6.5.09

in a blink of an eye. year 2009. may. no updates till now. me been totally lazy, too lazy to update this blog. what's the point of having a blog in the first place then? perhaps due to the new craze?!...not that i'm any new when i first sign up in blogger anyway. lol. ok..to summarise from nov08 till now: single; waiting for uni offer-received 1 so far yet to accept it, don't know which to choose and what the future will hold for the choice i make; working-from break to waitressing to break to acct to break yet again to admin/dsa and no more break for school's gonna start soon. omg! hectic life. not too bad as compared to some people i know who are even more busy. and oh yea, i still have 2 students plus learning driving as well. can be considered quite busy esp when i cant seem to coordinate the time for tuition. irritating.:( driving wise...i'm bad at it. i dont want to fail cos it's going to cost more to take more lessons though i'm learning private which is cheaper than the school's one apparently. and i dont want to take lessons while having school. plus i'm still going to continue tuition till end of this year i think. the 2 of them, yes. ok here's the sort of summary of my life so far. and i cant believe i have the time to do this while at work. lol. quite bored now cos nothing much to do. and they blocked download of msn and all big files so i cant even download new moon to read online. zzz. but somehow youtube can. haha.

**twistableturnableman** @ 15:00.


21.11.08

ok the present situation is this. i'm planning to initiate a break up cos i feel really weary. from waiting for responses which are all so not spontaneous and dull and expected. i feel like he's not concerned about me and i dont want to care about him liao. so irritating. like during exams i was thinking of meeting up to study but he wants to go home to mug. we dont talk over the phone and msg only twice daily and i mean 1 from me to him + 1 from him to me on mornings and nights. initially i type long msg expecting a reply but he doesnt reply and i dont bother typing long msg anymore. sometimes just once word, "morning". i'm tired of it. having him as my bf makes no diff whether i have a bf or not. we havent met for a month plus since before the start of exams. i think he's even lesseer than other friends whom i feel i'm closer to. it shouldnt be like that right? sigh. i've talked to a few friends about it and they support my decison to break up la. i havent told him yet and i think i should soon. i do feel upset having to come to this decison but i have to to prevent myself from hurting once more. that kind of anticipation and expectation followed by countless disappointments. i thought things were fine and not that bad but perhaps i should have ended it sooner when i feel that nothing's gonna progress out of the r/s. the first time i felt this was in june i think. but i didnt want to hurt him then cos exams were nearing and i too will be slightly affected if i were to initiate the break at that time. perhaps i shouldnt be too considerate cos he is not. a month b4 exams he said maybe we should have a temp break and the reason was cos i was upset about some stuff. wtf. using my being upset as an excuse to inititate a break? of course i didnt flare up then as i'm usually calm and composed. i said ok if you really think we should break then i'm fine with it. but he regreted and a agreed to make up cos i dont want it to affected both our exams. then came the second time when he initate it again cos he feels we are getting distant which is true. i dont deny that. and u know when he initiate it? a week before exams!! i was pissed! a week before exams and u bloody hell asshole came to tell me this. please ah. and i planned to study together that day cos i was thinking we didnt study tgt for a long time(the last time was for BT1-damn long ago b4 As...whatever). those words totally ruined my study plan and affected my mood throughout the exam period. thanks a lot man. zz. then i was trying to comfort him and say nothing's wrong and let's talk after exams. he apologised and said that he was stressed and whatsoever and was spouting nonsense shit and asked me to forget what he said. i said to talk after exams but he said he doesnt want to talk about it after exams and let everything go back to normal. i was like fine all right. but i think i'll talk about it after exams anyway. i kind of thought i would want to break up aft exams then. but i was still bothered by hte issue even during exams. omg. i so feel like slapping myself for feeling bothered by this kind of stuff when i know i shouldnt. and if he really cared about me he wouldnt have told me those thoughts just before exams just like how i held back initiating the break. am i wrong to say this? and i'm regreting accepting him in the beginning though i considered for a month before accepting. shit la. why am i putting myself through this. oh well it's an experience whatever. and i must say i did had happy times with him. sigh. i just dont understand why other couples can study together for exams and chat over the phone and seem to close together. he told me he's just like that, not a person who will call and chat, not a person with a lot to share, just a boring person.....yea i accepted that but still simple messages in the day will do fine. at least more than 1?! god i'm tired just thinking about all these yet again. i hope i made the right decison. the whole story is too lengthy but i told u the latest happenings in brief of sort. ah....tired tired. and he didnt bother to ask me out after exams neither does he rmb which days i have exams(differ by 1 subject) but i rmb his or at least i bother to check it out.

it's minor things that show whether u really care for someone. even friends.

**twistableturnableman** @ 14:56.


3.8.08

it's been a whopping long time since i blogged. well...i'm not a regular blogger anyway. hm. so much has happened these few months and i really dont wanna dweel on the stuff that happened. but just felt so irritated suddenly that i decided to blog, or even log in to my account after a zeallion years. lol. ok. why do i feel so vexed and irascible now? just because after i read that blog entry? i dont even know if it is targetted at me but well...after reading the several entries i began to think if i had made the wrong choice to befriend the person. i feel like i dont really know the person anymore. not that i even knew that person very well in the first place. i feel so....argh. it's not the first time i had such a thought. does the person want to reveal his/her true character? i have no idea. Z appears different in front of me. i just want to know more about the person but somehow i dont seem to able to get the conversation ongoing. i'm rather sick of dominating the conversation. i wonder why Z has more to talk about to Z's friends. cant i even establish a common topic to talk to Z? what my bro said is true. he said that he needed to find someone whom he can talk to, someone on the same level in terms of intellectual ability and way of thinking. i thought of what he said and perhaps i should apply that to my friends as well. i want to share my thoughts with people who can understand what i'm thinking and so far i guess only my best friend is able to do so. well, thats why she's my best friend right? ~duh. sigh. what's wrong with trying to understand you better as a friend? but everytime i ask about how's your day and what are you doing...etc you dont give me a specific answer but a generic one like 'slacking lor' or 'boring'. i dont mind you telling me every single thing that has happened during the day, what your friends said, what u ate, whatever that has happened. those may seem like trivial matters but it helps me to understand you better, u get it? i tell you about the things that revolves around me because i thought you would want to know more and i want to know more about you as well. all right. this not only applies to you but to all my close friends. i want you to be my second best friend but it seems like you arent and i dont know if you can. i just read your blog entry and i was like...god... do i even know this person? you never tell me anything that you wrote on your blog. do you expect me to read your blog everytime to find out about what happens to you? if you dont blog frequently i guess i wouldnt even know about what you think at times and whatever that had happened to you. can't we just talk about things and share about each others' lives? isnt that what friends do? isnt that what couples do?

i'm so sick of this.

**twistableturnableman** @ 21:19.


26.3.08

blocks are over!! yay! finally a break. it seems like a long time since i had a break though it is not really a long time. just before the march hols. mm...spent the holidays studying but wasted time as well. and studying wasnt productive or efficient. :(
a lot of things happened during the holidays. got to study for blocks....brooding over the competition which i'm unable to take part in due to my injury...my grandma...my mother...father....but everything seems better as days go by. and as i overcome each test.:) didnt really prepare well enough for this blocks. i wanted to get a for chem and math but then now i dont think i can make it. forgotten how to do all the calculations. who doesnt want an a? i hope i can get a b at least. but the probability is rather low.:( econs was not difficult, but i dont think i can score well in it. no confidence. gp ah...even worse. never been good at it. screwed up my compre. bio....totally dead. cannot remember what i've studied. damn angry at myself. nevermind.
bio spa was all right. quite lucky cos i prepared for that qn just that i missed out 1 point in the introduction. but it was ok i guess. happen to discuss with jo in the morning b4 the paper also. jo's so lucky, she only prepared for 1 qn and it came out. oh my....super lucky. hmm....went home to slack. ate pizza, went to cut hair and for acupuncture which took super long...longer than usual--about an hour. :( made him waited for a long time too. met at 430downstairs. raining.

