Broken wings~*

Mood:







Music: UNITE! by Ayu

Freedom in the right hand, Love in the left

We'll walk on, embracing both,

and stumbling from time to time.

-Unite by Ayu

Sometimes I wonder, if there'll come a day when you feel happy for the whole day.

I guess not.

Somehow, lots of strange and mixed emotions just like to rush up and flood you.

Overflowing emotions.

I've had my share of depressed moments, nostalgic times, times when I truly regret certain things.

I believe everyone out there has a time or 2 when you just sit down and start recalling some things that were buried deep in your heart.

As for me, I guess I'm not strong and never was strong and never will be.

It's raining...

When it rains, I remember...

[Music changes to 'Walking Proud' by Ayumi]

In the past, I've been an obstinate child.

A stubborn girl who will refuse to admit defeat and get very agitated over losing a game of snakes and ladders.

But as the girl grew up, she learnt that some things which don't belong to you will never belong to you.

Cliche as it sounds, but that's the truth.

In some situations, you would just have to lose.

Then the little caterpillar morphed into a butterfly with broken wings.

She used to laugh out loud whenever she feels happy.

She used to cry and wail whenever she's sad.

But soon, things changed.

She realized that as she grew up, she had to laugh when she's sad and cry when she's happy.

Life wasn't her cup of tea.

Reality just didn't appeal to her.

So many things happened in a mere 16 years.

Many things that are still hidden from everybody else.

The tears, the loneliness, the angst, the hatred, the disappointment.

everything.

But soon, as she grew up, she realized that she just couldn't hide from reality.

She had to accept life as it is.

No matter how much she wanted to exit from the labyrinth, she couldn't.

In this dirty world, the girl learnt things the hard way.

Then she realized that life could be better.

That things could be better than she ever imagined.

That she could befriend life.

And she did.

She met her friends. She met all the most treasured people in her life. She met love.

Slowly, but never stopping, she learnt to reach out to her friends. She learnt from her mistakes and learnt to love her friends, her family, everyone who has reached out to her.

Born with a pair broken wings, she yearn for them to recover.

It might be slow.

It might take years...

But at least, she's trying.

:)

In a world of darkness,

she was afraid no more.

Because she knows she's not alone.

haha. alright. enough of all the crap.

To end off, a photo I dug out from one of my folders.

don't you miss those days when we had short hair? ^_~

Tegomass~*

okok I know I should stop posting so many entries in a day. haha.


the last one. ^^

Kiss~Kaerimichi no Love Song~!!!!!!!!!

by TEGOMASS!

[My FAVOURITE TEGOSHI!!!!! <3<3]



he's VERY かっこいね？？？？ (handsome)

^_^

Koya-Kusa~*

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

omg i love Koyama and Kusano! XDXD
go watch go watch!

(they're SUPER lame!) anw, I prefer the second one on answering machine.






HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

give it a laugh~*

Mood: :D ---> D:
Music: Sukiyanen Osaka by Kanjani8


Let's talk in present tense and future tense from now on, shall we?
The past IS the past.



Bloody (*)(*($*%#$(&%#(%349583904853!!!!!!!!!!!

My very long entry just got eaten up.
OH WELL.

What did I write about?

1. STILL SICK.
2. Family buffet
3. I love and miss my hot babe. I really enjoyed myself that day. Let's hang out more often! love and miss you! :D:D
4. COSPLAY!! who wants to join???
5. Ayu's new single GLITTER/FATED.
6. Most people with surname 'Lim' love gory stuff. haha. ok la. SOME.
7. How's Peiyun and Junxiu and everybody else doing at ABC??? must がんばれ [ganbare] (jiayou)!!! ^_^
8. ... can't recall anymore.


I'm so fed up with my own stupidity. URGH.


Nevermind. I'll update everyone again SOON.
By the way, thank you everyone for reading my blog. ^_^
And thank you everyone who asked me to get well soon. I really appreciate it. :D

Reply to tags:

Karen: didn't want them to be like that de.. sometimes it just appears like that. :'( actually. me too. I prefer the young BoA. but everyone HAS to grow up rite? :) anw, today's ur O's MT rite? GANBATTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'll be giving you support from home!

Clarrisa: Thank you so much! ^_^ yup. I will. and you stay cheery too ok? :)

Junxiu: haha thanks! you get well soon too ok? and take care over there at ABC. anw, yeah lor... but it's not up to us to do anything about it. they themselves must learn to stand up after every fall. ^_^ we can only give them our support.

Tiffany: you're just disgusting. hahaha. yeah yeah faster come back! :)

Tuna: he's obsessed about Boa. haha. anw, i don't know leh. go ask the rest of them??

