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Sunday, May 16, 2010
Fear of the Unknown.
Today's column by Sumiko Tan really enlightened me and made me overcome my fears somehow? Haha funny how an article can lemme straighten out my thoughts just like that. But I've always enjoyed reading her column, probably because it's easy to relate to it and the language is simple, sending the message to others easily :)
I've been feeling upset and afraid the past few days because I'll be leaving for Cambodia tmr, and spending 2 half weeks there before heading to Vietnam. It's the first time I'm gonna be away from home for so long, and travelling with people other than my family. Yes, it's gonna be fun no doubt, but I just can't help feeling just a little bit worried. Maybe cos of what I've heard abt the place, the dangers, the environment. I've always been sucha clean freak and immunity wise, hmmm average I suppose. That's why, going to a foreign place like these countries make me rather afraid. I guess it was after reading this article, that made me realise how foolish I was. Okay right from the start, I knew I was worrying unnecessarily, but being a typical Singaporean, I wont deny how kiasi I am. Haha but unlike Sumiko, I don't think happiness is cynical. Whenever I'm happy, I genuinely am happy, and thoroughly enjoy myself, esp the past 2 weeks since exams ended :D But the thing about me is that I think too much,that I know, and yah I get upset pretty easily, making people worry about me unfortunately :( Sorry!
"The problem is, the more one focuses on the negative aspects of a change, the more real the fear of those negatives becomes, and self-fulfilling too." This sentence really struck me and I guess it allowed me to straighten my thoughts :) All these while I have been really worrying for nothing simply because I kept thinking about the worst case senarios etc etc. All these were just so uncalled for, I shall just go there and have fun and do what I can to help those who really need help. I believe it's really gonna be a fufiling trip still, it has always been my dream to embark on such a expedition I really wanna make good use of this chance ;) But I'm really gonna miss many people.
Till then, be back on 9th with many great experiences :)
Today's column by Sumiko Tan really enlightened me and made me overcome my fears somehow? Haha funny how an article can lemme straighten out my thoughts just like that. But I've always enjoyed reading her column, probably because it's easy to relate to it and the language is simple, sending the message to others easily :)
I've been feeling upset and afraid the past few days because I'll be leaving for Cambodia tmr, and spending 2 half weeks there before heading to Vietnam. It's the first time I'm gonna be away from home for so long, and travelling with people other than my family. Yes, it's gonna be fun no doubt, but I just can't help feeling just a little bit worried. Maybe cos of what I've heard abt the place, the dangers, the environment. I've always been sucha clean freak and immunity wise, hmmm average I suppose. That's why, going to a foreign place like these countries make me rather afraid. I guess it was after reading this article, that made me realise how foolish I was. Okay right from the start, I knew I was worrying unnecessarily, but being a typical Singaporean, I wont deny how kiasi I am. Haha but unlike Sumiko, I don't think happiness is cynical. Whenever I'm happy, I genuinely am happy, and thoroughly enjoy myself, esp the past 2 weeks since exams ended :D But the thing about me is that I think too much,that I know, and yah I get upset pretty easily, making people worry about me unfortunately :( Sorry!
"The problem is, the more one focuses on the negative aspects of a change, the more real the fear of those negatives becomes, and self-fulfilling too." This sentence really struck me and I guess it allowed me to straighten my thoughts :) All these while I have been really worrying for nothing simply because I kept thinking about the worst case senarios etc etc. All these were just so uncalled for, I shall just go there and have fun and do what I can to help those who really need help. I believe it's really gonna be a fufiling trip still, it has always been my dream to embark on such a expedition I really wanna make good use of this chance ;) But I'm really gonna miss many people.
Till then, be back on 9th with many great experiences :)
the girl next door;
Sunday, April 04, 2010
saw this just at the right time :)
the girl next door;
Monday, January 18, 2010
Sometimes I feel so easily forgotten.
It's true that blogs capture mostly your saddest moments. Because when you're upset or feel like ranting, you'll blog. But of cos, if you've someone to rant to then perhaps a blog is not really necessary.
Seriously what a sucky day it has been, realising all that effort doing things for people really aint appreciated. It's so freaking irritating, like going through all that trouble, getting the cheapest rates, collating orders and now when the good are delivered, it's said to be ugly. And cos it's ugly, it cannot be worn. WTH. Back in school, when school uniforms or jerseys were ugly, yes we complained to each other but when did students ever rebelled and not wear those stipulated attire? ARGH, annoying.
