Tuesday, November 26, 2024
Stripper Prefers the Traditional Latin Mass
Sunday, April 21, 2024
Seeking Essayists for Latin Mass and the Youth Project
Wednesday, January 17, 2024
A Segregated Church
Last month on the Unam Sanctam Catholicam website, I published a lengthy article chronicling the segregation of the Catholic schools and parishes in the Archdiocese of New Orleans following the Third Plenary Council of Baltimore (1884), which called for separate black facilities as a means of more effectively ministering to the needs of black Catholics. It is quite an illuminating article for those interested in American Catholic history and how the hierarchy navigated the "color line" that was so prevalent in late 19th century America.
Sunday, August 13, 2023
On the Superior Merit of the Traditional Mass
Since one of the primary obligations of those in authority in the Church is the glory of God through the salvation of souls, they have the obligation to encourage, and, in some cases, require the ritual of the Mass which is most efficacious.
Sunday, April 23, 2023
Repetitions of the Sign of the Cross in the Mass
Monday, January 30, 2023
The Pope's Reductive Structuralism
Wednesday, December 21, 2022
"A Nitty-Gritty Trad": Teenager TLM Testimony (Part 3)
Part I
Part II
Saturday, December 03, 2022
"O Beauty Ever Ancient Ever New!" Teenager's TLM Testimony (Part 2)
“Late have I loved you, O Beauty ever ancient and ever new! Late have I loved you!” These words of Saint Augustine perfectly describe my love for the Latin Mass. Of all the events I have experienced in my life, attending the Latin Mass every Sunday has been the one thing that constantly deepens my desire to know the truth. Every gesture and word of the Tridentine Rite, the beauty of the many churches I’ve attended, and the sacred music that often accompanies the Mass all raise one’s heart, mind, and soul to Truth Himself. The Latin Mass sparks an awe within me that has grown into a deep desire to draw closer to Our Lord, and through Him to know the truth.
Wednesday, November 23, 2022
Teenager's TLM Testimony (Part 1)
The first story comes from a young woman whose family were converts from Protestantism. Through discovering the Traditional Latin Mass, she is now discerning a religious vocation. But I will let her tell you about it in her own words.
Thank you, Lord!! Praised be Jesus Christ, now and forever!
Tuesday, November 01, 2022
Guest Post: Retreat to the Ivory Tower
Ignoring for a moment the existence of Eastern Liturgies (which complicate both the argument of only one form of worship and contain a lot of the things they hate about the TLM), I think it should be noted that even if this were true (it isn't), its also irrelevant. The so called abandonment of Vatican II didn't begin with Benedict XVI; it began with Paul VI. Let's do a historical lesson.
It was at this very moment, not even 10 years after Vatican II's conclusion, that the Church realized the attempt to suppress the TLM had failed. Now it was a discussion of what terms the Church could live with. The architect of the New Mass, Annibal Bugnini, surprisingly told Paul VI to let the SSPX celebrate the old mass, as enacting further restrictions risked schism, and the juice absolutely wasn't worth the squeeze. Paul VI ignored that plea.
Upon his accession to the throne as John Paul II, Karol Wojtyla decided to have the Congregation for Divine Worship study the issue of what terms he could live with, as he wanted to bring the Conciliar fighting to an end. The study concluded that while most had adopted the new liturgy, some had not, and that this "problem" was one they could not solve by brute force. It was also pointed out that the UK had conditions for the celebration of the TLM nobody else had, and that this was unfair. As a result, John Paul II universalized the Agatha Christie Indult in 1984. He also requested a commission of Cardinals study the status of the TLM. Was it suppressed? Was it abrogated? Did a priest need permission to say the TLM?
Sunday, July 31, 2022
How Goodwill Was Squandered
This week our eyes were graced with the scandalous spectacle of Father Mattia Bernasconi, vicar of the pastoral care for young people of the parish of San Luigi Gonzaga in Milan, celebrating Mass on an air mattress in the water at the beach at Alfieri in Italy's Crotone region—for no reason save that "it was hot." The source for the story can be found here.
