ahhh.~*

Mood:







Music: DOUBLE by BoA.

A little stronger.
A little more optimistic.
A little more carefree.
A little more positive.
A little happier...

a little more...

もうすこし。。。 (a little more...)


Shit. My initial high spirit has been reduced to nothing now.

SIEWBOON... you really shouldn't have added that "cos results is bad lor =(" in that message for us to REDO chem test MCQ. =( =( =(

Jasmine is suffering from "low tension" now. T^T


And the super hot weather just adds on to my frustration.
I NEARLY managed to push all those exam-related crap to the back of my mind.
So close...
and now, I'm back feeling horrid about myself.

Aileen, thanks so much for all those words of encouragement. Without those, I might've knocked my head against the wall just now. Yup.. I ought to be more positive about it. But I just feel horrendous. Really disappointed in myself...



Sometimes you feel that life owes you too much.
Or maybe it's just us who owe ourselves an explanation. =/



OKAY. on a lighter note, yesterday was spent happily with Serene.
haha. We couldn't really get our eyes off Uchi, could we? XD
And I FINALLY got my sister's bday present. ^_^
She's gonna LOVE me to death.

"What is it???"

Let's see. Something gothic, something pretty, something small, something interesting...
basically just something she'll love.
I really need to thank Serene for helping me find the ideal present for her. haha.
(oh and all those trips to and fro.. thanks girl. :))


Clarrisa just msged me.
Yes. I'm feeling awful as well.
AHHHH.
I'm NOT gonna go to sch on Tuesday.



Note: I'm so upset, I changed the blog music from the initial HIGH and GENKI song to this really sad song... My mood. totally.

pictures! and tags! ~*

Uchi Hiroki~~!!! *faints*

Mood: K.O-ed

Music: 終わりにしよう by Ueto Aya

Words can kill at times.

And looks, too. *faints after looking at all those Uchi pics.*

Yesterday, I've come to a conclusion with Serene.

That Uchi Hiroki's probably the most 格好いい person in Kanjani8 and NEWS.

He makes people K.O totally. haha.

So the title of today's entry will be --- "Beautiful People"

XDXDXD

Time for some ultimate pic spam!

BoA in Mericuri! <3

Seductive Ayu <3<3<3>

Ayu again! <3>

K.O-ed. X_X Uchi, Ryo and Yamapi.

Ryo and Uchi!

Leah Dizon!

Yokoyama Yu and Uchi! :D

Sexxxxxy Tegoshi! <3<3<3

Uchi and Tegoshi! ^_^

Gorgeous Ayu~~~!!!

Gackt. XD

Ayu! :D

UCHI, PLEASE COME BACK TO NEWS AND KANJANI8 SOON... T^T

(some pictures can't seem to be shown. :/ NEVERMIND. more pics will be uploaded! XD)

reply to tags:

Jun~* haha yup yup. thanks. :) EXAMS. don't even mention that word to me. XD So how was it?

Rachel~* REALLY?!?!?! I LOVE KYO AS WELL!!! <3<3>

Serene~* I always feel very tired trying to reply all those tags. hahaha. you're already very scandalous in ur sch anyway, so no prob. ME? HARDWORKING? that's the last word that can be used on me, girl. haha. yesyes. A lot of Tesshi and UCHI photos today. haha. okok. I'll try and send you those links soon. DECISION?? really? haha. ohoh. and tell me about monday soon, k?

Karen~* updated! :D piano? oh it's bigger and taller than the current one. Next time you can come play. XD

Mou~* hey hey did you lock your blog? Anyway, you too, laomao. Take care lots and enjoy life. haha. I really miss you...

Maylynn~* :D:D:D Hey! How's life and how's choir???

Joyce~* MONDAY!! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D anyway, I STILL want my VIDEO. :(

Junxiu~* haha ya I know. thanks for caring and being concerned for my well-being. :) I promise to update you girls who are always hungry for gossip. XD. YOU %$#%*&(**&*&#$%#$%#($*%!!!!!!!!!! DON'T PRESS THE BUTTON. It's my favourite AYUMI's song leh. haha. must give me face and listen to it ma. ;)

Tiffany~* I don't even know what you're up to these days. Sometimes, you're overly-confident of yourself. HAHA. no la no la. I love you just the way you are.

Updates!~*

One of my favourite screen-caps of TEGOSHI YUYA! <3>
Serene, love me.















I'm watching you. XD. (at a bus-stop in Hong Kong)


Mood: Relaxed.
Music: Mamoritai by Okura Tadayoshi of KANJANI8
(The 4th song in the playlist. ^-^ One of my personal favourites of KANJANI8. Really touching song.)