I need to start thinking, why on earth do I bother so much about the very little things, to get things going smoothly when seriously, no one really gives a damn about anything.
Tonight I am just feeling very frustrated about everything. First time I ever get someone in hall asking me to relax and not be so irritated. Afterall I usually dont let my moodiness get out of my room, today is just an exception. I am probably very pissed and unhappy.
It's true that blogs capture mostly your saddest moments. Because when you're upset or feel like ranting, you'll blog. But of cos, if you've someone to rant to then perhaps a blog is not really necessary.
Seriously what a sucky day it has been, realising all that effort doing things for people really aint appreciated. It's so freaking irritating, like going through all that trouble, getting the cheapest rates, collating orders and now when the good are delivered, it's said to be ugly. And cos it's ugly, it cannot be worn. WTH. Back in school, when school uniforms or jerseys were ugly, yes we complained to each other but when did students ever rebelled and not wear those stipulated attire? ARGH, annoying.
I need to start thinking, why on earth do I bother so much about the very little things, to get things going smoothly when seriously, no one really gives a damn about anything.
Tonight I am just feeling very frustrated about everything. First time I ever get someone in hall asking me to relax and not be so irritated. Afterall I usually dont let my moodiness get out of my room, today is just an exception. I am probably very pissed and unhappy.
the girl next door;
Sunday, January 10, 2010
Your team needs you Lynette.
How comforting that sentence was, to make me feel a bit better for that second. Seriously, the feeling of conducting training for a team who is hardly even committed sucks. It doesn't make it better running your heart out trying to keep a minimal distance between yourself and the last guy. But well, it does make you run a bit faster and perhaps improve a little more. 11th Feb, I kinda want it to come and go quickly because sometimes I feel really tired. We're probably the most hardworking hall for this sport as our competitors know we've been trng the hardest. Usually nobody trains that much for relays, but we did and we certainly hope the results would prove likewise. We just got to put in the extra effort since our team is pretty inexperienced this year.
And I am dreading school somehow? It's weird though cos I kinda miss H2O, haha how we had the exact same timetable and were always spotted together. How almost everyone is amazed that 3 people can even have similar tutorials! Yeah looking back, it sure is cool. But this sem, it's no longer possible cos we arent taking exactly the same mods. Then again, I'm kinda looking foward to this sem not just bcos of the numerous activites but also academics wise. I'm very motivated to improve my CAP! Timetable is so much better this sem, ending at 4pm everyday with a 4day week! Looks like jap really took up so much of my time but still relieved I didnt fare THAT badly. Hmmm I must really work hard this year.
Prioritise. Focus. Succeed.
How comforting that sentence was, to make me feel a bit better for that second. Seriously, the feeling of conducting training for a team who is hardly even committed sucks. It doesn't make it better running your heart out trying to keep a minimal distance between yourself and the last guy. But well, it does make you run a bit faster and perhaps improve a little more. 11th Feb, I kinda want it to come and go quickly because sometimes I feel really tired. We're probably the most hardworking hall for this sport as our competitors know we've been trng the hardest. Usually nobody trains that much for relays, but we did and we certainly hope the results would prove likewise. We just got to put in the extra effort since our team is pretty inexperienced this year.
And I am dreading school somehow? It's weird though cos I kinda miss H2O, haha how we had the exact same timetable and were always spotted together. How almost everyone is amazed that 3 people can even have similar tutorials! Yeah looking back, it sure is cool. But this sem, it's no longer possible cos we arent taking exactly the same mods. Then again, I'm kinda looking foward to this sem not just bcos of the numerous activites but also academics wise. I'm very motivated to improve my CAP! Timetable is so much better this sem, ending at 4pm everyday with a 4day week! Looks like jap really took up so much of my time but still relieved I didnt fare THAT badly. Hmmm I must really work hard this year.
Prioritise. Focus. Succeed.
the girl next door;
Thursday, December 10, 2009
Bruises. Cuts. Scratches.