Of course, that is a pipe dream. The fact is, the leadership in the Church does not care about reverent liturgy or suppressing abuse; they only care about suppressing the Traditional Latin Mass. So whenever an attack on the traditional Mass is accompanied by panegyrics about the importance of preserving decorum in Novus Ordo as well, nobody believes it. The hypocrisy is palpable. Fr. Mattia Bernasconi is not going to be disciplined; or, if he is, it will be a slap on the wrist (although, I have heard this priest actually got in trouble with the civil authorities for offending religious sensibilities; what a strange world!)
Once again, if traditionalists are skeptical about the goodwill of the hierarchy, it is not because we are simply mean or nasty; it is because the ecclesiastical authorities have systematically dismantled that goodwill over the last fifty years and continue to do so to this day.
Monday, July 04, 2022
The Latin Mass: Even the Homeless Prefer It
Saturday, December 18, 2021
Pope Denethor: Reflections on the CDW Responsa
This year marked the 20th anniversary of the release of Fellowship of the Ring, the first installment in the legendary Lord of the Rings film trilogy. In the Lord of the Rings, you will recall the character of Denethor, the Chief Steward of Gondor. While the city of Gondor is collapsing before the onslaught of Mordor, Denethor abandons his obligations to defend his city. Instead, he prioritizes the burning of himself and his son Faramir alive in a despairing ritual murder-suicide. The hobbit Pippin, who has pledged to defend Gondor, tells Denethor that there is still hope and tries to prevent him from carrying out his mad plan. Determined to autodestruct himself and his kingdom, Denethor throws Pippin out of his chambers, telling him, "I release you from my service. Go now and die in what way seems best to you."
All seminary formators, seeking to walk with solicitude in the direction indicated by Pope Francis, are encouraged to accompany future Deacons and Priests to an understanding and experience of the richness of the liturgical reform called for by the Second Vatican Council. This reform has enhanced every element of the Roman Rite and has fostered—as hoped for by the Council Fathers—the full, conscious and active participation of the entire People of God in the liturgy, the primary source of authentic Christian spirituality.
So, if a prospective ordinand looks at the chaos in the Church, looks at the flatlined vocations, rampant sex abuse, pathetic liturgies, doctrinal aberrations, plummeting demographics, and general malaise across the Catholic world and questions whether the Second Vatican Council might just maybe have some relation to this, he is to be lovingly told that the problems in the Church are not due to the Council, but to our failure to appreciate the "richness" the Council bequeathed upon us! The amount of ignorance, duplicity, dishonesty, brainwashing (or all of the above) it takes to assert that is stunning, even by Vatican standards. And the whole document reeks of such backwards logic.
II. Indeed, the Responsa's condemnation of the very things the Vatican itself is causing is reminiscent of the institutional gaslighting perpetrated by Communist governments. Roche says it is sad that the liturgy has become a cause for division; who is currently guilty of fanning the flames of that division? It is certainly not traditionalists. He condemns "sterile polemics" and the exploitation of the liturgy for "ideological viewpoints", yet "sterile polemics" have been the very fuel of the Vatican's assault on the traditional liturgy—and as for liturgy in service of ideology, it is the progressives who have made the Spirit of the Council into the "super-dogma" Ratzinger once spoke of, applying it to the liturgy for the purpose of fostering the new ecclesiology. The Vatican accuses traditional Catholics of its own vices and then stomps on us in the name of mercy. It is like Orwell's Ministry of Peace, whose task is to wage relentless war. And like the antagonist of 1984, we are to believe that Big Brother crushes us because he loves us.
III. Also, isn't it funny how quickly the Vatican can respond to dubia when it wants to? Administering any large organization requires bureaucracy, but the Vatican is a bureaucracy of the worst kind: it either hides behind ambiguity and implied meaning or issues diktat after diktat as the situation requires—the "requirement" of the situation being not the cura animarum, but the centralization of power on the Peronist model. Authority, legislation, appointments, clarifications, communication, even the truth itself: these are wielded in the service of raw power, and that is their only consistency. When and if the Vatican "clarifies" anything has to do with the preservation of power. That's it.
IV. Also, who are the morons who even asked for this "clarification"? Everyone knows that when you get a directive that allows some wiggle room, you shut up about it. The bishops who asked for clarification are like that kid in high school who, two minutes before the bell rings, raises his hand and tells the teacher, "You forgot to assign homework!" Seriously. When a directive is issued in such a way that allows you to maintain some modicum of independence, you don't ask for clarification. You read the instruction, say, "Got it," and go do your thing.
