Happiness comes from within

sum up

There isn't time, but,

I must say yesterday's ministry was terrific! It was 1Ther:2 and we went on further about how the devil can stop God's workers from doing their work. Even being busy or fearful are the works of devil.

urgg.

And to sum up, I don't know how happy I can get if tomorrow I can get home by 7pm, first time for this week.

SFC WAS GREAT! Though I was so clumsy with paint all over my elbow, knees and skirt. Oh well.

And truely trust God will make a way. And, He answered my prayer with a YES again! My gosh!

Teddy has been crazy this week, somehow or rather I fed him vinegar I WONDER HOW.

Mass dance was hahahaha, well, starting song is LOW. -.-
loss my sense of balance

Thursday, July 31, 2008

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power of prayer

When you lift up everything, in prayer, joy and peace is what you will recieve. Thank God.

like, I was so annoyed. a prayer, and He made me smile a few mintues later. HA. (despite me not doing QT yesterday. SLEPT! urgg)

thy faithfulness

I was desperate for a listening ear and I talked to my ME teacher. I must say he is really experienced. He asked if I just want a listening ear or solutions.

It was when I pour out, then I realised what had been on my mind actually, which I never realise! My goodness. What really surprises me is, my pirate sibling actually can feel it. PRO la!

Prayer is the best solution.

and I learnt not to take other's problems as my problem.
tho, the others may be my parents themselves. HA. dots.

It was when I pour out, then I realised what had been on my mind actually, which I never realise! My goodness. What really surprises me is, my pirate sibling actually can feel it. PRO la!

but... ya. hehs

Somehow, this week doesn't seem bright. Hope the remaining days will be good.

feel like backpaddling into the old times, those sweet memories, those fun times we had in the school, enjoying the breeze around the field, returning smiles to each other.

do people smile because they are happy or smile, knowing smile is a power to twist an impresseion?

WTH am I talking about?! Haha

oh ya,

watermelon milk =watermilk
watermelon strawberry =waterstraw

according to one of our girls

watermelon mango =watermango
OR
manwater.

And she went off the LRT laughing non-stop.

not me obviously. =D hor? Hahaha

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

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last 2 days

I MUST PUT THIS ON TOP OF MY POST.

SM: Yesterday I slept on my friend's bike, then there was strong wind blowing my hair (with action)
Bell: huh, your friend farted?! (burst out laughing)

And I wasn't listening to them and they said something and ended up laughing even louder for both.

I:what is it??
Bell: hahas, I heard that (laughs), she slept on her friend's butt,(laughs) then there was great wind! (LOLs)

And oh well, the 3 of us laughed like mad woman. Esp that Bell who had bad sore throat, had to laugh differently to lessen the hurt on her throat. And her laughter, lol.

And SM continued saying it smelt like durain.
LOL!

She meant it, because thebike went pass the durain store!
HA!

SM, I don't want to post Kiki's pictures le, they are all too dark. lols.
MAYEE YOU are super random! Haha. as in the avril thing lols

I went to study,(supposedly) at SM's house and Kiki was there! Haha, oh my gosh...
I hate fleas. SM tried to let me hear the sound of the breaking of shells when she killed the fleas. DISGUSTING! Haha.

Everytime I see Kiki I will asl stupid questions.

Why Kiki is sometimes emo sometimes high ar?
aren't you like that too? what qns lol!
dots

Kiki kept stepping on my toe! ARH! And that SM enjoyed it so much! EVIL! Once Kiki was on sofa, and SM threw its toy on the floor, Kiki jumped down onto my foot in persue of the toy. urgg.

And better still, kiki stepped on almost every part of me. LOL. I meant it. My gosh! Sickening. Haha(pun pun)

Somehow, yesterday I found one thing that is similar between Kiki and me(not that I am a bitch tho), it seeks for warmth. She desires to be with somebody. Everytime she saw a new person, she wants to build friendships and show that person that s/he is a friend in her eyes! Me too! Haha.

I especially love it when Kiki lies beside me, sat on me, rest behind me. sweet. I could feel it's presence, as in, really touching it. It's different from sensing someone who is around you.

Poor eng

NEH-MIND.
LOL

After bathing with Rhon(lols) in school, SM and I went to pick Belle and went to TP. temasek poly!

The performance was great! Put up by the dance and production crew, the performance was hot, sexy and lively! (and hit me so much that JC=no live)(but I am still glad I am in JC because, it's SA where God.. you know. =) ) And oh my gosh! cute guys! LOL!!!! Okok, I wasn't there to gnaw at the guys.

It should have started at 7.30pm but there was tech problems and on the curtains, the words were "no show". lols. Yet, instead of feeling a waste of time or irritated, the audience cheered and gave heaps of encouragment. Then we see "input 1" "input 2" and the video started then yada yada.

Allow me to be mean here, I was really amazed by the.. fat people. MEAN! Okok, as in, there were a few girls who were overweight but they could catch up with the beats in Hip-Hops etc. Gosh! And they were couragious, their sexy moves would not turn you off, well not neccessarily up either but hello, they were cool!

Personally, I love the dance where the dancers entered in white suits and dresses. The theme for that dance was about love and... well... it was beautiful.

Belle and SM was excited by the popping. lols.

They may not be the best dancers but compared to many, they are so much better. Like how one of the speaker said, they are carefree, and passionate and do not care about what others said, they just dance! the performance reflected how much effort and spirit and heart they had put in. And well, I am awed by their strong passion. Good job! Haha.
and as for yesterday drills.. each time I have drills section with the girls, I have different thoughts and joy Haha, nothing beats during breaks, having girls to stand in position and goes "STAFF SERAGANT! CAN YOU GIVE US COMMAND?!"

