That is what SM got for me. WOOHOO!

Hahax. I was chatting with LYNN and DIDI about marriage. Well, it suddenly occurs to me, er, as in I suddenly remembered some people told me that they think that I would be the 1st to get married in my clique. So, we make a small conclusion.
HL: Homely type. So, she most prob settle first. Job later. AND I definitely want to have a job lor... I think. I will zhua jin that guy lor. LOL.
LYNN: Together together type. I comment that she won't like marriage but she just want and will stay with the guy forever.
XD: pratical. 3 years can pass should be quite stable then consider.SOK: eh.. not sure
NETTE: work first? I dunno leh.. lol.
I guess chen yang's blog is being copied for many times le. Haha... Too bad, I am horoscopic. I think I can understand aries, virgo, leo, gemini and scorpio. Others I am still not clear. Esp libra and capricorn. Hmm. LOL. ( I will bold and underline those ture in my life.) (I am frank) (i for please..)
ARIES WOMAN
She thinks the world is watching her through the eye glasses of rose petal frame.
She thinks people think and talk about her only about good things and often disappoint to know the fact that they are not true and not even real, so she will feel hurt. She
thinks her path has to be a beautiful one. She thinks only good things so she prepares and always make arrangement for herself to be in the right path always, quite systematic indeed.
If there is no guy in her life, she will be busy with herself. This seemingly ordinary woman will push herself to meet her goal.
Her face mostly will be slim and long, high cheek bone, Eye brow slightly curve up, slight tall more than short, thin lips and she
will have quite a confusing or mixture of character. Sometimes, she will be
very careful about guy she will mingle with. She
thinks as if she has a main CPU in her head and she could memorize everything from her childhood. When she faces with problems, she will handle them and solving them very well, and at the same time showing other people that she has that capability. She can put her mind in solving problems in crisis better than many other Zodiac. Once she determine to do thing, nothing will stop her.
Woman in this Zodiac could be totally different from one woman to another woman. You could see her in the party dancing like flash dance or dirty dancing, as well you could also see her as an old fashion lady or a geek. She could be someone flashy and wanted by many men, or
she could be a cold and non-social person. She will have her own way to win you over. Once she choose you, she will need to be proud of you. "Love" is not as important to her as "Marriage".
Her real goal in life is "Safety" and her position in other people sight need to be "Secure". She plans her life, and socially life easily and very carefully. She is also very artistic and
realistic, so if you are a nobody or nothing, no chance because she loves ambition and a good life.
She need lots of love,but do not want and do not belief in an occasional or unconventional love. She is a proud in nature type, so if you see a woman in this Zodiac come from a poor family, she will act like a woman from a noble family by birth anyway (certainly there are always exception). [this happens when I donate. I give lots of money. Stupid right?]
She always look cool even when she is not. She
like to make people see her as "secure and confident" even she is a mixed emotion and mixed character type.
If she is mad, you can tell right away and she can stay moody for quite a long time. You never have all her times, for she likes to work hard and also spent some spare times working for charity. You will see woman in this zodiac a "Volunteer" for camp, and if she is in a high society, she will most likely be a president or a V.P. of a "Club". She is a romantic and artistic, but being poor and