22/3: pleasant surprise, sweet=) [cola machine][piggy bag][4847][sealed-1]]

**twistableturnableman** @ 00:43.


13.1.08

喜歡一個人是什麼感覺? 我不知道, 不清楚...是會一直想著那個人嗎? 現在的心情有點混亂...感覺自己很遜...分不清喜歡的感覺和被感動的感覺.
很對不起你, 讓你難受, 讓你痛苦.

**twistableturnableman** @ 22:11.


22.12.07

back from the tw trip. afterthoughts: things went on pretty well. i had lots of fun there. enjoyed myself with the sgpns there. got to know a lot of fun ppl. zham them, tease them and got zhammed myself too. lol. host family treated me very well and i felt quite bad as i think that i didnt treat my buddy as well as her family did to me. :( the days spent in school were like those of my sec sch days. the classroom setting and the school atmosphere....etc.
ok, i'm cutting things short as i really want to move on from the tip trip. i've been thinking a lot these few days and i really dont want to type those thoughts down because i have to recall, which will make me sad once again. no no, i dont want to be emo all over.anyway, i've jotted down some of my thoughts in my journal already. perhaps next time i'll dig it out and reminscince those times once more. "for once more i will...."
13dec2007: he told me that. i was stunned. rather shocked i must say. let it develop naturally. i'm sorry to make him wait but i really dont have the kind of strong feeling yet. i dont even know how it feels to like someone. no puppy love. no crushes at all so far. it was only this year that i start to observe and even think that someone is shuai, under the influence of my friends around me. how nice is this. lol. right now, things are fine. getting on well. frequent xc of smss is making me miss him more. i'm kind of getting addicted to smsing. i feel like i'm getting weird. ok, perhaps feelings for him would develop, i dont know. i'm not sure what i'm feeling now. the other day, i wanted to say yes. i mentioned. but he said not to force or rush into it since i'm not sure. he's really a nice guy, i must say. really sorry to him. let fate decide.:)

**twistableturnableman** @ 17:24.


22.11.07

yay! flying off soon. i'm looking forward to it, yet at the same time i'm worried about what may happen there. everything should be fine i suppose. i would like to change school of course, but i cannot do anything since the moe is the one that alloted us to the respective schools. lalala.

**twistableturnableman** @ 00:51.


21.10.07

i'm bored. i don't know what to do now. sighz. i have pw to do, got to prepare for the damn op thing. the dry run is tomorrow. oh my! i did the powerpoint slides till 3am yesterday or rather this morning. ha! got to write the script later. raagh! shall shelve it one side first. i'm trying to watch romantic princess but the loading is rather slow for some reason. i don't know if it is my computer or the internet problem. it's irritating. whatever!

this morning, there was mp visit at my housing estate.(though my home is not exactly considered an estate) miss indranee rajah came to do house visits knocking almost on every door or so it seems. but not many opened their doors to welcome her. perhaps because they are foreigners? anyway, she reached the my house door at about 1030 and we chatted for some time. quite a long time...and perhaps the longest of all, i supposed. my mum is really very luo suo. we talked about my school(since she was from the same sec sch as i), the MP session (by her)that i went to observe, ....etc. she also asked about my family members' occupations. very friendly i must say. and oh! mum wrote a complaint letter regarding the loud chanting made by the temple oppostie especially in the early mornings. it seems like we are the only ones affected by the noise as we were the first ones to bring the matter up to her. she made the house visits from the highest level down. hmm....perculiar that no one mentioned it. could it be because they are all heavy-sleepers? or maybe they sleep in air-conditioned room withe their windows closed, which helps to cut off the noise. perhaps.
we took a picture with her too. and she was the one who initiated it. haha! we didn't even think of taking picture. it could be because she wants to remember who made the complaint! hehe!!

after that, we went for our usual market trip. :) and to my grandmother's house. bro's friend was there helping my relatives to conduct an antioxidant test. sales talk la! trying to sell their product lor! haha! my bro bought those product liao and now he is recommending it to my relatives so that he can earn some money as well. i knew it. he won't do things that are not beneficial to him. hehe! anyway, i took the test too. my reading is 42000 with falls under the green zone where it is considered all right. blue zone is the best and green zone is just one zone away from it. i supposed i'm fine.:) drink more carrot juice.:)

getting carrot-ty!!! HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!

**twistableturnableman** @ 15:50.


12.10.07

what is your freaking problem for wanting to change the thing to artemis instead of ares? you said you wanted ares initially, so what is the problem now? i'm pissed. i dont really know why though. it's just a minor thing but i just dont like to change things after making a decision(already). thanks a lot man! i dont mind learning every one, in fact i want to. but i dont want to.....actually, i dont even know what i'm talking about. just so.... you know.....whatever.
anyway, you wont even see this entry cos you dont even know of my blog....i hope.
may i know the reason for changing? what exactly is the problem? i'm sorry, but i really dont get it. you people are weird. and making me feel awkward.
it's weird to do it again, especially when we got to know one another better. i dont know why, but i think it'll be awkward, for me at least. perhaps,....things may change?
i shall not bother about it now until you all decide what you really want for the final. maybe we wont even do the additional item after all. haha..

**twistableturnableman** @ 20:19.


4.10.07

haiz. i dont know what i'm troubled about, but i'm troubled.
so many things to do.....pw.........tip..lib......wushu.....open house.....
whatever the hell... cant stand it.
why are things going wrong? and my results as well. ching came to tell me on wed morning that my chem was very badly done. omg! like early in the morning come and ruin my day, spoil my mood. sighz. what can i do?
no amount of prayers work. .......darn it.
i dont like this. i dont like the feeling of losing the ability....to be in the 7815 168866. i want to float up. at least not down there.
hatez it.
i starting to think more about this 446 now. i dont want to. i shall not. it's all their fault. if they had never started it, i would not be like this now---not as calm as i always am. getting irritated more easily lately. getting bothered by that thing. hatez tonight's conv...
sighs. let nature takes its course. i'm tired. really tired. i dont want this anymore.







[breaking free--please...]

**twistableturnableman** @ 23:31.


19.8.07

it has been a week since they left, to return to their motherland. it's only a week, yet somehow i feel that it has been a long long time. i didn't expect myself to miss them so much, really. i thought i would be able to deal with this. i have so much to say. but i don't know where to begin from. :Z

i remember the time when i took the application form from the office. i filled it up. i looked for my ct to fill in the teacher's comments, and even ask her to write good comments for me. haha. at that time i didn't hink that i would have a high chance of getting it as i thought it would be very competitive. when i had to go through a second interview, i really thought that i may not get it. but i did! and i'm really really happy!

the preparation period was memorable too! i shall elab the next time. cos i'm supposed to be studying right now for tomorrow's test. shit lah!

ok. iwbb.

2413 到此一游.