...such a celebration [of the Traditional Mass] should not be included in the parish Mass schedule, since it is attended only by the faithful who are members of the said group. Finally, it should not be held at the same time as the pastoral activities of the parish community. It is to be understood that when another venue becomes available, this permission will be withdrawn.
The exclusion of the parish church is intended to affirm that the celebration of the Eucharist according to the previous rite, being a concession limited to these groups, is not part of the ordinary life of the parish community.
There is no intention in these provisions to marginalize the faithful who are rooted in the previous form of celebration: they are only meant to remind them that this is a concession to provide for their good.
VI. As an example of the weak logic in this document, let's take the issue of the Pontificale Romanum. The Pontificale Romanum contains the liturgical rites typically performed by bishops. It includes the Mass, but also things like the consecration of chrism, administration of Confirmation, etc. Now remember, Traditionis Custodes concerns itself only with the celebration of Mass according to the Missale Romanum of 1962; it is silent on these other ancillary rites. Traditionis Custodes 8 says, "Previous norms, instructions, permissions, and customs that do not conform to the provisions of the present Motu Proprio are abrogated." Since the provisions of Traditionis Custodes do not concern themselves with the sorts of rites found in the Pontificale, one may surmise that celebrating these rites does not contradict Traditionis Custodes and hence are still permitted. Since restrictive legislation needs to be interpreted strictly, the fact that TC does not specifically mention these other rituals would imply they are exempt. Essentially, Traditionis Custodes 8 does not imply the pre-conciliar Pontificale is abrogated; in fact, the opposite is inferred. In light of this possibility, a dubium was submitted specifically asking if the provisions of Traditionis Custodes allow for the use of the pre-conciliar Pontificale. The CDW's Responsa says:
...in order to make progress in the direction indicated by the Motu Proprio, [the Congregation] should not grant permission to use the Rituale Romanum and the Pontificale Romanum which predate the liturgical reform, these are liturgical books which, like all previous norms, instructions, concessions and customs, have been abrogated (cf. Traditionis Custodes, n. 8).
VII. Continuing on examining the awful response to Article 3§2, we see how ignorant the Vatican is about who actually goes to the Traditional Latin Mass. It naively assumes that everyone who attends the Traditional Latin Mass is part of an officially established dedicated group. On the matter of the exclusion of the parish church as a setting for Traditional Latin Masses, it says:
The exclusion of the parish church is intended to affirm that the celebration of the Eucharist according to the previous rite, being a concession limited to these groups, is not part of the ordinary life of the parish community...Moreover, such a celebration should not be included in the parish Mass schedule, since it is attended only by the faithful who are members of the said group.
X. "What are we to do?" Why is everyone so obsessed with asking this question? I don't know. How can there be any uniform response? It all depends on the situation within your specific diocese, your own spiritual life, priorities, and centrality of the traditional liturgy within your life. Vague platitudes like "pray" or "resist" mean little outside of the particulars "on the ground" in your diocese. I will tell you one reflection I had today though: sometimes the obstacles we face become so enormous, the dishonesty of our opponents so brazen, the malice so vicious, the scope of the disaster so broad and overwhelming that the circle of tragedy comes full circle, and you find yourself just laughing at it all. During the years of John Paul II and Benedict XVI, there was more a place for impassioned pleas and eloquent argumentation fueled by righteous indignation. Now, confronted with shenanigans of Francis and his ilk, all one can do is squeeze the clown nose and say, "Honk honk. Boomer's gonna boom." And that itself is a consolation. They can take the Mass away from me. They can banish all beauty from the churches, strip every vestige of tradition from the liturgy, and stuff the cathedrals of yesteryear with Pachamamas galore. They can ostracize me, tie me to the stake, and light the fire. They can take my very life. But one thing that escapes their power, the one thing they can never do, is to stop me from laughing at their dumb asses. No sir, I will still be laughing at this ridiculous debacle until the end of the world. So that is the one thing I would suggest we do: laugh scathingly at the sheer idiocy of the entire situation, not just with TC, but the entire post-Conciliar experiment.