HAHA! I WAS SO HAPPY LA! HAHA! well, things are flowing well although.. slow but, I can definitely see that, after months of going wrong and correcting, the girls are picking the skills as in... I don't know. what I can see now, they have the desire to learn and hone their skills. Isn't that cool?! lols.
actually, if you realise, I am still commanding using my throat and that's why I cough and you know, my command sounds weird after a few mintues. Then when I saw the girls wanting to do better, I tried to use diaphram(SM, correct spelling?) Look at how impactful those little girls are. so cute =)

oh well, my timing still sound so much better than my command. Ee.

Maybe well, in the eyes of a perfectionist, they haven't reach there yet, but they are on their way. That sense of assurance...woo! Haha.

And I saw ZX scolding NCC yesterday.. watching him I almost bang into a wall. retard. nah, that similar scene I saw 4 years ago, when we were, very close.big SIGH.

lols, I am here wanting to talk about Job23 but arh lalala
I don't know what to say... the first few verses was, arh they just speak that I thought but... there must be more

even today my complaint is bitter
His hand is heavy in spite of my groaning

It's like... He knows that He wants me to do many things which I don't like to or, I have no wish to but He still wants me to do. And it's like, I feel as though being a Christian is such a tough life. But then, it's in Job23. He knows. He knows I will think so, and yet He still wants me to do it.
I was pondering if I must do something I don't like where can I find joy?
but come to think of it, the process may be hard, but the fruits will be sweet. Hasn't He been showing that?

but He knows the way I take
when He has tested me, I will come forth as gold

He speaks alot in my life. I don't like it. Haha, but lol...
lol
lol

And suddenly I was thinking, I can say I believe in Him but not yet faith.
like oh my gosh what is happening?
stumble and stumble... is it because I am young I stumble more oftens..
ok like a baby..

okok, I still yearn for the Lord. no prob.

Phillipians4:13 have been stuck with me for very long

arh lalala. tough times at homes tough times in school. sheesh!

TEDDY BEAR, I ate you ytd. LOL.

yesterday, when I brought bread and peanut butter from the NTUC... gosh, I felt like an auntie! in GB shirt and school skirt. aiyo, like mother for the kids.

but they finished the 600g bread. Haha, I don't understand how they made my day so easily. sheesh!

kids. kids. and kiki. all Ks. LOL!

OH I SAW FISH!!!! I WAS SO DOLEFUL!!! FISH!!!! Haha, walau, and he still remembered FACIAO la, haha, I was a bit embarassed. lols. Jasper looked so smart in white uniform ok,(simply love guys in uniform. miss ZJ then LOL!) post the pic next time. =) And, Fish made me looked shorter in the picture. raa! JASPER!!! I miss him so much!

uniform groups rocks!

and so is my Father the Lord rocks! Haha.

jesus, lover of my soul >>good song

Labels: GB, us

Sunday, July 27, 2008

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heartstrings

post pics first. =) But I want my GB pics... sobs!

no reply to tags first.
miss, sHAron, you crazy woman. ahaha, YES, ok, I MISS YOU! Haha. (vomit blood in backscene) lol.
RACH! haha, ok... ya, haha... I think I need dear Lord to apply more softeners on my family la. Haha. thanks! =) but if His plans...ok k, have faith in Him. alright. Hahas.
FISHIE FISH FISH! MY GOSH! I MISS YOU SO MUCH FISHIE!!!! HAHAHAHA=) haha, yea! I'll!
to miss shida and WS... WHAT'S WITH BOTH OF U LA!? I KNOW BOTH OF YOU MISS ME SO GIVE SO MANY TAGS TO GRAB MY ATTENTION. BUT YOU DON'T HAVE TO FLOOD IT MA!
and to miss teo, I spell my name with a SPACE b/w Hui and Ling wan la. what a friend you are TSK!
SHIIIIDAAA! yes, gundoo gorsong! haha eh is you la, you miss yourself? TSK
SALLY NEO!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAHA

lols. ok.

DONA&RACH VS PRAWN

look at how serious DAJIE is.

And rach. woo..

who do you think won? The prawn of course! Haha, out of 3 prawns, Rach ate 2 and one fell. DaJie... sighs.. ate lesser then Rach of course. How I wish his prawn flew and I can take a video of that. TSK! Hahaha. Oh ya, I declare the prawn as a winner because, jiejie didn't eat the last one. Good survivor. Hahaha.

Seriously, I LOVE THIS! the girl so violent! pluch EEYORE's tail! Haha. I LOVE EEYORE!

Is it my photo skills? or is it Teddy becoming Holy. lols!

Mentoring balloons

if you can't fathom, they were tied to tennis racquet

another holy pic. Miss Ho played my FAV song!!!

And the church where I was awed and awed

Oh man, I haven't post the pictures we took with the thai students. I miss them.

It's raining. The temperature drops and I am a bit scared. People are like weather, they change... sometimes, drastically, sometimes mildy. Sometimes, with hints, sometimes, out of a sudden.

What am I talking?! Haha.

I did BS today! Haha, so happy. Dots.

Like finally I know so much more about Holy Spirit. It's like, I don't know, everytime I don't know how to handle, He will guide me through like... my friend...
somehow, God is in heaven, so I feel quite distant from Him... Dear Lord Jesus is there too... but this great assurance of Holy Spirit is like nailed to me la...

so marvellous.. really

okok, I can't deny I am here a bit distracted...

