Almost 5 month I left this blog, so let me see what thing make me so busy for the past few month:

Im too exhausted and just reach home at 2.30a.m. take a nap few hours and this morning here I am at office, working to save my ass..and the damn things make me hurt..Oh God! If commit suicide not a sin, Im the one who will do that now.

Sunday-woke up almost 12pm..The great hangover I had..haha..packing my stuff after shower then c/out. We will never forget what we experienced there. Now I can't wait to see the picture..Thanks to Vonn, Boi and Hernie to accompanied us during our stay there. You guys such are good friends that hard to find.

Bermula dengan ....

Aduii..rasanya sia cukup bertahan suda kana fitnah, kana kutuk, hina..Tapi sia masih jugak dapat bertahan lepas dengar my really close buddy said "Word doesn't kill you. Ignore it or you can changed the negative thinking to the positive one". I asking again "But, how?". She said "Let them spread the news and you just be calm and doing nothing about it. Others will think it is just rumors to bring you down. The advantage from that you're getting famous". Then I replied "Didn't I look like an asshole or bitch act like that?" And she told me again "Screw it, who care?"

And Yes, I do like she told me. But this few week, once again I facing the same matter. Hanya topik yg berlainan. I can't ignore it but apa yg sia takut, hal ni boleh merosakan hubungan sia dengan orang lain.I don't care people talking about me, that mean Im still hot(seems like a biatch sound huh..haha) But this time, sampai melibatkan orang lain dan menjatuhkan imejnya. Gosh! It really make me sick with this kind of gossip. Apa perasaan orang tu dan kawan²nya kalau dengar cerita² begini tersebar. Betul jugak ckp orang mulut tempayan boleh ditutup tapi mulut orang sendiri mo tau jaga. Im tired..too tired to dealing with this kind of persons. bila kena batang hidung mereka sendiri pandai pulak marah. One of my friends told me.."Ko belum lagi jadi artis, baru model suda byk gossip and scandalskana cakap". Nasib laa sia ni bukan jenis yg cepat melenting. Apa yg sia tidak puas hati ialah durang suka kaitkan sia dengan orang itu, orang ini..Im just making a friend..My job need me bergaul luas and can communicate with all level..

Siapa yg makan lada dia laa yg terasa pedas. Jangan sampai sia menjauhkan diri dari kamu disebabkan hal2 begini. kamu kawan sia jugak tapi begini kh kawan? Kawan rapat lagi tu..Terang² sia ckp sia mimang tiada kaitan dengan org2 yang kamu sebut² melainkan sebagai kawan. Sama macam sia layan kamu jugak..begitu laa sia layan kawan² yang lain..Sia sebagai kawan kamu, sia akan simpan jugak rahsia kamu even you'e no longer the person I can trust. What ever I do, I will keep it to myself..Now I really miss my best friends. Tiada orang yg dpt ganti tempat kamu..Cella, Abeth, Boy, Tom, James..Even we seldom communicate with each others but when one of us dlm kesusahan, you guys adalah orang pertama datang utk menyokong dan memberi semangat..

Moral yang sia dapat Don't simply trust people. Musuh yang paling hampir ialah orang yang paling hampir dengan diri kita. Mulai sekarang sia akan beransur-ansur mengundurkan diri and to whom it may concern, you all will be regret it of losing me as a good friend. Once I trust people I will share everything, anything I have..sia bukan orang yg suka berkira tp kamu paksa sia untuk menjauhkan diri. I give a clear crystal of trust to everyone of my friends. once you broke it, you will never get the new one..even can fix it, the look will never be the same as the 1st time I give to you.

What a pack schedule..I think I need to re-arrange my schedule supaya tidak bertembung dengan event yg lain. As early as 5.30am in the morning, I rushing to outside catering event, after that I rush again to the next appointment with client for the event next month..Di sini laa yang membuatkan sia lambat sedangkan my next appoinment is 1pm but I just managed to come there by 2pm..Lucky for me all models has been there and Jeffie Jeff helping me while Im not around...Sorry Jeff, U r the best and thank you so much..Lucky Jeff not mad at me..finish rehearsal, Jeff rush to Le Meridian for doing bridal make up there.

