It has been since a long long time since I last blogged.
It hasn't been a great month. I am missing Sok and Jie. Well, met up with my Jie but guess I was too down to communicate well with him.
My uncle passed away on Friday, 0115. Cancer. I just visit him on Monday and there he goes. The doctor predicted or gave him 6 months to leave. Not a good preiction. I remembered seeing him sleeping with tubes in almost every part of his body. I couldn't pray, not even in my heart. I don't remember seeing RX sleeping when I visit her. It's more painful to see the person sleeping than when he's awake.
Then I met my cousin yesterday. It's the first ever since that incident.
Today she and her husband would be there at the wake. I didn't go.
I wanted to have ice cream with you around but you didn't know why right. Ice-cream leh, you were the one who bought it for me 3 years ago. How can you la, so mean. =( Maybe for all these years you didn't know ice cream makes me laugh? I wanted a pill of comfort from you but I didn't get it =(
My mum bears so much grudge with the whole family. God, don't make me argue with You. Don't make me upset with You. I know everything You do is for my best but don't do this to me. Why make me feel so lonely and helpless?
I had a good chat with Tric before she flew to Thailand. She was sharing with me about serving. It about the heart and not about the service. Guilty. Honestly looking at myself not eager to serve but cares more about the service clearly shows that I am not humble enough. This is bad. Good that I talk to her. Good that I have cell leaders. Should take some time to thank Jem.
Looking forward, looking forward for retreat.. Love my cell.
