuesday, May 06, 2008

How you remind me.
Slept in at 2am, made a lil not supposed to be made confession before i turned in, and 3 times of Song For You to put me to sleep. 5 straight classes today, left me with no space to breathe or time to sit. I had a lil teaser in the early morning when Simo was half asleep, feasting on the vaporised pig.
Superbly light lunch, a sandwich and a cup of fruits, i can't help but blocked the aroma and resist the temptation of salivating food in front of me. The bet was on, Dawina voted for 1 week, Yvonne voted 2 weeks, Freddy thinks i'm already gone. I'll just give it a shot for one month, and if still the fats doesn't budge, i'm gonna change a routine. I should also continue sucking in, for the abs line. All this engross should produce some kind of visible results.
Just when those heavy eyelids were shutting, i see Safer Project (Corrosion) rising from the right bottom corner. The thing that attracts me much, this out of bed look, the blur face, mouth gaping and not forgetting the messed up bed head. Mohawk doesn't work but the messed up short hair sure does.
Then there were times when you put a frown and make those forehead wrinkle. All you do is mess up those hair and pull up the Lonsdale, be a bandit. It's gay, but that's what i'm loving. Especially the head buried in arms, head behind those long legs, makes me just wanna cuddle so much. Showtime now, strumming the guitars and captivating voice. For a moment, i'm taken away. Unfortunately, down with runny noses, how fragile i can get, not another round of cold?
In just 1 and a half hours..

Monday, May 05, 2008

Sepia tone loving.
Monday,
It was certainly the blues getting me over but was also the half and hour sleep i get for the whole day to put me down with a cold and some rash. Once again, i told myself not to get up early, otherwise i'll go on a food hunt. So far, it's going well, but it's unbearable to go on, i need someone to push me to hang on. Otherwise, i'll start all over again to binge like i use to. The problem area of course has to be the bulge right in the middle.
Initial plan was to head for gym but Simo took my time, i think i melt quite easily when he opens his mouth to sing. My fierce trainer said i had to workout for 30minutes. I have no motivation, because i'm becoming more of a couch potato, in front of the screen.
Right now, am just waiting for my dinner, the healthiest dinner i would have ever eaten, purely just vegetables. I'm just gonna die, of starvation. Just make my friends fat. But again, so what if i'm fat, i can go on a diet, you're ugly, what can you do about it?
My brother just got back from the doc, he has chicken pox! Exempted from the examinations, how lucky.
There's no combination of words i could put on the back of a postcard
No song that i could sing but i can try for your heart.

Sunday, May 04, 2008

Put me on the floor, wrestle me around.
Saturday,
Secretary laid down the regime diet rules, dos and don'ts. Well, it's rather strict and tough, i should just give it a try for a month and see how it works for me. Shall start tomorrow.
Cold turkey for almost more than 2 weeks, still hanging on though while having some distractions. So Simo kept me distracted for 2 days. The thing with guys, what they say and what they do is a totally different thing, i got kinda mad with that. What i got in return for the madness, he only have 10minutes to create a new song with simply his voice and that turquoise guitar, and it had to put smile on my face.
Here's it..

I couldn't find a software to upload it properly, i'll try to revamp to a better software aights? In the meanwhile, it plays automatically, you'll have to pause the imeem player by the side, it's a hassle. And i suppose by the time you read till here, you have to do what you just read above to clearly hear the song, click on play to repeat it.
It's a lil muffled though, but it really touched me deep, he saw the expressions through the cam. I'm appalled, the sweetest thing a guy can ever do, but of course, sweetest drug still stands at number one.

Sunday,
I had to force myself to stay in bed, otherwise if i'm up too early, i'll feel the hunger. So i ate only 2 meals, but equivalent to one meal. Cheated a lil though, with half a steak and for the fact i ate twice.
If he closes his eyes for a moment, she's all he see
She breaks her voice so softly that he couldn't even breathe
Then she passes by and smiled at him
He said, let me be the one to get out of this world, out of this world
Let me be the one to get into your world, into your world.

Friday, May 02, 2008

Tell me what's wrong with society.
Monday,
Changi Chapel Museum field trip with horrendous class H, Changi village had no transvestites when we dropped by, what a miss. Down to divan to get the awaited and delayed cheque.

Tuesday,
I've tongue twisted with the horrendous English class, gave them Betty and Peter with the bitter butter and pickled peppers. And mohammad who has a thick bush of pubic hair stretched from the ear to the chin, is fucked, deserves to be, for coming up with a sissy excuse and brought along irresponsibilities.
Belgian beer staying there for good, discarding me in a small tiny red dot. Nah, i'm just plain missing and am also still suffering from the shivers and quivers of cold turkey.

Wednesday,
Happy 19th Birthday to Yvonne!
The relief team got her a clutch bag and lunch-ed at pizza hut after work. Lot 1 definitely changed, an extension added to the building. And i'm kinda craving for a hotel lodging, like when your friends ring you up, "Alright, give me 10minutes and i'll be down." Call that a luxury life.

Thursday,
Labour Day, a day to commemorate my labour efforts, and so i'm spared for just this day. Bugis-ed with kalai, large splurges on my Gucci, biker jacket, cotton tops and squeeze all you can satin tube. Town-ed along with an additional Bhavani, who somehow built an alliance with me against kalai. One of the most painful expenses would be this pinoy Amira Magic cream, if it really works, women would love it. For a moment i was outta my mind to just whipped out 15dollars for a 15grams cream. The pinoys made us feel so at home, sayangs here and there.
From now on, i need no cashmere or cardigans, because i have confidence, like once in a blue moon.

Friday,
Post public holiday syndrome acting.
5 straight classes in a row, spared only a 1045-1125 break to gobble up the nasi goreng. The tee shirt made an effect today, i'm the one your mother warned you about, that with strong strokes, i give a good break to the 9 balls, and poke them into as many hole as possible. Because outta 3 i won 2.
Listen and don't trip, i think i need a bottle with a genie in it.
If i had one wish, you would be my boo.