unstable is
certainly not in her dreams. Her beautiful imaginations need to be
realistic, for failure is not in her plan. A Goat always climb high, so either she start from a low point or a high point, she will make sure at the end she will have the best spot. She
will not show her ambition, but she will show that she satisfy with herself now. Once you look back she already moved up again , quietly butsure. If she is your love one, be supportive and understand her.
She is stubborn, but she will listen. She will act like a gentle fragile person,but in fact she can stick you down like a super glue
without you knowing it.LOLx. I am now in A maths band 2. HAHAHA. SO not funny. There's no way I am going to stuck in that because of my careless mistakes even though I have the capabiltity lor. Er. That sounds bad.
In chemistry lesson I am crazy liao lor. We were practising on SPA part 3, planning. Our investigation was about reacting HCl and CaCO(3) and find concentration of HCl. I told SM to find that, you must first drink HCl.
My dearest vice-chair, I wonder why you want to be a vice-chair when you are unwilling to take the responsibilty. Even if you take the role for points, shouldn't you work to tell yourself that 'Hey! I deserve those points!"? You are a man, do what you should and not gaining the advantage of something and not working for it.
I have been reading quite a number of blogs. I read TJ's and I was bad to think that he kinda realise things to late. Or rather, so much later than I do. That is very bad. Sorry, but it's good for him to see new things. Somebody's blog has a lot of chi writings, I love that. Because, I love to use chinese to express myself. Er... Ya. Love is so hurtful. Damn it. I doubt I will ever want to fall in love that deeply. As in, the next relationship, I would see if that person will be my last or not. LOL. So serious. I hate pain. Pain kills, but never let you die from it. Just pain. If I really love someone, I put marriage as prioty. That guy must be serious and mature enough. The more pain I get, the thicker is my mask. Still, it only take a hand to pull out my mask. It's not difficult.
grandpa's ...
TO SM: THANK YOU!! FOR CHANGING TO HEBE COVER. I TURN YOU INTO A ROCK SO TODAY YOU ROCK!!! HAHA!!
Sok Ting must be happy for me today for waking up at 8am. LOL. Hahax.
Yesterday, or rather this early morning I could not perservere and stay awake to enjoy the silience after 2am. RAA! I slept at 0130 la. Sianx. So not me.
Haix.
That L wants to borrow my compre and said that she would be here at 1400 or 1500. Look at the time now and she is still not here. ..
Haix. Miss Sim told me that she is pinting her A1 hopes on me. (duh?!) (LOL!) hahax. I was devasted that I got only 59.3% for my Amaths but I cannot show that in class. Haix. (whatever.) (Only sok understands) Yupp. Miss Sim said that I should do one Amaths paper1 and one Emaths full paper everyweek. Now I am starting. To be honest, I don't pratice that hard for maths, as in doing papers. I just keep going through the TYS. But, I did a Amaths paper today.
I lost 20 over marks for careless mistakes. All on '+' and '-' signs. Somebody scolded me saying that 'Since you go in the examination hall to make careless mistakes you might as well don't take the exam. Cos you take you won't get marks with those careless mistakes.' Well, I am going to practice how not to make careless mistakes and do maths at a fast speed. I am so not going to let go my A1 for maths la.
Sian.Oh ya, I got some pictures on humans amazing race, my station. (arrive) group (facilitator)
Group 1 (Jie Heng)

