HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY SERENE!!!~*

誕生日おめでとう、

せりん！！！

[Happy Birthday Serene!!!]

May you become よりきれい，よりスマト, より高い!!! [Prettier, smarter, TALLER] ^_^ 

(but don't worry, you already are) 

haha. Anyway, 昨晩は実際に楽しみだった! [last night was really fun!]

hope you like our プレセント　[present] for you. <3>

*cough*. In case you don't know, we spent so much time on it, ok? XD

Alright, FINALLY 18 years old already. :D

Wait for us to turn 18 too! then let's go DRINKING! ;)

約束だよ！

2. A few days ago I had a dream about me getting scolded by Dad for not practising piano daily. Then last night I had a dream about me performing really badly in front of an audience.

Maybe it is trying to hint me to start PRACTISING more often. *sheepish smile*

3. Last night's clique outing at Cityhall was really fun. :D

Well, too bad I only took photos of the scenery (except one super creepy pic of Joyce). The other pictures are with Yeeyan and Serene. :)

Anyway, to keep things short, last night, there was laughter, stupid jokes, injuries, pictures, smiles etc etc. :)

And, to summarize everything, it always feels good to be with your favourite clique. :D

It's when you meet up, that you realize you've been missing them badly. :)

4.

haha something random. :D

Oh, and another random thing --- I've been listening to Jeff Chang's album the whole of this morning. Sigh. You people will never understand my obsession with oldies and Jeff's song. (I think only Wenshi will understand. ;)) 

alright bye people! I'm off to practise piano. 

PVs~*

BOA - Sparkling
Uploaded by mugen-pv

A really interesting PV! :D (and it reminds me of SIMS, for some reasons)

and I'm getting addicted to the song. *winks at Karen* 

TegoMass - Ai Ai Gasa
Uploaded by MissLao77-Jap-

yay Tesshi and Massu (from NEWS). Hopefully Wenshi will dream of Tesshi di-di again. haha.

Anyway, Tesshi looks so... pretty! O.O;;

Leah+Dizon+-+Under+The+Same+Sky
Uploaded by Sae03

She's REALLY REALLY gorgeous inside! :D Anyway, this sort of reminds me of Ayu's 'JEWEL' 

and I personally feel it's a good commercial for cosmetics. XD 

jewel
Uploaded by shashabsb

Since I mentioned Ayu's 'Jewel', I shall post it up as well. XD

Anyway, I love this song. Oh, and it makes a good commercial for jewellery. lol. 

hahaha~*

my, oh my.

I laughed so hard when I played with this thing. Look at the results! XD

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Jasmine Lim!

1. Jasmine Lim was the first Tsar of Russia!
2. Women shoplift four times more frequently than Jasmine Lim!
3. All gondolas in Venice must be painted black unless they belong to Jasmine Lim!
4. Jasmine Lim has a memory span of three seconds.
5. Jasmine Lim can run sixty-five kilometres an hour - that's really fast.
6. Four-fifths of the surface of Jasmine Lim is covered in water.
7. Grapes explode if you put them inside Jasmine Lim.
8. Abraham Lincoln, who invented Jasmine Lim, was the only US president ever granted a patent!
9. Jasmine Lim, from the movie of the same name, had green blood.
10. The pupil of an octopus's eye is shaped like Jasmine Lim.

I am interested in - do tell me aboutherhimitthem

Well, don't you dare offend me since I'm the Tsar! XD
And they make me sound a complete monster. =____=
Oh, and I believe the 'memory span of 3 sec' thing though. hahaha!

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Ayumi Hamasaki!

1. When Ayumi Hamasaki is swallowed, she will enter the blood stream within twenty minutes!
2. Abraham Lincoln, who invented Ayumi Hamasaki, was the only US president ever granted a patent.
3. Bees visit over three million flowers to make a single kilogram of Ayumi Hamasaki!
4. Astronauts get taller when they are in Ayumi Hamasaki!
5. Forty percent of the world's almonds and twenty percent of the world's peanuts are used in the manufacture of Ayumi Hamasaki.
6. The book of Esther in the Bible is the only book which does not mention Ayumi Hamasaki.
7. Until the 1960s, Ayumi Hamasaki was not allowed to enter Disneyland.
8. Ayumi Hamasaki cannot swim!
9. Ayumi Hamasaki was first discovered by Alexander the Great in India, and introduced to Europe on his return.
10. Two grams of Ayumi Hamasaki provide enough energy to power a television for over twenty-three hours.

