Happiness comes from within

YAI YAI!!

Stressed.

I wanted to post the word only but a leopard will never change its spots, so I shall write a long long one. =D

Not very long I guess.

I SAW THE GUY WHO SAVED MY DI RANK!! At the bus stop while waiting for bus, a car was slowing down to stop. The car caught my attention and 3 ppl on the car had their eyes on me, then I realised, it was HIM!!! He was at the back seat la!! His parents looked so young.
Ok, why am I excited? So lame! Haha. Nonetheless, I guess they were looking at my direction only, not AT me exactly. LOL.
As crazy as ever, I actually wanted to go to him and thank him again for who-knows-no.what time.
But I didn't do that. Heng ar.. Haha.

hmm..

OH!

I am finally out of yellow house! Haha, after being in yellow house for 10 years, I am in VENN, black house!! WOOTS.

I find SA currect J1, VENN, very qian bian. The house leader cheered when the screen flashes picutres on VENN, we cheered when we saw other houses. LOL.

We also played a game where we were supposed to throw 4 cushions and when the music stop, the leader will choose 1 colour. Whoever is the closest to that particular cushion will perform forfeit with his class. 06 and 07 didn't want to when it was them. Then the next round, black, was at 05. OMyGosh!!! Joshua admitted and he went up alone. We were laughing la. To our ultimate surprise, he didn't get forfeit, but instead, he won mamiis for us to eat!!!!

LOL.

Loads more stuff., lazy le.

Oh, the stressful part. Despite the fact that seeing the him who helped me was joyful, he brought me trembendous stress, DI stuff. I have not prepared lessons for the national project! argg. and chem was killing me, with all other subjects. AND MATHS. Although my CT said spending hours on 1 sum will be pretty common, I HATE that. I hate it when I can't solve maths! ARH!

tml go ubin. let me go crazy with my GBSSGTs. =DD
oh oh? lets stop at the beach for sand castle. lack of sand castle building during my childhood time. LOL. JK.

How I wish, I can pour all my unhappiness on ahemhem, but I can't. argg!

lol.

After going through SIDAH's pic, I realised... I AM NO LONGER A HISTORIAN!!! ALright, as in KSS historian. SOBS!. and we didn make Hist shirt. Shucks. now make can? alamak.

Haha, and sidah put pictures of her cats. I wonder how WS will react to those. haha. =x

Talking about WS, ni gei wo ji zhu. Haha.

It was hard for me to open my mouth, it was even tougher for him to think he has no ability anymore. It was depressing to him lying on the bed, looking into his finish line, my start of adulthood. SOBS.
so emo!!

Friday, February 29, 2008

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New class

Commitment is something I always run away from. Unless loyalty is also a type of commitment, I had never committed myself to anything, so far.

In 4D, there were 8 guys and I was among the girls, now, on contrary, in 08S05, I am 1 of the 6 girls in my class. 18 boys VS 6 girls. Wow. Oh I am welfare rep. LOL. I am usually the most emotional and quiet person and now I am in charge of welfare. Great, let’s just hope I won’t affect the class. Grins*

I think I will like my class a lot. =D And I have a very entertaining CT.

I miss Kit. Alright. Stop it Hui Ling, you are getting all whiny again. SIGHS.

OH! I actually have primary school friends in SA! GOSH! Shi Qi saw me and she greeted me enthusiastically. She was alien to me la! LOL. I was so taken aback and decided on that instant I never know her. But she insisted that we were from the same primary school, same class! Then I realise she is Shi Qi!!! LOL. I have not seen her for 3 years le la and she just couldn’t believe I cannot recognise her. Oh come on! She changed so much! Haha! I am so glad she is in SA, so so thankful. She further surprised me by informing me Shawn and Jing Da is in SA too. Shawn Yeo, the guy who was speechless when I told him Beckham would move to the other team (which Shawn strongly disapproved of) and he did. =x

Chatting with her made me realise I made so much connections in the past and lost them one by one, one of which was my very close buddy, whom I promised myself to stay by her side as long as I can. I failed to, at the time when she needed me so much.

I went for the SFC talk. While I am getting nearer, fear is trying to overcome me at the same pace. Commitment. Have I ever stay committed to anything in my life?

Oh ya, dearest Man, I am not taking H2 econs le, somebody changed my mind, as usual, the one whom you use to dislike so. LOL. See you this Sunday!