**twistableturnableman** @ 18:54.


14.7.07

haven't blog for a long long time. yea. blocks are over. got back some results. i suck man. not a single a. sad. i can't help it but be angry at myself. why can't i do it?! i should be able to do well. at least a high b, not a low one. wth is happening? things are going wrong. .............
i miss dance!!!! i really really miss it. and because of this, i can't seem to be able to put my heart and effort into learning the dui da tao lu. i am learning the sequence of steps but i can't execute the movements as well i would want them to. why? this reminds me of the lyrics of the song from high school musical, "my head's in the game but my heart's in the song." whereas for me it is, my head's in the tao lu but my heart's in the dance. the memory of those days dancing plays vividly in my head. the times when all of us dancers were rushing to change our costumes during the intermission; when we were rehearsing for performances; when we had to put in so much effort and sweat just for a 5min dance; when we were munching on biscuits during breaktimes; when we were dancing together..............oh how i miss those days!
by reminiscing those times, i find that i'm indirectly creating a barrier in myself such that i begin to reject my present cca. i begin to dread going for practices, to dread training. i hate it. i don't want it to be like this. i wish i could make myself look on the bright side of things. and to accept it, to live it. but it's hard. i tried not to remember things related to dance. however, almost everything reminds me of dance. my friends, photos, shoes, clothing......perhaps i should have joined dance right from the start...with han lin. i should have done it when the instructor ask me to go for audition on that fateful saturday--the day when i had core module make-up. i ought to have gone another day. perhaps i would happier, perhaps not. i don't know. but i know that i am not happy now.

**twistableturnableman** @ 22:00.


10.5.07

lonely..................bored.................i don't wanna go to school anymore!!!!!!!!! i hate the feeling of failing......i hate failure....but i can't seem to be able to stop it! everyday i wake up with the thought that the day is not going to be well for me. i dread school. it's a chore. it's a drudgery having to drag myself to school each day. i don't wanna be like this but i can't help it. i told myself things would get better....but it didn't. enough of this!!
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oh well, have a nice sleep and everything will be fine. start afresh man! you can do it!


**twistableturnableman** @ 15:56.


11.4.07

hee hee! supposed to do duty now but i'm like slacking here. got training later. sigh. and bisai is coming!!!!! i'm so darn nervous. i hope that everything will ber fine and that everyone will be fit and healthy on that day. it seems like i always have some problem. is it because of my constitution, that i'm weak by nature? either there is something abnormal with my body or that others are abnormal(which i don't think so). anyway, let's all jia you jia you jia you for the bisai on tues. ................oh!

**twistableturnableman** @ 14:55.


3.3.07

oh yeah man! the school has just declared monday as a school holiday because of the excellent a-level results. say thanks to the seniors man! thanks j3s!!!
yesterday we had the council-meet-juniors session where they promote the council com to us so as to encourage us to join the council. quite a number of the people whom i know are interested to join but i don't think i am joining as i feel that i will not be able to manage my time well. no doubt it would be an interesting and memorable experience but in terms of commitment, i don't think i am willing to spend a large portion of my time on council activities.
well, i can't think of what to write at the moment. shall end here then though it's a rather short entry. good daeye and sayonara.

**twistableturnableman** @ 11:08.


27.1.07

hello everyone. Haven't been blogging for a long long time. do you miss me? Haha. Jc life has been fun and exciting but at the same time boring so far. Everyday we go through the same routine of assembling at the parade area and proceed to the lecture theatre and classroom and class bench.....listening to the endless talks.....and scoldings..blah. yesterday's ct session was fun though some people might not think so. the school has invited royston tan to give a talk. he showed us a relatively new video called sin sai hong. it's rather touching.


oh dear got to stop already. sorry for the rush. blog again next time.

**twistableturnableman** @ 15:44.


6.1.07

the first week of 2007 has passed and i have begun to embark on a journey to the jc life. life in a jc is truly different from a sec sch life as there will be much less time to do one's favourtie pastime unless one's favourite pastime is studying. oh man! that person must be mad. being in one of the gooood schools is rather stressful especially when you know that almost everyone else's calibre is higher than yours. in my sec sch i was among the better ones in my cohort, and now, i think i am among the worst. the people around me are so much better, be it in terms of the way they speak or the way they think. well, enough of this. talk about some happy stuff. cindy and i met zhiyang yesterday. hey laurel, are u jealous? his hair was rather long but it was styled so it looks as if it is not breaking the school rules. Haha! and oh! the ceo called him a 'she' by mistake and the whole audi was giggling away. i dinlt think that he noticed it though.
oh dear i've got to go now. blog again some time later,...........when i feel like it.

**twistableturnableman** @ 13:04.


25.12.06

merry christmas!!! had turkey, seafood platter, cold cut platter and sausages today, sorry, it's yesterday. yummy! the food was pretty good. it is the first time i tasted turkey in my whole life. it is also the first time that i remember that my family even celebrated christmas. i was quite surprised at this decision made by my mother. but i like it because...i get to eat good food. ok, i am greedy. oh yes. the turkey tasted somewhat like smoked duck just that the texture is different. by the way we ordered the food from carrefour and we went to collect them from the PS outlet just yesterday afternoon. oh, i feel so full now. the taste and smell of the sausages and the turkey still linger in my mouth...ah! i feel blessed. blessed to be able to eat these good food.

had wanted to update on my trip but i am too tired and lazy to do so. sorry. next time can?

dozing off............zzzzzzzzzzzz...........

**twistableturnableman** @ 00:07.


29.11.06

sunday 26/11
2c2 bbq

amanda and i went to gen's house for a while before going to imm to shop. we ate shilin snacks. i bought the usual--crispy chicken. i was surprised when i found out that the price of it was the same as in the past. in other places, the price rose by 20 cents. i bought a pack of japanese sweet cake at daiso. it tasted all right. there were several things that i wanted to buy at daiso but i did not want to spend so much money. i didn't have much money with me anyway.
we met jamie at the bbq. my my she has grown so tall. she's taller than me now. i feel dwarfed. ms tan came too. she's still so slim. i wonder when she would be pregnant. but i don't think it would be so soon.
gosh, i think i ate too much at the bbq. i even da bao home. but the food that i brought home was quickly sao guang by my brothers. i told u guys can really eat. mum said the stingray was not very good. well, what can one expect when that food was ordered from the catering co. i couldn't really tell the taste as i had it hot. this perhaps, numbed my tongue. it was spicy too, so i supposed it kind of mask any funny taste.


monday 27/11

signing up for job
musical evening

amanda, gen and i went to sign up for a job at this particular private co. whose office is located opposite clarke quay mrt. i took a 15 min brisk walk there and arrived all sweaty and 'stinky'. i lost my favourite cap at the mrt station. it was a souvenir from the 'kNOw drugs' campaign that i took part in when i was in primary 4 or 5. i love the cap so much. i hope that whoever who picks it up will return it to me soon. tell me, who on earth would want to steal a stinky and smelly cap? but as the days passed, my hope is diminishing. i may never ever get it back. V_V
someday, perhaps, a special someone would replace this cap for me (i hope so) .

kejia brought the 3 of us there. the office is on the 4th floor and we had to climb the stairs up. *pant* we filled up some forms. the person asked if we wanted cpf. i said yes. but now i began to regret. i rang up the place but the person whom we spoke to that day was not in or was busy. i called the place 3 times. the first time, the person was in a meeting. the 2nd time, it was engaged. the 3rd time, she was not in at the moment. sigh. +_+

oh amanda had her hair cut after that. it looked much thinner and easier to manage. her hair is really very thick. i wish to have thick hair but not as thick as hers or i would be re si le.

the musical evening was held at the esplanade. it was a little disappointing. the band was ok but the cgsaa band was good. it might be because of the songs they played. those tunes played by the cgsaa band were more grand and majestic compared to those played by the band. the choir kind of bored me as (i am sorry to say this) i was not really interested in it. all i could remember was that they singing something about "ah leh lu ya". ok, not that bad lah. they sang the high school musical song (the finale), which was pretty good. their costume was horrible though. the design, the colour, the material...awful. it made them look bad on stage. the first dance item was a little disappointing. i supposed they were nervous so the movements weren't well-executed. subsequently, the other 3 dances got better. i liked the chinese dance with the fan chou. i wished i could be in the dance too but too bad the dance doesn't have the kind of alumni dance 'thingy' like the band. the other dance was somewhat similar to nan hua's syf 'bamboo' or zhu lin performance. i feel so sad that they had new dances, new costumes, props and shoes! i wish i could enjoy these things too. i betcha they get to have these because we achieved gold with honours for the syf central judging 2005. there was probably a top-up in dance fund to make the those purchases.