VERY distracted. It's my first time, not taking the hand and act what I want in impulsiveness. I don't know, maybe the next day I will but...

good things are worth waiting.

I don't know.. as much as I want to take it, I want myself to step in right for I know, xixi is worth it.

K, enough enough, I am so distracted. EE. lols

very indeed.

dann

right.

my SFC seniors stepped down. I miss them. Yea, I may not know them well, but as what Mrs Loi had affirmed, the seniors beared the fruits and... I was in admiration, hoping I can be like them one day... =)

somehow...

the rain stops...

I am still distracted.

I should start work.

good things are worth waiting and sweets should be eaten slowly.

tho I was horribly tempted to take it just now. MY gosh.

God bless me.

Impulsiveness kills

but haha... that simply can I meant so much for me, or rather..

Labels: school, SFC

Thursday, July 24, 2008

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summary1

It's Sunday!!!

Haha, the better news is that I did my quiet time after 2 days of starving myself of spritual food.

Each time I do my QT, I feel that He is speaking to me. This sounds dumb but ya, it felt great knowing that He in heaven spoke to me!

And He brought me to Ecc 8. That chapter was fantastic. Most importantly, it reasoned out why
I should maintain my joy. In fact, I must thank someone who listened me out of during one of the nights. Thank you! really! almost die without you online! hahahaha

I am so not going to talk about anything during GB farewell dinner without the pictures. IT WAS TERRIBLY GREAT! DANN! Even Lai Yan's batch came!!!!!!! MY GOSH!!!! I was euphoric!!!!

They were sec4s when I was in sec1 la!!!

And I led worship. Really, I thank God for, you know, making WS comeing out with this idea, pull me along and gave me opportunity to do. Maybe not in SA because I am so shy but, aiya, it just felt wonderful!!

And JEANIE AND SHER WAS THERE TOO! Things were really crazy. Even photos taking.

Apart from the worship, the VESPER was HORRIBLY GREAT. LOL. (it's my habit in using negative with positive words, bare with me. haha) WHEN THE '04 SEC4S TO '08SEC1S STOOD
IN CONTINGENT, GAVE GOOD BANG AND SANG VESPER!!!! The bang, maybe I didn't contribute to because I was in black socks, (long story, some ppl violetly pull off my shoes b4 that) and some were in heels, slippers, shoes etc but haha, we did a SOLID BANG!

My gosh.... Come on man!

And today we, oh hold it, yesterday, yea, we maked the end and had a start : POP&ENROLLMENT service.

haha, wow, the CCA room was so so so small yet it fit us very well. Oh ya, Pastor Ben's whole family came! ZOE SO CUTE!!! ARH! I WANT TO BRING HOME LA, then Pastor Ben rejected because Zoe is his princess. sniffs I understand. SHE IS SO CUTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my gosh, but haha, she is very girly. And the youngest son is a mixture of Zak and Zoe. A boy who looks like Zac but more tamed like Zoe.

Kids. urggg

MY GOSH, elva new song, that lyrics fits me well. Haha. right. anyway, time to get more Elva songs

While reading out the Girls' Brigade Laws and Promise for Miss Leong to type, I felt a new sense of... no, it's like I renew my GB membership.

When the sec1s declared their promise, I asked WS if I could recite with them too. Well, she merely replied You are old.

lols.

YA. We recited the NCOs and it felt... everything came and fall into places.

I used one Law to counter attck WS when she was horrible. Haha, Be kind, cheerful and COURTEOUS.

And the Law on Promtly obey the orders of Officers
the ends of our lips curled up, smiling gleefully.

Guess that's more or less about it. so many things to say but...

I would take 6 mircrosoft words pages. so ya, haha!
just wish the girls had a great times like we do. =)

And may God be pleased for I am filled with joy and I hope God does too. Haha!
oh well, met SU's thai friends, they are very nice ppl man. Haha. OH YA, I forgot to talk about counsellor commendation.

I was awed. HORRIBLE awed. I, no, SFC could feel God's presence so heavily, no so closely to us in the St Andrews Cathderal.

And I was afraid that the vow they made to God, as in it was a vow, since God led them here, I am sure they will do according to what they have vowed.

I was quite upset despite expecting it, I guess He wants me to focus on GB more, with the upcoming GB drills comp next year. And unfortunately, about the trip to New Zealand next year which without subsidy cost more then $2 triple O, I may not make it for my lion will have it's teeth into my jangular. (forget the spelling) I want it, a lot. But first... GB comp! My gosh!

The more I build my relationship with Him, the more I feel like a stranger in my family. And this feels terrible, for which child on the Earth was born to feel this way towards their parents?

Labels: GB, He talks to me

Sunday, July 20, 2008

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stumble

let me sound pitiful

I just finished my dinner.

Oh it's a friday!

HMM.

k, shall not write in full sentences. learn from Rach. haha. tml, no, as in after farewell dinner in 17 hours time..

sighs.

No. I can't seem to write like Rach.

There goes, my long post

Invited God into my life 3 times today, no aiya, Thurs. Worship, listening, worship.

and each time He cooled me down.

Maybe, no indeed, I ought to invite Him into the things I do at every second, not when I need to or feel the sense of lost.

but I am stumbled and stumbled, falling so hard that every part of me hurts, be it physically or spiritually

I try to give it all in things to serve God, but the motherly lion in my house roared and shook the whole brain of mine.

bad description

it's terrible, what's the use of beautiful words anyway

All I want is to serve God, why does things seem to go haywire?

