Arsonist's Lullabye~*

"Still water runs deep."

"And you can never perceive its real depth."

"That describes you."

~*~*~*~

"Don't you ever tame your demons
Always keep them on a leash."



Hozier.
He took me somewhere dangerous.

~*~*~*~

Dancer in the night~*

There will be days when you want nothing but solitude and stillness, and you wish you could shut out the voices.
But to your horror, the voices exist, even within stillness, even when there's nothing more to say.

There will be days when you crash and feel utterly defeated, and you wish for everything to end abruptly, at the snap of your fingers.
But, no. You're not in control. Not now.

There will be days when your heart takes over, and poisoned blood courses through your body. You want to let the poison flow out of your system.
But the hands tremble, and you drop on your knees in fear - fear of your uninhibited audacity.

Go away, now, you. 

Then,

there will be days when you want to fight the malicious thoughts and destructive urges, and you actually think that you may be able to defeat them.
And you fight. Hard.

Fight, get bruised and wounded, but not stopping.
You cannot stop. Not now.

And there will also be days when the heart becomes lighter, and there's a certain bounce in your steps.
You choose the happier songs to listen to, and being around people doesn't seem like such a repulsive idea.

The ears don't hurt, and the eyes get accustomed to the light.
And you manage a smile, a giggle, a laughter.

And then...


Fluctuating states,
and ironically, instability being the constant.

"Disconcerting."
"But to me, it's comforting."

The darkness is beautiful.

You're a dancer in the night.

Sometimes,
words and feelings
have nowhere to go.

Too painful to realise;
too intense to hide.

Lingering,
somewhere.

Gradually,
slowly,
lost.
...
..
.