Group 2 (Ruz)

Group 3 (Danial)

Group4 (Izzaty)

Group 5 (Hong Da)

Group 6 (Belle and XD)

Group 7 (yaya)
Group 8 (CCH)
Look at JieH. (crazy or what?)
Well, today marks the 8th year after my grandpa passed away. Should I talk about him? Hmmm.
My mum is very disappointed and sadden by the fact that I care more about RX than my grandpa. Well, I didn't tell her what cause me to hate my grandpa. (all because he hurt her)
It's not as though I never love him. Please. Come on. I was very very close with my thai relatives, especially my grandparents. I had a picture whereby I was 3, (I think), whereby my grandpa was carrying me and I bit his nipple. (er...) I like to bite his nipple. I don't know why. My grandma? How about me and her? I kept searching the storeroom and took out her heels to play.
Then at 8 or 9, at Chaing Mai, I witnessed a fight(worst) between him and mum. Well, then mum always told me about stories and I didn't witness only 1 fight. (I got over it. kind of.) Yupp. The thing is, you tell me so many things that you are hurt by them, how do I love them? (that tells me my mum still don't know how much I love her. stupid.) raa. Forget it. Ever since, I cannot stand to even look at my grandparents. However, when they passed away, do you think my heart aches? HAHA> My mum don't think so. She didn't see the tear in my eyes, she can't feel the pain in me, better still, she never manage to take away the transparent mask I have on my face. If she did, she can touch my face, and get the feel of the sorrows in me. Forget it.
My grandparents and my gay cousin always bring me to this vast greenland(celebrations are normally held here) near the temple(the most sinificant?) to fly kite. Always without fail. Kites. Haha. That is how I wrote a touching chinese compo about kite. Haha.x
Kites. I once own 2 kites, both are gone. Where are they? I don't know. I never know. My lovely kites.
Whatever. Pain. Ouch. Haha.x Emo. RAA. (I should stop saying raa. ws says it is so much better. my raa is filled with pain. lol)
I wonder where are you guys? You guys are my precious men now. But all of you are separated. I wonder if I still have the chance to see you guys again. Mama said you, you, you, you and you scolded her, disregard her. Only you did not change. Where are you guys? Still remember me? Will you guys heartlessly forget your only female cousin still living in SIngapore? Well you guys horribly disregard me when we meet again? Will I ever have the chance to hear my nieces and nephews calling my 'bah wii'?
~He works in ways we cannot see, He will make a way for me, He will be my guide, hold me closely to His side, with love and strength for each new day, He will make a way, He will make a way~
[[27/7/07]]
RAA! I am so dirty now la. LOL. I don’t want to bath yet because later I am going out to pass SM something.
I am so tired, exhausted, feeling as though I can BOOOM anytime on the floor and sleep.
Today was the humans week for sec3 and some classes took part in this amazing race.
GAME MASTERS: LYNN and I, SM and Hui Qi, Jeanie and Sharon, Shidah and Shi Hong, Ze Hang and Darryl, MS and Fish, Evelyn and Faza, Amal and?
Facilitators: CCH, XD, Belle, Izzaty, Ruz, Danial, JieH, Yaya, HongD
It was crazy. We dropped off at City Hall MRT station. Then Jared, a.k.a, cat, asked LYNN and I to go to our venue first. We were so blurr. None of us know how to go to CWM can? LOL. It was raining somemore. Then we saw the structure. WOOHOO!
But it was raining and there were no shelter so we hid inside the strcture and then LYNN said 'here got no life.' PAN. LOL. LYNN kept asking me to take picture if her. RAA. lol. There were a few tourists. I felt awkward when they gave the look 'why are you here?' A teacher joined us. He was nice, he offered to lend us his umbrella and went away to get scotch-tapes for the game.
30 minutes had not passed when the first 2 first 2 groups arrived. They were in such hurry that their facilitator could not catch up with them la. Then L and I gave them the intructions and timed them and gave the points. One of JieH's group members, Aishah, she used her teeth to tear the scotch-tape and used her hair pins to 'stick' the straws. so interesting.
Yaya's team was like cannot stop complaining about a group took their turn or something. The way Yaya complains is so cute.
HD's group was very stressed. The atmosphere around them was so tense.
Izzaty's group was funny.
All 8 groups came and L and I finished our jobs at 3pm.
That shouldn't be it so Jared came and brought L and I to Fort Canning to kill the groups.
We walked pass ROM. That stupid cat looked at me and said something about MS. WHATEVER. Then I talked back by saying 'Jared, I go grab a dog here and you marry it.'
I want to shave the cat's fur. LOL.
He killing the teams, L and I were killed too.
