Welcome 2012!~*

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I'm going to try and avoid all the cliches because I think I've overused them in the past (refer to all my 'new year' entries starting from year 2005).

So, to sum this year up,

it has been a good year :)

Smooth-sailing, no roller coaster rides, tranquil and relatively happy.

Although there are shitty moments (definitely), it's really not so bad when you look at them again.. because it could have been worse. 

Hmm.. how should I put it?

The conversation with amber kind of hits all the right places.

"Enough said about me. What about you?"

"My life is really not happening at all. Really boring.

But that's what I want from life. I don't want extreme ups and downs. I want stability and peacefulness..."

Again, it's back to appreciating all the simple pleasures that I have been blessed with.

This may be due to a change in perspectives - the way you view life determines the kind of life you will lead. 

Anyhow, my life may not be as happening as others', I may not have achieved as much as others, do not possess as many tangibles as others, may not be fortunate enough to be able to travel around the world, may not have hordes of friends or a wide social circle, may not lead the most enviable life...

I'm still grateful for what I do have - the little satisfaction that I get from what I'm studying/doing, the blessings I receive from people, the times when I feel happy through and through, the important people I have in my life...

all these are what truly matter to me :) For that, I feel very, very grateful already.


So let's see. Have I fulfilled what I set out to achieve in year 2011?
(From here)

So, now, my new year resolutions for year 2011!

1. Approach everything with an open mind and an open heart. (I think I did... especially the fact that I took up an internship, which I normally wouldn't)

2. Cast a positive light on negative thoughts (I did try pretty often I guess)

3. Reduce depressing entries and update more about the happy things in my life - this blog shall not be a breeding ground for depression (hahaha! Ehh... I guess so? Not too sure about this though. but amber did tell me that it got less depressing. hmmm??)

4. Reduce expenditure (hahahaha! hmm... in a way??)

5. Give my 200% in everything I do (I did try my best... so is that 200%? haha)

6. Be more sociable (trying, trying)

7. Clean up my room more often (FAIL. FAIL. FAIL)

8. Be thankful for the day, everyday of my life. (more or less... :))

9. Initiate more gatherings with friends, both old and new (hmmm... sometimes?)

10. Stop being so whiny at times (HAHAHA I think I'm still whiny)

11. Play the piano when I'm free. Don't let my skills become rusty. (FAIL. my skills are super rusty now)

12. Be thankful to people who have stood/will stand by me. (Yes, thank you :))

13. Be accepting of imperfections - both mine as well as others (others yes, mine no)

14. Make the effort to keep in contact with loved ones (I guess :))

15. Start saving! (Ehh.....)

16. Sleep early, for goodness' sake. (FAIL, again)

17. Spend more time with my family (I do take the effort to have dinner at home more often nowadays.. maybe that's still not quite enough?)

18. Don't compare (FAIL) 

19. Learn things that I'd wanted to learn - sign language and morse code (HAHAHA) (FAIL!!!!!!!!!!!)

20. Treat my belongings with care (hmm... alright... I guess)

21. Love life (yes, I think I do, to a small extent but still)

Verdict: Slight improvement shown in terms of fulfilling the new year resolutions. :)

And here are my new year resolutions for year 2012! 

1. Have more patience

2. Spend more time with my family

3. Be more organized

4. Be less afraid to speak up

5. Have a clear and concrete goal to work towards

6. Do not take people and their act of kindness for granted

7. Save more

8. Sleep earlier

9. Eat more fruits and vegetables and cut back on unhealthy junk food (type A diet)

10. Love more selflessly

11. Do household chores diligently

12. Do not procrastinate

13. Smile with teeth MORE OFTEN

14. BE MORE POSITIVE and stop complaining and whining

15. Be more outspoken

16. Spend more time with the significant people in my life

17. Gain more confidence 

18. Kick the bad habits 

19. Trust > Distrust

20. Stop sleeping with wet hair

21. Take ownership for the things I do - and be proud of the work I do. 

22. Learn to hold on and learn to let go (where appropriate) 

22 resolutions for the to-be-twenty-two-year-old-me. 

Some of the resolutions are pretty vague. The real meaning behind them remains hidden, only visible to me. 

Someone told me before that resolutions matter only if you adhere to them conscientiously. 

In other words, I can write over a 100 resolutions but ultimately, words are just words. 

It's up to us to give it some meaning and to make things happen and materialize. 

Hence, I don't want these to be just words written down for the sake of reassuring myself that I do have goals. 

I am already in my early twenties.