What is wrong? Is it me?

sighs.

just tired bah

Newton's 3rd law, forces comes in pair.

too happy on the bus,

and the sadness come along.

and then I will jump on my bed until I am happy.
Haha. crap.

met up with the GB SSGTs was crazy enough for me to laugh le. Haha.

joyous moment is when I am with my loved ones.

maybe, God is nudging me because... I have been walking away from Him. yet wating Him to be faithful to me. Haha.

hate GP

lols. I miss Mr Cheng.

=(

Friday, July 18, 2008

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need His grace.

saw LYNN today.

overwhelmed by how much I miss her. really miss her so much.

and Jeanie hit my boots thrice, oh well, she's my current anyway.

and kept hugging faza

glad to see Darryl. well he maybe horrible but, at times, he could actually made me laugh. so kinda glad, quite happy.

saw CCH, nothing to say.

gave pretty long talk to the students. don't know why I have so much to introduce about SAJC

upcoming things are scaring me though. for the few hours I kept praying hard for God's grace to bring me through. I need it. Be it the rehearsals, be it preparing video, be it the upcoming farewell, be it emotional attacks and well, sad about somebody you cared simply don't really loves you as much as you hope to. nvm, I have not meeting up with her anyway.

need God so much

S20 don't have welfare rep, they do things as a class. as I heard

I am not under stress, I hope. Stress is not the word for God's children for His grace is more than anything.

hate in-grown nails. they made you bleed at every step. so, if SFC ppl come across my blog, oh well, here I am having purple nails again.

i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me - Phillipians 4:13

from ACSSSS, now a AB?CDU.

good or bad?

anyway, it's Girls' Brigade day! How I misss wearing full-uniform and wake up at 4 plus to reach school at 0605-0615. Haha. and stand proud with 4 stripes and full badges (except PBB).

tug war with devil. fighting for my brains.

Labels: school, us

Monday, July 14, 2008

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lols lols lols

LOL.

I read (redd) your blog. HAHA

Alrights.

great. so ya know the truth.

urragGgdhg

haha. have a nice week ahead while waiting for your holidays.

=D

Labels: us

Sunday, July 13, 2008

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should be awed.

give it all

I finally found the similarity between us. We all have the tendency to give it all without thought, or maybe we did. Give it all. And we spend those time like how we wanted, we forget about the things that may happen. When they did, we lost it.
any relationships. friends. etc etc. ya know

As usual, my post will be all about me. I am making as S out of U and ME. lols. if you don't get it.
ASSume

Oh well. sorry Lord.

That's why I never want to give it all. God knows how painful you feel, God knows what you are going through and I don't. All I know is, as a person who lack the sense of security, who protects herself at all times, make sure she doesn't get hurt.

And I am afraid I will naive-ly? give it all. The last thing I want is to end up with the similar stituations.

In fact, the really last thing I want, is for you to join them. You are like them to me alright, freaking important. And as a very selfish person, I only can see that when you pain, I pain too.

AND I loathe that.

but I guess, no matter what says, I can't change the plans God have for you. You are the last person whom carries so much and have great influence to me after them, so, the freaking vital advise for me to give you is, commit your decision to God. Do not act for yourself, but act by His way. For you and I are clear, He will never hurt us.

so easy to gain my trust, so hard at the same time too.

That's why now I am taking it slowly. This noon I just done something which, never appears in my mind even seconds before I was there. I just did, even less. I am freaking trying to control myself, pardon me. I wanted to have dinner with you la! Haha. forget it. I don't want my history to happen again.
arh, the much I wish to give, I am scared that you won't want it.
I AM SO PROUD OF MY DAJIE!!!! hahahah!!! =D
WOOOO! DAJIE ROCKS! HAHAHA!

shhhh lols.

I scolded the girls today for the first time in my life. Oh my gosh. They never realise, Hui Ling this senior is actually a serious person too! I asked Vaness is it that I always joke with you all so much that you all find me funny and think that I am more of funny kind? And, you probably know the answer. Then I scolded the girls. I don't know. Someone commented that I don't fit to scold because, it was weird. haha.! Yea, true. And when I punish them, I feel that I am cruel. but,

I think, we want them well. isn't it?

Haha. First and maybe the last. For all I know, today they really were too much.
for the changing of full-u.

Oh ya, and I can't really scold, I will let anger take over me, I will torture people. That's why I always try to be gentle with you... yea. I think, one WS is enough la huh. Haha.
well, back to my honey-sweet, LOL, crappy, greedy senior la huh. Haha.

DRUG ADDICT!!!!
Haha, my class went to central nacrotics la and I instantly thought of you leh DRUG ADDICT! AIYA, see la, now you have high fever. Aiyo, I miss you leh drug addict. ahahahha.

I think I can handle the song le. Haha, pre-eminese of Christ. playing guitar seems cool. Haha. but I still prefer drums. urgg.

in every thing I do, every word that I say
let Your light shine though me in everyway
Lord of life I give to You, all that I have and ever hope to be
My master, be glorified in me.

That B notes, kills man! hahah.

for all I know, I am always too much.

I FORGOT! I SAW MY CURRENT!!!
oh well, she called me asking me to go help her in CIP, by buying lollipops sold by her.
food. sheesh

HAHA. loves her.

Labels: GB, us

Saturday, July 12, 2008

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boowoo

BANG.
I feel like saying and I am saying, I studied for half day and POOF, that's an A for my chinese. That pains many, I believe, but why do you feel so when chinese is like... chili for Macburger. It's hot, and the chili barely make it hotter. What's the diff?

