Yesterday Robin brought me and Fanny out for lunch at Old Town Coffee House at East Coast. From the office to that place takes only max 20mintues. I had curry mee for lunch and had curry rice for dinner.

After lunch at Kettle Pot, Hui Ni helped me to tie my hair into plaids. While she was doing so, April applied make up on my face. My gosh. It was like makeover la! One colleague said I looked more energetic. As though without it, I looked tired but honestly I feel sleepier today than ever! urg.. Cosmetics really work wonder eh. … It was only eye makeup that April applied for me…

I was thinking of asking them do for me again tmr. =D
Hui Ni also tied for Fanny! Then when Fanny let go of her hair, wa her hair looked as though she just perm it. Pro Pro.

Robin was sharing that he would make sure that whatever things he said would be of value to other person’s life. At the instant, I thought, how is it possible to always do that? Wouldn’t it be boring? But Robin is not someone whom you can describe as boring, he tell some of the best jokes I ever heard. And don’t get me wrong, I am not disagreeing with his point of view. I am just sceptical that’s why I think in this way. Highly not encouraged. Okay.
If everyone were to be like him, I wonder how that community would be like. Will I be comfortable to it? Everyone’s life will improve; will there ever be loneliness if we have people who ensure that they contribute to other’s life? I remember when I was younger, near the period when I was below 10 years old, I was wondering how come when I was in pain at home, the government didn’t send counsellors straight to my house? Now, on the other hand, I am uncomfortable with the idea of someone keep wanting to improve other’s life. Silly me.

Yet, to be frank, I had always and still wanting to be someone who will play a helpful role in any life that I come across. Why did I thought life will be boring at that instant?

My right eye hurts. Maybe it's eye pimple but I can't find it. I don't feel like going to work anymore with such irritation in the eye. How am I supposed to look at submissions for hours with such an annoying pain?

I left work at 3plus today, trying my best to fill up as many submissions as I could. I went straight to church for guest service today and surprised myself by not sleeping at all. Well, but right after the Pastor finished, I was sleepy le. He was so interesting, using mother's womb as an analogy to our life. (well, he was saying our this life is like our 2nd womb, for us to prepare to be born for eternal life) I'm loving it.

Ok then Pastor met up wit Agape and... hmm. I expected what he had to say. I thought I was partly in the wrong or rather, I know I can't commit so...
but while on the ride home, (thanks to Jun Ren), I had good lame chat with the guys and I thought, I don't want to let go of that ties? bonds that we are all building together?

k, I have not been talking to SOMEONE for donkey years. Who ask her to be attached? Haha.

Oh right, how can I forget, Jie is awesome! For he calls that group of ppl what? idiots is it? Yes. yes.

Morning
I spent $7 travelling in the morning by taking..
LRT to Pending,
966 to Eunos,
MRT to Bedok,
225 to YuNeng Primary,
225 back to Bedok,
train to Toa Payoh and
train to Tanjong Pagar.
There goes my $7. $7 can buy a lot of food to feed myself!!! I don't know how to claim leh. Plus, I believe I over-spent, I could have cut down on some rides. AIYA. URGG.

Afternoon
Hui Jun treated Hui Ni and I for lunch. ARH. Dumbly I got the courier man to reach Yishun Stadium 2 hours earlier than me. In the end had to make me go to another place to pass me the package. See, I did a silly mistake again in my work.

Then we moved on to play badminton and table tennis at the stadium.

Night
After I finished bathing, I came out realising all my colleagues were gone. I thought I could have gotten someone to drive me over to Winsor after I bathed. I was wrong.
30 mintues, that's the time I spent waiting for the bus. URGG. After 2-3 stops, I approached the bus driver to ask if the bus would reached Winsor Park, unfortunately, he don't understand what I meant and he asked me to name the place in Chinese. WA. That really nan dao wo lor. Then, to my surprise, someone asked, "You are from JNP right?" That man who asked the question was actually a new member to JNP, soon I think. Then using his IPHONE, we managed to get to the place safely. LOL.

Siti and Valen were already at the park by the time I reached. Then I saw YS! Haha, I shouted her name and she exclaimed mine. Ha, so happy to see her. We were smiling so wildly until Siti said to Valen, "WA, this PA really behaves like an auntie." I was stunned lah! She's not the first one to say that! I argued with her with YS's help. Haha.