Jun: GO AYU!!! :D

Si Aun/toilet bowl cover: YOU look DARN GREAT???? *dies* hahaha. no way man. your brain must be spoilt. either that or your mirror's spoilt. AND i'm trying to. haha. oohhhh btw, i put the song in my playlist. can hear from there. :D

From now on, I'll use 'nevermind' more often.

While certain things can't be forgiven, others can.
It takes time to forgive.


It's really hard to suppress my frustration, ね？
haha... oh well. Sometimes you feel better when you laugh it off.


So to end off this entry(?),

2 very cute videos. :3

the first one is the fancam.
the second one is clearer.







Koyama and Shige --- Chiarizumu. ^_^
hope you have a good laugh after watching.
The song never fails to make me 元気.


and now, photos of Ayumi!




























































































haha! No angsty photos for once! ^_~


really. when you feel down/frustrated/angry, give what you're angry about a thought and change your perspective towards it. Give it a laugh. you'll feel so much better. :)

updates!~*

Mood:







Music: Alterna "Orchestra Version" by Ayumi Hamasaki.

If you are afraid of changes

Watch me at a distance

Whether or not I may do something

I'm talked about behind my back

Let it be.

-Alterna by Ayu

Ayu's lyrics never fail to impress me.

and right now, Alterna just hits me like an... atomic bomb.

ANYWAY,

Poor poor Jasmine has been SICK for the past few days.

sigh.

Can you believe it?

I've just recovered not too long ago from that horrendous fever and now it's back to haunt me again.

GRRR...

But at least, right now, I'm free of fever.

It's just this SUPER bad sore throat that's getting on my nerves.

Which kinda explains the bad mood I've been in for the past few days.

I'm sorry to everyone who's concerned about me.

And I thank everyone for being concerned about me. ^^;;

lol.

So, to sum up this week,

my life has pretty much been in deep shit. XD

Although this is the last week of school before the June hols, I don't feel a least bit happy.

Cos life is still gonna be hectic.

And all my ungraded subjs are still there to haunt me.

Tsk.

And another thing is that some of my class peeps have been pretty down lately.

All the tears of anger/frustration/sadness etc etc...

None of them have gone unnoticed.

22/07:

The going has been tough, hasn't it?

One person breaking down followed by another.

Laments and laments. Tears and tears.

Times when we want to give up.

Times when teachers want to give up on us.

Nevermind all those.

Nevermind about things that have passed.

Nevermind about those disappointments.

Simply because we're not alone.

And we CAN survive all this crap.

We Can.

:)

Let's hope that the upcoming June 1st BBQ will be a success, ok?

皆さん、

もっともっといしょにがんあってね？？ ^_^

(Everybody, let's work hard together ok?)

On a lighter note, if not for my friends who have been there all the while, making me laugh, making me MD, I would be like a walking zombie by now. :)

There're some things that're meant for us to figure out by ourselves.

And right now, I'm glad that I've figured out what I was confused about.

とまごいながら。。。

曾经彷惶，

曾经迷惑，

但现在已经真正了解了。。。

I understand.

URGH. MY THROAT STILL HURTS!

:( :( :(

Another thing,

HEY!!!

do this survey! everyone who does it will become prettier/more handsome. ;)

What are you waiting for? DO IT! and it needs less than 5 mins?? haha.

http://FreeOnlineSurveys.com/rendersurvey.asp?sid=hi0msp8pbzabhpj305557

Random pictures!



















BoA!!! I love her. ^_^
but not as much as KAREN does. ;)


















ayumi :)















GO CHECK OUT AYU'S 'OURSELVES' PV!!!
love it. ayu rocks! ^_^

random random!~*

My personal favourite of NEWS. Tegoshi Yuya! [yup, as ppl might be speculating, he's the half of TEGOMASS.]


Mood:

















Relatively peaceful. :)





Music: Marui Chikara by TEGOMASS


[This song makes me really 元気ね! ^_^]

We are born of Mother Earth

Children of one family

Let us make the world a better place

A world of love and peace for me and for you

-Marui Chikara by TEGOMASS

Ok. I guess some people must be really confused about my 2 previous entries. ^_^;;

so, I've decided to write a *ahem* proper *ahem* entry.

BUT!








It's gonna be pretty random. ;)








1. The first thing that comes to people's minds when they think of Jasmine is probably JPOP CULTURE! AYUMI! JAPANESE SONGS! ANIME!

haha. I don't know when I actually started listening to Jpop/Jrock.
But I was definitely influenced by my sister to listen to Ayumi.

