I think I have a lot to say today, bear with me.

Meeting Sabrina just to pay her for the chalet probably should take about 10mintues but our chat lasted a few hours. Haha. Perhaps I was a little talkative too wow, I didn't know there was quite a lot to catch up with her. JC life samasama eh except for their school torturous sports training, PE. Thankfully I didn't had those experience but I am sure it was good training.

I rushed home to have a quick lunch before going for Christmas ball held by the mentors in SAJC. Something very unpleasant cropped up at home. My parents were trying to change the tap in the kitchen so they had to stop the water supply. Unfortunately, I had stomache so the water had to come but then, the kitchen would flood since the tap thing wasn't done. Took a long time and a lot of bickering. It could have been hilarious you know, by changing the use of words.

Anyway, so I 'rushed' to SA and I didn't expect to see a handful of J2s, from team SAJC somemore! The captain ball challenge was very quick. Compare this match to our 05's, they ran about the speed which Tang-i uses. It was really fast! The passing of ball was within a second, swift action and the speed of their ball was... Put it this way, for me, it would hit me before I caught it. lol.Mr Yit played too, all 4 matches and he was very enthusiastic. Nice one!

Do you know who is Jeremy mentor? Haha, he was hilarious, trying to find 'cheat' ways and he pant a lot. Also, he had a zhao-pai action whereby he jumped while running and hit the ball which was flying in mid-air without seeing which direction he was hitting to, mostly to his opponent accidentally apparently, and his inertia was not enough to stop him from speeding out of court after that hit of the ball.

Everything was okay, the OCIP began to talk about their trips and Shane+Samuel talked about Star Wars. My gosh, I only know that star wars had red/green swords. lol.

Had a dinner and listen to the mentors and this J2 singing. Chris/Kris? from basketball. Oh my gosh Theodore that mentor could easily sub any singers in the music industry. Quoted from Shane "walau that guy can transit very well leh!" Haha, indeed, his zhuan yin, high-to-low-and-back pitches was very smoothly done and his voice was great. His voice is very nice too.Winner haha.

All mentors are musically inclined. Pro. I tried very hard to catch Winston(spelling check?)'s lyrics but I couldn't, quite pitiful. Nonetheless it sounded nice. Theodore's lyrics caught my attention, especially after he explained he wrote it after receiving news that his friend dead. Though the song was about a parable in the bible about this man losing 2 sons but the lyrics... I don't want to really recap alright. Ok, so... I anticipated and didn't for this Christmas ball but I think...

God put a lot of effort to bring me back and I take delight in that. Coming to these activities, He encouraged me to walk with Him by faith that He is there. Evelyn sang a chinese christian song, heh, nice one. Spoke to me a bit that time. Really can't catch the lyrics properly, but Eve+Wins' lyrics put together, is what God wants to tell me, to push against the lies which I believed in.

My walk in really unstable, my mind cannot focus on God but filled with stress for next year's As. BUT, when I saw Sharon, George and Rachael coming back today, I was reminded that God never left them. That will remind me, God is faithful. Now it's a little painful that is probably the moulding part. a soul was saved today

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Good job. Somebody will become a flying pork soon.

How I wish I can tell you more.

Woah went to the band concert and got there at 6.30pm for the last piece. My gosh and the last piece was the one which I always hear on the way home, by the 'grace' of SASS. Missed the first 2 performances from SAJC, how sad.

Haha, there was a DAMM FUNNY thing which happened to our MR. TEDDY BEAR! HAHA. Something about a SHORTENING CHAIR.

LOL. Can I share with the people teddy bear? It's hilarious, ok I am sorry about that plus I haven't got the full story yet.

Aiya. Oh and saw one of Miss Ho's 'boyfriends'. Not bad la. lol.

Seriously, when Miss Ho is with band, you probably needs to be a little more careful. Anyone who walks pass her get her very loud greetings! =D JUST JOKING! Haha.

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I went to CCK library with SOK to study. The library which I thought I would love breaks my heart today.

First, there's weren't any more space.
Second, all the good good books are ON LOAN.

Ouch. Ok I did say that IJ might be the last author whose books I will touch this year. Well, =D, nope. I borrowed another 4 today, one thriller, 3 romance. I need that after so many emotionless killings. urgg.

We barely did an hour's work and went to had lunch.

