campfire's buring

time: 1.07am

I hope to get pictures out for this, but for now i can only say that:

i really missed campfires!

Back in the good old pinafore days, campfire was real fun, singing songs, learn lousy dances, watching gorgeous performances and checking out guys of all shapes and sizes. I enjoyed every moment of it, of course, with some schools being way better than others.

The last one i went for was 3 years back, when st nicks had a campfire.

today, they had another one. :) "Hollywood"- it was called.

I met people i have not seen for so long. Some since i left school. Its surreal, to be suddenly surrounded by people who formed shadows of your past. People whom you laughed with, talked with and slogged under the sun with, but yet who also slowly drifted away with the years.

So much has changed with the company too. Miss Gwee has left( leaving the company in the hands of people who lack the sheer passion and drive she had) Seriously, i remembered how she used to drive me crazy. Spending every recess with her was not the kind of memories one should have of secondary school, but she really was the pillar of it all. With the years, she gained my respect. And it helped that i always found the best partners to pull it through with me. :) I miss them too, both of them.

Punishment is no longer allowed in all uniforms groups. No running, no pumping, no nothing. Sighz..how then brown cow, do we keep the rebelious and ill-discipline nature of 140 girls under check? Its strange, why we even find the need to be trying to control girls who chose to be in this CCA in the first place. Then again, i think all of us had a love-hate relationship with guides. Only in reflection, do we realise what we have failed to notice amidst all our sweat, tears and uncooked food.

With every batch, we have new problems. Maybe thats why, its nice to just remember the 4 years that we lived through. The pumping, the scoldings, the *ahem* cheating, the campfires, the 3 minutes baths, the home econs room and not forgotting, the people.

I dun really say this much, but those 4 years of guiding gave me alot more than i expected. For a CCA that i conveniently chose casue 'everyone-i-knew-was-joining-too', it brought me a long way. It made me realise too, that i can do alot more than i thought i could. People tend to think of uniform groups as a kind of place for people who have no idea what they want to dump themselves into ( ok! i admit. i was one of those pple..) instead it became this really unique experience.

There is this saying "Once a guide, always a guide". I may no longer be heading in the guiding direction. In fact i have slowly distanced myself, but ultimately, it has left its print on me. On who i am and what i have become.

and seriously, cheers to that. :)