Teachers' Day celebration.
This is a rather fun game. I had arranged my markers according to differnts colours and shades. Make a guess which colour groups come first and down the row...
I have 1black, 1 grey, 1brown, 1yellow, 2orange, 3green, 4purple, 4blue, and 5reds/pinks.
The original pic is at the end of this post.
Lame. I know.
Vice chair called. He asked me to help bring snacks. Then I asked if he was in charge, and you know the answer. I don't really feel as worse as before, nevertheless, I still don't feel good about having my leader not doing anything. Yupp.
HAPPY ADVANCED TEACHERS' DAY!
It's prelim2 period, and we are going back to school tomorrow to run [cus it's A day] and it's extremly anti-climax.[word learnt from sm] LOL. Then we have a party. The party will be meaningless, we are celebrating teachers' day but no, we are not celebrating teachers' day. [we are celebrating but not for appreciating what our teachers have done]
The answer is, black, grey, brown, purple, green, reds/pink, blue, orange, yellow. Get them right? XD
To SOK: HEY! I THINK I GOT ANOTHER JOB IN MIND!And that is nurse-midwife!
ER...
haha... I just think it is the world greatest joy to see a new born baby to share the beautiful life with us. Actually, providing that the baby's parents are not demons in disguise. Yupp. Baby! Gosh. Sok and I saw cute babies last week and this week. All of them are so cute. Lord, I prayed that you will bless all of them. Yupp. I can't imagine those serial murders were actually born as babies before. As in, baby are pure! Innocent! Why does the eviroment, friends, parents, family change them into unrecogniseable monsters? Haih. Hey! I went to WRL with Sok again! Haha. Today was worse lah. We only did one compre and read books. Well, erm. oops! It's ok though, I brought my dictionary so while reading books we found ALOT of new words. I came out with phrases that made Sok vomit blood. For instance, "she command us as though she was commanding a dog". Yep. I picked a HORRIBLE book which made Sok laughed as though, erm, I don't know why it was very funny. WEll, haha, actually, you know Sok and I love new books, so I found one. It was a remarkable new book but the title was "blah blah China". Yep, and it was originally from China adn written by a china man and translated by an english lady. Raa. Sound country-ist.
Then Sok found a book for me which I went crazy over it! PHANTON OF THE OPERA! Gosh! The author actually went to do research and traveled to find people in the original story and the author found out that there is indeed some truth in it. WOO! LOL.
W read some magazines and oh gosh, cats facing obesity is like OH MY GOONESS la can?
Well, I wonder how was the GB delication and promotion ceremony just now. We didn't go for it when it was our turn to go up to stage to take our ranks. I felt bad about it. Firstly, our company went there, of course they would want to cheer for their seniors like how other companies do, secondly, it's responsibilty. It's how you show how much you wanted it. I am feeling horrible about it. well... Nevertheless, I must tell myself, I got the rank! Right? Mmmm...
Sok got me to set my prelim targets and I felt like hanging myself. I set 3B3s, 3As. THIS IS MY FIRST TIME SETTING SUCH LOW TARGETS. I wanted to level a gun to my temple and 'BANG'. Seriously, what's wrong? Okay, I don't deny the fact that I know I cannot handle my emotions and realistic-ness now. I am throwing myself at one side and take myself out from the bin when I am doing Maths. I am having such low confindence, such timidity..
Trust me. Gold is within Mother Earth. Dig them all out, use it, and what's left are all just junk. Money-minded, people are, yet they said they were making and producing for the wellness of people's life, and the impacts they made are deniable ( ).
I love Sok Ting. I love Lynette. I love Lynn. I love Xin Di, and I love Ru Xiang. All my precious pals.
OH YA! How can I forgot? Today I saw a car and 4 motorcycles got summon! WOOHOO! Who ask them to break the law? LOL. I was so in love in that traffic police, hahaha... I even saw a car park for a while, then the driver saw the punish-er and drove away. That was hilarious man...
And, Yew Tee is my next shopping palace... as in for bread.. LOL. The breads are like so nice la! Fine that yea, not surprising, since I love food, but hey.. that place really sells nice breads..
Saturday, August 25, 2007
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I need to blog fast. Kkx. Somebody kept drewing on my limps today. I drew on hers too. LOL. She actually drew something like eeyore, but erm, looks so-so la. Haha, Her tigger was ok too. Lol
I am having a very painful ulcer and my gums hurt! Gosh! I can't talk properly lah. I did appiled salt two days ago, gosh, it only helps to make me cry. The wound is too deep. Ouch...
