hello.

kristelle called me on night and told me a shocking news.
'Bo Han's dead'

i did not immediately believe her.
but i thought, 'no one will be so dumb to play this kind of prank one hors.'
although i was still in a state of unbelieve, i accepted it very unwillingly.

i was so shocked that i started crying uncontrollably.
i cant accept that actually.
after, i got the hold of myself.
i called jamie.
she dint believe a bit in the beginning.
but i manage to put it across firmly then it is true.
so, both of us had difficulties falling asleep.
when i close my eyes, images of bohan will appear.
it is super hard to believe that he's gone.
so, i was tossing and turning unitl i finally manage to fall asleep.
dint even know why i manage to doze off.
perhaps, im really too tired and drained liaos.

hence, we went to his service today.
i was late, and felt very guilty of it.
when i finally got to the church, cos i dun actually know the way there.
just anyhow walk and try to find it.
i dint dare to go into the hall.
stayed downstairs while hearing the service go on through the speaker.
felt like crying but just cant cry. =(
saw shan hong came, he was late too.
we dint dare to go up until ruirong msg-ed me saying that, there are other late comers too.
so we went up.
when i finally got upstairs and saw his picture, i started crying.
i thought, 'so is true. he's dead.'
finally, i plucked up the courage to go into the hall.
saw jamie crying and i started crying again.
after the service, went home with a very heavy heart.

now, im starting to accept the fact that he's gone.
although im still sad, but i no longer feel like crying.
i guess he doesn't want to see us all crying over at the other side too.
anyway, he left us all on 10th December 2006.

all i can say now is,
'LIFE IS VERY FRAGILE!'
and bohan will forever be missed by me.
im gonna miss his crappy-ness.

my deepest condolences to his family...

this has really made me treasure all the people in my life.
im glad everyone is still alive and kickin.
thanks for entering my life!

treasure the people around you, you never know when they may be gone forever...
seize the opportunity, never have regrets...