I turned my eyes away from the girls I passed by

Because they looked dazzling to me

They had the free wings like an innocent child

Even if I search for a light place over the darkness

Spreading the only wing left for me

I can't reach the truth alone

-Secret by Ayu

Here it is. A proper entry as promised. :)

[Music changed to Key of Life by Nakamaru Yuichi (KAT-TUN)]

1. Let's see... after all the braincells-killing exams and endless studying late into the night, I've kinda forgotten how I spent my June hols. -___-

I still remember vividly on 25th June (the last Sunday of June hols),
I was still asking myself

"Goodness. WHERE DID MY JUNE HOLS GO?????!!!!!"

sigh. It's sad, yeah, that half of my hols was wasted on lecture notes, tys and tutorials.
(and the bad thing is that I believe none of them paid off... *depressed*)


But on the bright side, at least I had the first 2 weeks to spend happily. (minus away all the trips back to sch for extra lessons)

...

...

After writing all that, I suddenly feel very empty. LOL.

2. I bought a new piano! *dances*

Yes. My current one is aging... therefore, like my teacher said, it's essential to change it.
So I did. (I could've gone to Japan with the money spent on it. AND STAY THERE FOR A LONG TIME. =___=)

My baby will arrive on July 17th.
It's a wonderful date.
A day after my birthday and a day before Ayu's release of 'GLITTER' single.
Seems like the 3rd week of July is worth looking forward to. ^_~V


Meanwhile, I'll really miss my current piano. :(

3. Went with CINDY aka MATONG to look at the pianos last saturday.
That place's located at a very unstrategic location.
(Cindy, her dad and I were searching high and low for it. -___-)


So when we finally found it, there's a sign smacked right in front of us.

"WELCOME! WE'RE OPEN!

PLEASE ENTER THROUGH THE FRONT DOOR. (FACING CHINESE TEMPLES)

THANK YOU."

those words were practically screaming into our faces.

Thank you very much.
Now we had to walk down 3 flights of stairs, walk to the front of the building, and climb up 3 flights of stairs again.
lol. talk about adequate exercise during the hols.


ANYWAY, we finally got there and Cindy and I started going around and playing the piano.
Some were really awesome. (referring to those German pianos which have a 5-digit cost. @_@)
Cindy and I were enjoying ourselves there. haha.
And we even played a duet on 2 separate pianos. XD


Yah. I'm definitely asking Miss Iris to give us a duet to play together. haha.

So in the end, I decided on my Weber and her on her EXPENSIVE HOFFMAN.
(hoffman cost nearly ten thousand dollars. *O*)


We have a 約束　[Promise] that I would visit her and her EXPENSIVE HOFFMAN one day after school.

^_^　ぜったい！[Definitely!]

4. KAREN!

Went out with Karen on 17th June.
A shopping trip! haha.


Ahem. We're supposed to find something decent for Karen to wear on her cousin's wedding and it turned out I'm the one buying clothes for myself. =___=

Really. We should go out on more shopping trips in future. haha.

And it would always turn out more like a slurpee-drinking-heart-to-heart session. haha.
Yup. We just sat down and started talking about anything and everything under the sun.
Of course, at that time, all of us were having those crazy problems with relationships etc etc...


Sometimes, things are different when it's your buddy for 11 years.
You can talk freely and feel each other's painful, confused, tearful emotions.

:)

It's rare that we can hang out together, especially since we hardly meet each other and can only communicate through YAHOO MESSENGER(LOL!) and smses.

don't we sound old? Friends for ELEVEN years. I felt very old when I wrote that down. haha.

5. Talking about smses, my bill freaked me out.

1000+ smses. *faints*
My dad nearly brought a chopper and chop off my head on the spot. =X


I'm very very sorry for always exceeding the 500 free smses. :(

SO, FROM TODAY ONWARDS, people, for people who want to chat for a LONG time or have nothing better to do than to kajiao me with smses, please CALL ME. ^_^

AHHHHH. And I totally DETEST talking on the phone. >:(
(with no particular reason, other than I rather talk face to face or sms (cos you can reply really late =P) or MSG ME AT YAHOO MESSENGER! XD)

6. Alright. Everyone's burning question, how's my mid-yrs?

Just one word --- SUCK.

No. Actually, it's 2 words --- SUCK TOTALLY.

like, really. :(
I can't believe it.

For Econs, it was almost impossible to complete the essay in 45 mins.