Sunday, October 17, 2021
Athanasius Schneider Pontifical High Mass in Detroit
I was fortunate enough to get a seat very close to the front, maybe third row. Assumption Grotto had produced an extremely fine worship aid that not only gave you both the prayers/readings and fixed Mass parts in one place, but also had an extremely interesting page explaining how a Pontifical High Mass is different from a Solemn High Mass. It had a lot of minutiae on it that even I'd never heard before. I meant to save it and I did bring it home but...of course now I cannot find it :/
I have been to Pontifical High Masses before, but what really impressed me about Bishop Schneider's Mass was the universality represented in who was present. It was truly reflective of the Catholicity of the Church. The diversity was spectacular. There were whites, blacks, Filipinos, Indians, Hispanics, and Japanese. I saw plenty of young families with children, lots of old folks, and many people in between. Millennial hipster Catholics with their beards and slicked back hair sitting side-by-side with boomer homeschool marms. Academic looking tweed jacket types and blue collar schlubs. The Knights of Columbus were there, resplendent in full regalia. I saw some religious, both men and women. The choir was made up of a mixture of ages from teenagers up to elderly. All presided over by a central Asian bishop whose native language is German saying an ancient liturgy in Latin. It truly was a "multitude of every tribe and tongue and nation" (Rev. 7:9), diversity in the best sense—not the ridiculous Babel of woke individualism, but people of every social, ethnic, and demographic background finding unity in the worship of Christ through the traditional rite of the Church.
Bishop Schneider spoke on several themes: the action of the Holy Spirit within the Church, the importance of the Eucharist in the life of the Christian, and the Mass as the highest act of worship the Church can offer. It was such a solid homily. There was no ripping on anyone or trashing different segments of the Church, such as you hear whenever Pope Francis opens his mouth. There was no alarmism about vaccines, nor any of the sort of quasi-political nonsense you get when you read Viganò. It was just good, wholesome, spiritual preaching.
Year ago, I read Athanasius Schneider's Dominus Est. It remains one of the greatest apologetical works on why we should receive communion on the tongue. During his Mass, watching him seated on the faldstool, eyes cast down in humility, while the subdeacon read the Epistle, more than once I thought, "In what world do we live in where this man is on the margins of the hierarchy? Why can't we have this guy for pope?"
Whatever Pope Francis or others want to say, Tradition is alive and well. It was not created by papal fiat and it won't be destroyed by papal fiat. I am fortunate I got to assist at a Mass said by this good prelate, and I pray for more like him.
Monday, August 02, 2021
Cardinal Cicognani on Canonical Dissimulation
A distinction should also be made between dispensation and dissimulation, whereby a superior, without removing the law's obligation, permits its transgression to go unpunished that greater evils may be avoided. Dissimulation is a true juridic procedure, as may be gathered from the numerous canonical documents, wherein it is stated: "dissimules", or "dissimulare poteris" (you may dissimulate). For in some cases it is very difficult, or even impossible, to enforce a law, and to dispense from it is inexpedient or impossible because the superior lacks the necessary power. Hence at times it is expedient for the superior to dissimulate, to assume a passive attitude—which is permissible even in matters that concern natural or divine law—from which no precedent is established; however, the superior, because of his dissimulation, can take no action in the external forum against transgressors, nor are invalid acts avoided officially.Connivance or dissimulation is frequently confused with toleration. They differ in this respect, that connivance is a feigned ignorance of transgressions of the law in order that measures may not be taken against them; whereas toleration not only feigns ignorance but grants the transgressor complete liberty of action and freedom to continue. Hence toleration is not employed in matters that are contrary to faith and morals, and with respect to acts that are patently invalid. Furthermore, toleration settles the point at issue by a "tolerari potest" decree, whereas connivance (dissimulation) can be nothing more than a temporary measure. [Cardinal Amleto Cicognani, Canon Law, 2nd ed (Dolphin Press, Philadelphia, 1935), pg. 830-831]
First, dissimulation is a "true juridic procedure". That is, it is a legitimate canonical response to a law, not a mere shirking of duty or abdication of responsibility.
Second, dissimulation is appropriate in situations where it is better to permit a transgression to go unpunished "that greater evils may be avoided."