Which means that it's time for me to take responsibility for my decisions and the paths that I choose and every change that I am determined to make. 

2012.

A year of which, unfortunately, armageddon is being predicted to take place.

I'm treating all these massive amount of depressing information with a pinch of salt.

But let's say, just maybe, what if it turns out to be true?

Personally, this will act as a reminder for me to constantly stop and check what I'm doing, as well as to count my blessings and be thankful for every moment that my heart is kept beating... 

Because life is truly unpredictable, any moment can be your last. 

Before you start frowning at this seemingly unhappy twist here, the previous sentence really doesn't contain any negative connotation but is written in a perfectly neutral tone - as if stating a fact. 

It is a fact. Consequently, all the more it's important to OPEN YOUR EYES and BE GLAD with what we have at this moment. 

We gain something, we lose something. It's almost inevitable.

But, what I can do is to tighten my grip on the things that I don't want to lose.

That's my most important new year resolution for year 2012 - to learn to hold on and to learn to let go. 

Hold on to the the significant things/people in life, and let go of things that are accompanied with unhappiness and negativity... things that are always lurking around.

(I grouped them together because without one, you can't have the other)

Crying, laughing, I met myself.

Thank you, year 2011. 

And now, welcome 2012! :)

To happiness, optimism and lots of smiles and laughter!  

Reflections I~*

Have been updating this space pretty often. 

Not entirely sure why, but perhaps, to me, writing is a way of reflection and introspection and I do that often when I'm spending time with myself :)

Anyway, it's already 30th December.
The last Friday of year 2011.
Two more days till the end of this year.

Found some random photos here and there and decided to throw them all together here.
Not that they are the significantly more important events in my life - there are many, many more that are not captured on camera/not uploaded here, but still, they are important to me nonetheless :)

It warmed my heart when I looked through all these photos... And it made me realize several things (which I will update in the next post)

In random order (I'm too lazy to organize them properly)

yummy birthday cake from Cold Stone Creamery - from ks&sis
@tunglok with family

@sentosa with bins

@botanic garden with the lovelies

awesome, awesome roselle tea that's simply unforgettable!!!
@Dozo with Mr Z

HAHAHA.
Another unforgettable gift from Mr Z's super adorable niece! :D 

My virgin try at Classic Margarita
(can do w/o the salt rim though haha)
@New Asia bar with Mr Z

Alcohol remains a mystery to me but this one is good :)
Anyway, we somehow ended up at the VIP section
(an honest mistake but I can't say I'm remorseful about it  HAH)

beautiful! Doesn't look like Singapore, does it?
@CHIJMES 

I find this photo extremely heartwarming... :)
@ROM with family

the cousins! :)
@Goodwood Park Hotel

EL!!!!!!!!!!!!! <3

the cute poodle that P loved to death

I loved this puppy! They are xmas presents for our supervisors!!
@CGC 

  Mushroom crepe! Lunch with the interns! (we sure know how to enjoy haha)
@Marche 

wow this is REALLY abrupt
@MBS grand ballroom (Mr Z's D&D)

Super impressive ballroom!
Tagged along cos that's probably the ONLY chance I can set foot
into such a grand ballroom 

'GO GO GEISHA' salad
I love, love, love, love, love, LOVE this!!!
@Saladstop

Psych Xmas gathering!!
@Raymond's house

FOOD!! Potluck!

everyone was laughing at this sitting arrangement.
kind of reminds you of AA or some support group, doesn't it? haha!

HAHAHA YT!

Yummy logcake/farewell cake for R&XL...
Really gonna miss R's impersonation of Al and XL's random texts!! :(

WHAT'S WRONG WITH YL?!

PSYCHED!!

HEHEHE :D

THE $$$ coffee machine - tried 2 cups!
@ks and sis' new house!

think I will go there often for coffeee!

Xmas + house warming with the gang!
@ks&sis' new home :)

Eve of Xmas eve with tako!
@town

why is she so tall??? :(

pretty tree! :)

ADORABLE NAKED THINGY!!! (not sure what's tt)
I can't stop laughing when I see it
:D :D :D :D :D 

Tada! My fruit salad which most of my family members enjoyed! :D
Looks yummy, no? :)
@home on Xmas night

Lots of fruits, veggies, yoghurt dressing. yums!
母女搭档! :D 

HOHOHO!
My baby ~

And lots, lots more...