And her 'LOVE~Destiny' has mesmerized me so much, I knew I will love her till god knows when.
And indeed. Till now, I still can't get over how much I adore her.
GO AYUMI HAMASAKI!!! :D


2. Why Japanese songs?
If you look at their PVs and compare them with other PVs, you'll get what I mean.
Plus, after reading the Japanese lyrics, you'll also get what I mean. :)


3. Why my MSN is down for infinite number of years??????????

I DON'T KNOW AS WELL. (*()*$%#()$*#(!!5468954$$%(*#$)(%*RWOE%I($!!!
It just happened on one fine day, when I tried to sign in.

and POP! this pop-up appeared which told me that I can't sign in.
残念でした！

So, now you know why I'm "forever not online".
haha.

HEY! why don't you guys go get YAHOO MESSENGER instead??
then we can chat there. ;)



4. Fruit cakes rock! *eating one now* ^_^


5. Anyone wanna watch Pirates of the Carribbean 3 with me???
I can't turn up at 4o8'06 gathering next sunday.
Having my family buffet outing. AGAIN. haha.

haiz.


6. As much as I love piano, I totally detest theory.

They make me go @_@ and then X_X.

BUT I still gotta complete my theory homework or I'll REALLY end up X_X.



7. Everyone changes over time.

How can you tell?

Just take out your Ez-link card and you'll know.

Speaking of which, Ruzi and Clarrisa's Ezlink cards are definitely MUST-SEE.
HAHAHAHAHA.
As for my card, there's really not much difference from the present. :/

so is that good or bad???


8. It's really not that I don't want to study, but the thought of 'HOLIDAYS ARE COMING' just makes me TOO enthusiastic to do anything about my homework.

;)

ALRIGHT. I'll touch a little at least.
Or I really don't even dare to imagine my marks for the upcoming mid-yrs.


9. Everyone has their own idol, right?
Sometimes, that can be a motivation for us too.


10. When life gets tough, think of LIM'S THEORY.

Life gets tough to get better.


Get it? haha. you'll really feel better.



Ok to end off the post, random pictures!

Tegoshi Yuya! <3

AYUMI HAMASAKI <3

ok this is really random. but
CHRONO CRUSADE! <3




and everyone else <3

NEWS IS GOING TO RETURN~*

Currently, no words can describe my mixed emotions.
I nearly cried watching the video...


I came across this blog, and I can relate to everything that's written.



3 Years. 6 Singles, 1 Album. 3 Years so much the group of changed.
So much joy and sadness to have been bought to us.
July 2005 with the Uchi incident, NEWS got reduced to 7 people.
Feb. 2006 with Kusano incident, we once had to go through the pain, of seeing them suffer.
I still remember reading the reports of last years concert, listening to the recording, hearing the voice broke, listening to them cry.

Even though they too were in pain, and even felt more painful than us fans, they still tried to give us hope, asking us to believe that one day they will return.


During this one year of no NEWS. I've seen fans losing faith, and seen how other people keep on saying that NEWS should just be deband and Pi should have just gone solo.

Sometimes, I too even doubt, are NEWS really gonna come back. But it's NBJ, it's the other NEWS fans around me, together we encouraged each other when we lost hope, together we waited and watch them grow seperatly. Together we cried while watching the Countdown. Not only NEWS have grown and become a even better group, us fans has become closer together, and our love for them has grown


Through out the 3 Years, NEWS has changed a lot. Even though there are only 6 now, but I still believe that one day the other 2 will come back, and NEWS will be even stronger than now. NEWS is ♥

http://nbj-jweb.livejournal.com/



Exactly.

everyone has been waiting.


From this, when everybody is still young and immature,























to when members start maturing...
























till when they start to love one another...























to unite as a group,
















































From 9 members, to 8 members, to 7 members






























and finally 6...










we've all been waiting.


and that miracle we've been waiting for, is coming.








NEWS. IS. GOING. TO. RETURN...

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!~*

OH MY GOODNESS!!! O.O!!!

I knew it! I knew something BIG is gonna happen today!
It just hit on me like 'WUAH. I FEEL SOMETHING MAJOR IS GOING TO HAPPEN TODAY!!!'

AND IT DID! IT DID!



KUSANO HIRONORI and UCHI HIROKI ARE BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*&**(#%*&21123%^(*!!!


:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

ok maybe not really back as in not back in NEWS http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/News_(J-pop_group yet, but still!!!
finally. some hope!




















Did you see that?
内博貴　草野博紀!!!!

oh my goodness.


*calms down*
NEWS fans will understand how I feel at the moment. the undescribable feeling of happiness.
After waiting for nearly a year for NEWS to return COMPLETE, I'm sure every NEWS fan out there must be elated. :D no, not just elated. but EXHILARATED.