Third, it is permissible "even in matters that concern natural or divine law."
Fourth, though Cicognani's book was written with reference to the 1917 code, he is not here addressing the text of any specific canon; rather, he is explaining a legislative principle that is found throughout the Church's canonical tradition. It would certainly still be applicable today under the 1983 code.
There is a strong argument that the principles of canonical dissimulation apply in the case of Traditionis Custodes. In the weeks since the document's promulgation, there has been a surprisingly resounding chorus or protest against the hubris, overreach, and cruelty of the document. Even liberals, non-Christians, and atheists have gone on record saying the motu proprio is unnecessarily harsh (a roundup of notable responses to Traditionis Custodes can be found on New Liturgical Movement). The majority of bishops globally seem to believe the implementation of the motu proprio would be problematic, as evidenced by the vast majority of bishops choosing to avoid enforcing the document. As of August 1, 2021, the status of the Traditional Latin Mass globally is as follows:
Note that it can be permissible "even in matters that concern natural or divine law", so the Sacred Liturgy would certainly fall within that purview.
When would dissimulation be a better approach than dispensation? Perhaps in situations where a bishop, for reasons of Church politics, wishes to avoid enforcing the document but also does not want to "go on record" as opposing the pope. It would also be ideal in situations where too much time has elapsed for the "we're studying the document" is no longer believable.
Tuesday, July 27, 2021
Guest Post "The Latin Mass Saved My Life"
A friend of mine has written an elegant testimony on how the Traditional Latin Mass brought him to faith, delivered him from sexual sin, and taught him the meaning of manhood. It is a touching story from a man who has pondered these matters deeply. But I will let him speak for himself:
Current circumstances in the Church have moved me to write something that is deeply personal, having defined the course of my life for the past three years. While I can choose to reel in anguish and despair regarding the restrictions imposed by Pope Francis in Traditionis Custodes, I will instead try to use this time as an opportunity to look back on how far I have gone in my relationship with Christ, the eternal defender of Tradition, and remind me to keep hoping in Him and His promises, however trite that might sound and how hopeless the situation for us traditional Catholics might be both at home and abroad. I won’t dwell on the full details of my conversion story. I will also leave the doctrinal and canonical dissection of the motu proprio to Catholics far more competent than me, although this essay will reflect my views regarding this issue.
Growing up in the Philippines in the 2000s was coming to age
in your typical JPII conservative Novus Ordo environment—the liturgy was
celebrated poorly (I still cringe at the sight of chasuble-albs), cheesy
homilies, wreckovated parishes (granted, this wasn’t as bad in the
Philippines), and an insistence on seeing all of Church doctrine and history
through the lens of the Second Vatican Council. We were taught, as I suspect
like our American Catholic brethren back then, that the versus populum orientation
was superior than ad orientem, since it welcomed the community to
worship with the priest, and that no one understood the Traditional Latin Mass;
hence, the matrons in front had prayed the rosary instead. Of course, we were
also taught that ecumenism and religious freedom for all were good for the
Church. Yet this being your JPII conservative milieu, we were also taught the
Church teaching didn’t really change and that the Catholic Church was still the
true Church. This was back before Google, and so I agreed with everything my
diligent religion class teachers taught me. But even then, with the little
knowledge I had of tradition in books (for one, I only learned about the heresy
of modernism in Pope St. Pius X’s biographical entry in a book about the
saints), I already saw the ruptures in what the Church has taught and done
before, and even more so in how the Philippine hierarchy behaved toward
non-Catholic sects. While the Philippines has never had a shortage of lay
apologists, the hierarchy seemed to be locked in an overly conciliatory, even
obsequious, attitude toward sects like the Iglesia ni Cristo (INC) and Members
Church of God International (MCGI), two homegrown churches, given how they have
always viciously attacked Holy Mother Church and poached thousands of souls from her. Somehow, I thought, we were the true Church, yet at the same
time we had no official response for the rapacity of these false preachers.
When it came to my life at school beyond religion classes
and First Friday Masses, I found it quite difficult to keep up with my peers
socially. They talked about their fathers playing basketball with them or
otherwise doing something that a father and son should do together. I guess
this lack of a father figure made it difficult for me to make friends and open
up to people, especially when talking about my unique situation of not having a
father in the first place. It didn’t help that my mother told me to tell
everyone that my father was dead (I still do not know where he is or if he is
even alive). Moreover, my introverted and reserved nature didn’t help. I
certainly did not have a healthy model of masculinity, despite being enrolled
in an all-boys school.