I am interested in - do tell me aboutherhimitthem

Wait a sec. Some of the facts sound so wrong. o.O;;

Try it! Basically just nonsense. But it gives you a good laugh as well! ^_^

Memories~*

What happened last night was like a dream. 

I woke up this morning wondering if the phone call was a dream or not. 

because it has been ages since we've talked so much. 

anyway, no matter what, I'm really glad we cleared some things up. :)

You,

From the bottom of my heart, I thank you for last night. :)

As for what's troubling you, I'm sure everything will be fine after some time. 

I told you before. After some time, you'll definitely know that the person is the one you truly love. 

It's not about how long you've known each other. Neither is it about how well you know each other.

It's about how both of you feel that once you 2 have held hands, you won't wanna let go ever again. 

And most importantly, it's not about how it 'should have been'

but rather what 'it can become'. :)

3. Memories are so unreliable.  

And so fleeting. 

Like how you can never hold sand on your palm. 

Because it'll definitely seep through your fingers. 

You can never remember what happened exactly. 

You can never remember it as it happened. 

Like a dream.

You don't know how it started.

You don't know how it ended.

You wake up remember vaguely that it happened, but the faces are always so blur.

The words said are always distorted. 

If someone were to ask you to relate the dream to them, you won't be able to tell it as distinctly and as vividly as it was.

But you know that yes, it happened. 

4. If we were to have to ability to lock up our memories and prevent them from turning sepia, I'm sure all of us sitting here would be happier than we are now.

Or 

Maybe not. 

5. They say time heals all wound.

That's exactly because time is all it takes for one's memory to seep out from your brain. 

So, instead of locking up your memory, we should really just leave it to your brain to retain most beautiful memories and forget all the bad ones. 

Haha. I'm really just contradicting myself.

But that's life. 

How we keep contradicting ourselves. 

Doing things that we hate.

Faking smiles in front of others when we are in terrible moods. 

Honestly, we're just contradicting ourselves from time to time.

6. How many times must we make the same mistake over and over again to learn from it? 

Human beings.

A strange lot, really.

With a complex mind, but it gets reduced to such simplicity when it comes to making mistakes.

We make mistakes, we tell ourselves not to commit the same mistake again, then we make the same mistakes.

We never learn, do we? 

7. Alright. I think it's a really boring entry because if i were the one reading what I've written, you can bet

I would fall asleep right away. Lol.

Anyway, some random things:

~* SIMS 2 Double Deluxe 

That bloody game is ADDICTIVE, I tell you.

But it gets a little boring after a while. (maybe it's just me) 

If only you could control life like you control the Sims. 

But then again, sometimes things happen inside which are out of control anyway. 

Anyway, my characters' aspiration levels were 'Lusty Lovers' or something 

But I guess they've promoted alr. XD

~* "You must learn to appreciate yourself" 

That's about the most difficult thing for me to do. Ever. 

Sometimes, I really wonder whether my brain contains nothing but negative emotions/ negative thoughts etc.

I'm always blinded by pessimism.

Deafened by the negative self-talk I give myself.

I don't know, but I think if confidence level were measurable, my reading would probably be at -289465415600045 out of 100 

But, oh well. That's my identity ---> The emotional/pessimistic/depressed girl. 

Oh well. 

haha. I really like this photo.

Random~*

Something interesting to share: 

"This is the era when most girls wear clothes that are more valuable than what they are inside."

Be strong~*

The night is wavering in the water
The greening shore is so still and silent
That it is painful

If only I could wait
For a beautiful dawn
With a pure heart...

Who told me that
There is a land without any conflicts
Beyond the dark seas and skies?
No one can reach that land,
Or perhaps it only exists in someone's heart

A melody that can quench the thirst
Of the land that calms the waters' flow
Even if it does not exist anywhere right now,
I will come to possess it
Always, someday, for sure

Let the token of water be in my hands
Even after engulfing all the flames,
It still continues to flow, gently and broadly
I will reach its tranquility Always, someday, for sure
With your hand in mine...