the performances ended and amanda and i left quite soon since it was rather late. some people stayed to cheer and ..... we felt quite bad for leaving early. it was as though we were bu he qun. oh well. we were tired. -_-

**twistableturnableman** @ 13:26.




wow! so many photos! wo zi ji kan le dou yan hua liao. that night was indeed a memorable night. before the event started, there were already people gathered at the hotel lobby. some were busy arranging their accessories while some were combing back some stray hairs. i remember, i was very kan chiong on that day. i arranged to meet my hairdresser at 3.30pm but she only reached my house at 4.30pm. how could i not be anxious, right? what makes me even more worried was that i had to go to the hotel earlier to pass amanda her dress so that she could change. fortunately, my hairdresser managed to do up my hair and make-up in time. my dad came home in time too to drive me to the hotel.
finally, i'd reached. amanda must have been quite anxious to get her dress from me. +_+ sorry amanda. the hotel room they booked was number 1912, on the 19th floor. (that's very high up! i was a little scared when we took the lift as i wondered what i was going to do if the lift broke down.) when i entered the hotel room, i felt rather awkward. everyone was busy tidying their, doing their make-up and so on. but i? i was just standing around doing nothing. sigh. am i a statue?
6.30pm. it was time to go to the ballroom. everybody were busy chatting away and catching up with their friends. the corridor and the ballroom were filled with voices. cameras were busy snapping away. videos were taken. the whole place was bustling with life.

dinner time!!! here are the dishes!
  1. cold dsh: mini octopus, jellyfish, roasted duck, egg (amanda was damn disgusted by the octopus. sylvia and i purposely ate it in front of her, biting the head of the octopus first. ewww.....! )
  2. shark's fin soup (so wasteful! there were 3 bowls left. oh brothers, i wish u were here to help finish the food. *guys can eat more. ^_^* )
  3. fried sesame chicken (alex, from another table, brought the head of the chicken in a glass to our table. so lame...=_=)
  4. coffee spare ribs (the coffee smell was very strong and we could guess what it was from a distance away.)
  5. steamed fish with soy sauce (the waiter left after deboning the fish. i helped to serve this dish to those sitting at my table. the fish tasted rather bland. but the sauce managed to salvage the overall taste. some said the fish was good, but i think otherwise. the meat was mushy, not too nice. well, i don't really like fish sold outside anyway. mum's fish is the best. oh! and my uncle's too! )
  6. spinach with abalone and mushroom (wasted again. so much leftover.)
  7. fried ee-foo mee (not bad but as usual- too oily)
  8. cream of peanut (absolutely disgusting. it was too watery. the consistency was not there. from a diatance, the smell of the peanut was very fragrant. but after having a small mouth, i didn't want to eat it anymore. i think the one sold at chinatown tasted much much better. and yes, i had it 2 days later on sunday 26/11 when i went to the market. this seemed to taste better than it usually was. i don't know if it was after the bad taste on friday 24/11 or it was really better.)

after dinner, music was played. people started to leave. some were still busy taking photos. (later i found out from ms tan s.h. on sunday when we were having 2c2 gathering that the music was played so that we could dance and have fun. Haha~! people were all rushing to go home!)

peili left early. she left before the spinach was served as she was flying off that night. but lucky we took a picture with her before she left.

amanda and gen decided to play a prank on tania and kejia. they wore the bathrobe and went barefoot to tania's room on the 13th floor. (when we left our room we took the wrong keycard-- the one that could not work with the lift and the hotel door but only worked to switch on the lights in the hotel room. and by the way, i was not barefoot. sylvia and they were.)

when we were in the lift, amanda and gen were 'rehearsing' and something happened. shh... this is a secret that is not to be told. only those who were present wwould know. outside tania's room, something happened too. we were rather noisy there and the people next door must have heard as they opened the door slightly to peep at us before slamming the door shut angrily.

hurriedly, we made our way back to our hotel room. we were in the lift when suddenly the lift stopped moving. there was a minor problem with all the lifts as they stopped operating from sometime. a fire alarm was sounded. curious, people were came out of their rooms and stood staring at the lifts. there was a huge gush of wind when we exit the lift at level 4. i don't know where the wind came from but it felt good. amanda and gen felt so awkward because of their dressing as i have mentioned. sylvia was not so bad since she was only barefooted.

the worse thing was that we could not enter the hotel room because of the faulty keycard. no choice, we had to call amanda feng to help us enter the room. she had the other card. thank goodness. we were all so stupid to have left our valuables(handphones and the other keycard) in the hotel room. i've learnt my lesson.

time to pack up as they wanted to go shopping and i had to go home. we parted. they left. i went home. oh, i had a hard time trying to wash off the hairspray which caused my hair to harden. yucks. my hair felt like plastic, or maybe rubber. the smell still lingered till the next day. awful!!!


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**twistableturnableman** @ 09:25.


17.11.06

Hello! I am so so happy that I am lost for words. My exams are finally over!!!!!!!!!! It seems as if it was only yesterday that i was grumbling about how long the exams would drag on, and on, and on.... but now it's over! Haha! I can stop studying for one-and-a-half month before the junior college term starts. I've been slogging for the past few weeks, well ok, I didn't really put in a lot of effort so if i get bad results i can't blame anyone but myself. i wish i could be the type who need not study much and has a 'lotsa' common sense. Then, i could solve a 'lotsa' problems in life. I think this is very important. It's like IQ and EQ isn't it?

Hmm... i wonder which jc i should go to? or which poly? this is bad. i know of many people who have alrady decided what to do with their future life and what career path they want to head. but what about me? i have not decided. i know i am interested in sciences...but i don't want to do research work and those kind of boring stuff in the labs. i don't think i will be able to survive in that kind of job environment. well, should i go into medicine? will it be too tough? i will have to spend quite a number of years to study medicine and then study for another period of time for the specialised field. can i do it? / i am also rather interested in physiology, sports physio i mean. yet at the same time, i kind of like psychology, though i am afraid that it may cause a heavy burden on my emotional well-being. / one thing that i am quite certain is that i will read up on tcm as i have develop an interest for it especially after reading the tcm section in the newspaper. ^v^


I plan to take up dance classes some time soon. but i haven't decided what kind of dance to learn. I've been inspired by the show "So you think you can dance" ,currently airing on channel 5 (u know), to take up some lessons. i think i really need to as i have not been exercising for the past ? number of weeks since i was preparing for the big 'O's. oh! i miss dancing!

to pay for the course fee, i will have to find a job to earn my own money so that i can spend it as i want to. i will feel badif i keep spending my parents' money.

guess what was the first thing i did after the last day of 'Os' today? i went to meidi-ya supermarket to buy sushi. It was delicious. *slurp!* i spent $9.60 to buy 11 pieces od sushi. i didn't dare to eat one of it so i gave it to my brother. that particular piece of sushi has a strong smell of the raw seafood which i don't really fancy. by the way i think the ingredient on top of the rice is some kind of fish roe. the other pieces were all right and i shared them with my mother.

talking about my mother, i must really thank her for taking good care of my meals during this important period of time when i was having exams. she ensures that i have proper lunch before my afternoon papers and after my morning papers. she made sure that i do not eat too heaty food or too 'cooling' food that may affect the ''balance'' within my body. it's just some chinese way of thinking but somehow it is quite true. this is one reason why i want to learn tcm. my mother also cook tonic soups like ginseng with red dates or wolfberries, "si shen" and "six flavour soup" for me to drink. after drinking these soups dashed with peppers of love, i really felt much re-energised. zhen de gou bu le! thank you mummy!

as for my father.......he's still like that...being the last to step out of the house door despite being the first to wake up. He was the one who wake all of us up yet he seemed to be always 'late'. sigh. hai shi lao yang zi.

