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due to my utmost stupidity, my previous entry was wiped out.
I don't like re-writing what I wrote earlier and furthermore, new thoughts have overtaken the old ones.
The gist of my previous entry was about how I've been impacted by the unhappiness that has been eating into the lives of some people around me.
It's an indescribable moment when your heart wrenches, not for yourself, but for others.
we experience
waves and torrents of despair, of heartache, of sadness
because of the fragility of the human heart; the way we succumb to our emotions and letting them take control of us.
human beings have the ability to kill without the need of physical contact.
just by using mere words, actions, tone.
without landing a finger on another person, we can make them flinch.
without being in close physical proximity, we can make them suffer and squirm in pain.
that's how powerful and powerless we are.
Emotions are what make us unique as human beings, and at the same time, it can possibly be our greatest Archilles heel.
Yet, there are people who survive ordeals after ordeals; who manage to keep emotions in check; who practises emotional distancing; who have, somehow, had their hearts set in rocks, armoured, protected by layers and layers of impenetrable metal...
from the many decades of practice?
or just from a more optimistic way of thinking?
I'd prefer reason number 2.
anyway,
I still hope the people around me who are going through some really tough times are able to get back on their feet once more.
it saddens me to witness how much psychological pain they're in at the moment,
and acknowledging that there's nothing much I can do to help...
except to be a listening ear and to be there to offer encouragement and tissue papers.
ultimately, it's still up to them to be a survivor and to face the world once more with earnest.
on a sidenote:
I'm getting frustrated with job-hunting and I really don't want to see myself either wasting electricity and precious time rotting away at home or spending (without any income!!!!!) outside.
either way, I would hate myself.
we experience
waves and torrents of despair, of heartache, of sadness
because of the fragility of the human heart; the way we succumb to our emotions and letting them take control of us.
human beings have the ability to kill without the need of physical contact.
just by using mere words, actions, tone.
without landing a finger on another person, we can make them flinch.
without being in close physical proximity, we can make them suffer and squirm in pain.
that's how powerful and powerless we are.
Emotions are what make us unique as human beings, and at the same time, it can possibly be our greatest Archilles heel.
Yet, there are people who survive ordeals after ordeals; who manage to keep emotions in check; who practises emotional distancing; who have, somehow, had their hearts set in rocks, armoured, protected by layers and layers of impenetrable metal...
from the many decades of practice?
or just from a more optimistic way of thinking?
I'd prefer reason number 2.
anyway,
I still hope the people around me who are going through some really tough times are able to get back on their feet once more.
it saddens me to witness how much psychological pain they're in at the moment,
and acknowledging that there's nothing much I can do to help...
except to be a listening ear and to be there to offer encouragement and tissue papers.
ultimately, it's still up to them to be a survivor and to face the world once more with earnest.
on a sidenote:
I'm getting frustrated with job-hunting and I really don't want to see myself either wasting electricity and precious time rotting away at home or spending (without any income!!!!!) outside.