Oh oh! Juniors, you girls are having common tests right? Good luck!! Sec4s, do study hard and get As for all thos mini-tests/exams etc! Don't forget about the cheers and flags!

TRIPLE OH!
LOL. Chee How and Yan Ting forwarded an email to me about this skinning of animals, with a video. In the mail, they suggest people to watch for first 3 seconds, and I watched longer than that! Big achievement, of course, with some tears pickling me eyes. It sucks. How can you ask a girl to watch the inhuman beasts who skin the animals who were still struggling to stay alive? The worst thing is watching this dog whose fur was removed, still alive, dying, yan yan yi si, on its fellow mates. It was bloody all over. Gosh! It was so heartbreaking! Yet, the rich never realise that when they buy fur materials, do they?

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

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AJ called

I received a call from AJ at the middle of a happy chat. By the look of the no, I instantly knew it was from AJ.

:were you here in first intake?
:no
:ok. sorry. There is nothing else.
(hangs up the phone)

I was devastated. Gosh. I whined a lot.

Forget it. I called LYNN and she totally understood what I felt. The pang of shockness and disappointment hit me so hard I thought I would cry on the spot. Childish as it seems but it's had been my wish to be in AJ.

Adding to that, when I am getting more comfortable with my OG friends, it's time to seperate. All of us are in different class.

What's with Him today? Bringing me all negative things without the Newton's 3rd theory where forces come in pairs, opp of each other, where are the positive things today?

I will miss Kit so much... Oh dear. And that Max, though I just talk to him today, making him read proper chinese, Lee Yang, the very qian bian guy, lol, and Charis! She is a nice girl, really! Oh, and Jonathan, who is always so quiet. And the other Hui Ling, Emma..

Yesterday midnight I suddenly miss MI friends, esp Joelle, Amanda, everyone including the weird nicholas! LOL. oh! And esp the guy who doesn't fail to sing National Anthem out loud. There are more! The crashing part where I joined WS's lit and Miss Hong's class, WS crashed my class, the V day, K box, lessons where FOOLs cannot stop fooling around, Mr Chan, the phy teacher, Miss Ching and Mr ohdearIforgothiscurname (econs) and Miss Boh who is in Australia now, Mr Goh, his marvellous guidance. Most imptly, the time where I had regular breakfasts with Jeanie. LOL.

Thinking of MI only only leads my thought and longing to Kranji, Jeanie and Wei Shan, LYNN who had been putting peer pressure on me to go PJ, LOL. Then Sidah and guys! OH Gosh!

Spare me people! Why must you all appear?? Tsk, relationship only makes you swirl into mixture of emotions and get you going goo goo gala over the people. argg..

SOBS.

Nonetheless, sat is coming and the thought of going Ubin perks me up. Haha! Ubin! I am coming!!! Oh man, I can't have drills sections with juniors. sighs.

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

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Haha. I had a nap during the same time Jeanie had her nap, the diff is I woke up earlier. lol.

I compared the notes in SA and MI. SA notes seems so chim!

I found myself a bit aggressive yesterday. No, this morning to be exact, 2plus am. My room is very messy. I have so much things, big/small, papers, teddies, piggies, bags, ties, so much of them! They are all around my room. I am serious, hanging from the windows, on my bed, on the floor... arh! I began to re-pack them, stuffing bulky stuff into the small pail or rubbish, and stomped out of my room with big pile of newspapers and put them in the living room. =P I threw the useless things on my bed, thank God the things didn't crash and woke my parents. I had a big bundle of waste papers which I planned to recycle by putting into the recycle bins in KSS. Now that I am no longer a student there, the bundle had been lying in my room for ages. Adding on, my secondary worksheets are neatly pile up in an corner so I had many white sheets. I was irritated and I kicked that big bundle. Unfortunately, my mum saw. Then she said, "Don't think I never see you kicking that bundle." arggg.
Ha, but I was embarrassed. lol.

Oh well, I will be staying in school until 5 plus latest next week, which means I will be home latest at 7. wow wow, so sweet.

Sunday, February 24, 2008

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Goodie!

GB
Do you think I am silly? I was very delighted that my juniors said the timing! I really want to see them learn and pass all stages and be the next DIs in the west zone imparting skills to juniors. Wouldn’t that be nice? Haha.
Next time I should touch on marching and maju. Hmm, if they do better and time permits, I will like to try pandankekenan, or should I teach about turn on march? 1 hour is seriously not enough. Can I have a 2 hours drill section? That will be so exciting! And I promise to give sufficent breaks! lol.

