Happiness comes from within

O papers

I had fun today with Sok and Nette. LOL. That girl... HAHA! It's okay.

Nette was surprised at the magnitude, as in length of her leg. I measured mine too! LOL. From the foot to my waist that will be 102 cm, if from my foot to the end of my thigh, that will be 92 cm. LOL. Which tells me I have a short upper body. Hmmm.. How to grow taller??? Sheesh.

I was so blind. When I stepped into art rooms and I surveyed the room, I sweared that I did not see Sok! Until SM was playing with her hair, looking at Sok's way then I saw her! Yea, I almost fell off form my chair. Haha. She was there so much earlier than me lah! I was wondering how
she just ting! and appear on that seat. So magical. LOL.

I was in the library with my current before phy. I read this book on airlines. It took me long to realise, all planes looked the same. OK, some had their circle-thing-under-wing build in different way, but all planes really had the same look and that is so boring! It's a sad thing I decide not to work in engineering sector(look at the tons of careless mistakes I'd done in maths, forget it), or maintaining and ensuring the strength of the structure and give plane a new look will be my utlimate goal in my life!

Alright.

I jumped on the chance of having a good sleep today and I slept 4hours of nap! Oops. I need it you see... Thinking that my maths p2 O was at 2pm,(and that is because the person said"remember, your maths paper starts at 2" on the day before, for P1 actually. but the words kept ringing in my head) I stayed up late until 4am when I realised I was going to have it at 8 am! I got up at 5 am and I did not take any nap yesterday because I was pretty energised amazingly.Then I had a 4 hour sleep. It turns out that I channel all these sleepiness to today. Gosh. So tiring.

A maths -yea, no problems
Chemistry -i think i am okay with it... but that was what I felt for prelim1 and the result was...
Geo -EM was a great shock. Let's just pray for everyone. I did tourism anyway.
Hist -I did supported instead of constrast for realibity level. Oh dear.
Eng -I told myself not to step out the hall and repeatingly telling myself I will fail. But the paper, for the on word essay, I repeated my mistake of nagging before the main story comes in because I was taken aback by it. felt very very bad, disappointed. I definitely could have done better.
E maths -TEDIOUS! I hate to prove similar and congurent triangles and that carries 9 marks in P2!

I pray hard that I can get an A for Phy and Chap on MU and Communists will come out for Pure hist. PLEASE.

That is my first time looking at things you had written for me and laugh! Isn't that a good sign? =) Sok said that she wants to be over it on her birthday or before that. I shall assure you that I will remember, even though there is only 4 in my mind, the good incidents/events we shared. Oh, there should be more by adding our talks on the phone.. Yea. Great!
Remember the song, remember 'YUZ', remember Xiao Bii! grins*

things don't get our way, then we shall follow the flow, but that doesn't means to change yourself
ok?

Quote from A walk to remember:
Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Love is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense and is not resentful.

Wednesday, October 31, 2007

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levels stearts on the next day

GOOD LUCK FRIENDS!

every second we are stepping into our future
every step we left is our past

Sunday, October 21, 2007

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emo!

Cute right???

HOW CAN I FORGET ABOUT YOU FAZA?
This girl, guess what she did to me? She lend me her music player and she hurried me to put on the earpiece. I was surprised that she was so anxious, then, SHE BLAST THE MUSIC! I jumped. And this FAZA gave me a evil laugh. That girl. When belle wanted to change songs, she accidently increase the volume then I jumped again. Then I heard peals of laughter again. Seriously, that girl... so evil.

LOL. went to school to have geo lesson, which turn out to be nothing because the teachers had meeting and the lesson is too late so might as well come home. At least, we had our SS lesson which was very funny because the ppl at my table were all using phones! (Belle, WS, SM, LYNN) Mrs Ram said that Belle and WS should not sit beside each other because one of them will go crazy. lol and Mrs Ram got WS to move forward. And SM claimed that she was the most perfectly sane and complained how could Mrs ram don't believe her. Then Mrs Ram tried her best to show that she believed. After 2 mins, Mrs Ram forgot about that.