Yea, getting A for chinese is like WOOHOO, but it tickles on my emotional nerve that make me think of my other subjects. I am glad to push my grades for like, 2 subjects?

but the worse always seeps in deeper than you want it to be

I had 3 worships today. Each worship makes me so joyful, so peaceful, lips full of praise. When it comes to the point about my results... I lost it.

God gave me a precious lesson right in the morning though... when I couldn't wake up at 4am, (I prayed for tt) and I complained right after I see the clock.5am.

Then I took the train to BP to rush, but the train had technical problems. I couldn't get out because the doors were already closed. (when the front cabin? no what's the word? those doors were open) and I saw the train to Jelapang came.

The technicians came to the rescue. 2 mans in the train shouted at them and complained there were SO LATE.

Right in the morning, something happen, you go help yet get scolded...

felt bad.

I shall learn step by step from the Lord.

I am one who treasures realtionship/bondings a lot. Since I take up the welfare rep job, I can't stop brooding over some stuffs in class. Then what happens? studies cast aside. believe it or not, 60% of my time I spend thinking of my class. I am not those who put studies first you know... so...

see, it always seems that my classmates out their studies as prioty so well... it always seems that they are doing the right thing.

you know sometimes I even feel that they are horrible. Haha, I send emails, I send smses but not much took their own resposibility to go check their mails. That irritatED me.

Haha, I have no idea where I am going to. guess all I wanna say, I can only focus on one thing at a time. if I am going go out for studies, I will ignore other things(maybe meanwhile Lord can help me to learn how juggle more stuffs in JC).

All I know is, no life? let it be. I am a very competitive person, hate to lose. I shall mai tou ku du le.

ARH! I don't freaking understand! All I know is I can't seem to be the salt and the light of the world by this behavior! Why do I always find faults in myself?
maybe cause my classmates seem to perfect le.

SIGHS.

Father Lord, I think I have been trying very hard to be witness of you. And the more I try, the more I feel that the ways I am doing is wrong. God, if it's so, help me to change.
plan, work and God will take care of the rest. Sometimes, we just prefer to take care of the rest, by our own, so much.
ARH.

really dislike it, when someone post you a question about your close friend and you have no answer to it, yet another person has the answer. don't you feel like... you are one thing far away from that person?

guess that's where I am TOO MUCH.

hey but that don't apply to God! YES! GOODIE! God won't feel trapped, He will feel more than joyful. HAHA. great!

I can sing of your love forever, I can sing of your love forever...
I will live to love you, I will live to bring you praise, I will live a child in awe of you

SFC IS GREAT GREAT GREAT TODAY! WOOTS!

my senior shocked me la! haha, she pro ar, shook me awake! Haha, SFC IS FULL OF JOY!

MORE THAN HAPPY

summarise: ushering for racial harmony forum
[Li Ming tood in front of a big fan, cus he was too well, warm. ya ha]
[a man told me the words are too small!!]
[SASS boy came to me and RACIAL HARMONY! YEA!!!!]
SFC
[very sleepy, senior shook me as though I am paper filled with flour]
[cannot stop coughing when find out that SFC will be joining choir to sing for cousellors. you get the songs don't you?]
[didn't realise umbrellas were for those in carpark. arh, u might not get this]
[did a short chinese dance while entering toilet. a bit crazy there]
[I kept asking, where is Isiah? When, I am already at that book]
[wanted shane to entertain me, using his shoes, hang on the visualiser screen then hit the button UP][right after dress-to-kill, rachel(sfc) and I slept. Mr yit was like, waa, 2 sleeping angels ar dots]

everything justs so great. even Benedict cannot stop praising the first worship we had. it was really G-R-E-A-T.

> =( so much for telling myself I will put my laptop away.

WEI SHAN I MIGHT GO FOR P&D ceremony! SHIT. need to prepare full U?! Don't want! ARH! can just wear GB-tee with DI badge? HAhahahaa. right.

Labels: school, SFC

Wednesday, July 09, 2008

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mad quiz

1. What's the connection between you and the last person that called you?
a. teddy bear! classmate. cool huh.

2. Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
a. yea

3. What happened at 10.00am today?
a. sleeping, dreamin of this big vaccum cleaner

4. When did you last cry?
a. SFC youth ministry

5. What is your favourite thing to eat with peanut butter?
a. bread

6. What do you want in your life right now?
a. right now? eye-mo for my eyes!

7. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just put up your hood?
a. none

8. What's your favourite thing to have on your bed?
a. blacket! hahas.

9. What bottom are you wearing now?
a. skirt-short?

10. What does the nicest text in your inbox say?
a. wait ar... O.. Really? Miss you too... Hahas, that was from someone whom you never expect that from her mouth. when in sec3 I randomly smsed her I miss her and she replied tt. Come on, she can't believe she did that. lols

11. Do you tend to make a relationship complicated?
a. YES

12. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
a. no

13. What was the last movie you caught?
a. WANTED

14. What are you proud of?
a. being Hui Ling

15. What does the oldest text message in your inbox say?
a. great, I am loving this quiz.. shucks, they are 06 msgs la, but put in new phone become 07. but I suppose the oldest was from SM which says haha.. i also dunno how to do.. lets die togather ba.. how romatic.. lol.. or shucks, from RY about our camp. dann which camp!?

16. What was the last song you sang out loud?
a. Hahaha... I think is song that I created myself.. wait let me think. the stand

17. Do you have any nicknames? What are they?
a. thuiling, ghost, ar tay, ar hui hui. ar ling ling. snowqueen, lou han yu, ling ar ling, goonduu gorsong, Xin tong xue!

