999th post!!~*

999th POST!!!!!!!!

And something HAPPY and POSITIVE for a change! :D

Alright. It's going to be a pretty random entry cos believe it or not, I took... nearly 3 days to complete it. haha.

"Because questions of beauty and happiness have become such difficult and convoluted prepositions for me now, I suspect, I find myself clinging instead to other standards - like, whether or not something is fair or honest or universally true."

- Norwegian Wood by Murakami Haruki.

Mood: TIRED.

Music: Love Song on the Radio. 

1. Joyce's birthday celebration! (this picture was taken AGES ago)

:D:D:D 

Had a great time with the girls to celebrate Joyce's birthday in advance! :D 

We journeyed from Jurong East to Holland V to West Coast Park... 

Xiao ding dang! Da Pang! 

And guess what, the 3 of them agreed that I'm ENTERTAINING and HUMOROUS.

(nicer versions of what they actually called me. haha.)

But still, it's enjoyable to hang out with them again. :) 

And as for the present, I would post the pics up as soon as possible.

For the first time in 27272727 years, I SEWED. 

USING NEEDLE AND THREAD.

ME. JASMINE. WHO SUCKS AT HANDICRAFT AND SEWING. 

But well, as expected, I pricked myself twice. =___=

Most of the job was done by Yeeyan and Serene. 

Because for the time I take to sew ONE photo, they can sew TWENTY. 

OH WELL. 

But it's the sincerity and thought that count right? :D 

2. COSPLAY AND HARAJUKU GIRLS!  

A hamster cosplaying as Pikachu! 

XDXDXD 

Though I wonder why it's YELLOW in colour. =/

Harajuku girls! :D 

I've always been amazed by the Harajuku girls and guys. 

I mean, if it were in Singapore, it'll probably cause a great stir if you see people dressed like that. 

I wish people would dress like that in Singapore.

Myriads of colours, clashing colours, gorgeous blonde/blue/black/green hair. :D 

I can spend the whole day just people-watching. :D 

COSPLAY!

TIFA!

LACUS!

Athrun and Cagali! 

I think Cagali is absolutely gorgeous here! :D 

YUNA! :D :D 

So pretty! 

Tohru Honda! 

Akito Sohma!!!

*cue to gasp and swoon over how pretty she is!* 

(pictures credit to Japan Forum.com)

I've always thought about cosplaying. 

But I seriously doubt I can pull it off.

Anyway, I missed this year's Anime Festival. AGAIN. 

Jas: Hey, so when's the anime fest arh?! ^_^

Wenshi: It's over, right?

Ruzi: *nods*

Jas: =________________=;;; 

AGAIN. 

2. Horoscope predictions for 2009

Sounds like it's going to be a so-so year for Cancers again. 

Oh well. 

I shouldn't depend so much on horoscopes, right? LOL. 

http://www.foreverhoroscopes.com/

3. Prom

I never realised shopping for prom can be so tiring! 

Even though I'll be turning up with the least attention-attracting dress. 

In fact, I think the main point of going to prom with the MDs is to EAT, right? XD

Alright, kidding. I think the main point of going is to have fun with my my loved ones! :)

and to win the lucky draw. *evil cackle* 

4. SWOLLEN LEG.

I've got quite a big swell on my calf. (not the cow... LOL.)

Anyway, I really have no idea how and why it's swollen. 

My friends suggested that I was bitten by some insects. 

Serene: Maybe scorpions? Or centipedes? 

Yeah. I live in the desert. hahaha. 

So, I'm really relieved that I would be wearing black stockings for prom, which kind of conceals everything except maybe showing a bump.  

But I really want to recover soon! >.<

AND MY MUM'S NOT HELPING AT ALL. 

Mum: Hey, apply this cream.

Jas: Hmm... 

Mum: It has expired.

Jas: O.o 

Mum: For a few days only.

Jas: *checks the box* APRIL 2008?!?!?!?!?!?!?! WEI!!!

Mum: What? *nonchalant* 

You see? If my swell never recovers, you know why. 

5. PULAU UBIN TRIP

Junxiu, Wenshi, Ruzi and me. 

4 girls. 

Pulau Ubin.

We probably took 70 years to get there. 

Alighted at wrong stations, looking at wrong directions...

But in the end, we managed to get there. (boy was I surprised XD) 

And we cycled and cycled and cycled and cycled. 

My butt is flattened and hurts like hell. >.< 

But still, the weather's wonderful. You can never ask for a more perfect weather. :) 

Anyway, I'm quite proud of us. :)

I mean, we've been there for like... once? And yet we managed to cycle without getting lost. :)

And no injury! 

Pictures next time! :D

I'm SO SO SO SO SO SO TIRED. 

And I slept nearly all the way from Tanah Merah to Jurong East. 

Zzz....

which explains why I'm still pretty tired now. 

But overall, it was great fun. (I particularly enjoyed the boat trip and meals at Changi Village. drank 2 HUGE cups of sugarcane juice. One for lunch and one for dinner) 

EXCEPT the parts where we had to go upslope. =___=;;;

Wenshi, Ruzi and I are just... cannot-make-it when it comes to those really steep slopes. XD 

6. GREEN

IT'S AWESOME AWESOME AWESOME.

although I don't quite understand the story behind it. 

