Great. I will be going to visit her at her *** later. Isn't it nice? I thought I will feel extremly sad today but no, I didn't. Am I bad? I only know that my mind keep refreshing 7/6/06-10/6/06... I can't help it. I will be seeing her picture again later? Will it be black and white or coloured? They used the picture when she had long hair or short hair? Am I being emo today? Maybe.

Read LYNN's blog? Hahax. I think she didn't hit it. Haha. SORRY LYNN! Maybe because I am, a guo lai ren, so I think I will understand more. Hahax. Take note, I said GUO LAI REN... Haha. I am still facing family problems. It's never hard to get over each problem. And each time you manage to get over one, another comes up. It's torturing, isn't it? I cut myself before, to get rid of the so call 'inner pain' but come on, you know it yourself, you just do it for some kind of subsitution and sastifaction. What's the use? oh ya, i cut myself on 9/6/06 when i received the call which nobody would want to receive. Maybe there is a use, but we must be clear that this isn't the best for us, neither the worst... Let time heals, don't act on impulse, seriously.

OK, I don't have the mood to blog much until, I visit her.. At M... Ya. 4th sis... I am coming... buying carnations for you by the way...
Tempted to really go to heaven with you, but God forbids, so do I... I am not childish and unrealistic, I know you want to see us here, continuing our life, get on... happily.

2 more days.

Got the trigger today and I cried in class!

What the hell. [Thanks Chin more your back.]

Hahax. Lucky it was during breaktime. I guessed I would cry more on the day itself. Will her church friends be there? What will they do? It had been one year. Will God let her return home to gather with us? I think He will. Won't He?

I wanted to say sorry to someone. I guess I offended her. I didn't mean too and I was not about to explain to her at that moment. You see, I wanted those cookies so much. Then I paid WS and asked her to buy for me. Those cookies had been on my wishlist leh. I wanted to have it myself then since today it comes with Xin Di's. It's different. The meaning kinda gone. [IN my view] I am really sorry.


So yesterday I was thinking about the 6 of us, sisters. Why can't we have a proper picture? I mean, where 6 of us are all there. Then when it's left with 5 of us, one was having dance. Bad timing? The only picture we had, is only a neo-print, and we were clumsy that time. Remember that movable 'camera'? Silly.

Anyway, I wish I can walk your dog. May I? I miss him... I think it miss you as much as we do.

Some teacher made us go back to school on Sunday to take our drill test. In that morning I called several people to ask the way to write an L5 paragraph for SEQ. I called Sarah who asked me to call Faza, who asked me to call Sabrina, who eventually was sleeping! Then I called Darryl, Mei Qiao and Pearlyn. All were busy people apparently. Lolx.

The DI stays at Kovan, she said she left her house at 7am and travelled to blah blah, blah blah and blah. She was supposed to give our drill test at 4.30pm. I wore my full u at 4pm. In the end, the DI reached at 6plus! She was the one who usher us during drill comp. She is nice and funny. Like her. xD

Only Shirley, Dorothy and I took the stage 3 drill test. And, I PASSED. Right after the test[before she count the marks] she said she in fact was very sure that we passed. WOOHOO~~ Then during stage 2 drill test, we asked her again. She said that we were not consistent sometimes. Ya. And she said I almost failed, by 1 mark. BY 1 MARK. Which means I was bad, isn't it? Well, my 2 seniors were very happy that they passed and expected me to scream along with them but hell no. I wasn't good. She said that she caught me looking down, [at stage3, you should look very smart], then she looked at me again, I looked straight. really??? And she added that if we want to go for the DI course next year, we must really train hard. Our steps were nice but not smart enough. Ouch.. Smartness. Like how? I do see other companies march smartly but their steps were so off! You want me to be like that?

That night I was so sad lor. Then, LYNN was expressing her happiness for me in the SMS. After bathing, some to think of it, YES! I DID IT! It may be a bad pass, but it's a pass. I just need more training and improve my smartness to go for the DI course. Great. x) well... but next year will be jc1 for me..

Oh ya. That sunday, it was still our GB camp for my juniors. So we stayed back and helped out. i was frustated by the fact that my sec2 and 3 juniors were doing everything for my sec1 juniors who were sitting comfortably in the canteen fanning themselves after dinner.
Kids nowadays... expect others to do things for them... sheesh.