18. What does your last received text message say? Who was it from?
a. lols, from evelyn about BS.

19. What time did you go to bed last night?
a. 2 plus am

20. Are you currently happy?
a. not bad

21. Who gives you best advices?
a. used to be Mr Cheng

22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
a. lols. no

23. Who did you talk on the phone last night?
a. no one I guess

24. Is anything bugging you right now?
a. yea.

25. What/Who was the last thing/person that made you laugh?
a. oh dear... I think... is rach who won't let me go. or teddy who wanted me to pay. sheesh!

26. Do you wear toe socks?
a. NO! for what? waste time

27. Who was the last person you missed a call from?
a. teddy. Haha.

28. Have you ever had your heart broken?
a. duh

29. What annoys you most in a person?
a. can't stop bugging me

30. Do you have a crush on anyone?
a. sighs stop asking this

31. Have you ever done cocaine?
a. arh/?

32. What is the colour of your room?
a. violet

33. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollars?
a. lols. no

34. Do you believe in the saying "talk is cheap"?
a. ?

35. Who was the last person to lay in your bed?
a. me?

36. Who was the last person to hug you?
a. may ee

37. Did anyone see the last person you kissed?
a. ? like oh dann, just now everyone on the train might have seen. but I didn't really kiss Rach la. haha

38. Do you have a life?
a. a life, as in... a baby or what? lol

39. Have you ever thought someone died when they really didn't?
a. arh? how about dreaming of them dead when they were sleeping beside me. scared me to hell. eh I think so! eh... rephrase!

40. What is the reason behind your profile song?
a. lols, the previous one? love it, and it's starry and meaningful

41. Who was the last person you saw in your dreams?
a. JACKY WU! LOL!!!

42. Last time you smiled?
a. now

43. Have you changed this year?
a. a bit

44. What are you listening to right now?
a. me typing

45. Are you talking to someone when you're doing this?a. nah

46. Do you walk with your eyes open or closed?
a. open! but... there are times when walking around in my room or walk to my door I close my eyes.. just in case I get blind someday. lols

47. Is there a quote you live by?
a. yea. my own quote, keep changing tho

48. Do you want someone you can't have?
a. ?

49. Have you ever played an instrument?
a. dann this qns

50. What was the worst idea you've had in this week?
a. that I don't want to study

51. What were you doing last night at 11pm?
a. oh no.. reading blogs

52. Are you happy with your love life right now?
a. what love life

53. What song describes your love life?
a. oh my gosh! sec1 was F.I.R that particular song. heh.

54. Do the person knows you like him/her?
a. all my thoughts and feelings are always explicit usually. depends

55. Who always makes you laugh?
a. WS and BELLE. OH NO JEANIE!!! HAHA

56. Do you speak another language other than English?
a. chinese, malay, thai.

57. Are you blond?
a. no

58. What's your middle name?
a. er? as in? HUI? dots

59. What are you doing tomorrow?
a. loads of stuffs

60. What do you think you are like?
a. retard. damn serious. childish. mature? hahahaha. slow

61. Who will you choose to die with?
a. LYNN. LOL. nah, no one.

62. Where have you been today?
a. VIVO!!

63. What game do you play often?
a. ORSINAL.COM

64. Who are you missing right now?
a. hmm, JJ, RX

65. If you were to choose between friends and love, who will you choose?
a. friends!

66. What are you doing right now?
a. anwser

67. Which primary school are you from?
a. tanglin and west view

68. Name 3 colours that you like.
a. PINK. white. yellow

69. What emotion do you like to show?
a. Cheerfulness

70. What is life to you?
a. a gift from God, somehow I see it as a torture now. lols

71. If you have something troubling you, what will you do?
a. write it out/ walk around my room, talk to the teddys and eeyore and penguin. then call someone

72. Who did you last chat with in MSN today?
a. not even online

73. Who do you admire most?
a. admire those who set apart

74. Which month are you born in?
a. April

75. How are you feeling right now?
a. motivation-less

76. What is the time now?
a. 2001

77. Where are you now?
a. my second ex room. haha as in... my second room.

78. What colour did you use to dye your hair?
a. this should be pass on to my friend

79. Why are you doing this test?
a. cus I love answering

80. What do you do when you're moody?
a. stare into space, walk around... and the list goes on

81. At which age do you wish to get married?
a. HAHA. secret

82. Who is more important to you? Girlfriends or friends?
a. eh, friends? but my girlfriend is also my friend!

83. Do you think you have enough confidence?
a. depends

84. Who is the person you trust the most?
a. lols, first coming up, LYNN

85. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain?
a. seen it once

86. If you can have a dream come true, what would it be?
a. said before, long long time ago

87. What is your goal for this year?
a. get rid of Ss

88. Do you believe in eternity love?
a. from the Lord

89. What feeling do you love most?
a. the feeling when... my friends share the same thoughts and feelings and me. that sense of... having people around you.. the sense of bliss love and understanding

90. Do you really think it's Global Warming now?
a. like duh? the heat is killing me oh! last sat I managed to bring papers to KSS to recycle! WOOTS!

91. What feeling you hate the most?
a. lost

92. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
a. no. I break many hearts.

93. Do you believe in God?
a. YEA

94. Who cares for you the most?
a. political ans is God. but my parents and my friends.. can't deny them too

95. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
a. knowing how to love

96. What'll you bring when you fight?
a. hmm. a knife? lols!!!!

97. What have you regretted doing in your whole life?
a. not going there on the 8th and ...

98. What would you feel when no one no longer cares for you?
a. I don't know. but will fight for a reason

99. What if your stead broke up with you?
a. the last time... I began to read and read and read sec2 books that I just bought and cried out 27 teardrops. and I was ranked 37 in sec2 cohort! ain't that great?

shall put away my laptop this week. how tempting can the net be?