*[dance till i drop--little rain droplets]*



**twistableturnableman** @ 00:27.


12.10.06

BUSYBUSYBUSYBUSYBUSYBUSYBUSYBUSY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GOING MADMADMADMADMADMADMAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
can't we use prelim results to enter jcs instead of sitting for another round of exams?

**twistableturnableman** @ 15:00.


28.8.06

hey hey! here i am.
yo! QXY is coming this sat. i wish i could see him and better still, grt his autograph but the venue is too far away! it's at imm building. sad. anyway, i've created some diy recipes, ok, it's not exactly anything new or fascinating but they are my own recipes so i love them. it's very easy to make them. just dump the ingredients together and you can do anything you want. well, i made honey banana oats, apple oats, banana-choc biscuit sandwich(microwave them to give an extra aroma...slurp!*)and orange juice flavoured glutinous rice so far. and the best are the banana oats and the biscuit sandwich thing. i luv bananas! yummy. just mentioning them makes me drool.......

**twistableturnableman** @ 16:40.




heya! haven't been blogging for a zillion years man. today i just got back my essay on a day that i will always remember. mrs rupa praised me as i had made some improvement to my plot of the story. ha! i don't know how i did it but i know that i felt quite happy when i wrote the essay cos there was PE lesson before writing the essay. finally i received a 2 infront and not a most-hated 1. my next step is to improve my chinese compo. i aim to get a 7 in front, and hopefully i will be able to get it.
dear me, i think today is the day where i was released from school the earliest man. school ends later and later since the beginning of the year. sad. this is fate, i suppose. cos this is the life of a typical sec 4. *O*
time really flies. we are going to be parted really soon. and i will miss everyone that i know in cgs. i truly hope that we will be able meet as a class again.
i think i better do what i ought to do now.
sigh. i wonder when i will have the time t blog again.+_+

**twistableturnableman** @ 16:27.


2.6.06


Hey hey! I went to SOLER's autograph session on 31 may. they are so darn good! their live singing were the best live singing i've heard(among those chinese male singers)! discovery: they were born in italy. right now i have this very strong feeling to buy their cd! you know on the night after i watched them singing live i couldn't sleep? oh dear, i really want the cd! I couldn't get it on that day cos i din have enough money. sigh!

**twistableturnableman** @ 15:32.


20.5.06

That day, I stood by the window gazing at the meadows as the cool breeze stroke my long tresses gently. I had never felt so carefree before. I began to dream...... I am a little fairy, sitting on a fluffy white cloud, admiring the wonderful view of mother earth below.
I opened my eyes. That was only a dream.
*[ dreamy]*

**twistableturnableman** @ 17:17.


16.5.06

Life is a series of hurdles, each hurdle being an obstacle in life. The obstacle may be just a small feat for some people, they can overcome it with ease, however, for some, it is not so easy. So, what are some of the obstacles that you have faced in life? Is it the PSLE? The O-levels? A-levels? Sure, these are some of them. But think, obstacles are not only exams and tests. Through the process of achieving what you aim for, you are met with several difficulties. Sometimes you find it so hard to achieve that you feel like giving it up. [Hands up. "i surrender"] I agree that it is stressful to want to accomplish certain things in life. But don't fret. Don't give up. Why do you give up on yourself when nobody tell you to? [Forget it lah. I can never make it. It's fate that I am so useless.] Come on. Have faith in yourself. Why do you say that it's fate when it can be changed if you work hard to? Take for example overcoming the hurdles. You have to gather enough strength and momentum as you run towards the hurdle. Take off at the appropriate time; too early and you'll end up not crossing the hurdle and just fall flat on the ground; too late and you'll trip over the hurdle and may twist your ankle. From this you can learnt that timing and being prepared are very important. In real life situation it would be like sitting for an examination. Time management and studying beforehand and not wait till the eleventh hour to start panicking. I think many of us want to win, and like the feeling of winning. Just imagine yourself completing the hurdle race. What would you have felt if you were the first one to complete it? A great sense of triumph! A great sense of achievement! All the hardwork being paid off! It is all worth it, right? So starting working now and get ready for the race! For me, it is the Os. What about you? *V*

**twistableturnableman** @ 12:43.


12.5.06

heya! mid year exam is finally over. after slogging for days i am suddenly at a lost as to what to do. i am just slacking at home these days. On wed after the last paper, sufan, e tian, amanda and me went ice skating. there were a number of cgs ppl there. of course, that day was the last day of exams for the whole level so everyone wanted to have fun and relax. yesterday, tania, kejia amanda and i went to "chang k", it was quite x, but it was fun. that was my first time. i hope to go again. it was a nice way to release stress to sing out all the troubles. ^_^.and i get to learn more new songs too. Oh yes, Happy Vesak Day! everybody.

*[to learn to forgive and forget]*

**twistableturnableman** @ 15:53.


4.4.06

i began to think, why do we need to study so many subjects, why must we subject ourselves to so much stress when we may not even use all that we have learnt in the later part of our lives? Don't you agree? They claim that doing all the different subjects help to improve our brain power and make us smarter, but do they consider the humongous stress that we suffer from? Is this really good for us? Compare our education system to that of Japan's. Their textbooks are much less detailed than ours yet the people there are much more innovative. Why is this so? I suppose they trained more to think instead of us whom the teachers are feeding and pouring information down our throats, forcing us to memorise mathematics formalae, chunks of definitions and whatsoever. To the hell with it. Ok, fine. maybe I will not grumble if i had joined the IP system. I don't really know if it is good but it beats having the Os, yes the Os. well, this is fate. i can't escape from the Os unless......something happens.

**twistableturnableman** @ 16:08.


15.3.06


没有你的世界会是怎样。
我恨我自己
因为
有你
我才能勇敢地面对人生
走完这路程。
^_^

**twistableturnableman** @ 15:10.


4.3.06

The earth is never peaceful
And life is never without woes
When will it be
The earth-a place calm and serene
Life is not a smooth-sailing boat
A home is not a steady shelter
A country is not an impregnable fortress
Where should one live in
To be safe and sound
Human beings are selfish
They destroy the
plants
animals
environment
To satisfy their desires
They use unscrupuluous ways
To obtain what they want to achieve
Everyone is guarding against
one another
Everyone is fighting
Everyone is an enemy
All so suspicious
tensed
Looking at each other through
a hole in the armour
Oh
what is the world becoming
......
......
......
Ugly.
i long for a beautiful world.