Lunch was funny. Lot 1's electrical bills must had expolded with about 10+ air-conditioners aligned at the entrance blowing in, sending chilling winds and caused my soup to drop in temperature. Terrible, terrible.

Haha.

We went to VIVO too and we agreed that F21 is not Sok's style yet. lol.

I was actually a little dumbfounded by how much Sok knows me. =P I am sorry dearest, my girl whom I dote on so much. How the toot! did you know how I am like so deep!? The deepest end MY GOSH.

Good, so next time when I am blur or something, I will say please talk to my PA personal assistant Miss Lau.

LOL!!

Oh great, there is this series of Chinese books which seems quite popular among mid-thirties/fourties ladies. There is always a female drawing on the cover page and the colours are not bright, they looked like the books had been left there for ages. Then, a woman took 18 of those books to herself. We loled.

Maybe it is, or is not.
I finally found the GBdrill website in this book which I left it on the shelves 'nong' long time ago.

IF, I were to proposed a zonal thing next year, I will probably hang myself upside down and tobaleh again.

Goosh, these kind of behaviours should be rid of. Oh dear.

I miss her. There is nothing to cry about knowing where she is but to be honest with you, I am a creature from the dark (nonsence of course) and I like to sink deep to search for the tears which are still there.

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Jojo has a very good voice.

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I was blaming someone for something yesterday. Haha I hope he wouldn't mind. shanny. hahaha.

How I wish some people wouldn't come and read. No offense I am not chasing people off, I am just being very shy. I am open to my feelings and sometimes, I am too sweet I guess and can be disgusting. lol. If I am an outsider reading this blog, I will most probably say EU, this person is so fake.

Yesterday when I saw Shane, I was super happy. And then stepped into the room and I saw Evelyn! Haha, followed by mama and Samantha! So cool.

Then you take a look again, so Rachel, Chesed, Mr Yit was there too and all the other SFC people. Great! It's like another big gathering! haha.

To be very honest with you, I haven't feel attached to SFC yet but seeing these people is like seeing your family members back again after staying aboard for months or something. I do miss them you know. What the.

If that is what God meant by loving one another, using terms sisters and brothers, I thank Him.

Doing and trying. That's the problem. I know I've been trying to do so and so, but, it's not exactly doing. You kinda helped me to make a decision. Another person told me about surrendering to God. Another person told me it might be a painful progress and she tried to do it with me.

Something have been bothering me even much more and yesterday I told myself, be one and not try to be a Christian. After which I was telling God the terrible words and violent images that kept flashing in my mind. Do you know that is so difficult? Woah. Then amazingly everything just blank out. Those words, I could no longer find and put them together. Those images, no longer form to disturb me.

I was wondering if that is because... sometimes we need to speak out to release the bottled erupting emotions. Then we speak to people and we feel better. Nonetheless, I believe it's Him. Because knowing God knows practically everything you've done and thought, there's no way you can hide and then, you just re-tell Him so that He could take it when you laid it down. When it comes to friends, we might still limit what we are going to tell them in case we made them turn away. Arh ya then people will probably say, that is not your true friend then.

I don't think so. It's just coming down to human nature.

crap crap time.
I realise I described LYNNs dressings to the national library without explanation to why I suddenly said that. Well, cherry red long dress, black tank top. PLUS, a horizontally striped cherry red/white cardigen PLUS, cherry red toe nail colour.

By looking at her I feel giddy. lol. Oh she only wore the cardigen in the library.

The below is seriously crapping for crappies. lol.

I received 2 complains from this 2 girls who said that I always portrait them as evil saints in my life. lol! like big bully.

Well, other than bullying, they are lovely. They understand me in-out and always stand by me.

(rollmyeyes.)

DO YOU KNOW HOW HARD IS IT TO WRITE THESE KIND OF THINGS?!
lol!

Let's see. One is the type where by using one call, you can get her out to walk with you and listen to you. She is the type who scold and scold and scold if I am dumb. Her advices are very sharp, never fails to hit the nail on the head. Another one is if you are down, she will be there soothing you, then if I am dumb, she will remind me to look at my situation again and will not give up on me. She knows me so well she will adjust her solutions abit so that I can take it.