Things that are stored in my long term memory... for a long, long time :)

When pragmatism comes in the way...~*

Had a good talk with Mabel.
while doing module planning for the next semester, I realized how horribly pragmatic I am.
Well, that's not to say that pragmatism is not good, it's just that it undermines everything else - interest, passion etc etc.

To put it simply, I have been spending lots of time studying for modules that may not be the ones I'm most interested in.
Reason being?
They are relatively easier to score (that's mainly referring to my electives).

Therefore, due to my fear of failures and bad grades, I often choose the easier way out.
That's cowardice to a very large extent, isn't it?

I really admire people who dare to take risks and study what they really want to study.
It takes a fair amount of courage to be able to 'go do what you truly want to do', even though it may result in a nasty fall and bruised ego.

"You really know what you want to do."

Sounds familiar.

That's what people told me when I told them I'm going to do Psychology in NUS and FASS is the only choice I applied for (the rest being rubbish ranked for the sake of filling up the spaces) and I didn't apply to any other universities.

Where did that courage disappear to?

It may be a decision made on the spur of the moment.
But at that very moment, nothing was clearer than that - I want to do Psychology and nothing else.
So, I told myself that I am ready to face the consequences in future if I do badly in it/ if I can't get a good paying job/if I can't even find a job in future. At least, it's my choice and it's a field where my passion lies.

That's quite unlike me, considering how I'm the kind of person who plans a safe route and prefers stability and predictability over uncertainty and spontaneity.

And when school started, I had taken modules that I'm interested in - without giving a damn to the fact that they might be killer mods (e.g. European studies, Chinese music & literature).

But soon after, something changed within me.
My mindset had changed into the 'safe and cowardly' frame of mind.

However, that doesn't mean I hadn't enjoyed the modules.
In retrospect, I did enjoy the many modules I have taken for the past 5 semesters.
But, it's just that I wish I had taken some other modules that I had eyed for longingly...


This being the 6th semester (a pretty crucial semester) is again making me choose my modules with utmost care...
And I really despise this kind of behaviour.
Which is why, even after writing so much rubbish and talking so much with my friends, I still can't come to a conclusion.
I really should just take what I want to take - atypical development and language instead of lab in memory and cognition... shouldn't I?

ohhh... I don't know...
It's not a case of a typical story whereby the 'good' triumphs the 'bad' (because you are probably guessing that in the end, I'll choose 'atypical development' over lab).
Reality is always more complex than that - perhaps I'm just waiting for cognitive dissonance to kick in.

Beauty And The Beast 3D~*

March 22nd 2012!

I'm definitely going to catch this!! :D

(One of the very few Walt Disney animated films - the other being The Lion King - that made me cry when I watched it nearly 15 or 16 years ago?)

I want to relive that moment again :)

On a sidenote,

I have been feeling really lethargic lately.

And I believe this is largely attributed to my lack of sleep and heightened level of cortisol due to module planning.

Urgh. So... lab in memory and cognition OR atypical development?? Bahasa Indo OR Geman???

Gosh. Thinking about all these gives me a nasty headache.

Anyway, the interns have self-declared the next few days as new year holidays hahaha. Oops.

ok, back to beauty&thebeast.


why do I like it so much?

Because
1. Technically speaking, it's not exactly a story between 'prince charming' and 'princess'.
2. Belle loves to read
3. The very fact that Belle is able to look beyond Beast's appearance to appreciate and love him for who he is. It's the kind of love that's seldom portrayed in fairy tales. And the kind of love that most of us seek for... and rarely happens.
4. Selfless love being demonstrated repeatedly throughout the story.
5. THE SONGS.
6. I acted as 'Belle' before when I was in primary 1. (and... let's not talk about it)

Some people may dismiss it as just another fairy tale; another fictional tale which ends with 'happily ever after'.
Maybe it really is.
But nevertheless, personally, it had touched me deeply, though I can't exactly recall the minute details (need to watch it again!).

I can go on and on about how much I love this story but I shan't. :)
I shall just post this very, very classic song which captures the entire essence of the story.

the classic scene. :) :) :)

my social awkwardness~*

The events during the long weekend created several good opportunities for me to people-watch, observe and practise my ability to make small talk.

I believe many of us have had our share of experiences with 'awkward silence' when there's absolutely nothing to talk about and whatever rubbish we are concocting in our minds to voice out just seem stupid when we imagine ourselves saying them aloud.

You know, the very, very tense moment when everybody stares on the floor/suddenly very engaged with the phones/look everywhere to avoid eye contact. 