Right now, we can't find the words that can be used to expressed how we feel.
There were many things that we lost other than trust.
More than anything, it was the fans who gave their all to support us.
Because we didn't want to see our fans with sad faces, the fans who had been waiting continuously for our return, we came back.
And we are really grateful to our dai-senpai, Shonen-tai who are giving us this chance to appear in PLAYZONE.
Even if just one person comes to see us, it's enough.
We'll work hard to show you that the 'us' now have gotten better than the 'us' we were before.

Kusano Hironori

Uchi Hiroki



:') I'm so touched.























Finally, a complete NEWS! (soon, I hope)



I was so affected by the news that I have no idea what I was planning to write. XD
I'm hyperventilating now.

So, I'll just write in point forms. XD

1. I WAS SO SO HAPPY TODAY WHEN THE AJC PHOTOGRAPHIC SOCIETY USED AYUMI'S 'A SONG IS BORN' FOR THEIR PRESENTATION!!!!!!!

serious. I was ecstatic. ^_^


2. Today, most of our class peeps went to NYP together to have lunch! ^_^

3. I was so angry during PE, i wanted to grab someone and strangle him/her. >:(
All the running on the drain/muddy grass made me want to pluck out my fringe.
Damn.


4. Had a good talk with Clarrisa. :)

5. I'm STILL hyperventilating.


6. One more week to June hols! YAY!!!

7. やぱっり I still get super excited when it comes to things related to Ayumi. <3















Look at this!!!!!!!!!!! A collaboration among AYUMI, PANASONIC LUMIX and HELLO KITTY!!!

hahaha. this is absolutely darling!






Note: I'm really sorry to keep typing in CAPS and inserting exclamation marks.
I've never been so excited in such a long long time. ^_^


Lastly, let me end off with...














^_^ oh i'm so happy I can start dancing 'SAYAENDOU' by NEWS right now!!! ^_^Y

Murasaki~*

Murasaki~*

ムラサキ

(Murasaki = Purple)

Lyrics and music by: Akanishi Jin (KAT-TUN)

Though you already have another him

You & I still met

The colour of daybreak we saw together

Was such a lovely shade of purple

Saw the unexpected loneliness shown on your face

I wanted to hold you in my arms till the day we part

I am not good at saying good bye

Frankness changed me

Though I am so bad with words

"Love" somehow slipped from my lips

If that is such a nice warm place

Your presence is still the reason flowers bloom

The closer I get to you

The stronger our parting felt

If that is such a nice warm place

Your presence is still the reason flowers bloom

I should have already given up

But till now you are still the only one I love

I am not good at saying good bye

Frankness changed me

Though I am so bad with words

"Love" somehow slipped from my lips

If that is such a nice warm place

Your presence is still the reason flowers bloom

The closer I get to you

The stronger our parting felt

The shade of purple seen that day

How I wish we could witness it once again

sorted~*

Mood: complex

Music: My angel, you are angel by KAT-TUN

No matter how hopeless life seems to be, there'll be a little flame of hope somewhere.

somewhere...

Ok. this shall be a short entry.

Instead of going for cheer support for the volleyballers and basketballers,

I went for INTERACT.

It was pretty fun today, besides the fact that I couldn't join in the games they played.

(the boy I was helping couldn't finish his schoolwork on time.)

And I suddenly realized that Interacters (as we call it) are all pretty friendly and all.

Well, not to forget that they're all very pretty girls. #^_^#

(I'm very sorry that I'll notice pretty girls before cute guys. BUT I AM STRAIGHT OK??)

Sorry for all the depressing entries.

Last night, I sorted out my thoughts while hiding in the toilet for a good 15 mins.

eyes that have teared will see the world clearer.

exactly. after all the overflowing emotions, I was able to understand everything better.

May I have more strength to survive tomorrow, day after tomorrow, and every other day. :)

And may all of my dear friends out there have the same strength as well.

Live on, because we will only be stronger, never weaker.

Reply to tags!

Christina~* I was thinking of 'hang on' until I read it clearer and realized it's 'hang out'. -___-"" haha. okok you go organize alright? :)

Passer-by~* how come I feel like I know you actually? ...haha. I know. of course I do. but the very fact that I have no courage to look up into the sky while I walk will deprive me of such beautiful sceneries... sad case.

Karen~* haha. You should get Raphael to take those photos. he's he pro. XD and thanks, buddy. :) yup. もっともっとガンバッテね！(motto motto ganbatte ne! ^_^)

Mou~* HAHAHAHAHA. no wonder I keep seeing FLASHING RED LACY underwear float pass my window everyday. XDXDXD!!!

Junxiu~* I WAS depressed. but I'm fine now le. ^_^ 元気です！ (genki desu!) sure. you can ask the class reps/welfare reps about it and see how ba? :)

There's never rain that won't stop. So wipe your tears away. :)