DAD.

TO DAD:

when i dont study or do my work, you scold me.
when i said i wanna stay at home to complete my work, you scold me.

you want good results from me.
but when i allocated my time today to be for staying at home and doing my work.
you are unhappy.
why? just becos i aint doing things according to your plan.
this is ridiculous.
i just wanted to stay at home to do my work today.
but you made a big fuss out of it.
you shouted like a mad person just now.

and when i said, my mid sem test is just 2 weeks away.
you said, 'you aint that studious what. why are you studying now?'
like WTFUCK!
im studying and you are unhappy.

you cant possibly expect me to do everything according to your plans.
different people has different ways of allocating their time.
so you cant expect others' plan to be the same as yours.
sometimes you are just so not understanding.

im really set to study now.
i have set up my mind.
i must not slack anymore.
i must sit down to do my work and study.
im busy during the weekdays.
so i want to finish that weeks' tutorial during the weekends.
but you just wont understand.
cos my way of planning and your way of planning aint the same.
so you get angry. WTFUCK!

i have already planned my time.
im going to set aside time to revent my room after my tests.
that's only time i'll be free to pack my room and not have so much happening and waiting for me to do.
CANT YOU JUST UNDERSTAND?!

you just know how to get angry and use you temper to talk to me and to think.

think larh. using your brain and heart.
i really wanna do well now.
but you just kept putting down.
im motivated to study now.
but you. you think otherwise.
you just love to think that im going to fail.
going to get bad grades.
going to screw my tests and exams up.

let me tell you.
HELL NO. im not going to screw anything up now.

i dont care if you disapproves of how i plan my time.
but as i said, its my time.
maybe you dont have the time to go and buy the things for me.
but nvm.

guess my mum understands and is very willing to go get the things with me when im free.
i seriously hate you dad.
i hate your temper.
i hate the temperamental you.
guess its the time of the month for you again.
but still.
i hate you.
everyone has their temper.
and if you realised, i dont even bother arguing with you anymore.
i'll just keep quiet when you are shouting like a mad man at home.
cos you just love to put me down.
you just love to think i wont succeed.
you are not worthy of my effort to argue with you.
I WILL REALLY PROVE YOU WRONG! real wrong.