**twistableturnableman** @ 13:48.


22.2.06

hello everyone! now got unlimited internet access so i shall make full use of it. but i will not type a lot cos i am very tired already. common test is gonna be over soon. yeah! i am so freaking happy. i am sure everyone is happy. oh, ayaka passed her exams and i am really happy for her. i wish i would pass with flying colours for my Os this year too. hope to get A1s of course. as in duh! who would want to get A1s for their results. last two tests next week. egeog and amath. for this common test i took it really easy. i did not work very hard for them. oh well, i just heck it man! i just pray that i would be able to score well. for hcl, i think i am gonna fail it cos my head was really spinning during the test. life is so horrible but it is not the end of the world yet so keep going man! aza aza huaiti! go go go! gannbate! ^_^

**twistableturnableman** @ 16:01.


21.2.06




kawaii neh! ^_^

**twistableturnableman** @ 19:10.


10.2.06

Tania Happy Birthday! I am sure it is a double blessing for you today, your bd and the release of o-level CL2 result. Hope that you will enjoy your bd and that you will like the present that i bought for you. I suppose today is a memorable day this year. If the release of next year's o-level results is also on 10 feb, it will be an even more memorable day. Anyway, I am glad that I got a1 but i am quite upset that i did not achieve dist for oral. surprisingly and coincidentally, both of them(bro) did not get dist too! ha! I hope I will get good results for my Os, hopefully...u know.

i spent my time arranging my playlist. omg, it is so tedious. so many songs to search from. i think there are about 2 thousand songs and i actually looked through them to choose the songs that i like to put in my playlist. oh, my poor eyes. now that i mention it, i am happy that i am able to maintain my eyesight and i hope that i will continue to maintain. ^_^

common tests are starting next week. sigh. i wish this kind of life would end soon. i wish i have more time to do the things that i want. but this will have to be a couple of years later. too bad.

sec 4 life is horrible. but because it is horrible that one will remember it. many things happen in sec 4, like the Os(duh!), prom night,......parting after sec4... so, everybody, please cherish the time you have with your friends. study hard but play hard too! live life to the hilt! em...EOP. hahaha!

**twistableturnableman** @ 19:10.


3.1.06

Oh man! the new year has started and now i am sec4 can you believe it? sec4 already! sigh i wonder how i am gonna survive this year. i spent the last days of 2005 with 7 japanese students, mr shiomi and mrs taoka. and they have left, they have gone back to japan! oh i miss them so much! i wish i could fly to japan immediately to see them again. my mind has been thinking about japan since the time we collaborated with them in doing a project, which is in sec1. and till now we are still in contact. when my class 1c2 was linked up with koyo junior high school in japan, i thought that it would only be a very short project. but i did not expect it to drag until when i am sec 3. twice the trip to japan was postponed until last june when we could finally fly to shingu in japan! i was so happy then. i was very excited when they came last week for i had been waiting for that day since i parted with them in june. and i am really glad that there is no further delay because i could not wait any longer. i just wished that i had gone to live with them when they left singapore on the 29th of dec. i wish i could skip the o-levels. oh, why must life be so tough? so tough to say goodbye, so tough to manage school stress, so tough to study and do well for exams. ah! someone help me please.
i really really miss the jap people. i miss them so much. although the time we spent with one another was short and there was to a certain extent of a breakdown in communication, we really enjoyed one another's comapany very much. we've spent the time playing, laughing and crying together. the most memorable time was when the 5 of us, me,gen,ayaka,nami and yu, were in miss goh's bedroom playing as they could not sleep. gen and i did not want to leave them alone so we chatted with them until 3-4am when they were tired. we were very tired but it was also fun esp fun with yu around. yu looked and behaved so much like meily. i took a video when we were in the bedroom and it was very funny. i think i will remember it for the rest of my life unless i suffer from memory loss which would be very very sad because i would forget the wonderful times i had spent with my precious friends.
If only i have wings, i would fly to japan now and fly back tomorrow to go to school.

If only i could fly......

**twistableturnableman** @ 17:03.


25.12.05

Merry Christmas!!! Today is Christmas Day. went to eat dim sum for breakfast. delicious. and it is quite cheap compared to restaurants. the food is nice too. just that there is too much meat. we ate 20 plates and including the tea, the total sums up to $44.50 which is much cheaper than Red Star and Yum Cha. oh, i'm so full.

i apologise for not updating cos i was lazy. i have so much to say that i don't know where to start from. ok, i went for a local tour(khong guan biscuit factory, goat farm, vegetable farm and qian hu fish farm) on 2dec and on 3&4 dec i went to Indonesia: stayed in a kelong resort. visited dried cuttlefish, tampee fac...etc i can't rmb them now. oh and i was very surprised that the Chinese Inodonesian staying in the kelong could speak Hokkien! but too bad i can't speak hokkien otherwise i could chat with them. it was a nice experience staying at the kelong but i bet someone can't stand it. u know who. to tell the truth, i was afraid that the wooden floor would give way and we would fall into the sea, but luckily nothing happened. the seafood was nice(that was what attracted me there!). the fish porridge was marvellous! FRESH fish and no msg! *slurp*

i am sooooo excited!!! the jap students are coming tmr! so happy to be able to meet them again. since the day we parted in june, i've been waiting for this day to come. i wish rino and yui are staying with us but... well, as long as they are not the too quiet tpe it will be fun. we will make it fun for them! i'm just a little worried about that you know. the presents are settled. i still rmb gen and i spent a long time deciding what to give them. we spent quite some time walking marina and suntec. whew!
can't wait to see them tmr!!!


**twistableturnableman** @ 13:10.


22.10.05

sigh! i'm so bored. i dun wanna study for the ols but i have to cos it is the last exam of tis year. yucks. 9 exam papers in total to do. finished three. sixmore to go. every says i ought to si ping dao difor the last time but i'm really tired. i wanna relax. nvm, i shall work hard now and enjoy later. si ye yao ping chu lai! h! dance motto leh. okie. lessons were boring in sch. so i taught man the clapping game. the highest record so far between the both of us is 9. highestrecord between me and my partner in my primary sch was11. not bad. quite close. just that we need to be faster. like the prcschl. just thought of a game that i played in pri sch. sth similar to zero pt. i dunno what it is called but i always call it rubber band. i am bringing to sch on mon so we can play. the bad thing is we'll perspire a lot as we have to jump here and there. oh well, nth much to say now. hope that ols will go on smoothly and i can score 115145 for it. hmm... looking forward to learning how to ice skate nd watching bai xue gong zhu acted xiao tai hua ge. he's goooood.

**twistableturnableman** @ 16:40.


13.10.05

suddenly i'm am at a loss. i don't know what to do. exams are finally over. and i've just finished watching the vcd. i have no other vcds with me now so i can't watch anything. sigh. and i think i'm going nuts this year. getting a little over over those lang zai esp those gao li and nipon ones. gen is a little over when she saw a few nipon ones at my house today. omg! that is so funny. she went like arrrrhhh! when she saw them. so i gave her my binoculars. not that i didnot look at them. i did too. ok lar. they are not bad looking. hmm... i think i'm slightly influenced by her. now i think bi is shuai too esp when he put on the ming xing jia zi and the time when he had the sa sa look on his face. but i think he will look more mi ren when he dance. i can imagine him dancing and shuaing cool on stage. but don't be misaken, i'm not implying that he is juai, i mean he is really cool when he dances. oh dear, am i getting huachi? i hope not. hmmmmm......i still like my cheng jun oppa. he's so mi ren i can't help it but be attracted to him. oh my dear sang woo oppa, why must you pull my shim so close to yours that i can't stop chu-an_ing anata. takuya too! he is so shuai man! he's tanned he's tall he's man he's got a great body and he's so shuai! arh! i'm so deeply attracted to him. ksw's eyes are so penetrating. the look in his eyes... oh. so enchantng! he's got a great body too but the only thing bad abt him os that he's too bai liao! still, chu-an-ae, sang woo oppa! sadangae oppa!
aneyohaseyo! shall update next time. ^_^

