.Sunday, September 30, 2007 ' 3:17 PM Y
WOO emo post ytd haha.
anw anw anw im feeling happier now HAHA. understanding is a powerful thing.
and being able to do something about it make things even better!
looks like i did my fooling act pretty well (: my mother was saying "something to make our tolerant and understanding girl to flare up so uncontrollably must be something really serious" haha.
i think i felt happier in the past cos i was more detached in the past. an observer. i don't really FEEL for things. is it good or bad? i dunnoe. but im kind of unused to feeling for things still i guess.
oh does it matter. as long as i keep myself happy until end of As.
im gonna be 18 soon. im gonna be independant!
no more small crybaby girl (: IM GOING TO BE STRONG!
. ' 12:42 AM Y
im so disgustingly disappointed with myself. i have thought im so many things that i now realise im not.
i thought im confident. i dun mind standing out in the crowd because im sure about myself.
if i was i wun even be getting shit jealous over stupid stuff.
i thought im understanding. poeple talk to me when they are sad.
thing is i dun even understand myself. i kick up a great fuss over stupid things.
i thought im sacrificial. i help my friends even if im in urgent need to complete stuff.
i cant even change for someone i love.
i thought im forgiving. ive never been angry with anyone for more than a day.
yet there i was planning how to get back at people a hundred times worse than what they do to me.
i thought im a good gf.
i see now that im not.
.Saturday, September 29, 2007 ' 11:28 PM Y
running out of excuses
. ' 9:14 PM Y
mugging session with juniors today! i feel young :D
smarty me, bio-fied jing xian, national day jingqi and too-bored-at-home-so-come-and-kachiao-us qiuyi. and biofied jingxian's friend who also happens to be my friend biofied jasmine!
okay we had lunch at koba and JEC IS REALLY FLOODED WITH RV PEOPLE. everywhere you look can! rahh!
so we had lunch and mugging session at the lib! had loads of fun la la :D i like hanging out with the younger generation haha. IM IMMATURE LAH.
anw i successfully introduced baby blues to qiuyi! shes obssessed HAHA. she rejected my foxtrot though BUT FOXTROT IS MORE FUNNY! intellectual jokes (points to myself (:)
silly stuff that we did...
1. argue about who should look after seat and who should buy food. CLUB SERV DIRECTORS ARE BORN TO BE LAZY!
2. repeating everything at least twice.
3. eeking over disgusting looking nails and paranoid that our nails look like the diseased ones.
4. bimbo session "AH GOT FACIAL CARE SECTION!"
5. self laughing session ("hahaha -muffled- hahaha)
6. "okay i shall mug math since i brought it. okay actually i didnt bring it so i shall not mug."
7. the fierce qiuyi who's vocab is limited to "YOU STUPID MAH"
8. comis frenzy (scrutinise scrutinise... AH I FOUND MY BABY BLUES!!)
9. math problem solving session...
(its an intellectual prob okay!)
the story goes...
I borrow $50 from A and B each. So in total i borrowed $100. I went to buy a pair of shoes that cost $97. Now i have $3 left. So i gave $1 to A, $1 to B, and kept $1 myself. So now i owe A $49, B $49. However, by adding $49 from A, $49 from B and $1 that i took, i still have a missing $1. Where did the money go?
CHEEM SIA! hoho.
.Wednesday, September 26, 2007 ' 9:38 PM Y
rahh s18 seems kind of gloomy recently.
exam stress? haha i dun rmb that feeling during Os bleah.
ahh that atmosphere is not good for health man. feel like going sentosa and play water! WOO! i need a fun day man.
im reasonably satisfied with my results so far.
not econs though. i dun believe im a U grader.
I DUN EVEN BELIEVE IM A B GRADER!
and i dun believe any one of us is (:
i miss laughing.
.Monday, September 24, 2007 ' 10:54 AM Y
BACK FROM MALAYSIA!
im losing the blogging bug. haha
.Tuesday, September 18, 2007 ' 1:49 PM Y
was thinking about st nicks grad night where the few of us silli-ly koped gold and silver balloons and wrote our wishes on it and let it fly to heaven.
i would like to do that again (:
.Thursday, September 13, 2007 ' 10:12 PM Y
haha im having a weird craze over dogs suddenly!
the wu zong xian show! the dogs all so cute and so ting hua (:
AND THEY DUN BARK :D
so i decided in the future if i get a dog i'll get one of those big furry dog that is plump!
big dogs dun bark i think! and they dun get excited so easily. hopefully they dun bite too lah.
anw, I LIKE GOLDEN RETRIEVERS! and those fox looking dogs and that dog i saw on the wu zong xian show :D
shall go check out the price someday!
haha im still scared of dogs actually but i'll get over it!