He is hot and cute. Agree?? xP

LYNN did not agree and Sm and I glared at her. How can she says no? Open your eyes. Ok. He isn't your type. Take note: His name is a tough one. It is pronouced as Kay-ah-new Reeves. =D

Yi dao jia, hua la la de liu xia lai. pa wen yi sheng chi le ma? wo shuo hai mei. ta jiu shuo: na me wo xia qu shui bian mai dong xi. shui bian bah. zhi bu zhi dao we jiu xiang gen ta shuo shi sheng me ma? jiu shi - lao tou zi, jie ni jian bang kao yi xia! ha-ha, cai bu shi. shi, pa, wo hen shang xin, cong lai mei ze yang zi mei tian dong ziang ku! er qie, wo zhen de ku le. hao sha. er qie mei yi chi ku shi dong hui xiang dao ta, shi jie kou, hai shi zhen de xi guan mei yi chi ku dong hui xiang qi ta? hai shi, nan ting de, kan dao xiao mei de fa xing... dang wo yi kan dao ta de fa xin, ma shang jiu xiang dao ta, zhen bao qian, wo cha dian hai xiang shuo ni dai ti ta. sorry, wo hen luan. jiu jing bu zhen chang. qing yuan liang.
fa le yi ge jian xun. xiao le. ying gai mei shi. zai fu qing hai mei hui lai zi qian, yi ding yao ting, bu ran, ta hui fa xian de.
xie xie ni.
great. what do I have in mind? Nothing. It's empty.

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

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chi

Thanks Bah bah for m&ms.
Sorry Sok for not accompanying you to HC.

Great, and mum asked permission from me to stay in Thailand until 11 nov. Nice.

I didn't attend school yesterday so I missed Eng lesson and chem mock P1 and lesson on A maths mock P2.

zhuo tian yi lei xi lian. xiang jie ge jian bang kao ye mei you ren ke yi rang wo zhi shao wen yi sheng. dui kuai lai lin de hui kao bu shi xin xin shi zu ye mei you sheng me ba wo, sheng zhi bu zai hu zhi ji shi fuo neng kao jin hao xiao. bu zhi ze me le, ze me luan. hen xu yao yi ge jian bang lai kao, ku yi xia jiu gou le. jiu na me yi xia xia. rang wo ku ge gou. yin wei wo jiu jing hen ai ku ke shi ku bu chu lai. zhi you zai ce shuo li ku. ku.

man kai xin jing ran you ren bi wo hai zao fa xian wo geng beng jiu bu kai xin. ta shuo ta hen wu nai, bang bu liao wo. mei guan xi, jie jie bu guai ni. wo na shi ye bu shi yi yang bang bu liao ni ma?
hen kai xin, neng yu dao ni, ni. ni gen wo yi yang, hen nian ren, ru guo zhi ji bu kai xin, dui fang ye yi yang, jiu bu shuo chu lai. er ni, jian dao ni, wo jiu kai xin, ni ye he wo yi yang, bu shi ma? ting.

ni. zou le. wo zhi hao zai ze li ku. yi zhi fan fu de wen zhi ji dang chu shi fou dui ni gou ma? shi luo gan. bu ting wei lao zai wo sheng pang. hen xiang ni. ren shi ni, sheng zhi bu ren shi ni de ren dong xiang ni. wo hai she zai wei ni ku qi. zhen sha.

ni. wo bu qing chu wo he ni de guan xi. hen bu liao jie. hu reng hu re. zai xiang xin ni de tong shi, an quan gan bing bu zu. bu zhi wei he.

ni. gen ni shi hao yong. ke shi. you hui lai le. gan jue you lai le. luan qi ba zao.
zai lin wai yi bian de ni. wo ai ni, dan dui ni zhuo de yi qie que shi bei dao er chi. zhen bao qian. ni xian zai yi ge ren, an quan ma? yao xiao xin. wo hui hao hao zhao gu zhi ji de. fang xin.

reality sunk its teeth into my jugular
tear and tear.

Saturday, October 13, 2007

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Fish's birthday!

Happy Birthday FISH!

Haha. And Happy Birthday to my sec2 lit teacher and to PEPSI too! LOL.
What a day.

LYNN brought a pencil case and stationery for him because he lost them. Isn't that sweet? The way LYNN and Fish care about each other. I enjoy looking and feel the love they have for each other. Haha. Why ar? lol

We went to Pasta Mania at West Mall. LYNN treat me! haha. No la. She helped me pay first. Fish was happy, very happy. Haha.