Just now I cried in the popular! Haha. Actually it's because my eyes were too pain. It has been like that for quite long tho. Lol. It was so embarrassing lah, crying in popular. LoL
Thursday, August 23, 2007
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Seriously, I am getting more and more tired of school. Now it shall be my turn to ask what is school for? Shcool is where we gain knowledge and take in experience and skills to face the outside world. I know students should not expect school to be comfortable like home or I can do anything I like. Yes, I understand. I understand what you mean by students being self-centred. Yes, I do understand that I am in the wrong but I just don't feel wrong towards you. I am sorry. I was rude, nevertheless, your attitude wasn't that good either yesterday. I never like to study in the hall, it is humid and the lights were hurting my eyes lah. Go ahead and say that in the past poor students don't even have light. Yea, but we have tech now. Studying in the hall doesn't helps to put info into my brain. If you say studying in the hall can prepare us to do Os in the hall, I kinda disagree with that. Maybe it helps, cua we will be very familiar with the hall by then...RAA. STILL, YOU MADE HER CRY. Who bears to see her cry? Seriously.
What's with seriously... Can you accept if your supposingly mentors dont understand you? Hmmm. I can't. I don't expect them remember everything about us. However, it's been 2 years and still I don't see any effort. I remember my 2 mentors came into the class and told us they were very busy so we had to be on our own. True. It's as though they made it clear to us that they were very busy, they can't be there for us, and since they made it clear, let's don't expect anything. Hmmm. I sound very harsh here. Just some teenage emoness.. They may be blind to our lifes, but so maybe us blind to their business... Hmmm... LYNN, DI and I were chatting on the way back. Then LYNN kinda describe me, my heart drops! Haha. As in I am not use to her talking about the way I show myself. So true. YUCKS! Hahaha... Must you know me so well? sheesh... ... ...Actually, it doesn't help when you keep telling yourself you are happy when you are feeling low. Perhaps, it does help, because you will 'forget' about you being low. Be frank, it's still there, isn't it? Why forget it? Deal with it. Handle it. It's hard, process is never easy. Who ever said it's easy?Having a family, comparing to those ophans, aren't we lucky? What if, we are not loved, we are , not cared for are we blessed or not? What if we have parents and don't feel as though we have, are we still under the catagory of happiness? First smiles, first cry all starts from home. The most painful wound also comes from the same source.
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
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I went to WRL with Sok today. It wasn't fruitful for Sok I guess. I am sorry for that.
Nonetheless, we had a little joke about the number of crushes we had. LOL. Apparently I had the most.(13, 4serious) My other sis(s) all only single digits.haha. Pardon me. I am fickle-minded. Haha. Still, I am faithful to one impossible case now. The realistic call is to forget it, what makes you think it will happen? The imaginative call is, just go on.Whatever.School ain't about having crushes.I felt helpless. Look at that face, how devasted you were how hurt you were. I can't feel it. I know LYNN can. I know one thing for sure is that I were you I won't stay that strong. I hope that guy dies or rather let him be hurt by you. I don't know.Then just now I realise I had felt helpless towards another sister. She didn't manage to get help from anyone on the ground. Ain't I useless? I had to look at them suffocating, struggling and can't do anything to make them smile.
I am so emotionless, so unsensitive. I had sucessfully stick it here.
Oh yai, I forgot. I had done my draft. I was sadistic. (according to SOK) I was telling Sok would she choose to drop the passengers in the sea or at the island famous for cannibals. She chose sea and I was taken aback. She was more shocked by my reaction. Then she commented "Are you going to be one of them too so that they
won't eat you up?" Then I said "ya, then I say hi! I am like you. Then I kill the person beside me and eat him up".I read one of my senior's blog yesterday. Well, that post was posted on April. Woh. She was so angry with us. Her words were harsh. I don't deny the fact that our relationship had detoriate but...still, I don't feel good about it. Somebody I had loved before was seriously having a sucky personality.Gosh. I am 'harsh' here.PS.
because it carried too much wishes, the wishing star fell badly
Saturday, August 18, 2007
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OH MY GOODNESS!I almost cried just now. SECRET is such a nice movie lah! Forget it. I shan't talk about it anymore. That will bring me tears and imaginations.Whatever.I am pretty emo today huh. Pardon me. [thank you ta, sze and lalala] I just felt that I had did wrong to many people and etc.
Then I was reminded of a line somebody told me, 'You came to school to study and not to think about relationships'
Forget it.
To YOU: Hey, I wondered if I had told you how much you meant to me. I had never talk to you about your problems before. In fact, You don't want to isn't it? Whatever reason it is, I want you to know that I care for you. Mmm...
To YOU: LAO GONG. I doubt you will ever see my blog. I just want to tell you that, I love you. I heard about you and know that you are preoccupied with many things. Take care dear. You lost your cheerful smile, whenever I see you now I felt that you are very tired. I have known you very well in the past. I hope I am not wrong now.