I think I had inherited Jeanie’s traits. As I was helping the sec1s to try out uniforms and boots, I asked their names several times! In the past I used to be the first to remember all faces and names but this time I failed! Arh!
Oh! SM asked if I had grown taller! Haha! She said I was unusually taller today. I was elated UNTIL Diana reasoned that I was wearing tracks shoes. Alright. Instantly fall from the clouds. LOL.
What's with long hairs? All the sec1s in this GB had long hair! Aiyo! WS quickly ran away leaving SM and I helping them with their hair. Keep touching ponytails all the way. Haha.

I enjoyed myself very much today despite receiving loads if naggings.

Oh, I am very stunned by the cheers. Haha. You girls actually did the cheer enthusiastically! Wow! LOL. What am I saying?

Thanks Juniors! You made my day!
Please please practice more.

After GB
ooo. I had lunner with Bell and SM. There was a guy on Long John playing his songs loud. The 3 of us were listening and discussin what songs were up. Bell leaned to her left to hear clearly and she never realised that it was played by a phone instead of the fast food place itself! So sotong. And she exclaimed that no wonder the guys kept looking at her. lol.

We went to catch CJ7! OH GOSH! I cried! LOL. I cried when the prottagonist died and when the girl-avt-boy cried. lol. This tap is getting rusty, I couldn't control at all. Hold on, the thing is, 7zai is so cute!!! It resembles a dog, just that it was green and it's so cuddly. I want one!!! LOL. so cute! I kept repeating that in the cinema for who-knows how many times.

Should I stay? If my appeal is successful, should I move? I enjoyed the fun in SA but not the lectures. I don't see how far I can go in those lectures by... If not, should I go PJ? For my A levels, where should I go?

Saturday, February 23, 2008

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History dinner!

I had forgotten to blog the pictures of Mrs Ram's treat.

The buffet, there's more

Was this delibrate from the chef?

Atiqah's plate, drink and bowl, 2 bowls actually

Look at her and her doings. Ignore MAX

Mrs Ram! The rich woman. LOL.

OH! LYNN! I saw an ang moh guy in school uniform and I almost followed him out of the bus! LOL. Sadly, he isn't from my school. LOL.

Friday, February 22, 2008

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Oh man...
I am so disappointed by myself for being too lazy to move my fat butt out of my house.
LOL.

I WANT TO CELEBRATE DEEDEE's BIRTHDAY!
SOBS!

SM, WS, BELL, Sarah and Sidah and LYNN(not sure) are going to that HIPPO's house and cook spag for her! I want to join!!! (Not because there is food ar, haha, tho SM scared I might eat while cooking. LOL) I want to so much! Man! I want to go!

Too idle.

Aiyo.

2days ago (shit, DEE come online le, I want to ZAO, lol, I want to cry! GOSH!), I was awaken by vibrations of my phone which was in silent mode. The most impt msg said, "Congrats TAY HUI LING, you have been posted to ST ANDREW'S JUNIOR COLLEGE (30S)." The first thing I said was, "Shit." I was surprised and didn't know how to respond to there. Should I raise my hand into the air and HOORAY or should I faint on the spot? LOL. Then I told myself it was okay but it wasn't! You see, when people asked me where are you going, the word "AJ" comes out naturally. All of a sudden, I was posted to SA! Alright, maybe not very sudden, it's my second choice. Haha. (eh, why she offline? appear offline ar? HIPPO!!!!)

Got Xiong Jie to bring me to AJ to appeal. Damn, do you know how many appreals form were collected? And after Xiong Jie's recount, it hit me that AJ cut off is 7 for Science and I had an 8 after bonus.
I accompained Xiong Jie to SA for his appeal. He was no.239. LOL. Should I count myself fortunate? No idea.

On the first day of school, I took the first 985 bus at 6.10. It was a long, long, never-ending trip. It took me 1hr 15 mins to school.
Oh then Michelle guided me and I took 966 home. The bus trip to Pending plus LRT is 40mins, BUT, the waiting time for 966 sum up to an hour. SOBS.

The orientation in SA was, okay. It was enjoyable if you are enthusisatic and already had friends there. Comparing the dance in MI and SA, I prefer the one in MI to the first dance in SA. The second dance is super fun. Sadly, the put off thing was we are not taught properly like which direction should we go and the pace were fast! Haha, alright.