I will post some photo later from the Breeze Magazine 3rd Anniversary Party later. To all my team-mate Fizy, Fabian, Danu, Nathaniel, Samantha, Dewina, Elaine Ashnee and Jeff. You guys rowk and Im happy working with you guys! whatever happened and something went wrong to unexpected situation is not your all fault.We owez hv a chance to do better next time and learned from the mistake of the night. Here I wanna wish thank you for the co-operated and I had fun with you guys. Will looking to meet up and co-operate to all of you next time...will see to the next fashion show..

Oooohhh...Starting from Monday 'till this Sunday I will fucking busy with a lot of thing to do. And today, I also invited to be part of the team for fashion show at Sutera..Do you think Im gonna decline that offer? Of course not..hehehe..Now I need to organize back again my schedule. I know, This is gonna be a long week to me and exhausted at the end. Yg penting Im happy and in the mean time, I can enjoy and having fun....haha..My FB pun belum lagi ter'update' statusnya.

This is the story I want to share with you guys. Its happened to me when I was a kid. I strongly suggested to whom a being parent already, please be consider to your kid's feeling. Everytime I saw others parents can spent their time with their family, its make me jealous.... Its not my fault for being cold sometimes. Cut the crap, here the story and I hope you guys out there know that you child isn't a toy that you can play around whenever you need them.


A woman came home from work late, tired and irritated, to find her
5-year old son waiting for her at the door.

SON: 'Mummy, may I ask you a question?'

MUM: 'Yeah sure, what it is?' replied the woman.

SON: 'Mummy, how much do you make an hour?'

MUM: 'That's none of your business. Why do you ask such a thing?' the woman said
angrily.

SON: 'I just want to know. Please tell me, how much do you make an hour?'

MUM: 'If you must know, I make $20 an hour.'

SON: 'Oh,' the little boy replied, with his head down.

SON: "Mummy, may I please borrow $5?"

The mother was furious, 'If the only reason you asked that is so you can borrow some money to buy a silly toy or some other nonsense, then you march yourself straight to your room and go to bed. Think about why you are being so selfish. I don't work hard everyday for such childish frivolities.'

The little boy quietly went to his room and shut the door..

The woman sat down and started to get even angrier about the little boy's questions. How dare he ask such questions only to get some money?

After about an hour or so, the woman had calmed down , and started to think:

Maybe there was something he really needed to buy with that $5 and he really didn't ask for money very often.The woman went to the door of the little boy's room and opened the door.

'Are you asleep, son?' She asked.

'No Mummy, I'm awake,' replied the boy.

'I've been thinking, maybe I was too hard on you earlier' said the woman. 'It's been a long day and I took out my aggravation on you. Here's the $5 you asked for.'

The little boy sat straight up, smiling. 'Oh, thank you Mummy!' he yelled. Then, reaching under his pillow he pulled out some crumpled up bills.

The woman saw that the boy already had money, started to get angry again.
The little boy slowly counted out his money, and then looked up at his mother.

'Why do you want more money if you already have some?' the mother grumbled.

'Because I didn't have enough, but now I do,' the little boy replied.

'Mummy, I have $20 now. Can I buy an hour of your time? Please come home early tomorrow.
I would like to have dinner with you.'

The mother was crushed. She put his arms around her little son, and she begged for his
forgiveness.

It's just a short reminder to all of you working so hard in life. We should not let time slip through our fingers without having spent some time with those
who really matter to us, those close to our hearts. Do remember to share that $20 worth of your time with someone you love.

If we die tomorrow, the company that we are working for could easily replace us in a matter of hours. But the family & friends we leave behind will feel the loss for the rest of their lives.