I believe that most of us, as in those who had experience, will have this belief now that, 'these ain't true. There won't be any good outcome from it'
Ok. Fine. I am stressed and not working. Am I working? Hmm. Somebody knows. Hmm. =[
Just tired. Who asks my mum to quarrel with me? Who asks me to feel stressed when I lie? Who asks me to follow all types of prinicipal of life? Can anyone grants me one day and let me go crazy?
To YOU: Ps that I keep giving you weird looks this year. Believe me. I just show you what I am feeling. Do you know how to read expressions? No doubt onw of the msg is, I really love you a lot.
OK?! WHY AM I SO LOVEY HERE AND THERE TODAY? WHAT's WRONG WITH ME?
Friday, August 17, 2007
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TO SOK: I AM SORRY THAT I CAN'T CHAT WITH YOU YTD. =]
OK. I am now taking a break after 4 days of Physics. LOL.
RAA.
Media is replaying the national parade. Sheesh. I am so jealous of the people who got the chance to march for the Singapore's Birthday lah. I don't have any chance anymore. Unless, I become the Mdm. LOL. Haix.
Anyway, that isn't the reason for me to decide to blog. Haha. Today is 12 Aug, last year, this day would be my 2nd last day of national camp. DELTA ROCKS! I realised that when I saw the N campers' contacts in my phone. I didm't contact them this year but I saw one of them thrice already. Haix. I kinda miss them and the crappy and lame jokes we shared. Haha. I miss the dragon boat competition and the canoing. [Even though I was so sui to be caught in the big wind with the NP guy from other school with his NP friends who were so exicited about the big wind and the big waves. I almost cried lah can? I am afraid of water mas.]
Whatever.
I just open something, unfold and saw something. The evil thing is I don't feel anything. Not even guilt. It's all a lie from me, I have been dying to tell that person. It's a lie. Damn it that I don't feel anything but I am doing the right thing, following what my heart want. I don't want us to end up in regrets. I am selfish? Go ahead, say that again. I am. I don't deny that. I can't let you go on. Damn the time now is so crucial, I can't make a step forward, forget about backwards, I don't step backwards.
I was online yesterday at 2.34am! Haha. I can't find the person I want to find though. Hahax. What luck.
I TELL YOU AR. I WAS VERY VERY ANGRY WITH THAT GUARD. I WAS INFURIATED BY HIM for THE WHOLE DAY STARTING FROM 1.30PM!
RAA. SM and I went to JRL again yesterday. I ate something. The guard walked towards me and SAID "You are not allowed to bring food here and eat. If I see you eating again, I will send you out of the library. Do you understand?" He SPOKE a lot then I just keep replying ok. I WAS CURSING HIM ALL THE WAY UNTIL I AM OUT OF THE LIBRARY. Come on lah, there is 2 vending machines in this level, one selling snacks and another sells drinks. Then what's wrong? If he mean outside food then I understand but he doens't sound like that lor. My arteris almost burst wondering why I didn't rebuke. RAA. But I didn't want because right beside us were 5 secondary students. I don't want to get any further attention and whisperings from them. [cos they kept looking at me and sm for God knows what reason.]
Forget it.
Forget it.
Sunday, August 12, 2007
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After I read Sok's post then I remembered. Hahax. That KEW DIDI, she pointed at sth and talked about the price and what brand she used. My goodness. Glad there wasn't any guy there. lol.
Friday, August 10, 2007
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There's no place I rather
You are always part of meCount on me to give my best and more
Count on me SingaporeYou got to make a standThis is my country, this is my flag
This is my future, this is my life
This is my family, these are my friends
We are Singapore, SingaporeansOne people, One nation, One Singapore
That's the way that we can be forever moreStars and Cresents shine through meWill you make a difference, will you seize the day
Will you make it happenLet's reach out for the sky
With dreams, we soar up highTogether we make a difference...
We will share a special dream
Together we feel the Singapore heartbeatWhere I belong, where I keep my heart and soul
Where dream comes true for us
Where we walk together hand in hand
Towards the future so bright
Where I belong, where I keep my heart and soul
Where we are one big family
I want the whole world to know
I wanna shout it out loud,
that this is where I know I belong
...
Right from the start we will know
Look where we are, we come so far
And there's still a long long way to go
With all of my heart I will care
I play my part, I will share
With family and friends
Together we stand
And in the end, hand in hand
We will get there
We are one Singapore, one nation strong and free
...Sing in harmony
We will stand together
together hand in hand
Patrotic Hui Ling.
LOL
BTW, anyone still remember the song which Fann wong and 2 more ladies sang? IN the mv Fann drew a blue sun on a transparent sheet, and I only remember one word of the lyrics and the word is 'friend'. LOL.
How I wish the whole world can celebrate our small country's birthday. =D
Raa.
I am getting emo.
I had always know, that I live on belief. Belief. Is that real? It can be, or may not be.