-'Mizu no Akashi' [Token of Water] by Lacus Clyne 
(the 1st song in the playlist)

While watching the TV programme last night,

the tears just kept flowing

My heart hurt so much, so much...

Life is really vulnerable.

Our existence is so fleeting.

But our strength is not to be underestimated. 

All the cries of immense helplessness, excruciating pain, fear and terror have not gone unheard.

But, please remember that, no matter how gloomy the future looks,

 

there's nothing more fearful than giving up. 

So, please hang in there, all survivors of the 2 unfortunate catastrophes, all the bereaved families, or families who are still struggling to keep their faith... 

Soon, the sky will clear again.

It will. 

Long, long ago, in the far-off
past, this world was born.

In the ever-repeating history,
we have inherited life.

But from here, the only way
I can tell you this is by
singing this song.

Remember, just one more time
the form this world should have.
And please, don't forget,
please, please don't forget.

Surely no one was hoping for
any of those terrible things.

Hold the flowers to your heart,
and pray that they may some day bloom.

From here, the only way
I can tell you this is by
singing this song;

I'll be happy if you'd lend me
your ear, even just for a little bit.

Remember, just one more time
how we were born, crying, into this world.
Your dreams and hopes for tomorrow
are all in this world.

- 'A Song is Born' by Ayumi Hamasaki

Updates~*

The last leaf on the tree..

(winks at Ruzi)

Mood: Sleepy

Music: Girl in the Mirror by BoA

The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with, never say a word, and then
walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.

 




1. GP and Econs paper
 
Seriously, I think the chance of me NAQ-ing for GP essay is 90%. And as for the compre, I'm not keeping 
my hopes high.
Well, as for Econs, .........................................
 
So all in all I don't have high hopes for any of the papers. 
 
Sigh.
 
 
 
2. Square 2 
 
 
Went out with Yeeyan to get octopus' birthday present.
And we discovered a really cool place --- Square 2 (alright. call us sua-gu if you want XD)
Anyway, there were not many patrons and I absolutely love places without a million people elbowing their way 
past you and stepping on your feet every now and then. 
 
And so we decided to try this Korean restaurant (since I've never dined in a Korean restaurant before. Call me sua-gu if you like.)
 
Seoul Yummy (korean casual dinning)
and boy did it taste good! :)
 
I had the Bi-Bam Bab, which is a hotpot of rice, MANY MANY types of vegetables, a raw egg and beef. 
You're supposed to add this sweet sauce into it and MIX. It tasted really really good. :D
 
And yeeyan tried the fried glass noodle. (because the noodles were transparent)
It's GOOD!!! :D
 
Since ours were a set meal for 2, there was also this SUPER nice steamed kimchi with pork dumplings.
Which tasted exactly like guo-tie, one of my favourite food. :) 
 
and there was a side dish combo and the set meal completed with a nice nice tropical delight yoghurt ice-cream! :)
 
Waitress: if you eat it the Korean way, you're supposed to mix everything up (the ice-cream), just like what you do
when you eat an ice kachang. ^_^
 
 
Wait a sec. Are we supposed to mix the ice up when we eat ice-kachang?! 
 
haha.
 
 
Anyway, all in all, it was great and by the time we walk out of the restaurant, we were both too full to stand
up straight. =___=
 
 
But it's a really nice place to walk around. :) 
 
 
And it's always good to talk to someone who understands. 
 
  
 
3. Causeway point
 
Went to causeway point after Econs paper yesterday together with Wenshi, Ruzi, Cindy and Siew Ghim. 
As usual, we took 78465000 hours to decide where to eat. hahaha.
 
In the end, we ended up at Pizza Hut. 
(and it's really rare that it's nearly empty. (cos it was only 11 plus? lol))
 
Then we walked around Metro and kept suggesting all the ridiculous things to wear for grad night. XD
 
Speaking of which, I've decided that I'm not gonna spend so much for grad night. 
And really, it's just a night for you to dress up nicely and take pictures with all your friends, no? 
 