**twistableturnableman** @ 18:24.


7.10.05

yohooooooooo! 2 more exams to go! 4 more days to theend of our suffering! yeah! but actually, i didn't really work very hard for this final year exams. i'm like slacking most of the time. it's not that i did not study but i didn't put my heart into studying. i always fall asleep while i'm studying or that i was watching tv and studying at the same time so my brain doesn't really absorb thestuuf that i'm supposed toremember. sigh. it's ok. si bu liao. just that i may do badly for my exams. what's more impt is that i must be happy. studying is so stressful. and i don't wanna stress myself out now. i'm just taking it easy and most probably will start panicking next year. ha!
omg qxy si so shuai that i can't stand it!!! takuya is very shuai too just that he's a bit shang le nian ji lar! i've decided. aft exams i'm gonna watch FULL HOUSE(1st show that i'm gonna watch!), xin niang shi ba sui, yuan fen de jie ti, da chang jin, ba li lian ren, old happy days, zi cong xiang shi, hong dou nu zhi lian... and others. hahaha! i'm obsessed with korean shows. all because of qxy! i'm so high now just from mentioning his name! sang-woo oopa, sadanae! and i found out that his name is kwon sang-woo in korean. KSW zhen hui dian ren. but i only like it when he acts cool and don't smile. mmm...jin zai yuan is shuai too! he acted in hong dou nu zhi lian.
ha! here's my tv programme for today:
4-6: variety show
6-7: zi cong xiang shi
7-8: chi zi cheng long
7.30 -8.30:wang zi bian qing wa
9-10: the x-files
10-11: yummy! yummy!
11.30-1.30: crazy first love
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahah!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm gonna enjoy myself today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my gor is coming back for good on 3 dec! yeah! finally! haven't seen him for months. wonder if he still looked the same. but i think he's still that size or maybe...ehem!

MAYBE...

**twistableturnableman** @ 15:16.


6.9.05

finished watching ai zai yang guang li. sooooooooooo nice. i'm going crazy over him. i never had this feeling b4. perhaps this is part of growing up. ok... but i'm not as crazy as someone. she even downloaded and research everything abt him. i just wanna keep him in my memory...the man who will be there no matter what happens. be there always......

**twistableturnableman** @ 15:16.


28.8.05

i'm so high now. finished watching Stairway To Heaven. Quan Xiang Yu is sooooooooooooooo shuai!!! i can't stand it. wo bei ta dian dao le! the part when he is the shuaiest is when he is driving. the look in his eyes... so captivating. ok, i shall calm down. i'm gonna watch ai zai yang guang li during the hols. he's also acting in the show. ooooh...ahhhhh. he looks so smart in the navy uniform.
saw4 tennis players today. darn shuai too. and they're jap. hope to see them again. ha!
okie enough of all those stuff. here is another poem that i wrote when i suddenly had the inspiration to do so.
Then...And Then
Till then,
Life had always been black and white.
Till then,
I had been a dead person--lifeless, souless, mindless.
Till then,
I had been living in my own world--unseen, unheard, unknown by others.
Until one day,
You stepped into y world.
That day,
You lit up my life;
Lifting me from a world of darkness;
Bringing colours into mylife.
That day,
You changed me.
I was no longer my old self;
No longer alone.
*[xiangmei]*
laughter connection
argon, oxygen, nitrogen, carbon dioxide and chlorine gases.
1. which one is the most enthusiastic of all?
2. which one is sick?
ans:
1. nitrogen. N2
2. oxygen. O2

**twistableturnableman** @ 17:24.


23.8.05

heya!!! Enjoy this rhyme:

WHY ENGLISH IS SO HARD
We'll begin with a box, and the plural is boxes;
But the plural of ox should be oxen, not oxes.
Then one fowl is goose, but two are geese;
Yet the plural of moose should never be meese.
You may find a lone mouse or a whole lot of mice,
But the plural of house is houses, not hice.
If the plural of men is always called men,
Why shouldn't the plural of pan be called pen?
The cow in the plural may be cows or kine,
But the plural of vow is vows, not vine.
And I speak of a foot, and you show me your feet,
But I giveyou a boot-would a pair be called beet?
If one is a tooth and the whole set are teeth,
Why shouldn't the plural of booth be called beeth?
If thesingular is this, and the plural is these,
Should the plural of kiss be nicknamed kese?
Then one may be that, and three may be those,
Yet the plural of hat would never be hose.
We speak of a brother, and also say brethren,
But though we say mother, we never asy methren.
The masculine pronouns are he, his and him,
But imagine the feminine she, shis and shim!
So our English, I think you will allagree,
Is the trickiest language you ever did see!
Anonymous

**twistableturnableman** @ 18:41.


15.8.05

i feel so slack... as if the common tests are over. tmr is the last day ...the last day of torment...i.e. temporarily. why is life like that? one test after another, one exam after another. when will it be over? never. we will always be bothered by tests nad results, in one way or another. sigh.
The same innocence, trust and restlessness, the wonder, fear and loneliness. How i lost myself. Now i remember my wish so long ago. i wished to be found. i longed to be found. For a woman it is yin, where untempted passions lie. for a woman it is full of mystery. no one knows what a woman is able to do. a woman is different form a man. a woman can be stronger, yes stronger than a man.

let me recap on the schedule for common tests:
11/8: EL SS CHEM
12/9: CL BIO AMATH
15/8: LIT PHY
16/8: GEOG EMATH

the darn sch is mad! how can they schedule the tests to be right after the NDP. darn idiot!

another darn idiot thing is that the damn bianhaoshisi. u noe what she did. she said(aft bio), "so how did u find the paper? i know u find it very easy, right? i know u are smart ah." i mean i didn't even do anything to her lorzzz. what kind of attitude is that? i was really offended by her words and the way she put it. it is so offending...to me. but this matter has made me learn more abt ppl and their behaviours, how some ppl are. i don't hate her but i dislike her. for those who know the person i'm refering to, u now learn more abt her and perhaps u would learn to be more careful in dealing this kind of ppl. this is the art and skill of communication--a very impt thing to learn esp next time when u need to learn to deal with the different ppl in society, the different kinds of face that u would see. it will more than a lifetime to learn about the many kinds of ppl, even in singapore, or just around you. just observe.
ok, that's all for today. i hopeu ppl have learnt as much or more than i have.

wishing u all a happy week ahead. **[smilez]** Y_Y

**twistableturnableman** @ 18:23.


7.8.05

heyo ppl! so have you figure out the answers to the brain teasers? Here's more [qian bian wen da ti]!
Check them out!

na li de ma la chou dou fu zhi 888yuan?

shi jie shang zui kuai de ren shi shui?

xiao ming de ba ba ma ma he ge ge dou shi zhong tian de. xiao ming xing shen me?

hong xian shen you liang ge er zi. da er zi qu le yi ge lao po hui lai. ta de lao po sheng le liang ge nu er. da nu er jiao mei gui, xiao nu er jiao mei jiao. mei jiao de xing shi shen me?

**twistableturnableman** @ 17:00.


3.8.05

hehe! here are some brain teasers for you to figure out!
xiao mao you san gen tou fa.
ta ba diao yi gen.
wei shen me?
xiao mi de ma ma ai xiao mi de ba ba
xiao mi de ba ba ai xiao mi de ma ma
xiao mi ai ta de ba ba ma ma
xiao mi de ba ba ma ma ai ta
xiao mi de ge ge gei shui ai?
A& B are twins
A is born 10 minutes earlier than B
but A celebrates his birthday one day later than B
under what circumstance will this happen?
A& B are twins
A is born 2 hours earlier than B
A celebrates his birthday 4 years after B
why is this so?
A man pushes a car into a hotel
and he went bankrupt.
why is this so?
happy thinking!

**twistableturnableman** @ 19:23.


11.7.05

she's a fragile little girl
seeking support and a leaning shoulder
someone whom i can share all my troubles with
someone whose shoulder i can cry on
someone who will just keep my secrets
and not reveal them to anyone.

she's a little bird with a broken wing
that needs some mending
that cannot be mended
that wil never be the same again
even if it is mended.

she's cinderella who lost her glass slippers
who is lost in wonderland like alice
who cannot find her way out from the maze
who begins to weep
for she's only lonely.