Look at him. Must be a impt wish to him.

SEE? I told you Fish is very very happy.

DEE suggested to ask the PM wokers if they were willing to sing BD song for Fish but they said they did not want to. I understand what they felt, and it's rather selfish. If it was DEE, or me, we are willing to. That incident tells a lot. I guess they have the mindset that they are there to work, not to give to customers and I can't feel their passion towards their work. Without passion, how far can you go? You will be stuck as the same place and everyday you will come back just to do the same thing and feel the similar emotions as you did the previous day. If teachers did not have the passion, they will not stay back, include students into their life and will not be able to see thier students grow up, to enter adulthood with a smile. If you are working as serving others, do it with passion, let your customers know that you are willing and they will be smiling because of you! Come on!

raa... my MAIN POINT is actually. I enjoyed tiramisu there.

nah.

Flung my hist mock today. Tough SBQ. Nevertheless, I am glad that I finally attempt chap10 SEQ.

THANK YOU FAZA! Thanks for lending me your notes. I rmb so hard until I still rmb them now. Thanks friend.

THANKS SZE SZE!
Haha. She accompanied me to art room fot hist test. And, SHE BROUGHT ALONG HER FOOD! (now, are you thinking it's the food that...) Haha. But, not only that. She fed me. OMG! LOL. As though I am a kid and have to be fed. AND IT WAS MY FIRST TIME eating tang yuan... so touched. lol. When the tang yuan was in my mouth, I could not contain my joy, I was overwhemled by happiness, my smile lasted very, very long. wow. PLUS, tang yuan is a significant food in chinese culture. When family comes together, they eat it so that they will always unite.

Mum always express her love to me. and to 4D too.(4D as in the 4-digit ame, not my class) As you know, she is in Thailand now. Everyday she smsed me about her love for me. But, she did not forget 4D too. On weds and weekends she still smsed me the numbers she wants my dad to bet on. I was so moody just now. Then I received her sms with 4 lines of number. LOL. Last line was her love for me. 4D. another child of my mummy. Gosh.

I forgot to say sth. Sabrina, that arti-farti girl, (spelling?) she actually apply maths in HIST!! OMG! LOL. Some people in our class were confused about what is Soviet Union, Russia. So Sabba suggested this: SU= USSR + Russia SE= EE + SU.
Haha. Even Mrs Ram was surprised. Haha. Not bad ar sabba! And then CH crapped: if SU=0, then SR=0 so S=0 etc. Then both eqns end up as 0. After which intriguted Ridhwan- so USA= to?

Let me be a bias source here.
Many people keep asking about her past because they heard that she was not like this in the past. I am not sure about what they have in their mind. I don't know if they think that she has been acting for years or think that she is fake etc but in my view, she is as real as herself. When she is sad, she don't hide it, when she is happy, she shows it. What makes you think she is so fake? Why bother so much about her past and add that to your impression of her? She may has changed but isn't it a good change? I felt her sincerity, her love, I am defensive when it comes to her.

Saturday, October 06, 2007

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17 more days

LET'S PON SCHOOL!

as though that is possible. Unless your previously you performed well, otherwise, you shall stay behind the gates.

so tiring. Prelim 1. Checked. Prelim 2. Checked. MOCKS. OH MY GOODNESS! O LEVELS.

Miss Sim said now, we are closer to the finishing line, are we going to crawl, or sprint? My answer, or rather, my reply was, "but we are running 8 races at a time! 8 subjects leh!"
Hold on. I am rather happy she is back, even though I don't like her lessons. I just can't deny, she is really nice, and nice people are usually well-liked.

I really admire those schools who allow students to stay at home to study. You see, everyday my lessons end around at 4.30. When I reached home, that will be 5 plus. Then I will do some work, or take nap, have my dinner, homework, study for next day mock. When I am exhausted, I will sleep 6 hours a day! That is too long! I already spent (7am-4.30pm) 10 hours in school, then 6 hours sleeping, that leaves me with 6 hours! Minus the breaks that I take(i don't deny i take long breaks), I am left with 5 hours! Within that 5 hours, my eyelids are struggling not to shut. WHAT A WASTE OF TIME!