Well, perhaps that doesn't apply to people who are comfortable with speaking their minds and have witty things to contribute (...eh, not really since some people do end up saying very random and strange things to fill the silence which makes the situation a whole lot more awkward...). 

Anyway, I'm certainly not a glib talker so... such awkward situations happen pretty often to me.

And what's worse is that usually nobody else will want to initiate any small talk so I'll be the one to clear my throat and make some horribly superficial comment to ease the atmosphere a little...

So usually I'll end up being the chatty one among a group of people who are more reserved. 

Eh...Hello? Me? 

I'm supposed to be the reserved one, aren't I?

Maybe that's just because I feel really uncomfortable when the atmosphere is very awkward. 

At times, it gets so unbearable that I just want to bolt out of my seat and leave the place before the awkwardness materializes into something that constricts my throat. 

Hmm... I'm a little extreme here but yes, so oftentimes, due to all these unbearable circumstances, I will end up being the noisy one who, in my opinion, talks too much and laughs too loudly and become overly agreeable. 

But after a few minutes into the conversation, I'll more or less ease into my more 'natural' self. 

That's when I'll start speaking more coherently and more intelligently. 

Anyhow, the bottom line is that I'm still trying to overcome this social awkwardness and fear of meeting new people...

okay, maybe not 'fear' but something milder - I'm so tempted to use 'shy' but it sounds disgusting on me. 

okay, I'm shy. 

So you see, people who are more observant will notice that I'm a very 'slinky' person who takes the shape of the container, if you know what I mean.

with people as reserved as/more reserved than me, I will appear talkative.

with the outspoken people, I will appear reserved and quiet.

BUT, with people I'm comfortable with, I will be somewhere in the middle, bordering on 'chatty', depending on the topic and the people. 

However, each time I walk into a room of new faces, I may appear calm on the outside, but there are actually swarms and swarms of butterflies fluttering frantically about inside my stomach...

Sometimes, it gets so bad that my heart is actually palpitating in fear. 

And all these while, I'm still smiling.

which is why I have a tendency to avoid social gatherings and whatnot...

I have been reflecting on this and trying to trace the root cause of this... uneasiness.

1. I'm afraid of evaluations and judgement.

2. I have no confidence, hence point 1.

3. Biological disposition - high on 'shyness'.

4. I am a solitary creature 

5. I don't like to make small talk

6. I'm scared of awkward silences. 

7. I'm not good at talking.

Hmm... in the end, the more probable causes are really point 1, 2 and 3, especially point 2. 

So, that shall go onto my list of new year resolutions.

oh yes, soon, it's time for reflections again! 

There are actually more things I want to talk about but... shall leave them for next time :) 

Merry Christmas!~*

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Merry Christmas Eve everybody! :)

It's the time of the year again - of lovely carols, great food, excellent ambience, dazzling lights and rain, rain, rain!!

Enjoy the LONG weekend and soak yourselves in the festive mood!
Feliz Navidad! :)

This is a Christmas song from Beauty & the Beast (Enchanted Christmas edition. Have I mentioned that my favourite Disney animation is Beauty & the Beast?? And my all-time favourite character is Belle?? Ok, that's deserving of another entry altogether hehe)
 I loved this animated film to bits when I was really young (I had it in VHS, can you believe it???)
Anyway, it's 'As Long As There's Christmas' by Peabo Bryson and Roberta Flack.
Holds great meaning for me. Nostalgia much! :)
Enjoy!!

There is more
To this time of year
Than sleigh bells and holly
Mistletoes and snow
Those things will come and go
Come and go


Don't look inside a stocking
Don't look under the tree
The one thing we're looking for
Is something we can't see
Far more precious than silver
And more splendid than gold
Is something to treasure
But is something we can't hold


As long as there's Christmas
I truly believe
That hope is the greatest of the gifts
We'll receive 


As we all pray together
It's the time to rejoice
And though we may look different
We are singing with one voice


As Long As there's Christmas
I truly believe
That hope is the greatest of the gifts
We'll receive

This is the original one from the movie :)

Belle: 

There is more to this time of year 

Than sleigh bells and holly 

Mistletoe and snow 

Those things come and go 

Much deeper than snow 

Stronger than the strongest love we'll know 

We'll ever know 

As long as there's Christmas I truly believe 

That hope is the greatest of the gifts we'll recieve 

As long as there's Christmas we'll all be just fine 

A star shines above us lighting your 

Way and mine 

Cogsworth: 

Just as long as there's Christmas 

There will be Christmas pud 

Tons of turkey... 