There's much more to your JC life than just a grad night. :) 
 
 
Anyway, after that, Cindy and Siew Ghim left first and that leaves Wenshi, Ruzi and I (AGAIN...).
Naturally, the top priority on Wenshi's list is definitely to visit the library.
=_________='''' (that sickening bookworm)
 
But I agreed to go along since I wanted to borrow something to read during the hols as well. :)
 
Ruzi was strongly against us going to the library but MAJORITY WINS ANYWAY.
 
 
 
4. TXN
 
 Ruzi and Wenshi shocked me with their phone calls, telling me 
1. they ran into TXN
2. they ran into Siewping and Allen. 
 
haha. The world is REALLY small, I can see.
 
 
But nevertheless, I still think Ruzi and TXN are really fated to see each other. ;)
 
 
So last night, Ruzi and I came to a conclusion that TXN is a really 感性 person. (PLEASE DONT READ IT THE OTHER WAY ROUND. XD)
 
 
 
4. Summer holidays
 
夏季休暇は来た！
 
でも。。。
 
私は全然幸せではない！！！
 
 
[Summer holidays has arrived, 
but...
I'm not happy about it at all!!!]
 
 
Exactly... and I guess most AJCians would share the same sentiment as me. T_T
 
Such beautiful holidays would be used up mainly for studying purposes... 
 
I feel really really 悪い！！！
 
 
 
5. 
-jess, jas and mum having dinner tgt-
 
Jess: Hey wanna have a chalet to celebrate your 18th birthday?
Jas: I have...
Jess: You see, we can hold it during the june hols... then we can do this this this and that that that...
Jas: You see...
Jess: nonono, we should do this this this and not that that that...
Jas: I HAVE EXAMS AFTER HOLIDAYS!!!
Jess: oh....
Jas: YEAH.
Jess: Your life is so sad. AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW......
 
And she gave me the awwwwww look which made me want to kill her.
 
 
Mum: Oh why not go Malaysia to eat seafood then? :D
 
 
oh man.
 
She. totally. didn't. get. the. situation.  
 
 
but honestly speaking, I'll definitely not be spending 24/7 studying like I've lost my mind.
(since when have I studied so hard before anyway? =___=)
 
 
Oh well, I think I need to listen to my own heart from time to time. :)
 
 
 
6.  I'm gonna cut my hair.
 
 
sometimes, I'll think,
 
since when have my hair grown so long?
 
 
considering the fact that I had short hair for what...nearly 13 years?
 
throughout my sec sch life, my hair has NEVER grown longer than shoulder length.
 
 
Sometimes, I do miss my short hair days.
 
haha... maybe leaving my hair long represents... I don't know... growing up? 
 
 
But whatever it is, I still DETEST tying my hair up. 
 
and after A's, I'll be chopping it to the length that is manageable. 
 
 
but for now, I want to trim it cos it's turning into a mop soon. =__=
 
 
 
7. I realized that I have a soft spot for people who are sentimental. 
(because they're like me?) 
 
 
 
8. I'm really into Leona Lewis' 'Spirit' album. :)
All the songs are pretty nice. 
Especially 'Bleeding Love', 'Better in Time', 'Here I am', 'Whatever it takes', 'I Will Be',
'Footprints in the Sand', 'Moment like this' etc etc
(oh that's almost the entire album. XD)
 
Well, it takes a lot to get me addicted to English songs, fyi. XD
 
 
 
9. 
 
Some pretty interesting pictures :)
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
10. Finally, in case people wonder why my usernames are always 'Mirage' 
 
A mirage is a naturally-occurring optical phenomenon, in which light rays are bent to produce a displaced image of distant objects or the sky. 
The word comes to English via the French mirage, from the Latin mirare, meaning 'to appear, to seem'. This is the same root as for mirror. 
Like a mirror, a mirage shows images of things which are elsewhere.
 
 
Something that is seemingly here. 
 
which seems like I'm doubting my own existence? haha. 
 
 
Anyway, this is one beautiful capture of a mirage. 
 
 
 
In case it's not obvious, there are 2 sunsets. (one in the middle of the sea) :) 
 
 
 
 
 
Last of all,
 
Cherish every single person who placed a genuine smile on your face.  
 