I feel like skipping school, spend hours doing practices, instead of sitting in classes where we do nothing. Then the next days, I will have tonnes of things to clarify.

NVM.

Oh ya. I REALLY HATE THIS. You are my good friend in primary school and we have not met since p4 and I do cherich this friendship. THE PROBLEM IS, YOU ARE IRRITATING ME TO THE CORE! Almost every exam month you will sms me with the same qns "what topics did your teacher tell you that will come out?", "what came out for your prelim?", "did your teacher say which will not come out?" and when I asked you "your teacher did not tell you meh?" You didn't reply me. That is so rude. It's not bad to be, curious, or trying to be as accurate as you can or getting closer to the qns that might come out but, you never ask me about any other things except these. Do you know how much I feel like smashing my phone? Unfortunately it's a $500+ cybershot phone.
and i finally feel what sok felt.

I spend too much time online, and that costs my dad hundred last month. LOL.

Nothing positive this week. Only that Kimberly just told WS that sth, sb - past my school and WS kept teasing me with that. What's with you?

That DAHDAH simply loves to 'GEK' me. She loves it when I am irritated(not serious) by her. So irritating.

And sb bit me thrice.

And Belle becomes BahBah.

And I asked Fish if he wants a real fish to mate with him. LOL.

And DEE did not come for 2 days this week.

And I 'GEK' CH. I win.

And I know so well about Spore's '48, '51 elections.(txbk based)

And, OH YA! The sec3s!

GOSH!

My teacher- Tr
friend-C
Sec3-3
Setting: in the library. half of the class. Having lesson. sec3s in library playing, studying.

T comes in. Do her stuff.

T: Guys, Can you all please leave the library, we are having lessons.

(the sec3s did not stir)
(T continue with her papers)

T: Guys, we are really having lessons, can you all leave the library? Esp those who are playing.
(nth)

C: Teacher, you want me to help you (... forgot the words)
T:no need lah.

C to 3: can you leave the library?(or sth like that.
3: the librarian said its okay to play here

F

T: Guys, can you all please leave the class? We are really having lessons. Serious lessons, please leave, the sec4s are having their lessons.

(arhhh, 2 girls stood up and left. then all strolled out)

I swear, if it's my another teacher, the sec3s would be blacklisted.

Gosh. Sec3s!

So, all in all, that boy, have more respect to the librarian than a teacher!

Cross my heart.

Some sec3s are really nice, like my juniors, may, simin etc some are really rude.

Once our maths teacher did not turn up for lesson, she was like 20 mins late. Our classmate returned from the toilet and said that Ts was surrounded by sec3s. So, some of our classmates went down to find Ts. Then that class was having physics and many returned to their classroom when Tk was teaching. Then a girl, prefect 'said', "GO AWAY LAH! WE ARE HAVING LESSON!"

BUT you are pestering Ts! Ok, for your marks! and it's OUR LESSON!

Pissed.

They are very hardworking people, but their attitude... If they were to carry this all the way to their adulthood. God bless.

I am so anti them. Mind me.

When I was sec1, when I see sec4s, I will show a lot of respect and don't make noise in front of them, be good. I am sure most of us are like that.
Now we lose all the respect.

Their attitudes..

this girl ain't from sec3.

I sat beside her, outside the general office. Her left was facing the office. Then she slightly lifted her left leg so the skirt covered what she was doing. -smsing-

can't blame them. we did not set a good eg.

And I remembered when in 2004-2006, our prinicipal always said that our school is well-known for our discipline.

now?

know what?

ROFL.

by the way. all the best guys! O levels! then we have grad night where we will hold hands and swing along with music. and then, officially out of sec4.

Lynn was gleeful during physics marking **'s paper and she told me to use 'euphoric' which was a good word as she claimed which does not describe my feelings. Nobody was doleul today, I think.
MAN felt desolate sometimes. I can't use crestfalling at this point of time as whatever I expected, happened. Nothing happened to me was as eye opener.
Ok, there are more human anatomy that I have no idea what sentence to make up with them.

The end.
- a slap on the wrist
- make a clean breast of
- at each other's throat
- have no stomach for something
- keep a stiff upper lip
- keep one's ear to the ground
- boot is on the other foot

- doppler wail of sirens, air surgically hacked by chopper rotar blades

Friday, October 05, 2007

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