I like the games part and the concert. The concert changed the atmosphere and our moods. Perhaps, not all because you can see half of J1s were running around, screaming, hitting the balls, while another half, never stir. Haha. They either stood there and srtike a Stamford Raffles pose or just look. I was jumping to the beat like mad. Haha.
And that is the only time I was high in the 11hours in school.

I could not enjoy much because my heart was in AJ. Nevertheless, I shall admit that I like SA for it's enviroment. The culture is definitely not my type, I guess, but I do hope I have a chance to stay on and try out. SA is not very good, but good enough. And, I want to join, SAINTS FOR CHRIST! OO! AND I AM so on for the cheers!

Haha. I want to take GSC!!! SOBS! but I am not eligible because I did not take higher chi in Os, I can only take next year. SIGHS. I LOVE GSC!

dinner time. SOBS. I WANT SPAG at DIDI's house! SOBS. Double cries.

Thursday, February 21, 2008

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C week

A little crazy and cranky here and there this week, and I wonder what will happen in the following days or even years to come.

Yesterday I had joy buying things for her despite what she had caused me a few weeks ago. LOL. Can I say who she is? Haha! Anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Haha. I went crazy over the amount spent, giving remarks that made WS guilty. Guilty and guilty. Haha! That was so fun. Haha!

We went to the library after “shopping”. I had 4 new books at my house so I chose to borrow Chinese books. I did not want to borrow the Fiction Love series and WS kept pushing me to read. But I strongly resisted. After I chose 2 Chinese books, we went back to Jeanie and saw this book about China last empress. It was huge, bulky but WS love it. She insisted that I read it and tried all means to persuade me. No, not persuade. Guess what she did? She snatched all the books that I picked and we pull and struggled in the library and she got them and left. I was all loser, empty handed, no, carrying the book that she wanted me to read. Gosh. My world falls apart. Haha! Evil right?

Oh! We went to More than words to check the prices. The kia-su gia took my calculator and sum up the prices when she had one in her bag. I was so worried! She violently shook my calculator, aggressively hit the buttons. Waa... I wanted to cry le. Haha! I wanted to bully her so when she asked me questions, I ignored her. I knew she was going to hit me and I ran. Who knows she really chased after me! And we ran in rounds! I WAS SO EMBARASSSED. Haha! So was she. LOL.

Today I am cranky.

It is her birthday and there was a cake. No surprise. What did I want to say?

Ok. Today GB’s meeting is the first one for the sec1 girls. The seniors played this game Do you love your neighbour game with them but before that, we need to introduce ourselves. Sighs. I said I love to eat. And, oh well, they laughed. Haha. Yupp then in the game, our aim, our excluding WS, was to put WS as it as several times as we could. Hence, when it asked us do we love our neighbours, and if WS is our neighbour, we would answer YES. If not, we would answer to make sure WS ran and she lost 6 times! CHEERS!

Next, they had captain’s ball! The juniors played against each other in the first round, and then WS announced that the seniors, as in Super seniors wanted play against all juniors! 5(‘cos Laopo didn’t come) VS 10plus? Siao ar! Haha. Thankfully Cindy said we VS winning team. She bet that WS would lose but we didn’t! Haha! Although we played for 3 minutes, we were out of breadths because we screamed and shouted like mad woman in market... Haha! The Super seniors won and Cindy was not convinced so she made us played another round. Si Qi was still our goal and the ball kept slipped away from her hands and we were blaming her, jokingly. Haha.

Gosh. We took pictures today and I felt like I was... Haha. The hands, the chips, the picture with SM carrying the mop. LOL. Wait till you see, you will understand.

Drills. Haha. I couldn’t say more. Maybe I was qian bian indeed but... You made your seniors angry but yet you still answered yes to that questioned. I see absolutely no reason NOT to NOT give you break.

As she arrived, we sang the birthday song. The 5 of us gave her salute and AS USUAL, she deliberately made us hold in position for long. Tsk. Haha. When we put down our hands, I had no idea why I was so eager shouting “cut the cake!” repetitively. LOL.

Strong Anxiety. Stressed. Overwhelmed by frustations. Couldn't handle the things that comes along with the time. Self control. Time to pray for self control, time to pray for guidance before that erupts. Time to ask myself, do I want to commit. I can't see how I should commit like how I did to her. I don't know why it is so tough. so tough. Guess the long I have never believe that you are there.