March 12th, 2011 - around 7.00pm I arrived at Tun Fuad Stephen Hall, Penampang, Sabah. This is the first time I attend such an event. Its supposed to be a great event but end-up with poor technical problem...Fuuhhh~ What the hell with their technician? Didn't they have a back up or plan B..some more there a VVIP also attended that event. RTM Sabah, come on laaa..What your floor manager doing? Where is going on with you technician people didn't fix it? I remember the spot light turn off after the 1st contestant performed. If not because Im going there to support my best friend and beloved sister - Esther Clement Tubong... I already figure out to went the Pusakag to watch the KENTE 3.. What ever it is, That RTM's Sabah should figure out with postmortem that this problem shouldn't happen on your next event.. Orang lain akan berpendapat yang pihak penganjur tidak berkemampuan untuk mengurus event sebegini. Apa2 pn, Tahniah Kepada semua pemenang on that night. To our beloved sis, Esther C.T we will owez support you..

Here a uploaded by our sister Clarissa. Enjoy.

Today 5th August 2010 - Thursday, I announced to you all that I am Single and Available. Dont talk to me about love, relationship, mariagge or watever related..I am not interested and excited anymore to the issue...

Im brokennnnnnnnnnnn Heartttttttttttttttttttteeeeeeeeeeddddddd Noowwwwwww...!!!
SSSSSSShhhhyyyyyyttttttttttttttttttttttttttt!~

Last time hang out with my buddies and I forgot to upload some pic here, not to display to you its just for reminds me on that moments we shared together.

Wow! its seems so long I never update my blog..I just meet few new friend since June and we getting closer day by day..I love them n Im glad it is not to late to know them. I felt comfort when hangout with them. Now they are part of my life, since that I told myself whoever dare to brake their heart, I swear to brake that ppl face. Im no longer trust in friendship since my last bestfriend stabbed my back.

Thanks to God that show me the right path which friend is worthy to me. In my life, I just had few friends and I don't need so many friends. Thanks so much to Jason J., Esther C.T, Allester A.,Collin, Marky J. L, Abeth, Tom, Cella, Christopher.. thanks for been here when I need you all.

Lover? Don't ask me about that. I know Im the most stupid person in the world. Coward. I know she lie to me and I keep pretending that I don't know she cheating on me. Early of August, I am SINGLE back. My buddies told me let the time heal my heart, I know that but how long it take to recover its depends on me. My love story end here. New life begin..huhu!~..

The past few days is the tough time on work, but it is really comfortable to do paper work due to not so many people in the office. Working environment its so so peaces and I enjoyed it. Today I took on leave not because I need rest but I got wrong info about "Kaamatan" in my hometown Membakut is fall on Sunday. So I rush to took my leave, Im so excited to join the "Sugandoi" at my hometown. Luckily 1 of my FB friend in Membakut informed me that the event has been postponed to 16th May 2010. So I still have time to prepare. I hope this year I can make it to state level (dreaming again)..LOL...I never give up on what I like until I archive it.

Talking about this vibrant month, all Sabahan must know it. May is the month which its full of event from Sabah Fest till Harvest Festival (we call it Kaamatan). And the most fever has started on this month, you know what? Kanou Rumamai..Aramai tii!!..(Let's Party).. In this month, almost hundred invitation I received to join the ..to the party..Fuhh!..Why Sabahan ppl suka minum huh!..In this month you can try the traditional drink from Lihing, Montoku, Bahar, Tumpong, Tapai etc..got so many traditional drink and only the few of that my throat can accept it..hahhaa..maybe Im not a drunker enough. 1 thing I like about this month is I can make many friends..can meet many peoples, getting know each other, sharing story with them and a lot I can do when I meet new friend..After that, I just need to do keep in touch with them so I wont lost anyone of my friend.

Whatever nonsense talked I write down here, only 1 target I need to archive this month. Hope everyone wish me luck that I can make it to Sugandoi (Singing Competition during Kaamatan) state level..If not, I kill myself..LOL..Kidding!..My life too precious to be die now.. I will try again and again and again. .till I feel bored about it..hehehe..