*[dancing will never be the same again]*-xiangmei

manage to swing rach today but it wasn't as good as b4. perhaps i've lost the power, the kind of energy i had b4 and during syf.

i lost it
lost the power
lost the energy
lost the faith
lost the courage
lost......
myself.

what if one day i'm not me anymore...
what would you do?

what if one day the world turns upside down
and you find that your love ones are all dead
and you are alone......
all alone in this world...
what would you do?

*{thought-full}*-lalita

**twistableturnableman** @ 21:31.


8.7.05

yo! had el oral yesterday. it skcus! dunno what to say and i was so lost for words. horrible terrible irreversible. anw to day is my o-level cl oral. it was so scary but it was not so bad as i did not pause for a very long time. the actual one was easier than the one that zhang lao shi gave me for the practice during recess time. heng ah!
went out with gen to shop at tiong. so sad that man didn't come cos if she did, she would have bought quite a lot of things. there was a sale there. ebase is there too. gen & i tried on some clothes but they weren't as nice as the ones at the marina outlet. i bought a bag at the marina outlet for 19.50. it was 39! worth it right? yep and man bought the most. anw today, i bought a skirt for 10 fr ice lemon tee (there's a sale there!!!)and a pair of socks for 1.05 fr ahem value dollar shop.

had lit test today. i'm bound to do badly for it cos i really didn't know how to answer the 2nd question. sigh. and the ...nyaa thing. idoubt i'll do it. too lazy to fill it up. ishall see if i want to do it some other time. mrs chia told us that the place to hand in the nyaa card is at magazine rd but i thought it was the one near my house! which is at instituiion hill. ok... i don't know if it has shifted. frankly speaking, i want to do it cos of the points.

bio prac: 4got to bring my bk. ttl of 11 ppl did not bring. ha! and my card had no more value to photocopy. had to borrow liu chang's. so sad. used up a lot of hers.i feel so guilty. anw we are going to disect thre sheep's heart on mon. mum ask me to bring a heart there. i was... lost for words cos i didn't think of doing that. it'd wouldbe quite embarrassing cos i'll be the only one doing that. ppl might sat that i'm kiasu leh!


It's he who gave me everything
And changed my life
Who gave me the courage to carry on
He gave me a special power
To believe in myself
To care not about what others say
But to carry on with what I think is right

He held out his hand to me
And guided me to the path of light
He smiled at me
And whispered softly in my ear
Words of encouragement
His voice was so soothing
So sweet
So comfortable
Then his hand slipped away
He told me he had to go
To leave me

My heart shattered into __a milliOn pieces*


*[dancing princess]*
xiangmei

**twistableturnableman** @ 22:00.


30.6.05

hello blogging again. haven;t been blogging for a very long time. hmm... my holidat schedule was quit packed but i actually slacked a lot. haven't got the mood to do hw. too lazy. anyway iwent to japn shingu! so happy that was the happiest part of my holiday ang the happiest of my sec3 life this year. sigh. this term is going to be a busy term again. just next week is our el and hmtl oral exam. oh gosh. i've bee dealt a great blow...oh...!
yep. and got to perform syf again. i think my stamina is weaker now. almost dropped rech on thefloor when swinging her. oops. and well have to perform lion dance and i'm the shi1 tou2. that's bad. i suck at it man. also we have tests next week. next week! just the 2nd week of school and we have soooo may things ahead. i winder how i'm going to survive o'levels.
well re sia, the wood thingy... i hope that it would sell well. i haven't fixed the price yet. got to do some surveying first. tried burning the aichi worl expo logo. turned out preety well. i hopr that it would fetch a high price. well gota zzzzz now. or my bro will scold me again for disturbing his sleep. sumimasen oniisan!

*[i can't stop dancing at 0006]*

**twistableturnableman** @ 00:06.


20.5.05

yo ppl! came back from OBS. it's so fun. and i am glad that i am in the leadership course cos the non-l seems very xin ku. pity them. so poor thing. but they get to experience more stuff than us. hmm...i 'd prefer mine cos there is more freedom, it's like free and easy turs but there is still time limit to the thingd that we have to do, ie.our tasks.

Day 1



set off from sch at 8+am and reach there 9+.

briefing followed by grouping and arranging things,getting things in order and settle down in our dorms, changing bedsheets and everything...

lunch (food was not bad, but dunno why some ppl still complain)

kayaking practice
abseil basics
rope tying
first aid
leave no trace

Day 2

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Day 3

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Day 4

yoohuuuu! kayaking!!! from9am to 4.30pm. shuang man, although it is very tiring. at first we thought that we could not make it because of the strong winds and waves. the water was very choppy too, esp after frog island. we were supposed to be in a diamond shape formation but ... we weren't. we were just as a cluster of kayaks and it was not bad cos at least we were together and not separated. our instructors said we were great cos at first they think that we could not make it cos of the strong winds. we had a stopover at a shore b4 frog island where we snack on our food. yum yum, when you are hungry, anything tastes nice. (oreo!) amy & i, debbie & fayanne, krystal & ? were ahead of the rest and we were stop at the shore in front of theirs. amy & i were among the last to set off cos my paddle dropped and we had to wait for the person who picked it up to bring the paddle to me. we managed to catch up and we were among the first half after some time. during the journey, one and only one kayak capsized(elieen & shang yi). this is a very good record. i'm proud that i didn't capsized! but it was a hard time for myself cos i had to constantly steer and change the direction and cos of that we were moving in a zig-zag manner. we kept meeting our old friends too! damn funny!-- "hey we meet again!" at times we were quite irritated with our partner as well as the others cos we had difficulty coordinating with one another. and sometimes the ppl in front travelled too fast and when the ppl in hte front took a rest, the ppl behind continued paddling to catch up but soon after the ppl in front set off again leaving no time for the ppl behind to take a break. so a lot of them were complaining and they were shouting across to one aonther to ask the front ppl to slow down.
when we were back on land after hours in the sea all of us were dead tired. the floating feeling was still lingering ...... some of us felt really sick and lethargic.
Day 5


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ok i;m far toolazy to write any more.




**twistableturnableman** @ 22:35.


4.4.05

heya. ginnie gurl told me abt eibbedz golb. ha. we realised that she was lying to us again...or rather she has been lying to us all the while. i really wonder when she is telling the truth and when she is not man. hey man man i pity u 4 having to put up with her all this time. it's really hard on u. [i cry 4 u!] anyway, today is a bad day.hcl test...totally sucks! homework arrrgh...so sick of them. el functional...horrible. nothingz straight today.everything has gone awry, haywire...*_*
life is horrible, life skcus! even dance.

[*going nuts soon*]

**twistableturnableman** @ 22:18.


14.3.05

sigh! so sick of the UN stuff..giving me a headache...grrr...
sick of homework...so much to do...
sick of school.....still have to come back everyday during the holidays....what's the difference man?
sick of everything....
my head's spinning...
the world is turning...
i am blogging...
blah..
physics spa sucks
gotten everything wrong.
drew the graph wrongly...
calculated the gradient wrongly...
the acceleration wrongly...
dear dear me...
so sickening...
so horrible...
yucks.
geog is horrible too...
asks us to come back for exta lessons
for mapwork...
duh...
tmr too.
hate it.
dear me it is so noisy now.
music's so loud
noise pollution...
damaging my ear drums...
hello! i do not want to spoil my ear drums yet!
can u hear me?!!!
*[silent scream]*
^_^*[dance awakens me]*

**twistableturnableman** @ 16:19.




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