I finished watching super junior full house, super junior-T idol world blah blah... My world kinda tilted after knowing super junior. Yea, I am a fan of theirs. There was a period of time where I am pretty obsessed with them, maybe still is. However, that kind of excitement fades away, law of diminishing ... works. I have no idea what to update my blog.
I bought SIMS 3 and that was supposed to be a hugh tick plus smiley face on my wish list... yet my laptop did not have enough RAM. Miserable.
Tomorrow will be A's H2 Phy P1.
1-3dec there will be class chalet (I wish this big fat idiot will come. arh I am honest)
3 more days and Rachel will be on the plane flying to nowhere. (hehs)
Rachel Caine's vampires series book 5 (I think) kept repeating that the last thing to do in difficult situation is to stay still. Life has to move on. I figured that I didn't. Everytime I go out with a JC friend, I realise everything that I say has got to do with my secondary school life. There tend to be times I repeat myself. Stagnant! Goodness! It makes me ponder whether I will be able to cope with a university life (provided that I get in). Will I be pursuing what I want in the future or will I remain still and talk about previous glory and memories as though I am still living them?
Life requires one to keep moving.
Life cannot do without burning desire. I thought my fire died in sec2 when there was not hkk nor dc and when I realise what I have cannot afford my dreams. I wanted to do well for them so much I behaved like an hardworking ant. I reaped what I sowed. My desire now is not in the studies that I am doing, it is in astronomy, in geology and changing people's lives. If I never stop at sec2, thinking that it is possible for me to travel overseas and be the first Singaporean astronaut etc ha, perhaps, my life will not be just ashes now.
A girl I knew from MI called and she talked to me as though we were really good friends. I had to look at a photo to remember I knew her in the first 2 weeks and I was really quite close to her. Guilt gnawed.
Once, a man told me that he lost a lot of friends because he did not take the initiative to contact the rest or show care even though he did. Guess I am pretty much like him.
There's a friend whom I want to tell ... I miss you Chew.
There's another friend I realise each time I see I would hug... like a prize for the fact that I choose to live.
There are some more friends that I know I treasure and feel sorry for...

God, I miss You.
It's pretty immature for me to do so, but I just can't help comparing myself and other SFC members. They are almost my role models as Christians. I wonder what my life will become. I slacked. I give up challenging my mum. My dreams don't stop there tho. There are better dreams now with God in them. =) Ha. Silly as it sounds but I wish to read bible in my dreams. At least no mum in it, no opposing forces in it. ARH. Annoying.

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