But anyway, Ayu looks so beautiful when she was singing onstage! :D

Hamasaki Ayumi - GREEN
Uploaded by Allen__kun

Alright, to end off, K-kun has a blog! :D 

I was wondering what picture I should use to end off and decided to blindly pick one. 

And so, the picture with a VERY WHITE CURRY AND ME and half of the people's faces cut off. 

rainy days~*

Rainy days. Warmth. Love. Magical. Surreal. Amazing. You. 

misunderstood~*

Sometimes, emotions just can't be verbalized. 

The complexity of it. The way one emotion overlaps the other. The way they entwine and entangle together. 

Like I said to many people,

I often wish I were a little more selfish. 

A little more indifferent towards things happening around me.

A little cold-hearted.

A little tougher.

A little stronger. 

But I just can't change the fact that here I am, pondering, contemplating, feeling horrible, holding back tears, feeling hurt, feeling misunderstood.

If my brain could be re-constructed. 

If I could be reborn, I would choose to become a completely steely, cold, tough person. 

Do what I want to do. Say what I want to say. Feel what I want to feel.

But I'm not. 

I just can't do it.

Misunderstood.

Always and always, again and again, over and over and over and over... 

Human beings only want to

Believe who they want to believe,

believe what they want to believe. 

You've no idea how much agony I'm going through right now... 

hurt~*

The bottom line is this. 

You don't jump to conclusions without understanding the entire picture. 

You don't go around feeling angry, upset over things and people without trying to see things from their points of view. 

You don't give a person life sentence/death sentence without thoroughly understanding the reason why some incidents happened. 

You don't VIEW THE WORLD WITH TAINTED SPECS and expect what you ASSUME to be TRUE. 

There's NEVER a time when only ONE party gets hurt.. 

995th post~! RANDOM

I like this photo a lot a lot a lot a lot! 

for no particular reason. haha.

-Taken during 'Connect Singapore'

1. I HATE FLASHES. 

They make Curry, Wenshi and I look like a bunch of ghosts. >.<

2. I HATE HOLDING THE CAM.

Well, as if my head's not big enough! 

3. We took 48576513512 zillion more just to get everyone inside the picture. 

LOL! 

 4. We were standing/half-squatting in the most awkward positions ever!

5. IT WAS SUPER FUN TO HANG OUT WITH THESE GIRLS. 

(though I nearly dozed off while waiting for ruzi, junxiu and curry to buy food) 

Peiyun: The clothes here are so awful, I feel like burning down the shop. 

How can you not love those girls? :)

I love taking photos of the sky. 

This one's so gorgeous! Looks like clouds on fire. LOL. 

Anyway, probably 5 seconds after I took this picture, the sky's a deep royal purple already.

Since Karen asked me to write something happier, I'll try! 

All thanks to Karen! LOL!

MY TOP 10 MOST FAVOURITE FOOD
Salmon

Unagi

Sushi

Ramen

Curry

Instant noodles (LOL)

Broccoli

Definitely dark chocolates

Unconventional things that are edible

I have a sweet tooth.

And erm.. human flesh? 

10 THINGS I LOVE DOING 

Sleep

Watch TV

Blog

Reading other people's blog.

Listening to whatever I feel like listening at the moment. 

Watching disturbing and gory films

Sitting down in a lovely cafe and chat

Anything fun

Think

Think some more

5 THINGS I LOVE DOING WHEN I'M EMO
Think

Write

Listen to sad songs

Watch sad shows

Cry

5 TYPES OF Girls I ADORE

Genuine

Supportive

Humorous

Trustworthy

Someone whom I can share my deepest insecurities with

5 THINGS I DO WHEN I'M HAPPY
Laugh 

Smile

Be lame (I'm getting increasingly good at it)

Listen to happy songs

Watch happy shows

5 THINGS I WISH TO HAPPEN 
Shitheads to disappear from the world

I can suddenly become optimistic

Life becomes less complicated

Go back to the past and relive certain parts of my life

My friends and family to be happy and safe. 

TOP 5 MOST ADDICTED PLAYLIST
All Aragaki Yui's songs

All Ayu's songs

All BoA's songs

All Shimokawa Mikuni's songs

Songs I sing. (KIDDING) 

Happiness is inversely proportional to your age.

Though I really hope that's not the case...  

Countdown: 5 posts to my 1000th post! 

A'S OVER!~*

[written on 18th Nov 2008]

OHHHHH YESSSSSSSSSSS!

Absolutely NO WORDS or NUMBER can quantify/verbalize my immense RAPTURE and RELIEF.

I think the closest I can get to describing my emotion is probably 72727272727272 million smilies. :D 

A'S ARE O-V-E-R!!!!!!!!! :D:D:D *cue to start jumping around and grab the closest person to you and plant a BIG FAT KISS!!!* 

haha. Alright. I might be exaggerating a little but still, the relief is INDESCRIBABLE. :) 

1.

12 years of education. 