It would be unfair to say that it was this Catholic
environment that led me to losing my faith in my adolescent years, since many
classmates didn’t, yet it is safe to say that my lack of exposure to a
Catholicism that was consistent in what she said and what she did hardly
contributed any defense to my teenage brain’s exposure to anti-Catholic and
anti-religious arguments. I uncritically gobbled up the New Atheists’
arguments, even if I had not read any of their books (I still haven’t up to now).
This was around 2005 when Filipino households started being hooked up to the
internet; Google searches provided all the semi-educated arguments I needed. I
have always been well-read, ironically, but this did not lead me to buttress
the things I learned from my religion classes with arguments from Catholic sources.
I reveled being an atheist in a deeply Catholic society and considered other
classmates in the same boat as fellow enlightened souls (or rather, purely
material beings). I was so arrogant that when I was 14, I declared to myself that
I was officially an atheist on the very day of my Confirmation. I did go
through it since it was expected of me and I rationalized that I was curious
about ritual. My appreciation with ancient, arcane rituals in general and pre-modern
aesthetics kept me appreciative of the Latin Mass and the surface beauty of
Traditional Catholicism.
Long story short, I (expectedly) fell into existential
despair and sexual sin. I had to follow my mother to the United States in 2014 at
age 21 after she married my stepfather some years before that. This led me further
into social withdrawal and a rapidly metastasizing anomie. I made few friends
and struggled relating to American culture, which surprisingly I found to be very
welcoming of outsiders. As I got into my mid-20s, I realized that I could not
keep living like this. There must be a reason for living, for striving
for something, for working toward some end, even if during that time I
did not realize I was made to fulfill that end. I knew it didn’t mean going
to graduate school, given that I had wanted to pursue an academic career
originally, since I learned early on how adjunct professors were underpaid in
this country. So at first I thought that I could find my purpose with being
financially independent. Furthermore, I knew I had to move out if I was going
to have any chance to start my own life, like Americans of my age. This gave me
a direction in life beyond finding a job so I could fund my worldly interests,
but that wasn’t enough. At this point I still didn’t know the answer.
Not that I connected the dots immediately, but I also felt
that I could not let my addiction to porn and masturbation to define me for the
rest of my life. I hated myself for my inability to wean myself off it. Around
this time, I also saw how broken American society was with regards to marriage
and family. However, there were two things that kept me intrigued about
Catholicism. One was the fact that I was surrounded by (nominal) Protestants,
and I was trying to look for Catholics with whom I shared something at least.
Another was that I never lost interest in the Latin Mass. I have known about it
even before Summorum Pontificum, interestingly also thanks to Google. I
still cannot explain in natural terms how this interest grew over time while in
the States, but one explanation might be that I was looking for beauty (and
good and truth) in all the ugliness I found myself mired in.
The opportunity to attend a Latin Mass finally came to me on
a trip to New York City in November 2017, over at the Church of Holy Innocents.
I didn’t understand anything, nor did I know that something called a missal
existed. I did know it was different from all the other Masses I have attended
in the past, both as a believer and a skeptic. It did conform to my aesthetic
tastes, of course, but I came home with something more than shallow art
appreciation. To be sure, I was already reading about Catholicism again,
especially regarding the aftermath of Amoris Laetitia. I can’t remember
exactly what came first and how everything came to be, but immediately before
this I was already entertaining doubts regarding issues like same-sex marriage,
the transgender movement, and no-fault divorce. As an atheist then, I found out
at last that the only axiom in secular ideology was change, and this did not
satisfy my intellectual convictions; after all, I had stopped believing in God
because that was the “truth”. However, I did not navigate my way back to the
Tiber right away, partly because of the issues with Amoris Laetitia,
seeing that the liberals were winning, and also because the bad spirit
was still trying to confirm me in my vices.