Labels: quizs

Monday, July 07, 2008

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wanted at VIVO

she came back shouted.

and offer me chocolate.

hahas. what a pain... in the throat. =)

Sunday, July 06, 2008

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WOOSH!

str mkt +GB

lols, BoA's song NO.1 keeps ringing in my head...
you are still my number one

I am tired, because my passion is not being shared here. I am tired because it looks like I have to forsaken my desires.

I am, very attached to GB. Haha, eh I think through my blog you can learn a lot about me leh.

Dots. kk, it will be my diary.

I had a chat with someone just now. That person is someone whom influence me a lot. I don't deny that I feel very attached to her when we are friends.

Did God send her into my life? We shared about our walk with God, and once again she is different from the previous time when she told me she wanted a simple life and so she chose to walk that road. She hoped that I would not be affected and I reassured her that I would not, in fact I wait for her to be back again.

Whatever it is, she put the thoughts I had into words which make it clearer to me.
GB. Why do I want to go back so much? My answer was to equip the girls thoroughly with drills skills. However, she emphasized that it was because of Him. Isn't it?

YES. I want to serve God. Knowing that I can't serve Him though Church, I jumped at every opportunity to serve God. That is why I took SFC.

When I go for SFC meetings, it hit me that I wanted to bring God's word to my company. Nonetheless, that slipped out of my mind when I see the girls. No wonder, I always find that, teaching it right or not, I am not satisfied.

I even wanted to suggect to SFC that maybe we can bring God's words to GB/BB and come up with activities.

Then I realise, that is what I wanted for MY OWN company itself.

I used to hate HQ so much. I really did, I couldn't stand the sight of the Mdms, the companies
which behaved like HQ which handles things so weirdly. I even hated the smell of HQ. Come to think of it, they have their reasons in doing so.

Don't you find GB set aparts themselves well?
Not that in Kranji!

The motto of GB is, to seek, serve and follow Christ and the aim was to see girls to be followers of Christ and thorugh self-discipline, with a sense of responsibility...

I don't remember the other words.

Look, that's what GB all about.

GB meetings are supposed to include drills, games, badgework and devotion.
Have we forgotten our basic, foundations, roots?

I support the idea of changing our company to be more like HQ. If other companies, (ok, like this particular company with non-christians), can bring God's word and even believe and follow them so much, and are successful, why can't we?

Has the heart of following the world, chasing and persuing success, derailed us from seeing what's planned for us/ what we really want to do?

Believe in God or not, I think that is one thing to consider.

Why did I wrote those? crap. hahas.

I desire for money. I desire for clothes. I desire for beauty. I desire for his heart.
(like all girls do)
but they are not God's desires.

Am I willing to give up my desires up and picked up the cross and follow Christ?
No. but I try.

Oh I understand why I ask that question le! Haha. think about it la.
I think...

I am going crazy. Haha!

if it's the old me, I will go walau eh! What's with this person man? so religious. why must she make herself go through so much? always do things for God.
He is the answer. Not influenced by by fellow-silbing, not influenced by WS, but by God's word, who swept my feet off. Haha.

he too... for all I know, he, carries a very heavy weightage in my heart. dann it.. sheesh!

pray hard. I shall go to see their NDP's training. Who knows? Maybe I get the chance to give commands to whole UGs?! LOL! Waaa, if that happen I will be so damn happy I might jump jump JUMP off the second floor accidently. lols. eh so cool ar!!!!!! My gosh. Haha..

All that Xia Chen's fault, of he last year didn't sour me for getting to be the marker, the person who gives command to pandan kekan-nan the contigents while they march off.

lols. what am I crapping?

just now saw Kiki!!! I felt that she is more tame today. or actually, you seems emo. Why? Haha. Nvm, ya I don't like Kiki. I don't think so, but I feel attached to it leh... haha...
=D.
but just now kiki very cute. smiles*

I WANT A DOG! Haha.

And shall name it xiao.. nah. LOL!!!!

no NANAs!.
daJIE reminded me something. haha.

kk, AND THAT LYNN! SHE... raa! Hahaha, so what if he was near to you? I don't care le. Haha... but I miss him a lot. my sweet, sour, bitter daddy.

really a lot, when I think of him.

you linger in my mind

oh dear, just realise I started with such a random sentence. BoA's songs are nice!!! woots!

oh, street market. great. the start was horrible. talk about it tml.

coughing coughs cough. dann.

you are still my number one!

Labels: GB, He talks to me

Friday, July 04, 2008

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crazy and to tears

argh.

Let's start with crazy stuffs first shall we?

' helped to do the deco stuffs for the upcoming street market in SA which is only opened for SAJC students. It was so fun! Haha! Li Ming surprised his group with the poster. That's great!

haha!

That's not the point.

Rach drew the letters of the name chocolatti for the store and her letters were big la. (oh before
that, I am, dann dou shi da jie de cuo!) Nonetheles, I found them cute. daJIE was like was is it so fat...

blah thought you like thin stuff *another sentence which makes me want to kill him*

walau!!! lols! Haha, shall tell Ee about that tomorrow.

QIAN BIAN AR!

so I rebuked that daJIE is thin too.

After which, I tried to come up with examples to show that I like fat things. LOL.

And I talked about my scandal. I am sorry! My very super nice classmate! Sorry!

