Updates!~*

Because you make me happy, yeah (deep inside)

Make me happy (make up for the times I've cried)

Oh boy, you make me happy, hey...

Make me happy oh oh

- 'Make me Happy' by Lena Fujii 

It's strange.

How I've got tons and tons to blog about when my keyboard's dead.

And now that my keyboard is alive and kicking, my mind's blank. 

I'll try to squeeze some thoughts out though. 

1. BROKE.

From now on, it's student meals (till 1st Jan?), inexpensive meals and mum's cooking.

Or rather, maybe I should just hibernate at home. (save on transport fees)

Damn. Money's going out and nothing's going in. 

I'm going to get a job SOOOOOON. 

"We've got no income. Only outcome."

HAHA.

But I mean it. 

I'm going to be SUPER THRIFTY NOW. 

2. Murakami Haruki

I finished 'After Dark' and it left me with the familiar lingering bitterness that most of his novels leave me with. 

Like, after drinking alcohol.

The tinge of excitement mingled with bitterness.

Yeah, bittersweetness. 

3. Facebook

I think almost everyone's crazy about it. All the Superpokes, Pet society, writing on walls, tagging people in photos, quizzes etc etc...

It makes people addicted to it. 

Well, I'm also a self-confessed facebook-addict. Just that maybe not that addicted. 

4. 

Met up with the Choir girls! :D

Chatted at the rooftop of Esplanade after dining at Cafe Cartel. 

A really romantic place, I must say. haha.

And,

Yuntian and I being interrogated. hahaha.

5. DYING!

My things are dying one after another.  

First, the phone (I STILL HAVENT GOT IT BACK YET #$%#$(%*@)(#$&!)

Then, it's the keyboard (thank goodness I've got a new one now)

And finally, it's my watch!

X_X

Well, fyi, I CANNOT live without a watch.

It just feels weird without wearing anything on my left wrist. =/

(like when I'm without the ring around my neck? :))

And I end up asking for time every 5 mins. 

Ahhh.... I need to get a watch soon. T_T

And I'm POK somemore. *dies*

6. Peeping D.

Your eyes.

So beautiful. 

So clear.

I,

seek my reflection in your eyes. 

Can you see, too?

How clear your reflection is in mine?

Your every smile, every laughter, 

induces my mouth to twitch upwards. 

Your voice, flowing with emotions no one else knows 

 

So, so warm. 

You always get my lame jokes.

You always say the things I want to hear most.

This despite me being completely incomprehensible.  

This despite me escaping into my own dark world.

We hit each other, bicker, tease, laugh, say lame stuff, share our deepest insecurities, mess up each other's hair, stare at each other and then suddenly burst out laughing...

Although we're very different in many many ways, you being the sunshine me being the night, 

in my world,

there is sunlight in night sky. 

Illuminating, dazzling, amazingly bright. :)

7. I SUCK AT MULTI-TASKING!!! >.<

8. 2008

It has been a strange year.

Exciting in a way, terrible in another. 

Well, I've learnt a lot.

People walked out, 

and some walked in. :)

People changed,

for the better, for the worse.

Sceneries changed.

And I definitely changed.

Somehow, in my mind, emotions collided with my thoughts.

Mingled, mixed, morphed. 

Thoughts danced. 

Pictures became more vivid.

Memories caught up with me.

Many realizations. 

All in all, 

I grew up, as a person. :) 

9. 2009

This year is ending. (the stopwatch ticks too fast, KL-san) 

And it's time for reflections and new year resolutions (which I can't seem to keep to)

1. Be more positive!!!

2. Spend more time with my family

3. Spend LESS

4. Smile with TEETH.

5. Spend more time on piano

6. Love the people I love more

7. Clean up my room more often.

8. Love myself more

9. Be less dark/gloomy

10. Love my life more

11. Work harder in everything I do

12. Refrain from staying up till wee hours everyday

13. Be nicer to everyone

14. Eat more healthily

15. Cherish my friends more

16. Lighten up

17. Be less paranoid

18. Stop damaging things

19. Live life without regrets. 

:) 

10. 