Three months later, in January 2018, I got back to attending
Mass willingly after 10 years, forcing myself to wake up on an early Sunday
morning with nothing else but the desire to learn more about the Old Rite, and
see what followed from there. The rest of it is the Holy Spirit’s story. Slowly,
I realized that the TLM was the expression of Catholicism that didn’t present
itself to the world with "ifs" and "buts." Rather, it seemed to shout and assert
that the Church was the Bride of Christ, that what she was doing was True
Sacrifice, and that she opened a portal to something beyond the altar, beyond
this world. It was a whole worldview packed in a couple of gestures by the priest,
who as alter Christus was the main actor, since he alone had the sweet
yoke of re-presenting the Sacrifice of the Bridegroom, ipse Christus,
giving back to the Father all the good that He has magnanimously imparted to
the universe. Obviously, I did not immediately work out the various arguments
from Tradition about the fittingness of all of this, but it was this self-consistent
blueprint I saw embedded within the Old Mass that eventually bridged the gap I
perceived between what the Church has always taught and what she was currently
doing.
In connection to the brokenness of my family, the ruin of my
manhood, and my lack of purpose, the Mass of Pope St. Gregory the Great and St.
Pius V taught me that the world runs on order and reason. For one, nothing is
superfluous in the Mass, as all its parts contribute toward properly disposing
its participants into truly participating fruitfully in the Sacrifice at
Calvary. Not only is there beauty in the vestments, the chanting, and the sweet
whiff of Latin, but also the prayers express a frank admission of man’s frailty
and pleads deliverance from his sinfulness through the economy of salvation as
revealed by Scripture and Tradition. It is the whole of salvation history
summarized in a few sublime gestures and movements. It communicates through its
succinct beauty that the only Beauty, the only Good and Truth to pursue for, is
what the Mass points to, to where it derives its beauty from in the first
place, and to whom the priest offers the perfect worship. For one, I remembered
reading the Roman Canon in an older English translation, and I couldn’t help
but tear up not only because of how emotionally moving it was or how powerful
its poetry, but more importantly on how it systematically elevated the whole liturgical
action to the presence of the Divine at the moment of Consecration.
Thus, it is futile to look for worldly honors, riches or
other vain pursuits, since they are at best means to that end we were
all created for. Moreover, there is no need to wallow in the brokenness of
original sin and its consequences, from our immediate parents up to our first
parents, since the death of Christ, the Logos, has already freed us from
the chains of the Serpent. Before my conversion I had already accepted that all
children needed a father and a mother, yet I eventually realized that only
Catholicism had yet to cave in (doctrinally at least) on issues regarding
marriage and family. More than being moved by a merely anthropological sense of
tradition—and in my case the determination of a child to not repeat his parents’
mistakes—I made the connection between tradition and how it was principally
handed over from the previous generation to the next through the family. And it
is through the basic unit of the family that we are made members of a larger reality—civil
society and the Church. The traditional family is not only the poster child of
conservative talking points, but it is the smallest organ in a mystical body
that extends to Heaven.
Intimately connected to this, the Latin Mass has also showed
me on how to be a man, which is something I never learned from my absentee
father. The exclusive presence of men in the altar coupled with the meticulous
rubrics in the Mass is enough to dispute the self-defeating claims of gender
ideology, if only in deed and not in word. Both the fixed and proper prayers of
the Old Mass are suffused with the spirit of virtus understood in the
classical Roman sense. It moreover introduced me to saints who were manly,
courageous, and resolute, yet at the same time humble enough to model their
lives to the image of the archetypal Man. Real men, tempered by Christian
moderation and virtue, are neither toxic nor reap destruction upon the weak,
but rather use their strength to fight for what is right and just, for what is
truly good, even at the expense of suffering for it. And who else would point them
to this than Jesus Christ, whom they see suffer, die, and rise in glory through
the priest every Sunday? With this the Latin Mass led me to that other great
sacrament, Confession. Through the work of patient priests in the confessional
I was able to be freed from sexual sin, and confirmed that a man could truly subject
his carnal desires with the Spirit’s grace and His gift of reason.