At FCP, our phones' kept ringing. Then the cat said many teams were coming. Then the 1st team came. Then 3 teams came at the same time. Then, 4th team, 5th team, 6th team. Jared were gone by then. L and I were short of labour. All the teams kept shouting for scotch-tapes but we dd not have enough. We had 2 masking tapes and a scotch-tape only. L and I were running everywhere la.
We asked them to so a Singapore flag of the size of the table. We reused the straws. I love stars. When I saw the teams making stars with stars, I almost fell in love with all.
They were supposed to bring the flag back to school. Then, all their stars and cresents were hanging, using tape. So cute! Haha.x
Frankly, I dislike XD and Belle's groups. First, they were rude. Second, they were irresposible. Third, they didn't have the correct game spirit. They were 5th team to arrive if I didn't remember wrongly. By that time, the tapes were limited. They kept saying things like 'How can we do without the tapes?', 'Why don't have tapes?' and one of them said 'Is you all don't have tape, so if we cannot do is your wrong.' 'How to do without tapes?'
Each group was given $3 for transport. That rude group kept taking cab (they paid with their own $) and abandon their facilitators. They were supposed to stick with their facilitators can? Why take cab when you can take MRT or bus? Rich people? I have a sense of fan gan towards rich people and strongly against those who thinks they have money so they can forget about taking cheaper or spending little. This particular grouo don't understand the meaning of challenge at all.
Am I mean to talk bad about that group? Not at all.
The teacher came to FCP too and helped us to clean up. Then I did the worst thing I can to the earth. I threw 9 packets of straws, plastic..
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I did the most embarrasing thing I can today. I was giving command to my juniors. I said 'KE-BRAGAN-LURUS!'
MY GOODNESS!!! That was so embarrasing la. I practically threw whatever face I have. LOL. We started at 9am instead of 8am because of PA. Raa.
The MC said 'The parade commander for this year is Staff Sargent Lim Shi Hong. Lt's welcome him...' I lol lor.
Then he commanded, I LOL again. Because yesterday the station masters were joking in the bus on the way back, then SH was very noisy. Then Sarah said 'Tomorrow you can shout as much as you can la!' (something like that)
It was raining so hard yesterday.
That makes me miss you more sis...
~accept it, it'd destined. but do your best out of it~
I am sick. lol
To
SOK: hey thought of a song, Jap song,
the A*teens that one will be superb too. That was introduced to me by Da jie.
RAA!!! I am sick! LOL. I slept at midnight yesterday and woke up at 1222 today and I woke up because my mum was crushing me. Then I kept sneezing until me asked me to sleep at 4pm. I AM SO TIRED!
I had started on English homework already, done ¼ of her work. LOL.
I thought it through yesterday. I may love someone a lot but I won’t talk to that person. I will do things behind his or her back. It’s not easy for me to tell someone verbally that I love that person. In fact, if you asked, I only told my history teacher in sec2, 3 times, she got shy. I really meant it. I never tell LYNN, DIDI, the 6 of us. No, I did tell RX, which was kind of late. When I love someone, I don’t want that person to know, and want that person to know too. Mixed-desires. When I care about somebody, I don’t let that person know. Are all these considered as selfish? I just prefer to work background. Though often I will get hurt when the person did something which I disagree, which I never tell them. Hmmm. I am hurting myself isn’t it? I love pain. HAHA! Ya right.
I told someone that to cry when she wants to; I told her I never console people when they cry. The reason behind is, they ought to. If they want to, then let it flow. But, after that, they have to stand up. That is a principle I follows. Perhaps many agree with me, but never do, but I know I do... or at least did.
Come to think of it, actually, I like to do things to show the people I love that I hate them. I like to, but don’t do that often.
~only when you love, then you will cry~
The 6 of us. aft pop. most hyper, guess tt might be the last chance the 6 of us wearing full u together and take pic.

i am sad.
TO: SM
haha. k? can see?
TO: SM and WS
really thanks for yesterday.
TO: WS
I PRAYED! BEFORE and AFTER exams! WOOHOO! xD
TO: B
so you read my blog ar... feel like crapping about you.. now gotto be careful.. Tsk.
LOL. GREAT NEWS! HIST (elec) was SUPERB! I wrote 5 full pages. Haha. All factors done for both SEQ. WOOHOO!
Crazy or what... Haha. I am died for SS/GEO. I did the qns on manufacturing and tourism. If I got everything correct, I can only get 24/50! Haha. Fail. WTH la. LOL.
Pool is fun.
going to crap on my friendster blog.
xD
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
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