Saturday, February 16, 2008

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ILL!

Last Tuesday

PON SCHOOL!

HAHA! Fat chance! I am ill. I am a walking torch, could have burn my bedsheets and the supposedly wet towel. lol. I had swollen eyes yesterday and mum insisted that I visit a doctor. DKK. Like I will do that. I ate 2 tabs of panadoes and that didn't help. Then I ate the medicine for my fever and flu last nov, helped me to cure my flu only. Then at 4am I took another Thai Medicine. Gosh. What a mix! I was so worried I might get medicines clash and harmed myself. Haha.

I was saying we were slow pok right... Okay.

MQ took picture of Darryl's hair. There was this patch where it looked as though Darryl tuo fa so MQ kept accusing him of that. Haha!

Hong Da came and fetch us. He was wearing red shirt and jeans, Darryl was wearing black pants and green striped collar shirt.(plus a bit of black) Both of them walked together kinda reminds us of Racial Harmony. Haha! Green is Hari Raya ma..

Despite the fact that Hong Da and I had been to DEE's house more than once, we were still lost when we had to walk up the hill. We walked the wrong way once and walked back. It was such a torment for the girls. MQ was wearing flats but it hurt her a lot, Sok was wearing the heels she wore for prom which she already familiarise with while me, I was wearing 2.5inch heels which never fail to cause me blisters. Waa, MQ and I wanted to cry le. Haha. It was too painful for her that she could not speak! haha! As we were about to reach her house, the boys were so far ahead of us.

We had chips at DEE's house while watching funniest videos AGAIN. LOL. We played black jack as usual. When it was my turn to be the banker, I lost $13! Gosh! That Darryl put his earnings in his big pocket and when he just stir, you can hear the tinklings sound in his pocket. so irritating. tsk.

Haha.

Believe it. We watched SpongeBob!!! Haha! DEE's mum cooked lunch for us and the dining table was at the position when only 3 people can watch the tv. LYNN already knew the series la. Walau. Haha. Darryl was at the end of the table so he was one of the people who cannot watch. I suggested to move the table AND, Hong Da and Darryl really moved the table so that everyone can watch! Haha! So, all of us had good lunch while watching spongebob. Hahaha.

Next station is Darryl's house! Haha. We went to meet Tata first! JULITTA! Haha. There was a family photo hung at a wall. It was a picture of Darryl's extended family. GOSH. There were more than 100 people in the picture la! Next time when you guys want to gossip of him, look out for his relatives. Haha.

We played black jack and IN BETWEEN! Haha! Finally! It was LYNN's nightmare. Haha. It's a game where every player chip in a fixed amount in the pool first. A dealer will open 2 cards, maybe Queen&3. Let say you want to bet the next card is in between is 2 numbers, you bet 20cents. If you are right, you can take the money from the pool, but if you get the 3 or queen or cards that are out, you have to pay double the amount you bet.

It was not Ju's day. For instance, 3 and jack, she bet 20cents, and the next card for her will be queen or 2. SO SUI! She had to search her wallet for 20cents several times la!

I can't believe it. 3 and jack. In the pool, there was $7.80, everyone asked me to bet all. I didn't dare! If I lose I have to give $15.60leh! After much hestitation, XD helped me collect the money, at the same time Darryl opened the next card and they were mine! haha!

On the other hand, Hong Da did not had my luck. He bet whole, $2.10 and he lost, paying $4.20. Haha!

Third house that we went was LYNN's house! It was SOK's first time there. She related that once she went to visit her aunt, no, bai nian, she saw this house with their house open and wanted to fake as relatives and go in. Maybe it could be LYNN's, but it was not. Lucky she did not do that. lol

LYNN's dad was hilarious man! Haha. He rushed to wear his chii-na clothes. A yellow top with chii-na patterns and a white bottoms.
We gambled before the steamboat. I won more! Haha! Uncle passed his money to SOK and XD to helped him gamble. WALAU. They had byluvk several times! LOL. Uncle reasoned that it was the way they sat, facing the very good fengshui direction. But LYNN was beside them yet she kept losing! Haha!

LYNN rocks! Haha. She knows I love her mama's cooking so when her mum asked her try, she took 1 piece, come to my back, pull my head and pushed the piece of meat into my mouth, dirtying my mouth too. haha! But it was so nice!!! Haha. THANKS LYNN!!