The last day I would be clad in a school uniform. 

Last time I would be surrounded by grey and navy blue. 

Kind of empty, huh? *wistful smile*

But still, this month while I've completely isolated myself from the cyberspace is PURE MISERY. 

MISERY in CAPS. 

Even when I'm writing this entry, I'm having slight difficulty typing and moving the mouse.

It's THAT BAD. >.< 

Anyway, now that A's is over, I NEVER want to mention it again. 

I know it sucked. 

So, I never EVER want to touch that topic again. 

(YAH RIGHT. Like my brain can really delete it from my memory) 

I'm prepared for the worst, I guess. 

These few weeks were AWFUL AWFUL. 

I would wake up in the morning feeling totally disorientated. 

I would stare at the calendar and feel the helplessness in me.

I would stare at the ceiling at night and think about all the mistakes I made in my papers.

2.

Still, I realized A's was an excuse for me too. 

An escapade. 

Sounds strange, but it's true.

Anything that ought to be done can be delayed because "A's is coming."

Any emotions/thoughts that need to be settled, understood, can be thrown aside because "A's is coming" 

Just like that.

One one hand, I'm SUPER RELIEVED. 

on the other hand, I'm feeling empty, disorientated and just... reluctant to be brought back to reality. 

TSK TSK. why must everything sound so sad when they run through my mind? >.< 

3. 

ALRIGHT ENOUGH OF SAD AND MOODY STUFF.

From this moment onwards, I'm not going to waste anymore time.

I want to meet up with everyone I really really missed during this tough period. 

I've got millions and millions things to catch up.

One thing is definitely my PIANO. LOL. 

 

4.

Oh, and I finally have time for my obsession over Murakami Haruki's novels. :D

And I'm currently reading his critically acclaimed 'Norwegian Wood'.

Halfway through and I'm already emotionally affected by the protagonist. 

5.

And I'm so obsessed with 'THE NANNY', the sit-com.

All thanks to Eugene, who said it was super funny.

And I agree!!! Totally!!! XDXDXD

I'm sure K-kun would agree with me too right? :) 

6.

FANDOM:

OH AND I'M SO LOST WHEN I LOOKED AT AHS FORUM!!!

First, there're 45000 new posts since my last visit 

Then, I don't know where to start to catch up with her news! 

What GREEN? What DAYS? What PVs? What CREA blog?!?!?!

WHAT WHAT WHAT WHAT?!?!

Goodness! 

OKOK. After scanning some things, I finally understood something.

something absolutely insane. 

AYU'S COUNTDOWN LIVE 2008-2009 

WILL

BE

3 HOURS and 30 MINUTES

30 SONGS WILL BE SUNG NON STOP.

I mean, what can I say?!

It IS crazy! 

but amazing! :D 

[19th Nov 2008]

It was incomplete so here I am to continue it. :)

Escaping into nights, I told myself
That I was not at all alone
But after all, it revealed
Nothing but my loneliness day by day

On my way home from the bustle of the city
Though it was no different from any other day
I thought I would repeat such pattern of life
And tears welled up suddenly

Feeling weak and wretched
Uneasy and lonely
I wanted some warmth
In a faint voice

But it's certain you appeared suddenly 
And a ray of light shone in my darkness
You smiled a little, told me it was all right with a nod
Took my hand and started to walk

I saw an angel's wings on your back

-Angel Song by Ayu

Just what are we actually searching for?

A reason to live? A meaning in living? Or... just something that can fill the void in our hearts?

It's not to everyone that we can display our truly vulnerable side. 

It's not to everyone that we can talk as if our everything are held in place by those words.

It's not to everyone that we can let the emotions flow.

It's not with everyone that we can laugh simultaneously.

It's not with everyone that we can understand each other's thoughts without verbalizing them. 

It's not with everyone that we can feel completely at ease.

To find people to share your happiness is a simple task.

But to find people to share your deepest worries and uneasiness is never easy. 

There our hearts lie, naked.

Waiting to be accepted. 

But people usually bypass such honesty and go for nicely wrapped and decorated things. 

Because beautiful things just appeal to people, don't they?

Even if the flesh beneath the gorgeous surface is rotting, as long as nothing gives them away, they can enjoy the immense attention given.

I think, soon, the world is going to morph into a world where the most valued virtues are the most unnecessary parts of our personality. 

I dread that.

Because can you imagine what the world would become? 

Back to myself.

I want people to see things from the angle I see things.

I want people to understand my actions, my thoughts, my choices.

For people who don't matter to me, their words won't matter to me.

But for people whom I truly cherish, I want them to understand me once in a while. 

Conflicting thoughts, ideas. 

If only acceptance comes as easily as skepticism.

I grieve for the reality. 

But I'm not going to let myself be dreaming that I was dreaming that I was dreaming that I was dreaming. 

I won't be surprised if people get lost in my train of thoughts.

Not that I myself am very clear about where my thoughts are headed though. haha. 

Lastly, 

"Nobody wants to be alone. I just don't want to be disappointed"

- 'Norwegian Wood' by Murakami Haruki

So true, so true. 

countdown: 6 entries to my 1000th post!