Sometimes, description fails. At least my do. It sucks I know. so please, if ppl like Sok reads this, please do not complain and ask me to write something nice about you. LOL.

so I realise, I never post those good things which you all done. Well, those things, touched my heart, and stayed there. =)

Don't you agree that we appreciate our friends a lot? We never said today probably thinking each other doesn't need it verbally and hoping each other could see through actions. Perhaps, today you can try and say 'I thank you, friend, for being one' or 'I love you.' to somebody. It's always nice.

And I am tempted to do it and don't want to reply that person.

But that kinda remind me of people using jared's phone as prank. lol. Old times.-.-

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so overwhelming even though I am not involved.

HEY SU ANNE! YOU MIGHT AS WELL SET UP A BLOG FOR ME TO READ ABT YOUR OCIP! LOL!

no I mean, su Wanne. lol

Do check out Yuan Qing's blog.

I am super extra but let me post about it... haha

GOD, YOU ARE SO COOL!

Do you know that I am very jealous of people who can go OCIP? Reasons?
1) Thailand
2) Help the kids!
3) Lessons

By looking at the photos, I could already smell Thailand. If you go to the villages and rural part where you will be out of concrete jungle but onto the greenery and brownish roads covered by mud and sands, your will catch this scent of flowers or the plants. It's so refreshing!

That was what I miss! my. And Rachel had this picture of a clock with Thailand 9th King picture. Funny. Then there were pictures of mountains and waterfalls.

I remembered as a kid I used to travel alot with this family who never fails to be our tour guides. The mountain which I will never forget is shaped like a pregnant woman. A legend said that a pregnant woman waited at this road for her husband to come back from war or something but, the man never return. She waited so long that she passed away along that road the the mountain was formed. Ha. You probably knock my head and question it's credibility. I was 5 and I believed it. lol.

I feel like crying. Haha. No offense before I say anything... I thought if rich people go there perhaps they will learn to appreciate more and realise that their life is superb and everything. I thought they will think life is sad there.

As one who lives in that kind of condition before... I loVE IT. Haha, I miss that. I miss the 2story hut. I miss the concrete storeroom. I miss the concrete kitchen on the left of my hut. I miss the squarish holes at the top of the kitchen walls. I miss the aluminium doors.

AND I MISS the fat rooster which I accidentally murdered. It was a damnnn funny story. It jumped over the wall and fell into a drain and drowned. AND it was MY fault. (because I chased after it)

How about walking on those browish roads with bare foot? The sudden change in temperature and the noisy animals. The dogs there so skinny and kinda dirty.

The people there so warm and friendly.

Oh not to forget the blue mosquito net hovering over the beds! I still have it but lol who use that in SG?

Kids. I remembering myself going to this orphanage near in my village at the age of 3. My mission was to give out sweets! lol.

Gosh. Everything. so meaningful.

Perhaps the conditions is terrible but I believe it's blessings in disguise. They learnt more about life and appreciation.

I didn't really bother about OCIP just now. I wanted to come here and say God doesn't deprives us of anything but devil just lie us and tell us we do not have enough.

YQ was online and suddenly everything links together and I realise why God tells me that.

loudest whine for God. I really want to learn things there. Learn about life and everything...

Let's wait, it shall be in my future plan. woh I can involve someone too. Haha, eh, YOU, if you want to move and help in another continent, I will try to get my company to help there too as a OCIP. =) You know what I mean. Haha.

OH and I wanted to share I am done with all the books and yearning for all. Waa, the book which I bought turns out to be not the final one. As in Bonnie's murderer suspects is reduced to 2.

urgg.

But it's so cool because all characters from different books are linked! And Bonnie as a ghost is damn smart! She told Eve to be careful of quicksand and a woman with a box and not to let that woman touch her. The villian in the story almost harmed Joe at quicksand and the woman is Megan. Initially I thought Bonnie is just imaginary because Eve missed Bonnie too much. Well, now the foresee future thing.. I doubt Eve can do it.

Eve's BF, Joe, an realistic person, an exNAVY SEAL and a detective became a Listener(hears voices of people involved in tragedy in the past etc) because Megan, a listener/Pandora(a Pandora can help one hone his talent/kill him by a touch when she's very emotional) touched him! At the end of this book, he saw Bonnie! FINALLY! (who can only be seen by Eve for 10+ years!)

I think. Books creep me out. How did I get so engrossed?! MY GOSH! LYNN is that YOUR influence?!

Er, and...

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