The steamboat was nice! Haha. LYNN's grandma made very delicious nohiang. LYNN wanted me to try everything. The sotong was unbearable. Haha. I couldn't stand eating too much of it, it felt horrible. lol. The soup was very tempting but we could not drink just in case we finished the soup. Haha.

We kept gambling la! haha. The number of players grew larger and larger until I had to crawl and stretch to take my card. I decided not to play and went to LYNN's room with Sok to read her comics. Suddenly Auntie said she would be the dealer. Waa, I quickly rushed out to have a game with her. Haha! She told LYNN, "Jia Lin, look at your friend huh. Tell her I be the dealer she immediately come out to play liao"! haha! Oh dear. Haha. I squeezed in between her and Darryl who also wished to rub some luck from her. Auntie was very lucky lor. Earlier on when LYNN's bro played and she stood behind him, he won money leh. When she was the dealer and opened people's cards with her own 16 points, everyone burst and she won so much! 16 leh!! So lucky la! I sat beside her and I got 19. =D The second time she byluck! Everyone admited defeat le. Haha. I quickly zhao to LYNN's room, scared le. Haha!

You cannot count on Sok to give direction in a cab. Haha! XD, MQ, Sok and I took a cab while the guys took another. They took later than us so we wanted to boo them. In the cab, Sok wanted to direct the driver using mandrin but the uncle was a malay! Haha. Then she wanted the uncle to turn left, she could not remember where is left and right. so blurr! Aiyo! IN the end the guys reached faster than us! Nonetheless, they were kind enough to open the door for us. Thumbs up!!

Knowing that Nette's house hid a huge bear, when I entered her house, I asked for the bear and ran into her room, forgeting I was wearing dress and my image, just to hug the bear! ARH! It was so big, fat and cuddy!!! arh! I brought it out and I turned into a 3yr old kid all over again. Haha. I went to the extent to carry it while I eat and gamble! Haha!

Sim Lim soct de. Haha. She loves to watch indian/malay shows on TV. Haha. She is like another version of crazy nette, not very much alike but they are the same creatures of crazy island. Haaha.

We playe a few games and it was obvious ZeHang was the winner. He had 4pink notes at his side la! We requested him to be the dealre and he rejected, saying he was very poor. Yang Zhi, who was beside him, lost so much and he sarcastically said he was rich. LOL.

Waa.. I really love their house man. Haha. At LYNN's house I climbed onto her chair, her table etc. LOL. At Nette's house I will feel like running everywhere and jumped onto her bed. High bed. Haha. At DIDI's house, haha, I feel like sleeping on her bed again. LOL.

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

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CNY

WOOO!!!

HAAHA!!!

These days I had enjoyed myself all the way!!!

Starting from....

8 Feb
WS, CCH, BELL, LYNN and I were supposed to meet at CCK at 1.30pm. WS was late. Haha. The 4 of us went to meet LYNN around C.O.A.X. We were dead bored waiting so WS called LYNN. After she hanged up, CCH called LYNN. Next, me! Haha. She guessed it that we were playing a fool with her. Haha. Hence, I told BELL to bluff LYNN through SMS that she was late too,so call in the same boat as LYNN. LYNN was fooled! Haha! She complained to BELL calling us monkeys and BELL admited she was the 4th monkey! HAHA!

LYNN was pretty quiet at Miss Lee's house while we sat at the sofa. She stunned us by laughing out loud at the funniest videos-party version. LOL.

Oh!!! The biscuits, no, cookies that Miss Lee gave me a jar the first time I went her house was wiped out by my mama. HAHA, I only had 2. lols. LYNN actually loves that too! Haha! That cookie was simply so nice! Haha! It's homemade by the way, the food in Miss Lee's house were all handmade. cool huh?

We had a chat with Miss Lee in her room while listening to some Eng songs that was in Andrea's times. Haha! Books. Miss Lee never has enough of them. Haha. I borrowed 2 and LYNN, 4! LOL. Aunt Daisy was interesting. Haha. She could not remember CCH's name nor his nicknames so CCH called himself MAX! GOSH! MAX! I wanted to faint on the spot. Max Chan Chee How, HAHA!