Alright. In case this is the last entry of year 2008,

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!! 

May year 2009 be one that is smooth and happy!

May it keep getting better!! *sings Christina Aguilera's 'Keeps Getting Better'* 

To end off, random photos! 

ALIVE!!!~*

MY KEYBOARD IS ALIVE!!!

(ok it's a new one but still.)

I'm so excited and happy, I can flood this entry with smileys. :D

Finally blogs, tags, replies to tags, comments on facebook, yahoo messenger etc etc! 

(I'll blog a proper update real soon! :)) 

And the person on the phone with me now,

besides my keyboard working,

you make me flood the entry with smileys too. 

HAHAHAHAHAH. :D

Iwillnotbeme~*

I hate it when I feel as if I can never do things right.

It feels as if your heart has been torn apart by yourself.


Slowly, the sky turned gray.
A sickening shade of gray.


To start off, I've made a promise to myself.
To protect the ones I love,
never have to see them hurt in any way.

In order to love someone, you must be strong and you definitely must start loving yourself...


Won't you bring the sunshine in?

I just... can't.

Won't you meet my friends?

My paranoia screams in my ear.




I don't want to affect anyone with my negativity, pessimism and paranoia.
To me, that's the side of me that I wish to be kept to myself.
To show that to myself only.

I guess I never thought that way.
I always thought I would show that side of me to people I trust.

But now, I realize, that would only complicate matters.


I'm not afraid to admit that I'm not that strong.
That in fact, I'm weak.



To you,

I don't want to see you upset.
Nothing brings my mood down the way you can with your unhappiness.


Sometimes, I choose to blame myself for everything.


Because you mean a lot to me,

so now, I make another promise to myself.


Not to let my paranoia/negativity/pessimism get to you.


Let them be confined to where they belong --- me and only me.



I'm not escaping or pretending.
Nor am I wearing a mask.


I just want to be the person I yearn to be.


No more tears.

In front of you.


You say I give more than I receive.

I always think it's the other way round.


I thought it through and I've decided not to burden you with my un-understandable emotions, crazy dark thoughts and pessimism.

Never again will I want to tire you out emotionally with my darkness.


Maybe not now.
But slowly, I will learn how to.


Is my character morphing again?

maybe I won't be Jasmine anymore.


When you love a person,
you're willing to go all out for that certain person.





Even if it requires you to change into somebody else.

CHRISTMAS~*

4o8 Christmas Eve!

Alright. I've decided to secretly use my sis's laptop to blog. XD

Anyway, for the time being, I wont be able to blog/chat online.
My keyboard seems to have crashed/computer infiltrated with virus.

There's an irritating beeping from the computer and I believe that it's only a matter of time before it crashes. =___=


Christmas Eve:

Christmas celebrations at Nic's house! :D
We had steamboat/50% cooked rice/fried stuff for dinner. :)

Serene, Yeeyan and I bought the food for the steamboat and then Nic met us to carry the things back to his house.
After that, the girls chilled at my house and played PS2! :D
Then we met Zuhui and went to Nic's house to prepare for dinner!

WELL, now I know what to get Nic for his birthday next year --- a complete set of KNIVES. =___=
So since all Nic had was a small butter knife, we had to use that to cut the vegetables and meat. LOL.

Anyway, while preparing for the dinner, we were playing Nic's mum's dvd on real ghostly incidents in Phillippines. I seriously think I would be able to click with her mum! :D
Her mum's so cool! ^_^

Surprisingly, we were all rather good in the kitchen and there wasn't much problems in preparing the food. :)
Oh, and Nic had that really cool broiler! :D
We should've used that to fry the 'NugGATEs' and 'ChicKANE'. XD
(Nic never gets tired of the 'nuggate' joke la!)



After that, Angela, Eng Ngee and Kah Jun came and we started dinner. :)
(by then, we were watching 'Tom & Jerry' dvd)
The food was not bad, except maybe the uncooked rice. XD

Then Waihou, Liqian, Junliang and Yihang came.
They even brought a Mahjong table all the way from Waihou's house! XD

Then after that Eng Ngee started telling us his ghost stories which really just sound like normal stories. XD
We were all complaining to him that he doesn't know how to tell ghost stories. haha.
And they wanted to listen to my ghost stories. LOL.

