IT

We are getting down to IT.  Yes, IT is 9 days away.  IT who still hasn't got a definite name, but we are getting closer.  IT is having a baby.

I have lots of thoughts going on lately.  Here they are, mostly:
What??
So soon
Not soon enough
Can't breathe
Can I do this?
I can so do this.
He will be so cute
This is what I wanted
and this week especially - it looks like an alien in my belly (lots of stretching)
Please don't go into labor early
Henry?

Anyhoo, it's been awhile since we had a baby around here.  I am not in the mode, but ready or not, here it comes.  I am excited for a new person to be in our family.  Someone we knew and don't know now, but we'll love and someday soon feel like he's always been a part of us.  I am not a gushy romantic, but I think I will be soon.

Part 2

I feel like the Spirit has been teaching me a lot lately.  Things like how to love my kids in their language (from the book 5 love Languages).  I remember an impression I got during a college class, I think it was child development, that the most important thing I needed to do for my kids was to LOVE them.  Love them so they knew I did, and that they could bask in it and flourish in it.  That's my new goal, I just decided, to make sure they knew each day that their mom loves them.

Back to Part 1

It's ok that I'm uncomfortable most of the time now.  It makes it real.  Yes, there is a child coming soon and you are in charge of his care.   This is life, and I love it!