Alright. I'll update again soon, I guess. :D

last entry~*

This, being my last entry before mid-yrs, will be random like nobody's business.

Leah Dizon in 'Love Paradox'~*

alright.
Caught your attention now?



Mood:

trying to retain some form of sanity. (that's ayu btw)

Music: Nothing



私は自由でありたいと思う...
[I want to be free...]


and as if I can be.



1.

AJ Interact club initiated this project. :)
And I was on duty together with Pei Rong and Shang yuan.
Shang yuan and I were ringing the bell every 2 mins or so and Pei Rong thought she was going crazy from all
the rings. haha.

Thank you to everyone who donated! (Currypok, your money is safely in there. ;))



2. Yes yes. No school tomorrow!
But no, I'm not feeling a least bit excited about it. =___=
Well, it's because I'll be spending my wonderful holiday together with my Econs resource book!

I don't know, but I think my memory is failing.
Because everything I read from the book just seeps out of my mind.

To think I used to be able to memorize 2 books of History!

ahhh... I'm getting old.



3. My mum bought her new Nokia phone.
And she got really excited about it and kept pestering me to transfer Yamapi's photos into the phone.

Note: And in case you don't know who Yamapi is ...

There. That's him.

I think my mum's a little too old for all these fandom, no? hahaha.
but well, in my opinion, her mindset, appearance (what she wears) is about 20 plus years old.
Nah, I'm not kidding.

Do I sound like I'm kidding? XD



4. NYAA is driving me up the wall.
Alright. Whenever I'm here blogging, I'm definitely using the com because of NYAA.

It's really $%#$()%*(@#ERIO@#$@((!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




5. Really random, but,

if you still think it's still an era in which the good-looking prevails, then you're WRONG!
(in relationships)



6. Ahhh... I'm feeling really drained of energy every day.
My only source of energy is probably the occasional escapades to dreamland.

Yeah. my motivation is to sleep and eat.


I have a sad life.

7. There's no news of Ayu.

Sigh.



8. I FINALLY FINALLY cut my fringe.
After days and days of grousing.

So now, I can finally SEE clearly. :)
(previously, my fringe covered about 50% of my view)




9. I'm still trying very hard to overcome my stage-fright
(when it comes to playing piano in public)

Sigh... even now, the thought of performing in public still makes me want to throw up.


I don't get it.

Why is it that the older you get, the more you care about what other people think of you and hence become increasing aware of every little thing you do and therefore have no confidence to perform in front of others???



Maybe it's just me.




10. I was watching the news about the earthquake in China.

And I was really really affected by the footages...


So here, to all families and friends of the victims, to everyone helping out in one way or another.

Even when it seems that nothing can go right
and you want to just give up,
if you close your eyes,
you can see the world from your heart.

In this world when life can be so tough
You must be strong
Just believe in yourself and don't you fear
So open up your mind and close your eyes


Even on a lonely night, when you wander afraid,
you may be alone now, but
your feet can take you however far you want to go, so
Take another look from the other side

Just hold on tight, because if you close your eyes,
look inside yourself, there's a shining light there.
Yes, I want you to believe in everything.
You can take another look from the other side


Just hold on tight, even if your heart is breaking.
Reach into your soul, even if you can't see tomorrow.
Yes, if you have the strength to live,
You can take another look from the other side,
until you find all that is love...


I wish for you to have the strength
to make it through this world,
so open up your mind,
and you'll be able to see...

Just remember you are not alone
So don't you fear
Even though you're miles away
I'm by your side
So open up your mind and close your eyes
I'll be there for you no matter where you are

The stars may live for a long time, but that doesn't mean
that the same days will repeat over and over forever.
No one can see into tomorrow.

-'Open up your mind' by MIRAI

11. Alright. To end off,


some random pictures:

CLDDS performance! Look at 'Ah-ma' Peiyun! XD~*

My favourite Interact girls!~*
(that's Weijie's finger btw)

ok, take care everybody! :)


for people taking their exams now or gonna take their exams soon,


がんばって！！！
[Ganbatte!]


私も。
がんばるよ！:D