I can say this with confidence: the Latin Mass saved my
life, and hopefully will save my soul. I would not have written this essay or
have even known Boniface and other Catholic friends had I not made an effort to
go to a Low Mass one Thursday evening in New York. I think it inappropriate to
say that the Latin Mass was my “gateway drug” to Catholicism, but it is true that it all
started from there. I am not suggesting that the Latin Mass will always
inevitably lead to metanoia or even that it is the panacea to the current
crisis; certainly, it is but one tool that the Spirit uses to penetrate hearts
walled off and imprisoned by sin. Yet I do think that the restoration of the
liturgy is the key to unraveling the current crisis.
Like everyone else, I remain a sinner and still struggle
with many faults. But I am thankful for the Lord for delivering me from sexual
sin and the social isolation it brings with it. Now, I am making friends with
lots of Catholics, more than I ever had, and also enjoyed dating for the first
time free from the clutches of pelvic degeneracy. I am still introverted, but I
found out it’s not reason enough to build walls around myself especially when
others were reaching out to me. I was also able to start a career that enabled
me to support myself, and will hopefully allow me to support a future family as
well. Through the Latin Mass, I learned how to bear hardships for love of Him
who suffered for me, and to embrace the painful process of change to be a
better man.
Yet despite my personal testimony and that of many others,
Francis and the rest of the Spirit of Vatican II crowd keeps plotting to
suppress it. Beyond possible envy at the sight of the growing number of
(especially young) Catholics who take refuge in the Latin Mass to escape the modernist
wasteland that has defined the Church today, they know on an intellectual level
that the Mass of All Time is the cornerstone of everything Catholicism has
stood for before the 1960s. Or rather, what it has always stood for and will
stand for beyond their blighted clerical careers. Its enduring, continued
presence stings them as a living rebuke of the failure of their project of
bonhomie with the world, the saeculum, forgetting as they do their sworn
duty to bring the world into the saecula saeculorum instead with the
angels and saints—or else vainly thinking that they can achieve both. In a
protean world ruled only by Baphomet’s diktat of solve et coagula, the
Mass points to its archetype, the unchanging, eternal Word, and confidently
proclaims him as its one true King, against the pretensions of the prince of
this world garbed in various disguises.
The illicit suppression of the Latin Mass is proving to be
the greatest challenge to my faith as of yet. A part of me wants to scream and
express my wrath acerbically in social media; another part of me even tries to whisper
that all I did in 2018 with the help of God was all for naught, and I might as
well give in to despair by going back to my old vices. Yet wouldn’t this prove
Pope Francis right in claiming that the Latin Mass is only a source of discord
among the Church Militant, with few good fruits to show of its work? Wouldn’t
that be too easy for our critics, who say that our attachment to it is mere
nostalgia and vapid aesthetics? I am trying to cling to hope, seeing this as an
opportunity to prove to Him that He has truly changed me, and that I will
follow wherever He leads. Bad popes come and go, trends die off eventually, and
heresies will have their day of reckoning, but Christ’s promise endures. He has
shown this through the refusal of the Latin Mass to die in the decades after
the Council, when the de-christianization of society was not as apparent, and
how it still produces countless gifts for the Church despite every threat of
suppression. This might be, after all, a rebuke to us by Christ, for being at
times prideful, clannish, and bitter, as our enemies claim us to be—but doesn’t
He always subject those whom He loves to suffer? Nothing impure will enter His
presence; Blessed are the pure of heart, for they shall see God (Mt.
5:8).
I can barely muster words of comfort for my fellow Catholics,
for I still do not know how we can effectively respond to this latest attack
against Tradition. At least for me, I hope that all these trials in the Church (which have advanced in a worrying pace beginning with the Amazon Synod in 2019) means that the Devil is running out of time; hence, he has been hard at work
round the clock to destroy the Church. Anyhow, anything I say will be repeated
and better expressed by others. Yet we must resolve not to let this latest saga
from the Vatican—from this papacy—be a cause of scandal for us. Let us pray
more, let us accept suffering more, let us go to the Latin Mass more. The
Spirit will lead us to more concrete ways of responding to the modernists, but
let us respond to malice with charity, to detraction with humility, and to abuse
with patience. And may faith, hope, and love remain in us the selfsame chalice
that bears the blood of Christ, which he poured out for the salvation of souls,
so that when this dark cloud finally dissipates, we can again say with
confidence in our churches: Introibo ad altare Dei, qui laetificat
juventutem meam (Ps. 42:4).
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