Mrs. Potts: 

And cranb'ry sauce 

And mince pies if we're good 

Lumiere: 

Loads of logs on the fire 

The Ornaments: 

Lots of gifts on the tree 

All wrapped up in red ribbons... 

Chip: 

Wonder if there's one for me 

Cogsworth: 

We are due for a party 

Where on earth do we start? 

Fi-Fi: 

I may wear my tiara 

You bought me in Monmartre 

Cogsworth: 

All the silver will sparkle 

Mrs. Potts: 

And the china will gleam 

Lumiere: 

And we'll all be as shiny 

As a brand-new centime 

Chip: 

After dinner we'll play games 

Mrs. Potts: 

'Till the morning breaks through 

Lumiere: 

Then we'll meet in the garden 

This is what we shall do 

Chip: 

We will build us a snowman 

That will reach up to the sky 

Belle: 

It will stay up until July 

Belle/Chorus: 

As long as there's Christmas I truly believe 

That hope is the greatest of the gifts we'll recieve 

Chorus: 

As long as our guiding star shines above 

Belle: 

As long as there's Christmas we'll all be just fine 

Belle/Chorus: 

There'll always be Christmas 

Belle: 

So there always will be a time 

When the world is filled with peace and love.

 

Results~*

I'm overwhelmed with so much dread and worry that I really feel like throwing up.

I wonder if I can even fall asleep tonight.
We shall see what happens tomorrow (correction: today) then...
What else...?

Updates~*

Lovely tree @vivo

Are you in the christmas mood already? :)

In my opinion, I think what put me in the christmas mood are really the carols, the weather and the gorgeous christmas lights.

The songs may be the same old carols that get repeated year after year, they are nevertheless indispensable!

Much like the chinese new year songs.

For some reason, it's hard for me to get tired of them :)

[I'm listening to Michael Buble's 'Let It Snow' album now]

1. 112 KATONG

HAHAHA
after many, many, many failed shots

Mr Z and I decided to venture to katong!

It was the first time to katong (YES, I'M A NOOB). 

Anyway, it's a relatively small mall and ostensibly, it's a rather atas mall. 

Jas: atas mall eh.

Z: how do you know?

Jas: Carpet flooring! 

And they are super generous with their air conditioners. 

Anyway, I really like the golds and browns and the orangey lighting in the mall. 

It gives off a really classy and christmas-sy feel (won't be that relevant once christmas is over).

Oh, and we caught MI there and the theatre is pretty impressive as well! 

And we had SOUP SPOON for dinner!

2. SOUP SPOON

I used to have a so-so attitude towards soup spoon (wrong choice of soup in the past, perhaps?).

But that was totally changed once I tasted the roasted pumpkin soup.

Absolutely yummy!! (I'm a BIG BIG fan of pumpkin. And I'm addicted) 

[sorry, no pics of the lovely orange soup - deleted a bunch of photos from my cam accidentally baaaah]

Asian Tofu Salad

this is the half-salad that came with the BFF set meal that both of us had.

Really like the asian vinaigrette dressing :)

Don't ask me why but sour foods score for me. cherry tomatoes!!! (I wrote 'cheery tomato' by mistake just now. but the redness does look cheery, doesn't it?) 

Anyway, something pretty strange happened AGAIN.

Waiter: Hey! It's you again. I was the one who served you last week, remember? :D

Jas: err...??? No I don't think it's me? O.O 

Have I mentioned that this happened once before, which was even more eerie.

Waitress: hey it's you again! I thought you just ordered your food?

Jas: huh? No, I just came. O.O

Waitress No la, cannot be. You were wearing the same shirt and ordered the same thing! 

hmm... 

Hello, my doppleganger.... 

3. Xmas celebration @ CGC

And so, the xmas celebration was pretty much a successful one :)

Enjoyed the caroling and magic show (real birds and rabbit!)

Although it was rather chaotic at times (and some of the children had to be restrained) and was quite a short one, it was nevertheless an eye-opener for me.

I never knew what it was like to have a big group of ASD children together... and some behaviours were really the classic autistic ones. 

Anyway, I enjoyed doing hand-painting for them.

I even had a request to draw the SMRT logo on his arm hahaha. 

and KH, who was helping me draw on the other kids, told the psychologist that "Well, I won't know how well she'll draw..."

HAHAHA it wasn't that bad, right!

P and I were very persistent to get WJ to
wear the reindeer headband.
But in the end we gave in and allowed him to
wear the santa hat instead haha

"NATIONAL DAY!!!"

that was the response of several psychologists when they saw us. 