If God asks me who I want to join me, I will say, the 6 of us. If God asks you, what will you answer? Actually it's fine with me.
I always know, that not everyone feels the same like me. But I choose to believe what I want.
Belief, is such dangerous thing, you may get trapped by it.
Am I being very selfish? I am sorry that I never want to face it. As in, I had always all of you to feel what I am feeling, but now I know. Feelings cannot pass on, and it's especially personal.
I am sorry, I am weird now. Please take it as I am saying nothing can? I plead... I am sorry, perhaps I need a talk then I am ok. Today just ain't my day.
Perhaps, I plan to tell him when I am 18 and the effect of it, my belief, will never happen. Then I will break down. Silly me. Perhaps I might go on, I don't care. I never care about things, I know but still believe, will never happen. I am contradicting myself.
For that case, I know, I am dreaming. Haha.
Sok, do you still remember the line?
~I am afraid that I am in love with someone I imagine, who is not him actually~
Live on belief, is a dangerous game.
To you I want to say: Both of us don't have to say thanks to each other isn't it?
To you I want to say: I love you now. Ployester.
To you I want to say: Where you go?
To you I want to say: We are lonely. Ain't we? Haha. But you got me and I got you! LOL.
To you I want to say: Miss you angel.
To you I want to say: I wish to chat with you all day. lol
Haix. emo emo.
This year's parade is real cool!!! Prehaps not to sok. Haha. It was my first time seeing the actual uncasing cereminy on tv!!! MY GOODNESS! SO COOL!!!!!!!Singapore, YOU ROCKS! I LOVE YOU!
If only I am a boy, then I can join the army, be a part of the defence, as in army. WOW. That will be so cool la. Then I will put more effort on wishing there is no war. I don't want to apply my army skills on my enemy.
Thursday, August 09, 2007
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RAA! LOL.Today's english workshop was beneficial. Duh?! The instructor was very good. I find the way she teaches very efficient. Fast, and I remembered eveything she said until now. So cool.
OKAY. I got 27 for L1R5. I failed both humans. HAHA. Whatever. I am so not moving anyway for humans. I am desperate for an A for geo, maybe a B4 for ss, balance them, I shall get B3, better than the current D7. I failed my physics miserably when I know how to do. I know how to do k. What the hell la. Physics can get A definitely, phy is not hard, phy and maths has some similarities, so I can de.
I explained fully to dad about jc and poly yesterday. I almost cried out at the foyer. Well, come to think how useless I am, how my marks detoriate. (wrong spelling?) grr. Then my dad just say, up to me what I choose for myself. haix. That is something I am glad and not glad about it.
Yesterday we had a NDP(sch) rehearsal at 3 something. It was supposed to start at 3pm. The contingents were in position st 3pm. Then at 3 something, band was asked if they were ready, then they were in the canteen and all shouted 'NO!' I could picture myself rushing to them and bang them. (not the obsence bang)
It was torment can? I felt as though my boots will get burnt, as in fire on my boots la.
We had 2 rehearsal. GB were to turn when we hear BB's 'bang', in the end they just turn themselves, not doing the drill form. Sian. The photograhy club members always move around to take pictures of us. Once, after we fall out. A BB guy exclaimed to his friend 'THAT PERSON TOOK MY PICURE 3 TIMES! 3 TIMES LEH!!!' That was so gay (pan) can... Sheesh.
My 1gb memory MP3 is full! My goodness! I only had 264 songs in it. Is it a lot? Doesn't look as though it does... grr...
I am very very bad to LYNN. We were talking about JC. Then she said that NJC is super near to her house, then SOK heard us, and encouraged LYNN to go. I LOL. I could not control my laughter. Then LYNN said SOK very good not like me, so evil. But I JUST CAN'T STOP LAUGHING! Then SOK and LYNN talked about how they are going to meet each other and go to school with each other and LYNN even said that SOK would be her new best friend and she don't want me!!! She said 'DON'T FRIEND YOU LIAO.' SO EVIL LAH! NOT FAIR! But I still keep laughing. Then LYNN said "better still, RJC nearer. Cannot liao, I must go RJC." WALAU! LOL. LOL. LOL. LOL. I told her what she needs to score to go in, we minus here and there, still failed. Then LYNN said HCJC also near. LOL. VJC also. LOL. LOL. LOL. I admit I am so bad dei. But it is funny. But, of course, you know, you go in, I will be the happiest friend of yours, and I mean best friend. LOL. (like KINDERGARDEN KIDS.) (W)
Atiqah is very very funny = hilarious. Nah, not her, is her and ram ram. LOL. Mrs Ram threaten her and cancel all her activities. I wonder where is she now... lol.x Haix. suddenly I miss her... raa. don't tell her, she will use that as a X tool.
Saturday, August 04, 2007
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