I got them all, haha the result of dance and sports. EH had a sportsmen bonding trip at sentosa today and although things started off a little awakward and weird, it ended of with a couple of games of contact rugby which was seriously very fun! :D It was the first time I played that and I believe the first for most of the other girls too. My first game was with guys and I already thought it was quite violent and rough. But when we played an all girls game, oh man I realised we girls can be extremely violent too! The funny thing was there were 12 girls playing and all the others were guys who were watching us play! And throughout the game you can heard the guys exclaiming, shouting etc haha damn comical! We felt as though we were entertaining them please. Haha they probably havent really seen hall girls playing contact rugby before. In fact, there were like foreigners who actually stopped by and stayed throughout the game to watch us play. For a moment I felt like we were in the bull ring haha, the way we just barged towards each other to pin the opposing team down. Haha not bad, one year later and we'll play this again ;) Very exciting! The feeling when you dive down really quite shiok haha.
I can't wait for steamboat bbq!! :D
I got them all, haha the result of dance and sports. EH had a sportsmen bonding trip at sentosa today and although things started off a little awakward and weird, it ended of with a couple of games of contact rugby which was seriously very fun! :D It was the first time I played that and I believe the first for most of the other girls too. My first game was with guys and I already thought it was quite violent and rough. But when we played an all girls game, oh man I realised we girls can be extremely violent too! The funny thing was there were 12 girls playing and all the others were guys who were watching us play! And throughout the game you can heard the guys exclaiming, shouting etc haha damn comical! We felt as though we were entertaining them please. Haha they probably havent really seen hall girls playing contact rugby before. In fact, there were like foreigners who actually stopped by and stayed throughout the game to watch us play. For a moment I felt like we were in the bull ring haha, the way we just barged towards each other to pin the opposing team down. Haha not bad, one year later and we'll play this again ;) Very exciting! The feeling when you dive down really quite shiok haha.
I can't wait for steamboat bbq!! :D
the girl next door;
Tuesday, December 08, 2009
I looked into the communal fridge in hall and can't help being disgusted by the state it is in now. Just sometime ago, we just cleaned it up and now it is all dirty again. Talk about responsibility. Makes me even more temepted to get a bar fridge in my room. But $200 for it, is it worth the investment?
It's only day 2 of the holidays spent totally involved in hall activities and I already feel kind of tired. Or maybe i'm just exhausted from endurance training earlier. But well, at least being involved in dance or trainings keep your mind off stuff. Don't wish to be mentally drained as well. Now I just want the weekend to come.
I wonder if it's merely a coincidence that the police show tonight pretty much describes how I'm feeling right now. Heh it's as though I can see myself as one of the actresses ;)
It's only day 2 of the holidays spent totally involved in hall activities and I already feel kind of tired. Or maybe i'm just exhausted from endurance training earlier. But well, at least being involved in dance or trainings keep your mind off stuff. Don't wish to be mentally drained as well. Now I just want the weekend to come.
I wonder if it's merely a coincidence that the police show tonight pretty much describes how I'm feeling right now. Heh it's as though I can see myself as one of the actresses ;)
the girl next door;
Monday, December 07, 2009
"Yesterday is history, tmr's a mystery. but today is a gift, thats why it's called the present." [Kungfu Panda]
I guess it's a statement like this that makes you think about life as it is now, how pointless it is to regret what has already been done or worry about the future. It's a cold and quiet night here in hall suddenly get this feeling that I'm overseas. Haha this is probably how it's gonna feel like at night should I go SEP. Hahah I'm amused how I'm spending most of my holidays in hall. 18 hours of dance each week, 8 hours of track training, 6 hours of netball training. Never expected trainings to be this insane but I guess it beats having nothing to do during the holidays ;)
Boo my shoulders are hurting, maybe it's not too good idea to change the orientation of my bed. No back rest :(
I guess it's a statement like this that makes you think about life as it is now, how pointless it is to regret what has already been done or worry about the future. It's a cold and quiet night here in hall suddenly get this feeling that I'm overseas. Haha this is probably how it's gonna feel like at night should I go SEP. Hahah I'm amused how I'm spending most of my holidays in hall. 18 hours of dance each week, 8 hours of track training, 6 hours of netball training. Never expected trainings to be this insane but I guess it beats having nothing to do during the holidays ;)
Boo my shoulders are hurting, maybe it's not too good idea to change the orientation of my bed. No back rest :(
the girl next door;
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