Then everyone was advising me to move out/install more lights etc.
hahaha.

After that, Jason came and we told the guys to go and eat since there were TONS of food left.
The rest of us watched 'Little Nyonya' and played 'Twister'.

'Twister' was absolutely pervertic. XD There was a particular pose involving Nic and Junliang which was downright gross. hahaha.
And then Yihang, Eng Ngee, Junliang, Liqian and Nic played together.
In the end, Nic fell and landed on Liqian. XD

Oh and Zuhui shot the entire thing using her cam. (uploading on facebook? hahahaha.)

Then the guys were urging the girls to play also so we (trying to be sporty) played.
But in the end we stopped halfway. haha.

After that, everyone gathered at the living room to gossip about a certain someone.
*AHEM AHEM* hahaha. Suddenly, everyone became very interested lor. XD


Then we started watching Final Destination 3 and then the guys wanted to watch American Pie so the girls played Daidee then Mahjong.

Yeeyan and Liqian were coaching us. lol.

And I won! haha.


By then, it was nearly 1am.
Yihang left earlier (and got surrounded by 3 Indians) then Junliang had to leave so all of us left together.


Serene and I went home together (she's staying at my place for the night) :)
And we spent the night talking a lot a lot.
Heart to heart talk. :) :) :)




So, all in all, I thought this year's christmas eve was really fun :D
Someone mentioned it felt so much like class chalet. haha.

Angela then said it would be really cool to have a class chalet like that. The guys could stay overnight either at Nic's or Waihou's. And the girls could stay at my place (eerie as it may be)

And all within walking distance. haha.




Thanks for all the Christmas wishes! ^_^
Nic, Serene, thanks for the Christmas presents!!! :D:D:D


K-kun, thanks for everything. :) :)
Esp the sunflowers. They're so like you. :)

You,

mean so much to me.




Alright, I've gotta go! :D
(in a rush!!)




(till next time, when I get secretly use the laptop again. =X)

Keyboard's dead.

Merry Christmas Everyone!

Jasmine won't be blogging for the time being b'cos her keyboard's dead.

Meanwhile, leave her any messages on her tagboard!

written by karen*

merry christmas! ~*

Happy Christmas!!! :D

Yesterday was fun with the 408 people. :) :) :)



I'll update soon. :)

random~*

12.17am

It's Christmas Eve already. 

For some strange reason, I'm not really caring much anymore. 

As we grow up, things that used to be significant are slowly losing their significance... 

Like what BEE GEES sing in 'First of May', 

When I was small, and christmas trees were tall,

Now we are tall, and christmas trees are small. 

Our birthdays, New Years, Christmases, April Fool's, National Day, Chinese New Year...

They're all slowly losing their significance.

Just another day, perhaps?

Why do we...

well, 

forget things so easily?

Forget how many things seemed so wonderful to us?

Beautiful lies. 

You see, now, we all know that Santa Claus doesn't exist. 

 

Maybe,

that's the cost of growing up. 

updates~*

All I want for Christmas...

Mood: OK

Music: All I want for Christmas is you by Mariah Carey

1. Met up with Nicholas and then with Nicholas and K-kun. :)

FINALLY. 

They treated us to Crystal Jade! :D (It means A LOT A LOT to someone who's going POK. >.<)

Chatted about lots of stuff. :) Mainly about how Nic is now HAIR-less and BRAIN-less. XD

Oh and it took me a rather long time to figure out the Ben&Jerry's thing.  LOL. 

2. Badminton with Wenshi, Ruzi and Peiyun! :D

We played badminton and watched '1408' together. ^_^

The sucky thing was that the version of '1408' I had showed the ALTERNATE ending instead of the original ending. 