Plus, I had a hard time interpreting the question of the first part.
But since time was ticking, I starting writing WHILE trying to comprehend the question.


-___-"""

So you can guess how the ans will turn out to be.

For GP, I have totally no confidence of doing well.
(but I really liked the passage. XD)


For Physics, I should've torn the question paper into half right away.
There's absolutely no time to finish the MCQ in 30 mins. So I decided to try my luck AND see if my intuition is accurate or not.

As for paper 2, FORGET IT.

Math--- I've never excelled in that subj anyway.
Since like, primary school? Math was never my cup of tea.


BUT. It still hurts when you know you've worked hard on the subj. :(

Chem--- Oh my. Someone please KILL ME NOW.
There's such limited time, I actually finished my 20 MCQ questions in a mere 9 mins. *dies*
And as for those structured and free response, I had NO TIME to go back to complete those uncompleted questions.

AHHHHHHHHH. So overall, it sucked. BIG TIME.

7. Him.

Junxiu and Ruzi were probing me for my 'story'.

haha. but I really have no time to share with you girls. (it was during the break between ECONS and GP)

So... when I see you girls again on tues? ;)

You,
I told you, I don't go for appearances.
Plus, I don't believe your hair will turn out that bad...
I asked you to go for it, didn't I? XD

8. Any idea on what to get for my sister for her birthday?

I'm so troubled. And her birthday is 5 days away!!!

I wish I can get her a skull or skeleton to hang up in her room.
She'll love me to death.


9. These days, I'm loving my family more and more.

Ever since that day when Dad treated us to Jack's Place on Fathers' Day.
I miss those times when my entire family go out for dinner together.
Even my sister's bf joined us at the end.

Well, for those loyal readers who've been reading this blog since 2005 will know what I mean...

Everyone's making an effort.
To hold on together.


Sometimes, it hurts, sometimes it really does.
When little trivial matters can ignite a flame of dissatisfaction.
But then again, everyone takes a step back.


I love my family.
I really do.
We've gone through a lot.


Although things are different now, my love for my family has never depleted.

Words need not be exchanged.

I hope my feelings can be conveyed to them...

10. Tears.

I was just trying to count the number of times I've cried during the june hols.

Sometimes, you don't need to feel very upset to cry.
It's a normal process of lubricating and cleansing your eyes.


It's not a sign of weakness.
It's just giving in to the real self. The real side of you who is crying.


And you don't cry just because you're upset.
Sometimes the urge to cry becomes unbearable.

There's no need for an explanation.

11. July.

I love the month of July. ^_^
(although it's bloody warm, it gives me a SUMMER feeling)


July is, to me, the month of energy, the month of happiness and joy.
(and no. I'm not saying that just because my birthday's in July.)


Having lots of friends' birthdays on July just ADDS on to the joy of it.
hahaha.

But personally, I love December as well. :)

12. Sometimes I wonder how long do I have left to live.
Or, I'll think to myself

"Am I alive?"

Life is a condition that distinguishes organisms from inorganic objects
-Wikipedia

Do I feel distinguished from non-living things?

Living today just like yesterday.
Doing the things I did yesterday,
feeling the feelings I felt yesterday.


Do I feel like I'm living?

and are YOU alive?

13. My PIRATES OF THE CARRIBBEAN!!!

Ruzi! you pig! you must must bring it on tues ok?
Or I'll hack you into pieces. I promise. haha.
Not just me. Junxiu'll get rid of you as well. XD


Peiyun! don't forget to tell me how's the album ok??
I might consider buying it. haha. ;)


Clarrisa and Junxiu!
STOP TRYING TO PRESS THE 'STOP' BUTTON on the playlist.
I'm warning the both of you. hahaha.
or I'm gonna move it to some unnoticed places. XD


Wenshi! I wanna play the piano game too! :D:D:D:D
and I'll tell them the ghost story nxt time and freak them out. hahaha.


14. Random:

(Put your hands up in the air, put your hands up in the air!)

N! E! W! S!

NORTH! EAST! WEST! SOUTH!

[listening to Kibou~Yell~ by NEWS. that's y. it gets me really high.]

15. Yay. Finally we reached number 15.

I've spent such a long time on this entry, I have yet to have my breakfast. ^^;;
haha. So everyone, thanks for reading and cheers~*

Pictures!

NEWS!!!!!!!!!!!<3>































Ayumi~~~<3<3<3


*I had my breakfast. SUSHI!! :D

I'll reply tags tonight, I promise! >.<