LYNN, CCH and I played black jack with the adults, pretty scary. LYNN was the banker for the start, how stressful is that??? If you lost, that will be a huge lost against the adults! Haha! Whenever Aunt Daisy called Max, it would take me moments to realise she meant CCH. lol. I mean MAX.
While playing, we were passing cookies arounds and Pineapple tarts.(which reminded me of Gabriel instantly, lol) I took a bite on this cookie, no surprise, BELL gop the whole thong from me and finished it Tsk. lol

I made a profit! Haha around $4bucks only. Hahas.

Miss Lee intended ot give me some of the cookies. I was so shy. Haha! Then CCH helped to pack. LOL. I brought another pack home. Only this time, mama didn't get to eat it. Haha!

9 Feb
OK. Haha. Darryl, MQ, Sok and I were supposed to meet at 10. All were late except MQ. Haha. She was the only one there waiting for all slowpoks! Haha!

to be continued.. lol dinner time! =D

Sunday, February 10, 2008

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emo!

As I was taught, or always hear, after 16, after secondary sch, we will be young adults. Physically, but spritually?

I always think that after 16 I will learn all morals and virtues and practice them in life, but I failed.

I always think that I can change people's life as what I think my purpose here is, I may had changed but not what I wanted.

Water flows, I can't change it course, I can't change its speed, I do not have that power.

What do I have?

"Yet from those flames, no light, but rather darkness visible." - John Milton, paradise lost

"One fire burns out another's burning, One pain is lessen'd by another anguish." William Shakespere, Romeo and Juliet

Haha. Siao le.

Thursday, February 07, 2008

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continue

Happy Chinese New Year!!! =D

Update

Oh, I had loads of things which I didn't talk about, write.

I went out with LYNNIE! Haha! We went to orchard, hold on, before that, the greedy pig was afraid that she would be too fanished so we had lunch at lot1 KFC. She treated me!! Haha, in exchange, I have to queue and bring her food to her. Tsk. Haha. I could have taken the change and put it in my pocket. Haha.

It rained la!! Arh. On the bus, both of us were freezing and the air-con controller was not above our heads. SO COLD.

I had great surprise at Far East. Really. I saw my, no, he never taught me, but he is, was a and he currently is working there. I was so taken aback. Hula&co. The shoes there are pretty popular and LYNN wanted to shop there. I wanted too but, it would be so awkward to have him to serve us! Gosh. I wanted to hide my face so much but was dying to look at him twice to ensure that it was really him. It was. IT WAS!!!

LYNN need to help her mum to get this dress at Tangs. The dress was marverllous. It was martini pink, it was in metallic dull pink and a bright red ribbon comes along with it. The other version was a gold/olive green with a yellow ribbon. LYNN's mama really has good fashion sense. Of course, it was pricey too. Haha.

The next stop was HEEREN. It was raining. Heavily. Maybe not, but due to the fact that both of us did not bring umbrella along, it felt like it rained cats and dogs. LYNN's hair almost land in great trouble.
Today then I realise the vast distance from Tangs to HEEREN. Seriously. Gosh. We were so drenched when we reached HEEREN. My hair was totally wet and when I tied it, it looked horrible. LYNN suggested not to tie and she combed my hair. Worse effect. Haha.

Oh ya, then there was a competition in HEEREN. People were gathering in different levels watching the performances. The first that both of us saw was performed by a group of 6 people, wearing red. They danced along a famous hip'hop song with a bollywood remix. In fact, they dressed red(chi) and their dance movements consists of both hip'hop and bollywood style. What a mixture!

Next performance. Here comes 6 hunks, no 12 ( I have no idea) walking up the round stage one at a time. They were in white singlets and jeans, displaying their muscles and their tanned, bronze skins. 2 were not wearing any tops, (LYNN comment that the judges' eyes must have a feast. Haha. I changed her words la huh. Haha) Walking in rounds, they stood in different nice patterns, then group by group went closer to the judges to impress the them.

Oh, their heights are barely 1.73m.
Not very tall.

Haha.

Oh ya, we went to TAKA and this shop caught my attention with 2 words, Louis Vuitton. LOL. At the first glance, I had totally no idea what was that. The door opened and I was surprised that people had to queue to get into that shop. I looked at the brand again. Explicityly, it was LV, the super ex brand. LOL. Atonished. You mean, people queue up to get LV's stuff? At a few mintues, thousands, millions are spent and earned. Gosh.

LOL.