And I totally agree with P about how red shirt/dress is such a good investment - national day, cny, xmas.

It was a pity J couldn't come that day :(

and we didn't take a pic with KH and ST as well!

Anyway, my fellow interns are really a fun-loving and awesome bunch :)

AND THEY ARE SUPER, SUPER SMART. from all the elite schools!

4. SOUTHBRIDGE JAZZ @ 7ATENINE

'7atenine' is such a funky name, isn't it? 

anyhow, that's a new place I wanna go! 

Have been searching high and low for a good jazz cafe/bar that's good for chilling out, serves good food and most importantly, has GOOD JAZZ/SWING music. :)

After reading through the reviews, I think this is a good choice!

When's the next big occasion?? ;)

[I JUST REALIZED IT HAS ALREADY CLOSED DOWN]

5. SIS' NEW HOME

Swarovski crystal light for her dining room. MAD PRETTY.

Been there once to chill out (and it's chilling cos the air-con is POWERFUL) in front of the 55 inch TV, in a room of black and silver. 

My sis and ks will probably be moving in real soon! :)

their apartment is of a really modern and contemporary design that's super stylish. 

[sorry, no pic again! but will take some on their house-warming]

The downside is that it's pretty small. 

(well, all apartments are down-sized, compared to those in the past, aren't they?) 

Anyway, it's still a great place to chill and hang around - especially the window ledge in the master bedroom!!! great place to sit and read next to the floor length window :)

6. *STATIC* 

Are we on the same frequency?

I believe that in one's life, there's a limited number of people whom you can call 'close friends'. 

Because there's much effort involved in sustaining friendships, and we only have this amount of capacity that we can invest in the people around us - significant others, family and friends. 

And of course, there's an important factor to consider - the ability of 2 persons to 'be on the same frequency'.

For me,  a minute into a conversation is enough to determine whether we possess the certain 'chemistry' to become friends. 

That ability to distinguish friends and acquaintance and strangers is a pretty well-developed one. 

However, I failed to realize that regression is a possibility.

That is, the dividing line is not a concrete one...

people can hover around the line - friends can easily become mere acquaintances, who can further regress into the 'strangers' zone. 

I want to find a reason to account for this.

But, in some cases, I really cannot find any. 

Anyway, to me, close friends are rare gems. 

Because there are only so few people with whom I can truly have a heart-to-heart session. 

If depth of friendship can be labelled with different labels (3 levels), most just stay at level 1 or 2.

Only a handful can proceed to 3. 

Is it because I lock up my rawest thoughts and feelings deep inside me, guarded by layers and layers of security? Perhaps.

If we can't be on the same frequency, you probably cannot empathize with me.

Hence, things we can talk about will always be about the most surface, most emotion-less content. 

because, there's no need for you to know more about me, right?

7. RAIN

I love the rain so much. (when I'm indoors)

Rain + Christmas songs + comfy sofa + green tea + good book = love love love love. 

 8. ANTS
My room is INFESTED WITH ANTS. (and till they really annoy me - like SMRT (tt's another story), I don't kill them...)
I know it's probably psychological but I'm constantly itching all over! urgh.

9. RANDOM SNAPSHOTS

Because I'm still not proficient in writing narratives, I shall let photos (that are not very pretty) to sum up my holidays thus far (and other memorable&random stuff :)) 

JX's 21st :)

<3

snail saviour!
the girls were freaking out hahaha!

Shimbashi soba!
I'm a sucker for soba (hot more than cold ones)!!! 

Mr Z's soba set! look at the yummy sashimi!! :)

Coffee bean breakfast! :)
love their california salad

Sushi express with sis, ks and mr z.
Haven't started eating and we already took so many plates hahaha.

charlie brown cafe with yy! :)

snoopy looks so lonely

what a cute crepe!

charlie brown! :)

my palm reading using the app in amber's phone

Joyce's 21st :)

JLWQ2

bins :)

presents from pig! :)

choc truffles from awfully chocolate for mum! :)
(was also eyeing the kahlua bars hee)
Thank you Z! :)

oohhh. looking yummy!
(haven't tried yet and my mum's already finishing both boxes)

sooo many failed shots!

:) you have 'me' there for you

Loves.

decided to end off this with a pic with mum that I dug from my folder
love.

I've got a million things to worry about (esp my results, which will be out soon...), to feel sad about, to feel frustrated about... 

which is why I look to them when I need a breather. 

thank you all, 

for enabling me to breathe again.