.Sunday, September 09, 2007 ' 5:29 PM Y
heyheyhey =) choo has been v stressed lately so no mood to post =)
i help her post hahahax....evan de dinosaur de elmo de gatsby de cowdunk de I is here
hahax good luck guessing whu i m cux its so not obvious can hahahx
all the best to all whu are taking the prelims tml or in the near future hope all of u get over with soaring diffraction of light hahax (transpositon of pass with flying colours...GET?!?!)
hahhaax why m i still so happy when prelims is TML tsk i mux calm down....
May the Force Be With You =)
.Thursday, September 06, 2007 ' 5:56 PM Y
haha i think my blog lacks funny elements recently!
must be stupid exam stress.
and it also shows that im growing up and im blogging about DEEEEP stuff hahaha.
funny conversation i overheard today:
girl 1: the dentist say my wisdom tooth probably gotta go for surgery.
girl 2: woah serious!
girl 1: i dunnoe but he seem pretty knowledgeable about it.
girl 2: he's a DENTIST for crying out loud.
hahaha then i was in the cubicle and trying to control my laughter before i come out. HAHA.
took a lame video (okay A FEW) with elmo lim ming xuan (LIM MING XUAN!) and gatsby lim ming xuan (LIM MING XUAN!). utterly embarrassing! but we had a great and streessless time doing it haha :D the silly things that we do tgt (: hearts.
this is the song, lalalala, elmo song.lalalala lalalala, elmo song.LALALA LALALALA,LALALA LALALALA,he likes to sing, lalalala, elmo song.lalalala lalalala, ELMO SONG!he wrote the music, he write the words~THAT'S snuffy'sTHAT'S big birdTHAT'S ELMO SONG!oh yeah!yeah! *act cute*
i hope there are good things that don't come to an end (:
BUILD AN ARK!
dinosaur: 4 TIMES IN A POST K (:
.Monday, September 03, 2007 ' 9:42 PM Y
分手快乐我无法帮你预言 委曲求全 有没有用
可是我多么不舍 朋友爱的 那么苦痛
爱可以不问对错
至少要喜悦感动
如果他总为别人撑伞
你何苦非为他等在雨中
泡咖啡让你暖手 想挡挡你 心口里的风
你却想上街走走 吹吹冷风 会清醒的多
你说你不怕分手
只有一点遗憾难过
情人节就要来了
剩自己一个
其实爱对了人情人节每天都过
分手快乐 祝你快乐
你可以找到更好的
不想过冬 厌倦沉重
就飞去热带的岛屿游泳
分手快乐 请你快乐
挥别错的才能和对的相逢
离开旧爱 像坐慢车
看透彻了心就会是晴朗的
没人能把谁的幸福没收
你发誓你会活的有笑容
(你自信时候真的美多了)
sometimes we are all so silly. knowing that the song will only make us feel worse and we still keep listening to it.
above is a song i repeatedly played and played. and i dunnoe why it still has the effect on me.
PRELIMS.
. ' 9:32 PM Y
the toughest thing to handle in the world are... relationships.
no not the ecosystem type of prey and predator relationship. the thinking relationships that human hold so dearly, as something that sets us apart from other living beings.
so who decided that humans have the ability to handle relationships? it seems to me countless times, we have proved ourselves unable to handle it. the paradoxity of it? wad we prided ourselves for, is actually something we cant control as well.
we see others in love, we envied them.
when we are in love ourselves, we do everything we can to stop anyone from runing it for us.
we protect it, we lose it.
or we get it, we don't treasure it until we lose it.
we say its okay, we learn from our past mistakes. but how many of us actually does?
then we see others in love and we envy it again.
and again and again.
"love like you have never been hurt before"
is it sensible? or even possible?
blinded, sometimes need a reality check too.
WHAT A PESSIMISTIC POST so not like me haha :D
im listening to fen shou kuai le, an ex favourite song.
that accounts.