Both Rach and I tried went fat is good what blah blah

We kept laughing and I was like fat then can see ma... thin on the paper so weird!

While I was trying to draw a banana on the tag, I was not satisfied by something.. I exclaimed
EEE!!! Why so thin?

Rach and I began to laugh again. Haha.

lols. daJIE was supposed to draw the muscular, or rather, chest muscles with 6 pacs(whatever you spell it) on the cardboard. He did and claimed that it was so well done. DOTS.

Rhon decided to help him to draw another one. It was so painful watching her draw. You know why? cus I laughed and strained my stomach muscle. Dots. She couldn't draw as well as daJIE because she couldn't picture how it looked like. daJIE was like you never see before meh I thought you all will blah

girls don't have ma how to picture

blah blah

Shucks, I forgot the really laughter trigger. Dann.

OH YA! another one... Rhon drew some letters and daJIE asked why your 'S' blah?

AND I WAS SO SHOCKED!

It took me 5 seconds to realise something and I giggled.. lol! Then I told them. HAHA! My gosh!

I am so corrupted! must be HIPPO's and blah's fault! Haah!

What else? Oh ya, daJIE was about to leave to change for mentoring. I went to his area and wanted to keep the markers for him to bring back. I said something and Rach thought I was going to change with him. I was like bewilded and went what?! why would I change with daJIE?!
lols. turns out that I am corrupted.blush* Haha. She meant she thought I was going to change clothes too. dann! haha.

Doing the things turn out to be very fun! And it was my first time seeing guys colouring when daJIE, kel and jeff did. YAY!

lols.
so fun.

Oh my gosh THANK YOU YQ for BoA's disc!
YOU FUFILLED one of my desires la! haha, the lalala, love song. WOO!! Haaha!

right oh and KELVIN. ni gei wo ji zu. lols

oh ya, chem was ok. I mean, I didn't do exactly well, but the results was so much better than my term 1 marks and that is an encouragement.

OH YA! daJIE. as in you know he was so proud of his that drawing... Haha, a bird flew and stopped around one of his muscular-drawings. and Rach was like waa, your drawing attract the bird ar...

And Rhon was like maybe it's a female...

lol! That must have boosted daJIE. Haha...

it went off, after long, another bird came. LOL!!!

right. next come the emo stuffs.

I CRIED. lol.
I went to SFC ministry and well, it killed me I cried. LOL.
ok... not my first time crying in SFC, what a crybaby. tough times.
I begin to regret earlier than someone, you know who you are, but regret is not the word you will use. Yupp, anyway, maybe... not regret, but find myself stupid, stupid with satisfaction though.
Despite knowing I have strong PO, I still picked SFC and without hestitant carry on with follow-up. He really works in me huh but there are so many troubles and obstacles! Of course, the most demanding one is from no where else but home. I just can't pluck the courage.
God started my day with Ish verse that says forget about the fomer, don't dwell in the past
after which during morning assembly Luke?:? no one can worship 2 Gods...
Do we serve God or ourselves?
Then in ministry it was about we walking in His way and we can always take Him as our refuge.
There are many things I may have done if I am not so religious, right? ya.
I would have used a lot more vulgars, I would have let myself behave more crazy with someone, I would not have to wake up so early and make it a must to go for worship every morning despite the time can be used to finish my homework. I would have... done something which I did years ago.
to set apart, I don't find it easy at all. Not at all!
Everything brings me back to why did I pick this road?
silly me who loves to bring troubles. maybe like what the girls say, I am hands of destruction, on the serious mode, I am destructing my life.
Ha! And I thought of GB aim! wait, is it aim!? something about.. shucks. can give back my brigader badge le. Haha,
I still don't fathom something. Mr Yit shared about his history and he said he claimed before he would never be a christian, somehow, God reacts very strongly to that.
WHICH I AGREE! Haha. Though that happened in sec1...
haha, you know what? I said that and I encouraged RX to take the step. I went to cell groups with her and etc... why did I do that?!
I wonder, how did she tell her parents that time...
haha, can't ask. tsk. sighs. Haha...
everyday I wish to see someone smile, but I want to make that person sad. evil huh? lols.
it's not like I want to emo so much la. Everyone has their sad times and good times, just that I have more difficult times cannot meh?! lols and I am willing to expose them, cannot meh?! lols!
except for the most painful ones close to the heart at home
Ha.
DANN happy for another thing is that I having been calling choc as chocolatti since sec2, should be.. and it's now our store name! freaking happy la!
maybe lit will be known as litchichi soon. haha!
shall smack my bear another kiss later. haha. random! my mum hang it again!!! sheesh. my kelian the pink bear.
time to give a goodbye kiss to the heavy luggage. (lol that video)
oh ya, GP lesson was... WHOOSH! exciting! ha.

have goodnights ahead xixi. =)

Labels: He talks to me, school

Wednesday, July 02, 2008

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as you plan activities, the thing that you may worry is whether the people will enjoy your games or not.

anyway, lessons end at 1pm, if the juniors are definitely having training, I may be able to go down. should I be there?

no idea. just worried if they can handle. I should trust in them.

nonetheless... I need confirmation, if someone tells me yes, it's ok what. Then great, everything shall be done... who can I ask?

or do they think I should settle everything on my own and hack about their opinion? or... I should just grow up and if they simply don't enjoy it, I should probably learn my lesson.

struggles
and there goes. one more week. do we still go this year? I hope all of us can make it.

Tuesday, July 01, 2008

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chi oral

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Keeps no record of wrong
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