2 Feb 2008

Happy Birthday to Zhan Xian. =]

I had my DI course. Like last week, I took the LRT at 6.20, however, this time, surprisingly, I got to HQ at 7.30. What's with the train? lol.
Anyway, I didn't like the course. As in, well, I learnt things out of it but it pissed me of because... I never had a DI to teach me, never had a proper training as in, trainingS by a Mdm. I was angry. Perhaps, not anger that I felt, it was disappointment. No. Ok, I am now recgonised as a DI, but without a DI standard. I need training. I need training on my own drill first before I can teach my juniors the actual executions of the commands. Who can I get to train me? Mdms are like expecting us to master ourselves. Indeed, I see. Fine. I am pissed at my own attitude. Imperfect. SIGHS.
Sorry about that.

31 Jan
Bye Bye to virgin ears. I had my ears pierced at Goldheart. It costs me 35bucks. Jeanie accompained me, supposedly, give me support. HOWEVER, haha, she was afraid la. Haha. The guy covered my view when he shot my ears. When he moved away, Jeanie was out of my sight, disappered without a trace. LOL. She actually went to stood at the entrance cus she was afraid! LOL. Funny or what. Haha.

We went to KFC and had lunch. We tried to engross in our chat so that I can forget the pain, but haha, it still hurts. If people asked me if it was pain pierceing ears, I will reply it was a nightmare but it was okay la. Nightmare is scary ma. Haha.
SOK appeared. LOL. She and her Cedar friend came and join us for lunch. The 4 of us sat together and had a chat. I forgot how we got to the culture of AC, anyway...
Ya. Haha. Shermin recounted that some ppl who went there didn't know what pon means. She had to translate it to skip. That tells me that if I were to say "WALAU EH!", and ppl there give me black look, I have to say "OH, I was saying I AM SO OLD LEH!" Isn't that humourous? Haha. Really ma! Haha!

Ok Ok. Sok really loves that school so I shan't comment too much about her school.

SIGHS.

Orh then Mrs Ram's treat!

Haha!
We had buffet in Siam's Kitchen. I listened to the songs carefully and thought a same song was played twice, but 1 was female and another was male version. Ain't that weird? Blah. I sat with Kim, Pearlyn, Amirah, Lau Ming and Aitqah. We look at the menu and wanted to order a lot. However Darryl asked us to wait for the 1 batch first and we did. Waa, it was
Sumptuous(thanks ar woman. haha). Atiqah ate a lot la! She was attacking, lol, devoured the food she took. HAha! WALAU. She ate more than me can? LOL.
When the cake arrived, we were supposed to sing you are my sunshine. That irritating, haha, CCH sang happy birthday. LOL! So qian bian la! Haha.
All of us were yakking and the waitress came twice to us saying that they received complaints. Hah. Embarassing seh... Haha.
Oh ya, the first batch of food was enough. Haha. We were so full that we did not wish to order what we wanted earlier. Haha.

Shucks. Haven bath la! Haha

Oh ya. I received my DI. I was thankful that you girls prayed. THANKS. Really. He answered. =D

God, help me. I need guidance. I am imperfect, yes, but I need to impart my knowledge to the girls and I prayed that you help me to perfect my skills. I want to help out in the drill in the company, even West Zone which is desperately needy. Please God. I have not been good and I now want to be.

Sunday, February 03, 2008

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Arhhsheesh.

I AM NO LONGER JESSICA.

SOBS!

NOW, I lost 2 husbands, no, 2 lovers. LOL.

HAHA.

You guys don't get it right... Haha. Wait till March bah!

SIGHS. If you plot a graph of happiness against time, my graph is definitely a negative, downslopping graph.. Haha. See, I am going for the DI test, which puts me in a difficult position when it comes to planning. Things doesn't go well in MI where DAPH DAPH is leaving,(to be more accurate, left) and so is Fatin and Syaf. (gosh!) and even GABRIEL. Haha. That slang guy. Then... shucks, where was I?

Haha. Forget it.
I will miss DAPH DAPH.
DAPH DAPH!

Haha. Man...

boots crack. Seriously, I am so not keen on getting another pair which would be my third. Gosh.

LOL.

I am getting dizzy because of MSN where conver moves up so fast.

Daph Daph...

Man, I will miss my classmates.

Great, cus I saw Sok today. =))
And, because, ECONS lessons' pace is quicker.

Friday, February 01, 2008

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