Ops, tomorrow 1 of my friend will getting engage with a guy..hmm susah mo ckp with the other guy bcoz people owez say B.M.W mean Best Man Win. If you do your best, you win. To the winner, Congratulation. To the loser, go find another girl, man..bunga bukan sekuntum org bilang...

Oh ya, I almost forgot today I just add Fanzi 1 of the finalis sugandoi last year. I also got the title of the song at last..He advised me to ask permission to the owner when I ask about the minus one..I agreed with him. Suppose to ask the owner of the song. Thanks Bro.

Luckily I got this blog so I can release my boring time now. No body in the house...Why this mansion so empty..What else I suppose to do while Im alone in this place? Watch movie? Play PS? Astro? All bored! Go outing? I don't think so! They all busy. Makan kemudian tidur, habis cerita.

Wow! sedar x sedar it almost in the half year past. Now in April..hmm seems this month nothing interesting happened to me. My Birthday last Sunday also nothing interesting happen..too bad I though..But some1 in my family member start realise my special date..hahha..Why I look really care 'bout this date..Im a man..Something happen or not on that day, life must go on rite..

At Work --- ppl come, ppl go..everyday see the new face..I think our management must do something before it is too late to take action. But our HR is so lame, too comfortable with the situation..I wonder why no body from HOD look at this matter as serious matter, or they pretend this is not they job. everyday got ppl come and go. New staff learning new skill then they, senior staff go look to other job and they took all the skill to new place. How such r waste to let them go. I know sometime we need let them go but if they skills can bring the business success then why we don't make them stay. I can't bring up about this matter bcoz people at my office not professional enough to accept opinions from other people. They will look down upon you.

My Leisure--Hahha..!~..Yesterday I just call my best girlfriend (not special oh), she plan to make gathering to 5 of us..I old gang..hahha..Cella, Im very interested on it oh. .Which island we go? Sure I will contact the rest of them. I can't wait to attend this event. So many story to update with them..

My life so far..

2009 IS OVER, WHAT HAVE YOU DONE?
jan- Bz prepare some stuff and My Ex-gf's wedding..
feb- Sabah Model Casting, Won in Celebrity Awards @ Celebrity's Nite, HSL..
march- Back to Work n bz do some promotion..the whole month..
april-My Birthday ...nothing special on this month.
may- Join Compeition on Sugandoi Kaamatan..DBKK & Pekan Membakut..Cannot make it to final..nvr mind, looking for next year again..
jun-Shenanigan's events go on..Hv fun
july-Ms. Shenanigan's..Clubbing Month..hahaha..~
Aug - BZ....Bz...BZ...
Sept - Fasting Month...
oct- attended Halloween's Nite @ Rumba and I won 1 of the Lucky Draw..Really lucky that nite & hangout with my bestfren till late..
nov-got Free entrance to attend A Night of Salsa by Sabahan Bloggers..woohhooo..dance till drop..hahaha!~
dec-HobbyCon, X-mas & New Year Celebration...Im gonna be the next drunken master..wakakak!~

Stayed single almost the whole year?
- Got 1,2,3 night stand so the correct answer is no.

Done something you've regretted?
- no

Lost someone?
-Yup..

Were involved in something you'll never forget?
- Yes.Definately..

Visited a different country?
- this year ... nope.

Cooked a gross meal?
- Cook??. hahaha!~

Lost something important to you?
- nope.

Got a gift you adore?
- not yet..

Dyed your hair?
- Every show..

Came close to losing your life?
- No, fortunately..

Went to a party?
- every month..

Read a great book?
- Yes, a few...

2008: Friends and Enemies.
Did you meet any new friends this year?
- A few

Did you dislike anyone?
- A few..

Did you grow apart from anyone?
- Yes, I guess...

Do you have any regrets when it comes to your friendships?
- Some..

2008: Your BIRTHDAY!.
Did you have a cake?
- Yes, Tivoli crews!!.