So, Wenshi, Ruzi, Peiyun, this is the ending:

[SPOILERS]

Using a torn bit of his bandanna to turn the cognac into a Molotov cocktail, Enslin sets the room on fire, causing the hotel to be evacuated. Lily arrives just seconds afterwards and is stopped from entering the hotel, but tells the firefighters that Enslin is in 1408. Meanwhile, as the room tries to extinguish the fire, Enslin breaks a window with an ashtray, causing a huge backdraft that engulfs 1408. The firefighters force entry into the room and rescue Enslin as he curls under the coffee-table, delighted that the room is dying. Enslin recovers in a New York hospital, Lily at his bedside. He swears that he saw Katie, but Lily refuses to believe him. After his recovery, Enslin moves back in with Lily, beginning work on a new novel that has nothing to do with his previous cheap haunted sites series. While sorting through a box of items from his night in 1408, Enslin comes across his mini cassette recorder. After some difficulty he manages to get the tape to play; it begins with Enslin's dictation of 1408's appearance, but cuts in with audio from his interaction with the apparition of his daughter. Lily freezes in shock as she hears her dead daughter's voice coming from the tape recorder, and the film closes on Enslin meeting her shocked stare with one of grim vindication.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/1408_(film)

And after watching the show, we were being really paranoid about being trapped in our hallucinations.

hahaha. And as usual, there's a POLIO VICTIM again. LOL!

3. BROKE

I feel so freaking broke at the moment.

I'm going to be EXTRA-THRIFTY now!

絶対！！

4. Christmas is coming!

Can you feel this christmas? *sings*

It's already 23rd! :D

And it's my 18th christmas this year.

haha. I hope this year's christmas will be a very significant one. :)

5. Sour sour.

[I hope we're on the same frequency]

after reading your blog, I felt a gush of emotions. 

I guess... I never really thought about it...

All along, it was more about me and my own thoughts and emotions...

But never about you and what you must be feeling.

All of us.

Assumed? Jumped to conclusions?

Suddenly, I feel so selfish and horrible.

Yet, you are always smiling, laughing, reassuring me again and again, staying positive...

Why am I like that?!

Gosh. Just writing that makes me want to cry...

6. How to become a better person?

I have absolutely no idea.

I guess I've failed miserably at being a 'good person'.

I'm not being 'just pessimistic'.

But looking back at all the things I've done,

I can't help but wonder what kind of stupid thoughts have run through my mind at that moment.

I guess,

'Good people' don't hurt people like that.

7. Stormy

It was so sunny just now.

And now, it's growing very very dark.

Like me?

8. 2008 is ending soon.

Maybe it's time to reflect on the things I've done this year.

Which I have no idea what.

9.

SIGH. Why must my entries always turn out to be so moody????

[Must be because my phone's STILL UNDER REPAIR?!?!?!?!?! ok no link.]

I really hope I can stop giving people chances to call me 'EMO-QUEEN' anymore. >.<

But that's impossible.

10.

K-Kun lent me 'After Dark' by Murakami Haruki. :)

YES.

I can take this chance to escape into the little world created by the book, by me.

A chance to escape.

音楽~*

Awesome album, I must say. ^_^

Do check out her cover of 'Sometimes when we touch' and 'First of May'. (2 of my favourite songs)

Olivia Ong

A Singaporean, former member of 'Mirai', the band which sings Japanese songs.

Fujii Lena

I'm a little nuts over her songs at the moment. 

Sounds a little... trance-y to me.

But any song which can transport me to a different place appeals to me. :)

Ayumi! :D her latest appearance at some music show.

Pretty pretty! ^_^

And my heart beats triple times whenever I walk pass her SUPER BIG 'WACOAL' advertisement.

:D:D:D:D:D

No matter how you act, no matter when it is, I'll always keep ahold of you
If you're hurt and tears fall,
Even if everyone around the world turn into enemies, I'll always protect you
I LOVE YOU I don't need any words
Your kiss is my last, forever.

-Kiss ~Kaerimichi no Love Song~ by Tegomass

When my loved ones get hurt, it triggers this 'protectionist instinct' in me.

[enough to make 727272727272727 bowls of eye soup]

So, 

I WANT TO be there for you.

Not 'will', definitely not 'should' or 'must'. 

No obligations. 

I just... want to.