-chat with April
-ate dinner with the trainers+Valen+lao ban niang
-held latern
-then we played the game where someone has to listen to ipod and sing out a song for the members to guess the title. and, it's very easy to predict which team will win-> the one with the most iphone. like seriously, every time someone think s/he knows the song, the iphones will start flashing lights and you hear songs from youtube in the middle of a deserted park.
-it started drizzling
-April thought us a few more songs. Haha. I can't believe how we actually do the 'ting ting' harmoniously
-at the place at jalan setair(how do you spell it?)
LaoBan shared the same view as me. Haha. It was so shocking. My advisor and Keef got 2nd/3rd for the badminton game and LaoBan suddenly called me to tell me he call Keef the same way I did.

That's all I remembered for now.

Sunday cell, Barn shared with us this verse, 1 Corinthians 14:40 But everything should be done in a fitting and orderly way.
It reminds me of how messy I had been at work. There wasn't any system or order that I follow even though I have so many things at hand all the time. But look at Nehemiah, everytime he is doing something, he is actualy playing out the plans he had in his mind. He knows what he is doing. I don't. I really don't. To me, a thing done, it's done. It didn't matter which one comes first which one comes later because surely something will pop up again and mess my order. I allowed it. Sigh. What to do?

Laid Bare
Hold me in Your arms
Father never let me go
I'm sorry for things I'd done
And I'm coming back to You
I lay down my foolish pride
draw me close to You
to Your side

My heart is laid bare before You
My all surrendered to You alone
You are my desire and
the air that I breathe
and I can't live without You

I AM SO HAPPY!

Well, I was. :) I met a client at JE station at 6pm and went straight to Gifted even though food at Lot 1 was tempting me so badly. Then when I was near CCKPS, I saw the security auntie who enjoys teasing Monster. Haha. I told her that I switched jobs. (k why should I even blog abt this?) Anyway, then while I was walking along the road, I saw the faithful white van. I squinted my eyes and there it was, a triangular orange sign indicating it fetch students. My hopes were crashed. There goes my Serena and Pyrena.

HOWEVER, once I reached the gate, I saw the familiar pink bag. SERENA!!!! Then, PYRENA!!! MY BAOBEIS!!! Haha, gosh, I am bias. Alright, so I went in with extreme wide smile and I heard the familiar screams “TEACHER HUILING!!!” Haha, without any notice, I was suddenly hugged tightly. Shocked. Haha, it was Belyta, the sweet pie, then Grace came along and gave me a hug too. Ha,I can’t imagine if Venus was there. My eldest daughter and my son was there and they ran to me too.

I really, really miss the kids there, to the extent, I neglected Teacher Sharon. Lol.


THE NEGATIVE EMOTION

So tiring. I cannot imagine myself taking 2 jobs and have to study at the same time next year. It’s already exhausting taking up 2 jobs now. I am beginning to miss Rebecca, the pretty girl who came in the same time as me. All thanks to Shi. She entertained me well at IPP.

I am horrible at balancing work and social life. In the first month of my new work, I had little mistakes and little socialisation with my colleagues. Now I had more socialisation and more mistakes. Mistakes chocked me to death man. My advisor mentioned that she noticed I was beginning to make mistakes. This is ridiculous!!! How can it be? When I was a new horn I had no error now it’s my second month and I made tons of mistakes. ARH!!!

Things I remembered today which I want to enjoy in but I am too engaged in work:
Adam gave me a huge shock, Miss Ten poked me, Hui Ni held me, Siti chopped on me?, Karen and her yakult+mango+green tea drink, Shida asked me to focus on work don’t smile (lol), Mdm Teo’s speech, Auntie joking about me having 1 pair of specs is not enough because I tried to take something out of a closed glass cabinet.
My gosh I want to enjoy!!! Something is stopping me. What is that?

THE MISSING ONES

On my list, people who I need to go out with someday.
-LYNN
-Mr Fong and Dona
-Jeanie,WZ,SHer, preferably with WS+SM.

As a PA, I see my advisor as a master. She is knowledgeable and she wants to impart it to me. I want to work with her and make us an excellent pair of partners. My hopes were high until the incidents happened during this 2 weeks. I just broke her trust when I made more mistakes and gave her a 'bo-chap' attitude to things she consider important. I can't deny I did used that attitude. Tired of the challenges I kept facing when doing the unfamiliar submissions, I gave up practising to be a faithful servant.

I have no idea how to face her tomorrow, for she is someone so important to me, someone whom I respect a lot and now I disappointed her. WS was right, I am not someone who admits my mistake easily. Now I realise, I don't even know how to say 'sorry'.

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