Did you get any presents?
- Yes! Always...Luv Them

2008: All about YOU.
Did you change at all this year?
- Yes, confidence went UP!.

Did you change your style?
- Went from black to white!!

Did you have a job?
- Yes, still have.

Did you drive?
- Yes & not

Did you own a car?
- Yup! 2007..

Did anyone close to you give birth?
- yes!.

Did you go on any vacations?
- this year..No.

Would you change anything about yourself now?
- Needless..

2009:Wrap UP:.
Was 2009 a good year?
- Not at all

Do you think 2010 will top 2009?
- Hope!

Oh Gosh!..I can't believe this week will be end soon. What a wonderful week.. Minggu yg aman akan berakhir hari ini..arghh...! That b'coz our Mr. vamp will be back on Monday next week. And Im sure everybody will be feel like hell again.. Why la U didn't take long vacation...Can't U see, everyone in this building very happy when Ur gone..

Mr. Vamp, I wanna tell U, If U want people respect U please learn how to respect other people. I know U trying to make people understand U but U method to realise it is wrong. As human beeing (if still la..U r Mr. Vamp) U should know we also got feeling. We can feel bored, angry, hated, stubborn, respect, love etc. WE ARE NOT YOUR ROBOT..

Apa² pn I like this peaceful week..

Fuhh....I try so hard to get the free time to write on my blog..its so hard and finally I took leave today..Suddenly I feel bored at my work place, perhaps bcoz my working environment or people around me or stress..Stress? Mana ada kerja yg tidak stress sekarang ni.. too much consequences, gossip and hanky panky..as long as Im not 1 of them sudahlah..

Good news I heard last week is we will get the 2 months bonus..yeah I know ramai yg tidak percaya but that true and the memo has been spread to all department last week was mentioned that all staff will get their bonus on end of this month.. But the bad news.Hah..this really shock to all staff I guess.. the latest news I heard yesterday from the source I can trust mentioned that bonus will be pay to the staff end of next month..How come oh? Suda issued memo and suddenly changed.. Janji politik ah? don't promise if you know you can't do it..that ridiculous...I hate ppl once they make promise and confirmed but they broke up. I knkow its easy to say "I'M SORRY"..Haiz..

Last week my boz called all collegue to briefing, and say like owez - pesanan dari penaja(The owner and GM)..bla..bla.. Ive nothing to say doesn't mean that I don't have to say anything but it is not the right time to say it. We must know when to speak our mind and when to mind our speech. For what? Rugi buang air liur iif they just ask but never listen. I really miss my previous time..They have no idea what the staff thinking..don't you? don't act like you know,..you never know it because you never try to understand them..you just trying to listen but not trying to understand them. How if u were them?..Me? Of coz I know, when I looking at them I can see my past time as them..nor now, Im still feel the same level. I respect them bcoz they respect me. And not bcoz terpaksa nor bout the position.

Btw, whatever I write down here is just to released some feeling and my mind..Maybe when the times is comes I will speak out what in my mind..but when??..~

Here I want you to know, while you feel alone and no body want to comfort you. Here I am, my shoulder always ready for you. Here your son always ready to listen your arguing about my brother and sister. When they abandon you, you can look back and your son still standing here for you mom. Even Im are masterful in our family but I just wanna keep our family for the best. like you do to us.

25th April every year..
That my day that remain me 'bout something..
About my wish, age, ambition, target and vision that I still cannot reach yet.
Btw I would like to thank to my beloved parents for their luv and caring to their lonely son..
To my best friends who is stand beside me when I need them, you guys are such person that I can not find and compare to anybody in this world. Although we are apart now but I hope we still keep in touch. The time we were shared together, that are precious time to me..

Today it's my birthday, than I will chase the dream that I still not fulfill yet. I will lead my life the way I wanted to be. It's better to regret my action, instead of regretting b'coz I didn't do anything. Aja! Aja! Gambateh! Jia You!..wahahaha!!.. Now is 4am already..Feel Sleepy leh..

Happy Birthday To Me!!!